LP is so dead

On April 11 2024 00:39 lostaccount wrote: I’m introvert sigma too, hence I’m not lonely when alone but like u said we do need social connections sometimes n I do have that. My life is great just not as good as when I was making 1k a day great lol but now I’m so much wiser then that chump who was making so much money but the wiser version doesn’t make 1k a day anymore lol. I’m meh life atm 7/10 today, overall life is 8-9 but working towards 10

Join the wah wah 1k / day club. I was at the 1k / hr club at points and fucking squandered it away but it was still a lightning strikes Gold Rush City situation. I don't know what I am capable of. I'm not very well educated. Bachelor of Arts and autodidact in more and more arts. Lightning very rarely strikes twice. I think we have to suck it up and find something that doesn't suck. Well, it's going to suck for jaded ass mother fuckers like you and me but you know what I mean.

Lostaccount and me are like Outkast. I'm Andre 3000.

...
Why? 'Cause in a sense see we all be kind of fly
Just can't be scared to spread your wings, head to better things
Maybe the mockingbird and nightingale they want to sing
Keeping this thing alive, to the table's what we bring
We like hailstorms and blizzards in the middle of the spring
Extraterrestrial

E.T. (Extraterrestrial)
Song by OutKast

"The idea is that whoever lives twice as fast can enjoy twice as many life possibilities; the acceleration of life multiplies life and thus brings a person closer to the goal of having a fulfilled life. But this is a naive calculation which rests on a confusion of fulfilment with more plenitude. A fulfilled life cannot be explained on a quantitative basis. It does not result from a plenitude of life possibilities, just as recounting or listing of events does not necessarily amount to a narration or account...

... And, thus, a very short life can also achieve the ideal of a fulfilled life. The acceleration thesis does not recognize that the real problem today is the fact that life has lost the possibility of reaching a meaningful conclusion. It is this fact that leads to the hectic rush and nervousness which characterize contemporary life. One begins ever anew; one zaps through 'life possibilities', precisely because of an inability to bring any single possibility to a conclusion. The individual's life is not informed by a story or meaningful totality. It is misleading to talk of an acceleration of life pursued with the aim of maximizing its possibilities. Upon closer scrutiny, this acceleration turns out to be a nervous restlessness which makes life whizz, so to speak, it hurtles from one possibility to the next. It never achieves rest - that is, completion."

Byung-Chul Han The Scent of Time pp 10-11

I've been focusing on work lately. I just have 40 more school days, then this school year is over and I won't have to see any students for 2 months!

I will in the Philippines this summer for 7 weeks, so I assume LP will officially die during that time. I've noticed that LP has dropped off a lot after I've returned from vacation for the past 6 summers in a row.

Anyway, I'm still here for what it's worth.

On April 11 2024 01:56 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 00:29 lostaccount wrote: Yea I see a couple of buddies once a week, like 2-3 times a week I have meetups but that isn’t enough atm. I’m making some friends here n there but they aren’t here in Vancouver for a long time. Like international visa people who are here for a year or two. I guess it’s cause I also kinda broke up which is making a bit sad that n not having a tonne or money now lol. Literally less than 20k in assets excluding my house n I’m not producing or being productive. That’s the thing I ain’t productive now. When I was playing poker I was at least productive but fuck what can I do to make 50$ an hour. I have the know how to trade n invest just no rich people to invest for lol. Wish I ran a hedge fund or something but then I would say it’s too much work n not enjoy it. Hence why I’m living so frugally so I can get a BR myself to start trading when it’s worth my time. I don’t have much cash or crypto but have some gold n Pokémon card worth some what a decent amount but things are looking up, I got some ideas I’m working on so I feel productive today n working towards more goals in the future. Going to the gym is 7$ a day lol I go like 5 times a month cause I can’t afford too much of it. Gas is over 2$ a litre n I started transittint cause driving got expensive. Fucking Vancouver is so expensive Meeting up with people and having a good time can be addicting. It's a matter of expectations. If my expectations get skewed I will be resentful of meetups. I don't know what the number is for me but I like 1 on 1 meetups or small groups. If the amount of people in the group gets too high I feel out of my zone and disconnected unless I connect with someone sitting close to me. $20k in assets is a lot relative to most people. I would get over this idea of "producing" or being "productive." Like I said if you aren't creating art, researching something to change / help the world, engaged in political activism, etc. it ain't it bro. The compulsion to produce / work / perform is destroying us. It's burning us out and speeding up the end of the Earth as we know it. You aren't productive? Fucking good. Get better at that. I would definitely get these poker ideas out of your mind. It's over man. Way over. And these trading ideas you need to either prove you can do it while you still have cash or get over it as well.

Still u have to produce an income to have an okay life, tell the big carbon emitter to F off not a guy like me

On April 11 2024 01:57 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 00:45 lostaccount wrote: Haha it so much more work living alone, I was a prince when I was living with parents but pros n cons to living with them n by myself. I rather live alone though for most part except when I have to do dishes every day fuck. Miss the 5 star meals my mom made too but I don’t miss nagging n some of their friends.. I guess it’s this break up is on my mind a lot. I know I will get her back when time is right but I have to work on my finances n self first n let her miss me cause too much fighting when we are together. Let her grow up a bit more first I don't know who said this but "Living with your parents is cheap except you have to pay with your soul."

