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Kapol Poland. Jul 26 2010 11:23. Posts 4696 | | |
... when you beat NL200 with a decent win-rate and a healthy roll and then you basically stop playing, make 10k hands a month with zero focus, lose money almost every month and withdraw regularly to make a living. Suddenly your roll drops down, but what the hell. You still got plenty of cash, so you continue to slack and cash-out and drink heavily at the dorm and at home, not concentrating on what's important in life.
And then, after two fucking years you realize that your life is a mess. So you say: 'OK, I fucked up a lot, but from now on things are going to run better. I'm a new man'. And so you try to change change... But life ain't that easy.
You try to get a girlfriend. Given the fact that you pretty much have no clue how to get one, as you've never had one, you fail.
You try to stop drinking. The problem is even though you don't have to drink once you pass a certain level of being drunk you pretty much stop controlling yourself, so again you pretty much fail.
'That's still OK', you say. 'I still have poker to cheer me up. From this day I'm going to grind quite a lot and hopefully get back where I've been some time ago'.
NL50 since the start of June:
Yea... 
Anyway, some of you might think this a whine/emo post. It's not. I'm happy about myself right now, but there are certain periods of time when I recall what I've done for the past few years and what I am not happy about recently and I start feeling a bit frustrated. Thankfully, I have a few very good close friend who are always there to cheer me up, so I'm convinced that I'll achieve whatever goal I set for myself in the future.
The reason for this blog entry is to remind you guys to not take things for granted, because, god or no god, someone will fucking doomswitch you if you screw up like me :D.
Cheers.
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kurwa, sounds pretty shitty, but try to get focus again, get a somewhat healthy lifestyle and everything will come to you at least to some degree. |
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Achoo Canada. Jul 26 2010 16:00. Posts 1454 | | |
So ... You're still a virgin ? LOL |
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Silver_nz New Zealand. Jul 26 2010 17:29. Posts 5647 | | |
Yeah, staying focused aint easy.
But there are a few things you can do. set goals, be specific, be scientific, be results oriented.
Set a goal that you can tell when it is achieved, e.g.1 month without a drop of alch.
ah damm this is going to get way too long, I recommend a book
http://www.amazon.co.uk/59-Seconds-Think-little-change/dp/023074429X |
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