Lifetilt...very disappointed in myself

fuck now you'll have to be a regular person, a soulless loser who didn't get straight A's aka damnation

Thanks Jelle...I know I will have to be a regular fucking person, I'm just more worried about my parents and how disappointed they will be. That hurts more than anything else. But thanks for your comment, really.

15/hr playing poker sounds good lol.. funny how academic discipline doesnt necessarily translate to poker discipline. as for me, I have neither, so I guess I'll pack my bags and go to Iraq or something lol.

gotta want it if you're gonna be better than the next man.

gl.

On December 15 2007 11:35 collegesucks wrote: 15/hr playing poker sounds good lol.. funny how academic discipline doesnt necessarily translate to poker discipline. as for me, I have neither, so I guess I'll pack my bags and go to Iraq or something lol.

lol sounds goot XD

Sorry for sounding like a bitch through this but I'm just kinda scared of my parents at this point. I know $15/hour isn't great but I mean it's something, especially on top of a real job, so iono.

just re-deposit 200 bucks and you'll be fine

man up deposit $500 and grind out nl25, NL10 is just a waste of time

First off, you gotta find a way to motivate yourself. This isn't HS anymore, you're studying for what you'll be doing the rest of your life. I graduated as a physiotherapist this year and it was the hardest thing I've ever done. I spent my weekends in the library my first 2 semesters because I had 7 classes and 26 hours a week. Either you want it or you don't. But you have to be willing to make the sacrifices necessary. I used poker to pay for tuition, although in canada tuition is about 7000$ a year. The point is that if you're in a serious uni program such as yours, the majority of your time needs to be dedicated to your studies. If not, you'll get crushed in every way and you're obviously experiencing that.

Forget the idea of playing poker as a living. Unless you're playing 3-6 and crushing forget it. Use poker as a tool to add to your income while you study. But you need to be disciplined enough so it doesn't affect your studies.

Is engineering what you really want first off? If not then... I have 2 friends that are engineers right now and I know they put alot of time into studying because they wanted the end result. Obviously Economics will be a less demanding course load but that shouldn't factor in your decision.

If you're main problem is getting motivated then you need to wake up. Stop wasting your parents $$$$$ and be a man. Take a poker break and focus on school. In a few years you'll look back and ask yourself "WTF was I thinking", don't let that happen dude, GL

The point is that I can't deposit ATM...if that was the case then it'd be an ez fiz obv. But because I am broke from not having a job during school, I'm a little stuck and need to rush back to 25NL if I want to play there again.

If Engineering isn't the thing you want to do in life, than don't do it. I'm sure the thing that your parents want the most is you being happy. Tell them that you won't be happy as an engineer and you want to study something else. They'll surely understand.

I'm in a very similar situation to you. Graduated HS at the top of my class, got As doing very little work, went on to Cornell Engineering. Bombed my first two semesters, came back this year, tried to motivate myself and did a much better job than in the past two semesters, but still didn't do all that well grade-wise. I decided that Engineering isn't for me and will be switching to Economics starting in the spring. You can't keep trying to do Engineering if that's not what you want to do for a living. There's still time to turn your situation around.

Forget the idea of playing poker as a living. Unless you're playing 3-6 and crushing forget it. Use poker as a tool to add to your income while you study. But you need to be disciplined enough so it doesn't affect your studies.

I realize this. I'm not saying that I am going to be a 25Nl "pro", but I am asking myself whether I really want to be a college student or not, and instead of persuing a "real" career, do I want to persue a career in poker or something down the road so that I can eventually be crushing 3/6. I don't want to waste my parents' money either, that is why I am trying to find out if I really want to go to school or not. This isn't a random "OMG I WANT TO DROP EVERYTHING AND BE A POKER PRO LOLZ" post, but I really don't know if I am cut out for college. As for using poker as a "job", I DO use it just to pay for my credit card bill and stuff, but nothing too serious, just getting by what needs to get paid. I totally get everything you said though.

NO WAY im talking to myself.. Not sure if you were around in the summer but i posted a rant JUST LIKE THIS, no seriously just like this lol.. but that was 6 months ago.

1. Fuck your parents lol thats what i said, get a major you wana do and will enjoy other wise studying fucking organic chemistry and shit like that with no motivation will only leave you stressing at 4am every fucking weekend.. FUCK em... Do what you want to do or you'll die. lol

2. Our situation is a bit different in that your parents are threating to stop paying for your school/ my parents just cut the money back some. So you just have to reason with them about ur new studies.

3. Im not sure i agree with this going pro in one area thing. I thought of that too but i when you run bad u dont know what you will do. The thing about running bad is you change your game completely try to squeeze marginal situations when you can let it pass and before you know you END UP LIKE NEILLY..
What i am currently trying to do is to get good grades with my new major and play poker on the side. That means cutting out friday nights from time to time and saturdays as well. Its hard but you have to do what you have to do.

4. Its funny. I am lazy and unmotivated at times like you. But you have to find the motivation, for school i have to compete with others or shit wont get done, make a bet at the beginning of the semester to see who ends with the highest gpa for the semester. Do something son. And im pretty sure you can find motivation for poker all over this forum.

5. Being that your situation is so familiar and your broke, pm me (jakidcapone on AIM) and we can talk, ill surely help you out to get started.

That's tough to hear, Joe. Good luck and i'll see you over break.

That's my college story! I know how that goes. It feels horrible. Buckle down and get the best grades you possibly can for the rest of the time you're there. Remember how shitty it feels right now and realize that doing well in school will feel great. Avoid this feeling and strive for the successful feelings. Then once you're done with however much school you're definitely doing, refocus on what you really wanna do. So, if you are definitely staying through next semester, go 100% till then (even if it means quitting poker) and do your best. If you're done after this semester, do everything you can to make this semester a winner and then refocus your life.

You'll have to decide what you REALLY want to do. It's hard to know right now, cause well you're young. But it's pretty easy to know what you REALLY DON'T want to do... so make sure you're not doing that then take your best guess @ what you want to do, then do it 100%.

GL!

[B]Basically I think I have to make a decision between college or poker, and go all out on one and forget about the other.

Not necessarily. Take two years off from poker, concentrate on studies n shit, shift poker to a side-hobby or something if you can, and come back when you have your priorities straight; drop out or request an extended leave, concentrate on poker while you figure out what you want to do. life ain't over yet. =s