For a long time I’ve been and still am struggling with a decision to make a huge change in my life. To escape. Anywhere. I do love having people around but I think I could use some me-time to rethink my life, whether I should be with this girl, I love her very much but do I want to pursue it ? Or if I really think poker is a good career to go after. I want to explore the world and myself within it. Where do I belong ? What do I really want and need ? I need adventures, I need experiences, I need new people. I need a best friend. I may have many friends but none of them would I consider my so called BFF. I think that for now my girlfriend is my best friend and I like the way this is but what if it ends ? What then ? She won’t be there for me even though I’ll make sure to always be there for her.
Fuck.
I imagine many of you have had similar thoughts throughout your life and most probably haven’t got to the point where you knew THIS IS IT, THIS IS WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. I’m about to turn 21 and hell yeah I’m young wild and free but not exactly… There is this ENORMOUS barrier that blocks me from the world. And it obviously exists in my mind. I’m in the middle of figuring out everything and I guess it’ll never stop. Each day teaches you something about yourself even when you spent it in your bed. You can’t stop learning. Actually, it gives me pleasure to be aware I’m constantly becoming a smarter/wiser person.
I’ve always had that dream to embark on a lone journey and meet a stranger in a pub. Then, without revealing names or anything, tell him/her each and every secret from my life. Just let myself feel completely free and careless and do what my heart tells me to.
That’s just a draft made on the spur of the moment and those 3 beers I’ve just emptied.
And I’m sharing it with you guys, whatever. I believe you have gone or are going through this too so you can truly relate to it and maybe also write something to free your mind, please do
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Have a good night,
Mike
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When people ask: What nationality is this guy raking in all the pots? The answer invariably comes back Poland, Poland. Again and again - Karma
I totally can relate to everything you have just shared. Do things you love! Whether that's partying, hanging out with friends, having some drinks, playing sports, reading, making money, it'll surround you with people that have common interests. Have good talks with your family and friends. Even though people are always on different mental states, sharing your thoughts lets them know where you're at mentally and they can help you out with their opinions. Be open and honest, hopefully this helps you bud.
go to phils or thailand live there for 6 months ull love it
hola
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Silver_nz New Zealand. May 16 2012 01:48. Posts 5647
On May 15 2012 23:31 spets1 wrote:
go to phils or thailand live there for 6 months ull love it
will he though? its all hedonism there, sounds like he wants meaning and identity.
Only the creative will can give that.
I think, in order to know what you want to do, you first have to know what is possible for you. Backpacking is definately good for learning about your place in the world, for learning how to decide on and make (touristy) things happen, and for meeting new people. Figuring out the truth about career options, and comparing what they will be like for you, is a bit harder.
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qwerty67890 New Zealand. May 16 2012 05:27. Posts 14026
On May 15 2012 23:31 spets1 wrote:
go to phils or thailand live there for 6 months ull love it
Sort of agree.
When i came back from Thailand i wanted nothing more than to return there, but the longer i was in NZ the less i missed it. The only real attachment i had to the country was my gf, and since we broke up i have no desire to return.
That said, the 12 months i spent in Thailand were among the best in my life, but as above its all self-indulgence for the most part and ultimately you will over indulge and feel pretty empty.
You will learn to appreciate a lot more in your life by experiencing places, it will definitely change you for the better.
OP definitely go out and experience different cultures, its awesome, you will leave with a fair share of good and bad experiences that youll remember forever.
edit: going to add that "live there" is a great way to do it, almost all the cool shit that i experienced in Thailand was a result of me living there long enough to find them out.
On May 15 2012 23:31 spets1 wrote:
go to phils or thailand live there for 6 months ull love it
Sort of agree.
When i came back from Thailand i wanted nothing more than to return there, but the longer i was in NZ the less i missed it. The only real attachment i had to the country was my gf, and since we broke up i have no desire to return.The only real attachment i had to the country was my gf, and since we broke up i have no desire to return.
That said, the 12 months i spent in Thailand were among the best in my life, but as above its all self-indulgence for the most part and ultimately you will over indulge and feel pretty empty.
You will learn to appreciate a lot more in your life by experiencing places, it will definitely change you for the better.
OP definitely go out and experience different cultures, its awesome, you will leave with a fair share of good and bad experiences that youll remember forever.
edit: going to add that "live there" is a great way to do it, almost all the cool shit that i experienced in Thailand was a result of me living there long enough to find them out.
GF in thailand? Does not compute.
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superuserr United Kingdom. May 16 2012 13:13. Posts 1
