Some of the guys here may remeber , most probably dont
about 3 1/2 years ago from now i did a post about my EX GF (at that time she was still my GF)and how fucked up things were.
It was a long and sick story that i wrote in a Topic called GF Story that i did delete later on.
it got alot of attention and responses were very mixed.
Some said she is a crazy bitch and i should run
others said she may be overreacting and crazy but i was an absolute asshole and shoulda expectet to get what i deserve ...(Well still cant see how ..but people have different opinions)
Well end of story at that time was that i took full risk and called the police which ended our relationship and made her flee to Austria ....
(It was a bit risky since she told me she would accuse me of rape and domestic violence if i ever called the police ... And there was a good chance i could run into problems with the way she is and our relationship was but i took the risk and trusted in karma)
worked out.
She flet the country
I was free
Now 3 1/2 years later i get a facebook message from a guy who is sad to live in Austria.
I figured its would be something related to my ex gf and so i didnt block him instantly but let him talk:
His Words:
Sorry to bother you and i dont know if there is anything that can come out of thet conversation but i am desperate and dont know what else to do.
My live is a complete mess and currently i cant see a way out.
I am the Boyfriend of your ex GF (J....H....) and have a child with her (2months old).
My life is an absolut desaster right now
This girl is destroying my soul but i cant see a way to get rid of her without loosing my child.
If i break up she will turn my child against me and my own blood will always hate me ...the father who left the family behind.
But i cant stay together with her.
She is so fucking crazy.... she completely ruins my life and does things u probably cant imagine.
Is there any chance by any means u can give me some tipps on what to do ?
I just dont know what to do anymore
i am lost
I replied:
Well i know exactly what she is capable of and what she does.
And i feel sorry for you since i was in the same position kinda ...
This girl crushes souls as an addiction.
There is some fights u just cant win.
And trying to have a happy Life with this person involved in ---> thats a fight u just cant win.
Sucks for you
Forget about your child and run .....or be a slave to a demon for the rest of your life.
choose the lesser evil
->and then i blocked him.
sicklife T_T
If i was in his position with a child.... i could only see 1 way out
as hard as it is....
the pain of leaving the child behind is nothing on a scale compared to having this demon involved in your daily life for the rest of your years
I've recently begun playing poker again after a relatively long hiatus. My story in poker is like many of us. I was good enough to earn money back when the games were soft and I was lucky enough to box a few tournaments to turn in a decent haul for my time invested. Then when Black Friday hit I stopped playing because I'd recently transferred most of my roll to FTP.
I'll preface this with some facts - I've always been a casual grinder, even if for flickering moments of good run I aspired to be more. I've always been mostly a mediocre poker player with mostly built his game on what videos, books and forums told me I should be doing. I played what most know as the "exploitation style" which relied heavily on a HUD.
I've returned to poker fresh with a completely different take on how I approach not just playing the game but thinking about the game. I more or less used to hate poker and I never found any joy in it. I was locked into one way of thinking and one way of doing things and spent most of my sessions mindlessly grinding within the rules of what I thought was good poker. I'm happy to say that is no longer the case, and not surprisingly I'm now thoroughly enjoy playing the game.
One of the biggest changes I've recently made is in bankroll management. I used to tell myself I should follow the 20 buy-in rule. Move up as soon as I have 20 for the next limit. This approach left me constantly stressed and playing as scared money. This is especially painful in PLO when sessions can often swing +/- 10 buy-ins. Not exactly friendly to those risk of ruin parameters. I've since decided on a 100 buy-in rule. I will dominate each stake I play before I move up. And I will do it all whilst freeing myself from the stress of constantly worrying about the status of my bankroll.
My decision to do this isn't for everyone. Neither are a lot of the sometimes odd things I do "just to see what happens" in various hands I play and post. Some are posted for comedy, and some out of boredom. I probably should post less bad-beat hands, but my comically bad run in 3-bet pots just amuses the shit out of me.
As of today the BR is at 1394, My shot at 25PLO will come when I reach 1500. Below is my graph of the last 1 1/2 months. One for SD vs. NSD and the other for winnings vs. adjusted winnings. I find the spike in redline at the end pretty fun. I work full-time and I'm busy as fuck with my Master's on the side of that so I only play when I have free time.
