King Breakeven

After some thought this blog really does nothing to benefit my poker development. If anything it probably hinders it because I waste time fucking around on here seeking out sympathy when I should be on the tables grinding.

I'm also considering quitting poker at the end of this month. We'll see what happens.

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Last 3 days have been brutal. Started another session today and lost 3 buyins real fast. I still have 40buyins for NL100 but I just can't win, FTP wont let it happen. All flips lose all 80/20s. Everything its disgusting and I feel depressed as I write this. Regind NL50 and win $1k I guess.
NL100 life time

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Weekend fish just completely own me. I can't stop shoving AK into KK/AA to small stack fish over and over, them hitting gutshots all in on the flop, and on top of that I'm getting set mined by regs in 3bet pot and obviously they hit all the time ldo. Kewl. Thanks for the one day tease Full Tilt.

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So apparently studying really helps a shit ton and the poker gods treat you well when you do it. New record cash day 8 buy ins. This gets me a little into the green for the month so it's all profit from here on out GOGOGO

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After feeling like absolute trash last night I tore through HEM and looked over a bunch of things for about 2 hours and watched a video. I noticed I was being too aggressive OOP in 3-bet pots and playing too loosely from the blinds, the typical mistakes someone moves up makes. I've tightened up my preflop strategy and am even using a hand chart just to double check things while I'm playing and taking time to think about spots more. Major thanks to my poker friends on AIM and MSN (namely joe and pano) for dealing with my non stop bitching.

GL.

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been playing a ton last the 3 days and I have no confidence left. I'm getting run over. I can hit shit and Im just awful.

just gonna listen to drake -successful over and over again and hope maybe some day I'll be a winner. I hate not being a fucking winner. I have so much anger inside of my body built up that I need to unleash. I'm breakeven at NL50/NL100 for the last 70k hands now and I don't have any answers. I'm a fucking bust.


Gonna win back 5-10 buyins at NL50(lol yeah right) and go back up. I have no way to describe the anger and pain I feel right now.

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Haven't made a post saying how much I hate FTP so here it is. Thanks for all your gracious coolers today.

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November has been my best month in poker to date by far not just in winnings but in play time and learning as well. I broke even at cash games (NL50 and NL100) but I managed to play 40k hands while I was working full-time. Luckily I cashed huge in a tournament so that's where all my monthly earning came from and rakeback. Here's my graph, can anyone tell me what happened to my red line? :[


Tournaments: +$3400
Rakeback: ~+$700
Total: ~$4100



My goal for next month is 40k hands again and a profit from cash games of $2000. Gogogo!

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Cliff notes at bottom for tl;drers

First and foremost, no I didn't do it to become a poker pro and I have no intentions of becoming a poker pro until I hit the goals I set out at the beginning which is a $10k poker roll and 6-9 months of living expenses in the bank.

Over the past few months I've had a lot of close friends and family say to me "you haven't been the same lately." Initially I just kind of brushed it off but lately I thought more and more about it and it's true. I've been very negative. Immediately I thought it could be poker doing it to me as I haven't had the success I want from it, but I've been playing for over a year and to be honest poker is more of a release for me than anything else. So I started evaluating all parts of my life. From my friends, going out, my hobbies, work, and poker. I realized the only thing that has changed in the last few months is my job.

The industry I work in is cell phone sales. It's based in a retail environment and it is notoriously known as the worst part of retail. Customers come into the store in a pissed off mood about 95% of the time, because let's face it the cell phone companies are just a bunch of shady bastards are screwing everybody, ldo. I worked in this industry for 3 years and when I first started it was very lucrative so the money kept me silent and I came to work and grinded it out. Every year the every company restructures their commission pay and every year you make a little bit less. I went from making $70k, to $60k, and to this year maybe $45-48k. All the while I'm still taking the same verbal abuse from customers on a daily basis and getting paid less and less. It just didn't make sense anymore.

Back in May I was transfered to a new store. I went from working in a store in Rancho Bernardo (one of the richest areas of San Diego) to Mission Valley (one of the most poor and ghetto areas just south of here in San Diego). Being that I'm a white guy working in a store with a customer base primarily consisting of Black, Asian, and Mexican customers things did not go well. I've had customers straight up not want to be helped by me because of my color and wait for one of my non-white co-workers to assist them. I didn't want to believe it at first but it was happening. It began to hurt my commission because of it and even when I would help some of them they would treat me very poorly and I would just have to take it for a measly $12.70 an hour. It's just not worth it.

I put my happiness above anything else and getting shit on for crappy pay is just not worth it to me anymore. I have living expenses saved for 4-6 months so I can take some time off and think about what I want. My main goal is to get back in school which would have been impossible with this job because of the swingy hours of retail. In the mean time I'm going to update my resume and look around online at potential thinks I could see myself doing. While I do this I'll be grinding NL100 and seeing where that takes me.

The feeling I experienced when I woke up this morning was awesome. I felt so free. I just put the top down in my convertible and drove to the beach to sit and think about the future and it's the best I've felt in months. I went to the gym had an awesome work out because I didn't feel rushed. I'm very excited for what the future has in store. If anyone has any part-time jobs that they are satisfied with and recommend for a college going person please let me know.

Rich

Cliff notes:
- Quit my job because it has had extreme negative impacts on my life
- Have living expenses for 4-6 months saved up, will take rest of December off to figure out what I want to do. Will use free time to play more poker
- No intentions of playing poker professionally until specific goals are met
- Anxious to get back in school and find a part-time job that is stable
- Excited for what possibilities the future holds and feel relieved

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Looking to do $5k from FTP to PS. Reputable people only. Can't put up with this ugly FTP software and riggedness any more. Willing to do multiple transfers if some people only have parts of it.

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