At first you took control of me and my views on poker and made me doubt my self. Now i understand the tricks you play on me, they wont work anymore. I have grown. I am now mentally stronger, disciplined and will bite back much harder. You will only make me stronger every time you attack me. I am now prepared for the next time you attack me, and i will clinch you and break your nose with multiple knees like i did to the idiot who stepped to me at the bar last night. Variance, you shall shiver when you hear my name.
Today woke up, ate something and got myself ready to leave to go play football( European football) I play right winger, and we won the game today with 3-2 soooo, getting paid there also :D. Altough our team dropped so much spots, we had a bad losing streak and are currently 10th in the league, dropped to 10th from 5th, and our coach got fired.
Today was the first match with new coach and it was nice
Pokerwise, i didn't played 50nl yet, still played 25nl today, cause i was tired from playing the football game. Got a few coolers, donks sucking me out with T4 s calling 5$ 3Bet vs my aces etc, but still overal up.
Hello WOrld!
Its my first blogpost ever.Just want to make a little summary of my pokermonth.This have been the first month for very long time when I had the opportunity to play decent number of hands,since my exams are all over(and successful ).At the beginning I was grinding 50nl on iPoker and when I got about 3,5k $ I took a shot on 100nl.I've been crushing this limit since then.Obviously I've been running good,but I think I really played my best game ever managing to 9table most of the time playing pretty solid.I still have to work a lot on my redline which you can easily see from my graphics.I ended up about +3,4k $ in the end of the month including the rakeback,doubling my roll which is fucking awesome!
So no more shittalk... here are the stats/graphics.
After i spewed like 10k on stupid shots on limits i dont have the skill for yet and lost like 2 months into splitting my bankroll over like every poker room on the net, i just want to make a promise that ill make 50k hands 6max 2/4 ONLY on prima or ipoker and another 30k hands on 1/2 HU again only on those 2 networks.
Fuck pacific, fuck betfair and fuck every other crappy software that makes my 15 processor, 12589023589 gbs of ram pc freeze and it needs 73 different programs just to have the vpip on the suckers. Fuck you betfair regulars too. I mean seriously - 2/5 game there is the most retarded mid stakes game ever where 5 nits are waiting for a half stacked sportsbook fish to sit in and make a double. AND STILL THEY ARE THE WORSE POSSIBLE regulars i ever played.
Poker goals for March:
[] Gold Star (which should be easier now)
[] Playing NL50 regularly
[] Playing 40k hands
[] Mastering O8 and Stud8 to beat the soft 10/20 2-way at the Borgata
[] Not playing NL100+ or PLO50+ when I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything at these lower limits
Life goals for March:
[] Not spewing on anything unnecessary other than going out to eat/get drunk
So I lost just under 10k last month. That's ok, was down 18k the first 2-3 days of the month. That was mostly from 5/10 omaha so I decided to play 30k hands 2/4 before I did anything else. So far I'm up like 20bi or something over 13k hands or so. I've been lazy. This month I'll try to be done with the 30k hands, and then play another 30k of 3/6. I've got a no drinking bet going too (Pm me if someone wants in) so I'll have a bit more time on my hands. I'll 4table all the way.
I'll need to make 20k to be back on track with my "plan" for the year. Dunno if I'll do it but if I play all the hands and manage to play good it's very possible. Despite actually running under expectation I'm at close to 7ptbb/100 over these hands so like 4ptbb at 3/6 should be possible.
Have a couple of other projects going too. Might learn some Yoga or something. I will start working out in one way or anther at least 3 times/week. I will also give up coffee and drink green tee instead. Might get a couple more of these weird ideas too, but I'm not sure. Overall this month will be awesome.
Not played a great deal of poker this month, due to being very busy in my Real life. My job is quite stressful as its a tough climate to be in Sales. There's days I am waking up and going into working feeling physically sick. It cant be good. But I gotta grind away at this job. I sell/design mid to high end kitchens/bathrooms/bedrooms/offices. And with the current recession going on, its pretty grim. But its funny, my job is very much like Poker. I have a basic wage but its pretty basic, I make my money by earning commission. So when your selling, times are good, and you are getting a nice fat pay cheque every month, but when times are hard, times are hard. Its like Variance in Poker. Very up and down. So just have to think more outside the box to succeed in my job.
During Feb I had moved up to NL25, and had a downer of 8 BI's. Some horrid bad beats. So I am back on NL10. So my goals this month;
- Beat NL10 again
- Make Silverstar VIP
Going to a Live Poker tourney this Monday, but apart from this, I wont be playing any Tournaments this month.
Oh and an interesting thing was, that I met a "Poker pro". heh. A friend of a friends, met in bar, turns out he played pretty high stakes. He had been traveling for past year and is getting back into the scene again. Also turns out he was one of the players that was in the tourney when the Cavandish place was Raided by the police few years back (http://uk.pokernews.com/news/2006/2/northern-ireland-poker.htm) Interestingly, he is going on Monday. Not seen any proof of this, and didint get his online aka. Will have to find out. Maybe he will do some coaching if he is any good.
Oh and Ireland > England in Rugby yesterday. Fuck yeah Close game
So I've been playing poker since October, and so far it's been very interesting. I've suffered bad beats, given out worse beats, and overall have had a good time playing and learning the game. I think I've improved a lot fairly quickly, but it's not enough.
I see success graphs, people complaining about making only $270.00 a day (at their worst times), and basically leading a carefree life without rules or regulations. Self employed kids making thousands of dollars on their own roster, playing a game that they enjoy.
A couple of days ago I got just a slight taste of what the 'sick life' could be like. I made about $20.00 an hour on average playing NL10 for like two days straight. I thought this was the norm and I thought to myself 'wow poker is so easy, I'll never have to work." As it turns out, I was just on a sick upswing, and have since worked my way back down to my original deposit.