Up about 15k since feb but month of may is being really shitty, currently around -2900 for the month and half of it is due to shitty play. I need to add more structure and discipline to this craft of grinding live poker, I'm playing for way too long, making poor decisions, playing way too wide when I'm card dead or slightly tilted and I'm not taking good care of myself health wise.
Time to turn this thing around...
Plan for summer, while working part time (25ish hrs per week);
play 40 hrs of live poker per week minimum,
end sessions earlier when starting to get tired, tilted, table becomes poor
get back to working out 4-5 times per week
cook 90% of food at home minimum
improve on relationship with gf, (spend more time together, etc.
long term live poker goal is still trying to average 30$ hr for at least a year sample
Poker viability in 2014-2020 (and beyond)?by Sliggy, May 11
I'll keep it short.
Where do you guys see poker going in the coming years? Is it possible to make a living of $20.00/hr or so at NL50 and/or NL100 in 2014? Will it be possible for years to come?
Will the fish dry out and the regs get too solid for any kind of living to be made? What are your opinions?
I just ask because I'm dedicating a lot of effort into poker right now. It's just a hobby because I love strategy games, but the more videos I study, the more session reviews I conduct, and the more I start to make tighter folds and thinner valuebets and bluff more effectively, the more hooked I get.
My goal is to be playing NL50 by the end of the year. I'm at NL10 now and I expect to be at NL16 next month. Is it still possible or viable for someone in my shoes (if I work hard enough) to be a solid NL50 reg and be able to make a decent wage for a few years?
These questions don't have definite answers, but I'd love for this post to be a discussion of qualified speculation.
Edit: "I'd love for this post to be a discussion of qualified speculation" in this case means that I appreciate any and all opinions regarding the poker industry, and would prefer if people would show me the courtesy of not just blithely assuming I'm some lost delusional child with big poker dreams that needs to be set straight about the harsh realities of poker.
there have been a few instances where LP has turned into a personal finance resource. when it comes to personal finance, our normal educations have barely brushed upon +EV decisions.
kind of this age's rich dad poor dad, i think nearly everyone will learn something very useful in this book.
Spacey's so much fun and I can't see anyone better for that role, that double tap at the end gave me chills.
The wife's subplots were kinda meh but tolerable - I was watching agents of shield and for the first time I realized how bad the writing is compared to this. I'd defo recommend this to everyone.
Visited local Uni , It felt fun to be in class even though it was just erasmus students' presentation on Egypt and Kenya. I even volunteered for Belly Dancing. I was 2nd behind someone who was a whip for too large % of of the audience (they were polish like he was) http://i.imgur.com/duzIKh1.jpg
Started going to Kwan-Um Zen practice. Some of them are doofuses but it's a great thing for poker.
when they think about "who am I" etc, during meditation I just scheme on how to own, besides the usual clearing my mind stuff Whatever you think about their chanting etc. it does help you forget about poker. https://scontent-b-fra.xx.fbcdn.net/h...14285841630_2387217761186284964_n.jpg
So this should make for a fun summer. Of course Czech Chicks, family stuff (playign tennis with 80y old grandma tomorrow) pools , beer gardens and summer fitness with shitloads of pokering
Started reading Dune but that shit's so confusing at hard to read that I gave up - if it gets better and you stand by this book let me know. I'm reading something on childhood psychology now and how it affects people, pretty fun stuff.
Also I'm still undecided about winter, but I really don't want to stay here unless floorball will go really really well. Most likely destination for a few months seems Thailand.
Thanks for reading people.
It's back to NL16 for me, with 1bi shots at 50 again once I get to 30bi
Won my first legitimate MTT tonight for $327.10. The $2.75 NL Holdem [Deep Stacks] $500Gtd, 30min blind levels. First win of a real MTT that's not an MTTSNG.
