So, I have been training BJJ a bit heavier recently. Really good training. Coach pushes me very well. I am starting to realize my weak point is cardio and weight so it makes sense to add some cardio workouts and make sure to keep the diet relatively clean. I developed some tendinitis in my left arm getting arm locked and lifting heavy weights so that is another reason to back off a bit on the weights. I was definitely overtraining a bit. I don't necessarily feel it during workouts but afterwords I have to be pretty disciplined in icing my elbow joint. I want to experiment with CBD. I also miss marijuana. I went on a nice walk today in nature with my dog and would have loved just a couple of hits or so off of a joint of good weed. Listen to some Erykah Badu or Enya or some Marley. Relax after a tough training session with a volcano and some Planet Earth. I think it would be great to roll on a light dose of edibles as well.
I had a dream last night that I was going to live in the Smokey Mountains in Tennessee. I watched a House Hunters International in Chile and Costa Rica. I just have a feeling I need to get to some mountains, rivers, and lakes and potentially beaches all within a bike ride or even a long hike. A 15-20min drive in my Subaru Forester would be acceptable as well. Where I am at now just feels like a base where I am building myself. Building myself for what exactly? What's the difference. I feel like I am at Richard 10.4 and this is just what I am supposed to be doing right now. Distancing myself a bit from the hardcore AA crowd while still having some presence. Sticking with Jiu Jitsu and getting into great shape. Building more and more connections. Quality connections. Giving myself more opportunity in potential meaningful work. Building more trust at work so I have more freedom. I don't want to get too carried away with the writing right now so I need to groom and go out to lunch. Peace.
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PuertoRican United States. Feb 26 2018 06:06. Posts 13044
I have been listening to Enigma after training sessions when I am in that chill euphoric zone. I really like Principles of Lust: Sadeness/Find Love/Sadeness (Reprise). I forgot about it but I always wanted to have passionate sex to that record. It might be kind of cheesy. Just have to get high enough. I remember getting so high on the best weed and codeine that I was just locked in my room doing yoga and meditation for hours. Yeah, listening to this it is a bit too cheesy to make love to but it is pretty relaxing and cool. I have never made love. I have just fucked. Seems like I am missing out. Is that what all of this is for? Is it all a means to an end? It shouldn't be. I shouldn't care how a date went if I have jiu jitsu the next night or hanging out with some buddies unless all the dates are going wrong then there is something wrong with me. What kind of people do online dating? I think that is the path moving into the future. I just don't meet enough women at the moment. I don't drink or do drugs. I don't go to bars or clubs. I am not just going to ask out the yoga instructor or the cashier at Chipotle or the cashier at the gas station. I am not going to mess around with the 22 yr olds at work. I am not going to mess around with the newcomer at 30 days sober. I don't go to enough meetings really anyways to get to know a lot of the women. We have been through this before though and it is also probably just stuff for my therapist.
These unblinking models. They stand above, unblinking. I still get GQ magazine. I think it was like $1 per magazine and I am too lazy to cancel it. I still page through it. What a bunch of shit.
United States. Feb 25 2018 17:00. Posts 8535