I don't want to sound pathetic or whiny, but I'm basically entirely jealous of you guys who make your living playing poker online. I envy you, and I want what you have, even on a smaller level. I'm moving out of home at the moment and finding a place to live in Melbourne, and my parents are rich enough to basically provide a lot of my expenses. They say I'll have about 2 months before I try and find a job.
Now that I've seen the poker world, I really don't want a job. Working at the petrol station sucked BEFORE I knew about online poker, but now that I know about it, I'm going to have such a hard time working. I've got 2 months of spare time to make this poker thing work. Basically if I could make $20/$30 an hour I would be completely stoked! It's more than I make at the petrol station.
My question is, if you had 2 months to turn $100.00 into a decent living of $20/$30 dollars an hour, how would you do it? Shit, even $15 an hour would satisfy me for now. I'd have to play more but it's better than working less. My poker knowledge basically comes from this site and PokerStrategy.com (which I suspect has turned me into a huge nit).
Poker as a livelihood started out as a dream which I have seen many people make a reality. I think I have the intelligence and the discipline to make this work, I just don't have the poker knowledge.
Meh, fuck it. This is way tl;dr anyway. Basically a whine post from a guy realizing that he's going to have to work a job instead of play poker. Life's tough. Deal with it shitface.
Couldn't play much this month as some family from another country were visiting anyway don't feel like i got anywhere. It was like this, grind 25nl, lose at 50nl etc. I have a feeling march is going to be a big month for me, I'm changing my lifestyle healthwise and I'm going to play shorter sessions.
Every year, I look forward to reading Warren Buffett's Berkshire Hathaway letter to shareholders. In light of all that has happened to the economy and the world of finance in general over the past year, this year's letter was even more interesting to read.
I was especially interested on his thoughts on derivatives. In his letter, Mr. Buffett explained that the danger of derivatives was not merely the difficulty in assessing their value; rather, it was the “web of mutual dependence” they create among financial institutions. Derivatives contracts keep various parties entangled for years, which, as he vividly explained, can create real hazards once those assets start deteriorating.
“Participants seeking to dodge troubles face the same problem as someone seeking to avoid venereal disease,” he wrote. “It’s not just whom you sleep with, but also whom they are sleeping with.”
I also found interesting his talk about the mortgage collapse, the massive floats from his insurance business, and the ineffectiveness of Black-Scholes when dealing with long term time horizons.
The letter is written in casual speak and is an excellent read not just for the financial geeks but for everyone.
Overall I'm happy with the month, did really well at 25nl. Moved up got crushed with a mixture of overaggression/running bad/playing worse. Did a sweat session with a friend and regrinded some 25nl. Hopped back to 50nl when I felt like I was playing well and had a sick heater. Hopefully March continues as Feb ended and I'll be playing 100nl by months end.
February Results
* Platinum Star
* NL 100 reg(?)
* ~80K hands
* 121 hours
Didn't make my hand goal because of moving up, which is totally fine obviously. Hours however, was a bit disappointing as my daily routine fell apart pretty badly
So all in all I exceeded all expectations in February.
However, the state of my game is a total mess. I'm completely confused why I'm making moves, what I'm supposed to do in spots, when I'm supposed to do certain shit, etc. In short, I'm completely demoralized and as my previous blog decleared, 'lost'. Just continuously downswinging looking for answers and failing to find them, and continuing to play like a complete moron, calling down light, bluffing light and just overall failing at life.
I am pretty devastated atm in terms of confidence and morale, and will be playing 4 tables exclusively in the coming week at the very least. Did a sweat session with Mikeymoo today which was pretty fun for me. Going to try to record a video tomorrow @ NL100 4 tabling (okay, max 6), we'll see how that goes. Hopefully the guys above NL100 reading my blog can watch a lil' and leave me some comments; meanwhile, it can probably still help the microstakes guys... at least I hope so T_T.
In the grand scheme of things, I've lost something along the lines of 7-10 BI's over the last 2-3 days (although it sure feels A LOT worse because of how swingy it's been) so I really can't even call this a downswing for crying out loud. Hoping to just regain confidence and just figure out what the hell I'm doing on the tables, that's really my only goal .
I'm going to be out of town a lot during March, so I expect my hands / hours / progress to greatly decline . I'll do what I can do though. Keeping that in mind, here are my goals:
March Goals
* 40,000 hands
* Stay at NL100
* Gain confidence in my game
Very arbitrary goals I guess. I really have no expectations results wise for March. I just want to figure out what the fuck is wrong with my game and my psyche .
man im runnin hot at MTT's, <3 them when u run good -.-
I was 1/40 in the 20rebuy too, then got high and blew up, FML, no more smoking while playing! (actually made some really strong plays but misread my opponents)
Just gonna smoke 1-2 in the morning and smoke 2 at night for now on and grind during the day, that way i can get high n play everyday without them interfering with each other ;-)
By the way, this is the first time my online rolls been 10k from grinding legit, which is why I made this post, just felt so good I had to share it and brag a little, I've been working soooooooo hard to get to become a nl100 reg, now i have a nice roll for it and i can go to work everyday at nl100 with no stress, its so great
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).At the beginning I was grinding 50nl on iPoker and when I got about 3,5k $ I took a shot on 100nl.I've been crushing this limit since then.Obviously I've been running good,but I think I really played my best game ever managing to 9table most of the time playing pretty solid.I still have to work a lot on my redline which you can easily see from my graphics.I ended up about +3,4k $ in the end of the month including the rakeback,doubling my roll which is fucking awesome!
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