On June 21 2026 04:45 newgeinnings wrote:
I remember when Baal posted some funny meme about superman and energy so when the world has enough cheap energy and resources for all I hope we will share
Yeah, I like that meme. Not sure where it is buried at the moment.
Kind of reminds me of The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas by Ursula K. Le Guin.
Humanity may eventually need large-scale space industry and solar energy to secure its long-term future. But the moral challenge is ensuring that increasing power does not automatically convert into increasing domination.
Btw, it's not secure long-term future by any means necessary or is it? That's another philosophical question altogether.
On June 19 2026 18:17 newgeinnings wrote:
iono rikd needs more resources that will help him get outta a funk or something iono though gl rikd
im too tired to read all that stuff rikd but u do u n just acquire more resources
It's more than resources. Maybe I'm in a funk but I'm also funky. It's important to distinguish that.
you are pretty funny , but first resources n I understand it may be more than just resources but control what you can control n let it play out.
I said FUNKY not funny but I'll take funny (and funky -- fonkey).
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
yea but I said ur pretty funny though both can be true non.
GOOOOOOD!!!
Let the world sleep when she awakes we will be in paradise :)
On June 22 2026 00:36 RiKD wrote:
I kind of want to root for a race to Kardashev II but I don't think that would be net good for humanity. How much is enough?
you want co operations not a race
Let the world sleep when she awakes we will be in paradise :)
Or we could already be in a simulation. One big reality tv show or many reality tv shows. When I'm manic I think I'm in The Truman Show but it's The RiKD Show (with better technology). There is probably some truth to it. I've had Truman Show boat hits the wall moments but of course I was psychotic. Or was I more lucid than ever? I've already been in hell. I've already travelled to other galaxies. I've already been the star of a show that is galactically popular. I wouldn't recommend any of these things. That's what I'm trying to get across to Elon and The Overlords.
Do you know how lonely it is in empty solar systems? That is the lonliest I've ever been. Trapped in a broken space ship galaxies away with a limited water and food supply surrounded by space. It was like that movie Gravity but impossibly far away. The only option to sit there and meditate before I die of dehydration.
I've lived 'em all. I wouldn't suggest it. Somehow I am still here.
In otherwords, if my mind thought those things and my mind lived those things then I lived those things even though I probably didn't live those things or did I? Some were dreams, some were (altered) consciousness, some were I don't know. I talked about this with a friend of mine who is also Bipolar I and he got it right away as he had had similar experiences. I'm sure metaphysics has covered this topic but I've never delved into it at an academic level.
Just chillin' listening to some early Bon Iver and sippin' some tea. I was motivated to tune up my 6-string electric and play for a while. The strings need to be changed and I'll need a setup at that point but I wish I could just magically exchange the strings. The action is perfect on that baby. My guitar teacher did a really good job with my guitar. But I think I am going to start taking piano lessons. I'm also taking up my 4-string p bass to my brother's. He is a cello virtuoso so can probably play it pretty well. Definitely better than I could. If he likes it I figure I'll give it to him. My nephew is getting pretty good at the drums. Some father-son groove sessions could be a lot of fun.
I don't know if I mentioned it but I got a macbook air the other day and got Logic Pro as well. I like the interface and experience. It's a little tough learning all the hotkeys but it's not hugely different to any DAW I've used but the hotkeys are a bit different. It seems pretty easy to use though and figure out. I'm looking forward to getting together with some people and making some music.
As far as saving civilization. I'm kind of taking a break from that endeavour. I'm more concerned about the Rat Park. Elon and The Overlords are gonna Overlord. All the tech bros are going to change course to the race towards Kardashev II. I suppose it's better than crypto and NFTs. That is kind of what I'm talking about meaning. Someone spending their life's energy and attention on NFTs..... Go into energy or transportation. That is where I would like to go. Specifically solar energy. Being an essential worker in a grocery store doesn't feel bad. It doesn't particularly feel that good either. I realize someone has to be there to help these people with their food purchases but let's not blow it out of proportion. I think I got a better feeling seeing the slabs moving out of the continuous caster in a steel mill but most of that steel was going to exposed automotive (think Fords or Toyotas). I remember times lying in my bed all day depressed listening to sad NIN songs because I felt numb at the poker tables. Just grinding extracting from rich fish. There were also times when I was battling and winning and those were the best days. If I could live how I was living in Buenos Aires or Malta I could definnitely put up with poker. Actually nothing would ever work out until I got a better grasp on my alcoholism and Bipolar I. I feel like I am ready or close to ready to try my hand at something a little more challenging and in an area like solar energy. Or I'll just stay a bum and read and make music and go for walks and type up blogs on here.
I don't think there really is meaning. There are wants and desires. I think we can trick ourselves that there is meaning. There was something magical though about seeing a truck show up with 44,000 lbs. of your material like clockwork. The tundish getting constructed. Watching the ladle come over and hot steel pour into the tundish and into the mold and turn into slabs that would be taken out on rail to the reheat furnaces and finishing area. Then the coils getting shipped out to Ford and Toyota. Some of the masons drove cars they helped build. It felt a lot better than bumhunting and extracting from fish. But in poker it definitely felt good to not have a boss and to do whatever the fuck I wanted. I could also do whatever the fuck I wanted within reason in Steel. As long as my numbers were good I could do just about whatever I wanted and I did. I was a wild stallion. I think I have been broken but I still have that wildness in me. I don't know if I'll ever truly get rid of it. It's like that movie Cool Hand Luke. But going to Hell broke me badly. I don't ever want to go back there.
So, I don't know. I'm in a weird place right now. I don't think I'm rooting for insurrections or the economy to crumble but I don't want Elon and The Overloads to have total power in the race to Kardashev II. Insurrections and economies crumbling are inevitable though. Every Middle Eastern and African nation are probably on that path specifically with the continuation of climate change. Syria is a shit show but maybe at least we got Rojava? I don't know. It seems wrong to root for collapse. I have to think more about this.
Boy, I sure write a lot sometimes. It had to be written.
It makes less sense that I write it here where my "audience" (of 2 people) probably don't read anything past 3 lines. We may find out if they even read that far. HA!
It had to be written though. It's partiallly how I process things.
I have the day off today but there are a lot of things I have to do to get ready for vacation. E X I S T E N C E. Existence seems to be weighing heavy on me right now.
Man, I don't know how to save humanity. I don't know how to do anything. I barely could get laundry done today.
I did find a place I might be able to take piano lessons. I have no interest in learning how to perform classical pieces which I am afraid they might like to teach that. I'm really going for broad musical lessons that happen to be on the piano. Just something that when I plug in my 88 key midi controller I will feel a bit more confident that I have some idea of what I am doing. I don't want to be so limited on the keyboard by my lack of skill. Hopefully, it will translate to the guitar and the bass.
It's gotten down to working 3 really tough shifts until I get to go on vacation. There is also the stress of getting ready for vacation.
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