PokerStars Hand #115881634512: Tournament #904228402, $2.50+$0.25 USD Hold'em No Limit - Level XXIII (5000/10000) - 2014/05/08 2:01:52 PT [2014/05/08 5:01:52 ET]
Table '904228402 16' 9-max Seat #2 is the button
Seat 2: TravNinety4 (2934024 in chips)
Seat 3: sp@rco1987 (675976 in chips)
TravNinety4: posts the ante 1000
sp@rco1987: posts the ante 1000
TravNinety4: posts small blind 5000
sp@rco1987: posts big blind 10000
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to TravNinety4 [4d 4h]
TravNinety4: raises 11500 to 21500
sp@rco1987: raises 23500 to 45000
TravNinety4: calls 23500
*** FLOP *** [Kc 4c 9d]
sp@rco1987: bets 50000
TravNinety4: calls 50000
*** TURN *** [Kc 4c 9d]
sp@rco1987: bets 105000
TravNinety4: raises 2733024 to 2838024 and is all-in
sp@rco1987: calls 474976 and is all-in
Uncalled bet (2258048) returned to TravNinety4
*** RIVER *** [Kc 4c 9d Tc]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
sp@rco1987: shows [Ad Ac] (a pair of Aces)
TravNinety4: shows [4d 4h] (three of a kind, Fours)
TravNinety4 collected 1351952 from pot
sp@rco1987 finished the tournament in 2nd place and received $234.65.
TravNinety4 wins the tournament and receives $327.10 - congratulations!
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 1351952 | Rake 0
Board [Kc 4c 9d Tc 3s]
Seat 2: TravNinety4 (button) (small blind) showed [4d 4h] and won (1351952) with three of a kind, Fours
Seat 3: sp@rco1987 (big blind) showed [Ad Ac] and lost with a pair of Aces
I had a really bad case of hyperthyroidism, a condition that affects virtually every cell in your body.
It speeds of heart beat, hair loss, finger nail loss, increases body temperature, causes insomnia, rapid weight loss. oh and hunger. like eat 6-8 times a day and still be hungry. some new level of hunger i've honestly never felt previously.
I've been around 155 pounds for about the past 15 years of my life, and in 2 weeks i dropped to 125. also my muscles (specifically the thighs) atrophied to the point where i could no longer walk up a flight of stairs.
I went to the doctor, long story short, ate a radiation laced pill, which essentially knocked out my thyroid.
I have to wait a few more weeks before doing blood wrok to see if i'm hypo, hyper or luckily normal (20%).
I'm back to 145, and started working out. It's so agitating because I used to be in relatively good shape. But currently every night when i go to bed, my legs are effing sore from just walking during the day.
I only have dumbbells in my gym, so i've been doing light dumbbell press, goblet squat, lat pull down, one arm rows, some crunches.
it's so fucking infuriating because less is more when it comes to working out. yea u can segment all the diff muscle groups into 5-6 days, but for me (and prob 95% of people) it's prob more efficient to work out 3 times a week to let your body fully rest.
Gains are looking decent, the hyperthyroidism had one silver lining: it burned all my fat. so any marginal muscle gains are more pronounced.
but i guess im getting restless and want to work out harder, but working out harder would be resting.
Old Big_Rob_48 from back in like 2009 when I last played. But I have done a lot of things and one thing I found that is pretty cool is...
MACA.
I scoured the internet for a long time to find the best overall sexual supplement for a person health wise and performance wise and it is hands down maca root. Here is what it does, not only does it increase sex drive, but it increases load size by 50-100% ..... so kinda makes you feel manly to say the least, haha. It takes a few days to kick in, then you jizz twice as much. It is an adaptogenic herb, and functions on the hormones, so it has to be cycled, kind of like steroids. Maybe one month on, one month off kind of thing.
Myself and my friends have tried it and it is no joke. The "Now Foods" regular brand is the best.
Don't mess around with "high quality" or something that says "gelatinized" as these "purifying" processes usually mess with the product more than help it. The bottle says 500mg twice daily, but every forum I read and through personal testing I have found around 3500mg or 3.5g per day (7 pills) to be the sweet spot for most people, and you can split dose this preferably. Its also dirt cheap anyway.
And to finish up this fun sexual enhancement. Yes it is fun to talk about supplements, but I have found that nothing matters as much as having low stress levels and high energy. In fact, I usually use my sex drive as a barometer to check myself on whether or not I need to make changes in my life.
So hit me back, just to chat, sincerely yours, your biggest fan, this is Stan
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Whatever you think about their chanting etc. it does help you forget about poker. 
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