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anon Lithuania. Feb 06 2007 13:40. Posts 5965

So today i came back after university really motivated and having like 5 hours of free time, which i felt like spending on playing poker. Session started calmly, i was a bit up, but then after 15 minutes of playing i lost a hand that i really needed to win to feel a bit self confident again: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/142700 . Now i was a bit angry, but i still had a clear mind. Cold decks were killing me and finally i made a really foolish bluff vs shorty: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/142701 . Now i felt tilty and should have left the poker after 20 minutes of playing. But i still kept playing and my game now was total joke now:
http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/142702 - after long period of cold decks i finally hit a top pair! So my pair of jacks on flop felt like the truely nutssssss. And on the river i instantly called not even looking at the size of bet cuz i had the *NUTS* Now feeling really tilty i kept playing. I made a sick *read* on the guy - http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/142703

Then it was followed by this: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/142704 The guy is total donk, but i didn't liked the river, but still bet, again feeling like my QQ is the nuts since there was no Ace or King on the flop! WOW sick luck!

Now being on heavy tilt, i finally hit a really weird hand(by weird i mean the fact that i hit a set). I missclicked on the flop, and when turn came i was just laughting out loud and saying to myself NOT AGAIN. http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/142706 ofcourse i called being on tilt. Lost some more hands like this, today i was playing like total idiot and i was even ashamed to post these hands on the blog, forced myself to show how long lasting tilt can fuck persons minds, ofcourse not everyones, but atleast mines. So despite the huge downswing before today i doubled my loses, started with 8400$ in the morrning and ended with 6883$.

Ok, poker not going well, mostly of awful play and tilt. But today i had a basketball match that i was really looking forward, i burned a music DVD cd went to the car put it to my audio/video equiptment on the highest volume and went to the city just to drive out my tilt and listen to the music. There it was the basketball match, i came to warm up feeling really shitty, had pain in my back, chest and legs. No clue why, might of nerves? So basically i was just a shade of myself in the court, dunno scored some points but made a lot mistakes and didn't make some easy shots.
Overally life isn't going my way nowadays. Having some health problems, which are really annoying and doctors says i am fine, poker isn't going my way, from team leader in the basketball i turned in to the shade of myself basically scoring twice as less as i used to. And the anger i really have no clue where is it comming, my poker tilt? During the match today after missed shots i was cursing loud, shouting on referees etc for what i was warned. At the end of the match i missed a shot and then made a foul, i was totally angry now and threw ball away, and got technical foul, for which i will have to pay myself.
Here are some photos of the match, poor quality but still:

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Doyle Brunson: Fights with your wife or girlfriend are not healthy for you bank roll

Last edit: 06/02/2007 13:48

anon Lithuania. Feb 06 2007 13:43. Posts 5965

Sorry again for the typos.

Doyle Brunson: Fights with your wife or girlfriend are not healthy for you bank roll

Highcard Canada. Feb 06 2007 13:56. Posts 5428

Reminds me of the life tilt that is Mike Matusow...

I have learned from poker that being at the table is not a grind, the grind is living and poker is how I pass the time

DaEm0niCuS United States. Feb 06 2007 14:08. Posts 3292

Less fish, more aggressive fish, more regulars. Thing are def getting a bit harder. Maybe you should play a few thousand hands at nl100 or something to gain comfidence, I dunno.

Loco Canada. Feb 06 2007 14:58. Posts 21013

you need to work on yourself a lot and learn to be able to control your emotions
you should go buy anthony robbins's books it would help you a lot, the guy is a genius

fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount

mcl Lithuania. Feb 06 2007 17:12. Posts 11

Comon anon everything will settle down. Ateis juk geresni laikai!!!

btw once i got technical foul three basketball games in a row (so there is some room for you to improve in this area) also it is nice that you only shouted and didnt beat up referies (sometimes they really deserve that).

Muhweli Finland. Feb 06 2007 17:15. Posts 10663

When life has beaten the crap out of you... You need more crap.

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