So turns out I was still feeling super shitty, and I've still been making tilty and bad plays. Hopefully I'll be able to sort it out soon..
In other news, I just finished watched The Majestic with Jim Carrey (my favorite actor by far..). I had never seen this movie before and wow.. it was freaking amazing.. I loved it soooooooo much I just had to make a blog entry about it.
I'm going to see what else of Carrey's I've missed out on
Like seriously I feel really good after watching this movie.. it was just a damn good flick.
I was 4-6 tabling, played 9 sessions on Friday and Saturday.
I found it very good to have a preset one hour slots where my goal is to play for one hour and not be concerned about winnings.
And today I dunno where it came from, but I suddenly felt calm enough to multitable without spewing much. I played 6.5 hours on 12 tables breakeven. This was my first break even multitabling session at NL50 like...ever :D http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/a8a84.KEKE.png http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/873e0.lol.png
I played true multitabling TAG style with ton of pot control and only obvious bluffs and what not. I actually found it very relaxing, I made only notes when I was in the hand or when I observed some large pots.
Well, it was fun, its great that I can do this, and its also great that I have 5K VPP this month already, way ahead of pace and I can just 4 table a couple hours every day and get to 7.5k.
And maybe you ask why I bother with NL50 when I am very well rolled for NL100? Well I have decided to make $5k my 'stand'.
I still work and I still tilt a lot although I made good progress lately like cutting my tilting sessions quickly(Its simple - when I work for 8 hours I jump right into my C game when I start tables in the afternoon), and with $4k VPP bonus+$1K stellar+$1k SN milestone I will reach my goal of $10k BR in 9 months no matter what, so having the $5k makes me comfortable.
Oh and btw, whats the point of playing NL100 when I play breakeven at NL50 (Thanks to my -10BB+/100 C Game) innit -.-
I will take another shot at NL100 for 5BI at $5.5k, maybe even later.
EDIT: Yeah and also because LikeAset and Mayzerg freaked me out FU guys :D
On December 27 2009 19:10 MayZerG wrote:
ZzzZzzZzz shortterm variance....
Dont expect this for much longer, your in for a big shock
On December 28 2009 03:06 LikeASet wrote:
i won that much at nl 100, then i lost most of it...
this woman, 20 years older than me, keeps putting her tits on my arm, my back, touches me 60% the time she gets a chance to.
Does this mean she wants to have sex with me?
This blog is only for me as I decided to make some goals in my life that I can reach and that I think can help straighten me out again. Short story - this stems from the fact that in the past 4 weeks I had one magical winning session of 19 buy ins. Ever single other session was a losing one. So if you do not include the 19 buy in session I am on a 65 buy in downswing. So I am quitting poker and figuring out my life.
[ ] Get a job as a waiter
[ ] Get back into going to church every Sunday
[ ] Find car insurance and replace brakes/struts
[ ] Research grants/loans/financial aid for school in fall
[ ] Figure out where I would like to go to school
[ ] Get back into working out 3x a week and be able to bench 280
[ ] Bible reading 3x a week and back to praying every night
[ ] No more smoking weed
[ ] Drinking is fine as long as does not interfere with any goals
[ ] Save up $1500
[ ] Stop smoking cigarettes
I am giving myself 4 months to do this. The timeline comes from the fact that if I average $300-$350 a week as a waiter then it should take about 4 months to save up $1500 while paying $800 a month for expenses. Wish me luck LP as my 18 month poker career is over in 8 days. I just can't take the constant run bad anymore. Eventually I will get back into grinding live but unless I have another magical 19 buy in session to save me again I am done online.
I start my goals tomorrow 1-11-10 and will update this blog on 5-11-10 hopefully I can accomplish everything.
I decided to write up how I want my schedule to be for this year for tournaments for your enjoyment and for me to have some sort of organizaion in my life.
JAN 30-FEB 5 BORGATA 7 DAYS $3,500
-Should be a great tournament, nice and cheap early in the year where I'll be able to mop up the cash games if I bust out early, but their structures are alway really good for these.
FEB 20-FEB 24 NAPT VEGAS $5,000
-This is pokerstars' new North American Poker Tour, and they are going to be sponsoring the Venetian Deepstack to kick off the tour. Again, cheapish buy ins and it's where I live so it will be easy to get to
FEB 24-MARCH 3 LAPC 8 DAYS $10,000
- Right after NAPT main event ends, the LAPC main event starts, so if I'm doing well enough to play the 10k buy in main event then I will, otherwise I'm still going to go to LA, but just to play cash games there.