That’s true it’s a high price why I move out

On April 11 2024 02:00 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 00:47 lostaccount wrote: I know she is starting to miss me n I miss her too but I just can’t deal with her atm when I have to deal with my problems too You know it's possible she is out getting dicks from all over the place and doesn't even think about you. Tough pill to swallow but you should be having vagina parties now that you live on your own.

Haha I get some as well but p***y aren’t that special if there is no love in it. Gotta have that emotional connection too but I don’t want to break any hearts so I don’t make that emotional connections. Lust sex isn’t that good

I have the opposite sex in my life but I’m talking to rikd about relationship lol not gonna listen for most part. I don’t listen to rikd shit a lot of the time haha

Nice PR, I’m focussing on being better that’s all

On April 11 2024 03:09 RiKD wrote: Lostaccount and me are like Outkast. I'm Andre 3000. ... Why? 'Cause in a sense see we all be kind of fly Just can't be scared to spread your wings, head to better things Maybe the mockingbird and nightingale they want to sing Keeping this thing alive, to the table's what we bring We like hailstorms and blizzards in the middle of the spring Extraterrestrial E.T. (Extraterrestrial) Song by OutKast

Sure

I have different goals n purpose then u rikd and we both are right

On April 11 2024 12:14 lostaccount wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 01:56 RiKD wrote:   On April 11 2024 00:29 lostaccount wrote: Yea I see a couple of buddies once a week, like 2-3 times a week I have meetups but that isn’t enough atm. I’m making some friends here n there but they aren’t here in Vancouver for a long time. Like international visa people who are here for a year or two. I guess it’s cause I also kinda broke up which is making a bit sad that n not having a tonne or money now lol. Literally less than 20k in assets excluding my house n I’m not producing or being productive. That’s the thing I ain’t productive now. When I was playing poker I was at least productive but fuck what can I do to make 50$ an hour. I have the know how to trade n invest just no rich people to invest for lol. Wish I ran a hedge fund or something but then I would say it’s too much work n not enjoy it. Hence why I’m living so frugally so I can get a BR myself to start trading when it’s worth my time. I don’t have much cash or crypto but have some gold n Pokémon card worth some what a decent amount but things are looking up, I got some ideas I’m working on so I feel productive today n working towards more goals in the future. Going to the gym is 7$ a day lol I go like 5 times a month cause I can’t afford too much of it. Gas is over 2$ a litre n I started transittint cause driving got expensive. Fucking Vancouver is so expensive Meeting up with people and having a good time can be addicting. It's a matter of expectations. If my expectations get skewed I will be resentful of meetups. I don't know what the number is for me but I like 1 on 1 meetups or small groups. If the amount of people in the group gets too high I feel out of my zone and disconnected unless I connect with someone sitting close to me. $20k in assets is a lot relative to most people. I would get over this idea of "producing" or being "productive." Like I said if you aren't creating art, researching something to change / help the world, engaged in political activism, etc. it ain't it bro. The compulsion to produce / work / perform is destroying us. It's burning us out and speeding up the end of the Earth as we know it. You aren't productive? Fucking good. Get better at that. I would definitely get these poker ideas out of your mind. It's over man. Way over. And these trading ideas you need to either prove you can do it while you still have cash or get over it as well. Still u have to produce an income to have an okay life, tell the big carbon emitter to F off not a guy like me

Yes, we have to make an income. Beggars can't be choosers. I was just down at the local Goodwill scoping it out to see if I would want to work there. It's retail and it's kind of depressing but my car needs new brakes and tires what am I going to fucking do?

On April 11 2024 12:19 lostaccount wrote: I have the opposite sex in my life but I’m talking to rikd about relationship lol not gonna listen for most part. I don’t listen to rikd shit a lot of the time haha

I'm not going to listen?

It's an age old question and I think that relationships before sex are stupid and naive. I never said I was against relationships. The best way to get over a breakup is to date new people or at least one of the ways if you are up for it. The best would be a 5 day bender in Las Vegas even though I don't do that anymore.

On April 11 2024 12:28 lostaccount wrote: I have different goals n purpose then u rikd and we both are right

I have no goals and no purpose it's easy to be different than me but in reality most people are me they just won't admit it to their consciousness. Or, really, their goals and purpose are rather flimsy when compared to the universe and immortality. Humans want immortality and to matter but they don't when compared to the universe. That is why terrestrial relationships with family, friends, and The Other matter so much. We are basically nothing without them.

On April 11 2024 20:42 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 12:28 lostaccount wrote: I have different goals n purpose then u rikd and we both are right I have no goals and no purpose it's easy to be different than me but in reality most people are me they just won't admit it to their consciousness. Or, really, their goals and purpose are rather flimsy when compared to the universe and immortality. Humans want immortality and to matter but they don't when compared to the universe. That is why terrestrial relationships with family, friends, and The Other matter so much. We are basically nothing without them.

find goals find purpose find ur fulfillment

I went for a walk today. Exchanged Hellos and smiles with this smoking hot chica. She was wearing a Pink Floyd shirt. Spring time it is. The Other is in the air. Is that a purpose lostaccount? I just want to live a good life.

Yes, connecting with people can be a purpose

Making genuine connection gives us happiness

In Today's world it seems like everyone puts the onus on the individual to be happy. What about society?

It's like that rat experiment. You put a rat in a cage alone with cocaine and it overdoses almost every time. You put a rat in a happy rat park and they almost never overdose on the cocaine.

Happiness is such a loaded word though because it's not even close to a permanent state of being.