MAR 4 - MAR 18 WYNN CLASSIC
- I like the wynn classic because it's well run with a good structure. It has plenty of 500-1500$ buy ins and their main event is a 5k this year from 10k last year so I might be able to play that as well
MAR 30-APR 22 BELLAGIO WPT FINAL 25K AND A BUNCH OF 1K REBUYS
All of april really depends on whether I win packages to EPT San Remo and Monte Carlo, if I don't I'll be staying home and playing cash during this WPT and playing some of the Caesars WSOP events
APR 14-APR 30 CAESARS WSOP CIRCUIT $5K
APR 15-APR 21 EPT SAN REMO $7500 (ONLY IF I WIN A PACKAGE)
Again, I'll either be doing the Europe thing for both of these tourneys or staying home for WPT/caesars stuff
APR 25-APR 30 EPT MONTE CARLO $15000 (ONLY w/ PACKAGE)
CASH GAMES FOR ALL OF MAY
Nothing happening in may, will be trying to build up a roll for WSOP if things haven't gone my way by now.
WSOP Shedule!
I want to play all of these events barring still being in previous ones, etc.
Event 3 - $1,000 No-Limit Hold'em May 29 4 $1,000
Event 5 - $1,500 No-Limit Hold'em May 31 3 $1,500
Event 8 - $1,500 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 02 3 $1,500
Event 9 - $1,500 Pot-Limit Hold'em Jun 03 3 $1,500
Event 11 - $1,500 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 04 3 $1,500
Event 13 - $1,000 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 05 4 $1,000
Event 16 - $1,500 No-Limit Hold'em Six Handed Jun 07 3 $1,500
Event 17 - $5,000 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 08 3 $5,000
Event 20 - $1,500 Pot-Limit Omaha Jun 10 3 $1,500
Event 23 - $2,500 Limit Hold'em Six Handed Jun 11 3 $2,500
Event 24 - $1,000 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 12 4 $1,000
Event 26 - $2,500 No-Limit Hold'em Six Handed Jun 14 3 $2,500
Event 30 - $1,500 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 16 3 $1,500
Event 31 - $1,500 H.O.R.S.E. Jun 16 3 $1,500
Event 36 - $1,000 No-Limit Hold'em Jun 19 3 $1,000
Education of a Poker Playerby Recurrence, January 10
Sorry for quite a long post, this is mainly a trip report post about the psychology(and tilt) of a new 1/2 live play and a new poker player in general more than anything else, it has very little actual hand details.
Walking back home at 4AM after a gruesome 5 hour commute from Atlantic City this morning, I cannot help but compare myself to these old Chinese men I sometimes see on an early winter morning in Chinatown getting off their "fortune buses". They usually look so very fragile, old and empty, with expressions that match the Jewish ones in concentration camp photos, devoid of all hope. A long gluttonous pull from cigarettes would bring an almost unnoticeable flush to their cold faces, as if this tiny dopamine shot can bring some life back to the walking corpses.
"Perhaps I'm turning into one of them? " I let out a quick sigh, my memory quickly brings me back to the very beginning of my day at the Borgata. I remember eating my breakfast/lunch salad slowly in the cafeteria, ignoring the fact that the olives were too salty for my taste and the lady had put way too much onion. "I only have 200 dollars on me for 1/2, 100 was my winning from last time and the other my "investment". Should I shortstack with 100 each time or risk playing with scared money and play my regular 100BI with 200 dollars?" After much thought it seems buying in with 200 was the most profitable strategy in the long run, and I eagerly sat down in my assigned seat looking to repeat my easy victory last trip.
"Hmm this doesn't look too good..." I said to myself as I noticed the chip tower of the Asian guy in the brown American Eagle hoodie immediately to my left, "there must be at least 300 dollars in each one of those three columns, he has a least 1k in that stack. Maximum buy-in is only 300, he must be running hot or is pretty good, and that tower looks suspicious like the newly finished Burj Dubai." I would later learn that he is an ex-marine who currently works for the risk management group of Charles Schwab, plays almost weekly in the Borg and is a fairly TAG degen gambler. He was also running quite good.
To the Asian guy's left is an Eastern European guy with avatar shades and a 60 dollar hip haircut, what's even more important is his 600 dollar plus stack and expressionless face. Later I would learn that he's a programmer who's semi retired and a regular in low stack AC and Vegas games. It did not take me long to notice that he too is a TAG player and almost never competes with the Asian guy for the pot. "This is starting to not look so good, I am short stacked and with these two to my left I'll have a pretty hard time to see some cheap flops." The rest of the table was pretty unremarkable, players were all tighter than the ones I faced last week, although there was one obese old man reading a 40% off book from Barnes and Noble titled "Self actualization" the whole time while playing, perhaps it is for his gambling problems?
Although feeling I could be outmatched, I still decided to play my regular ABC style and go value town as opposed to walking away from the table. It did not take me long to lose a nice 70 something dollars to the Asian guy with my TPTK as he showed his 45s for a straight on the river. While seeing my stack slowly dwindling as I pay 10% of my stack for every pocket pair in hopes of farming a set I got a chance to speak to the two TAGs to my left, learning that they actually keep track of the amounts in the pot on every street and are able to calculate the pot odds. "I probably should switch table since these two definitely aren't fish, look at how tall the Burj Dubai is now, there must be around 1600 chips in there." Thought I.
Yet against my better judgments I stayed, though on the bright side the two TAGs decided to leave after 4 hours or so of play and the table received a bunch of college age players whom were repeatedly asked by the dealer to have their IDs checked. The bad news is now I only have around 100 dollars of my chips left and I am running no better than I was before. Against their 300 dollar buyins I am playing scared money for sure, one bad flip and I could be on that shameful bus ride back to New York city within half an hour. Yet despite knowing I'm playing with very scared money I still couldn't just walk away, it's my hubris that keeps me from riding the almost as shameful bus ride back knowing I have lost half my live bankroll.
In my quiet desperation I attempted a few bluffs since I know I have quite a tight table image, which allowed me to have some breathing room, always just for a quick while. My lucked turned briefly as I doubled up twice with a house of 7 full of queens and a house of queens full of jacks which turned my 70 dollars into 370. All seems to be going well for me as I can play more adventurously with my new gained wealth, at least for a little bit.
What I failed to notice was the dark specter of tilt that had unmistakably lurked to my back after 6 hours of continuous play with mostly limp/fold action. I would start to calculate the number of hands I've had vs. the lack of aces or pocket kings, and every time a new guy who just sat down for two rounds and hits a set of kings with his pocket kings the tilt would gnaw at my nerves. Soon enough I had the flashing thought of "Maybe I am tilting." that would be dismissed by my ego as quickly as it surfaces. In my personal experiences this question is the most accurate tell-tale sign of tilting as the rational part of my brain attempts to communicate with myself for one last time before having my actions over taken by emotions/subconsciousness/whatever you think tilt is.
Once tilt takes over it was all over. Some of the new college age kids started playing a tricky/maniac image type of poker with 100 dollar raises and much more common river bluffs yet I was no longer getting premium hands to trap them with. Soon I started chasing open ended straight draws, sometimes even on flush draw boards and betting on the river with my busted draws at one final attempt to steal the pot as I try to hold on to my chips in the pot as a sinking sailor trying to hold on to any piece of plank floating on the ocean. The struggles proves to be futile as my chip stack quickly sinks and I finally busted out with a pair of queens with ace kicker vs. a king high runner runner flush.
The bus ride back was depressing as I replayed the day over and over again in my mind like a projection machine stuck on loop. In theory 300 hands down swing should be expected but I know I was not getting the maximum amount out of my playable hands and tilting like hell in the end. Perhaps it is a good early lesson on the importance of table selection in live games, a necessary lesson on tilt management, bankroll management and live variance but losing the equivalent of half your online bankroll in a short 8 hours still has it's after shocks. It will be a while before I have the proper bankroll to return but I sure hope I don't consistently lose in live games that I would turn into another Chinese walking corpse before even hitting my prime.
Red line took a massive dump and there doesn't seem to be much I can do to revive it. Not sure if I want to give out my Stars ID now, I think I'll keep that private for the time being. It's been a bit weird to adjust to the Stars games, I HOPE I'm starting to get the hang of it but they're definitely different than FTP. Whether that means stars is harder or easier I have no clue, but as of right now I definitely prefer the FTP games and think it's easier there, but that's only because I've spent the last 2 years playing those games and know them very well.
I think the problem lies mostly in that I refuse to play non-50bb games at 2/4, but the only people that play those games are regs and it's mostly fish and shortstacks at the non-50bb tables. In that case I have to play regs who all seem to be 1ptbb winners at best, which on the surface seems good for me but I've yet to really "figure" them out so to speak. Their problems probably lie in having poor turn/river play, whereas they seem to be solid preflop. Everyones spewy on FTP, so it's higher variance but it's a lot easier to play bigger pots with mediocre stuff because people are so aggro, on Stars it alternates frequently from playing with nit grinders to people who are playing decently.
If anyone plays msnl at Stars and wants to talk feel free to pm me.
I wanna get the 200k vpp supernova, but I think there'll be a pretty big dilemma once FTP does their anti-SSer thing and if Stars doesn't follow suit then all the SSers on FTP will go to Stars, causing an even bigger problem for Stars regs.
"You do this for me, I do this for you, the former."
Reciprocality
"In the world of reciprocality, it's not what you do that matters most, and it's not what they do. It's both."
- No thing in poker is isolated. (I bet, that was good, it's in correalation to what you opponent does.)
" Reciprocality says that when you and your opponents would do the same thing in a given situation, no money moves, and when you do something different, it does."
Information reciprocality
- It's as simple as not giving up information in situations they would.
- Each time you don't give out information, you gain.
(example, raging after bad beat, making comment, so forth, just stay quiet, muck the hand, nothing.)
"There's two sides of the information coin at all times, there's giving information and receiving information."
The Information War
- Recieve more, and send less, and you win the information war.
(Anytime you can isolate a situation, where you're able to do something diffrent than they do, which is profitable, which comes again over and over again, you're gonna make a ton of money.)
- Important to put effort into sending less information, and recieve more.
- You work on moving less, moving ur tongue less, eyes less, hands less, shoulders less, everything.
- Where does the money come from ? Is it just from playing good? No. It's from playing diffrent than they do.
- Giving off little information is profitable.
- Over time, this will add up huge.
The origin of reciprocality
- From duplicate Bridge, where everyone plays the same hands.
- In poker, a good way to see if you played the hand well is, at the river, when hands are shown, imagine you had his hand, he had yours, and then play the hand out in ur head. What would have happend.
"Reciprocal Analysis"
Reciprocality
- Look for, create, and amplify profitable differences.
Life: Can look at it with life as well, for instance, you eat meatballs and spaghetti and get stuffed, the other guy eat some salad and yogurt, and you sit down and play poker.
" Mine for reciprocal gold inside any decision that impacts your poker game."
- Any sort of health asspect is major. (Correct sleep, working out, so forth.)
- If you feel good and sharp all the time, you earn a hell of a lot more money.
Reciprocal analysis
- Example: You bet the river, he calls, you reverse the street, you get his hand, he bets, you would have folded.
"You can use this tool on just one street, or a combination of streets."
Reciprocality in action: Look what people aren't doing, and do that, till they find a counter strategy, then do something else people aren't doing. (Example, when people started 3 betting light, then people started 4betting light, so forth.)
Acting Last
" You can think of there being two positions: last and non-last."
How strong is acting last? It's strong, so strong. The act of being last is monumental.
What does this mean as far as reciprocality matters?
"If you can act last more than they do, you have created an advantage."
Acting last. how to create it?
- playing the button more often than they do
- folding the blinds more than they do
- And how you decide to play in the high jack and cut-off (Play it really aggressive.)
- Multiway pot, you're middle position, first guy bets, you raise, guy behind you fold, now you're last on turn and river.
"Anytime you take action which puts you last more than they do, you made a reciprical advantage."
Bankroll reciprocality
- How you partition your money, and where it actually physicly exists, compared to your opponents money.
"Anything that is not your A-game, we are defining as tilt."
"Tilt reciprocality is anytime you tilt less than your opponent would in the same situation."
Tilt reciprocality is your slippage matched up against everybody else's. Tilt reciprocality recognizes that any reduction, however small, in the frequencies, durations, and depths of your own tiltings will always have the effect of favorably widening the gap between your tilt and theirs, thereby earning immediate reciprocal advantage. To make money from tilt, you don't need to be tiltless. But you do have to tilt less.
Rolling with the reciprocality flow
"There's no absolute right or wrong way to play poker, ever. It's entirely dependent on what other people are doing."
* That's why being adaptive and flexible is critical.
- You want to have all the skills available, play extra tight when they are not, and you need to play looser when they are not.
- Preflop % Is something to always be looking for.
Reciprocality and mindfulness
- Be more mindful than your oponent in situations where it is more profitable than mindlessness.
- mindfulness can be seen as a renewable energy sources which never goes dry.
What is the diffrence that makes the biggest diffrence? The ultimate reciprocality?
As it turns out it has nothing to do with the diffrences between ourself an our opponent, and has everything to do with how we are today, and how we are tomorrow.
And that's why this practice with mindfulness is the ultimate
place to mine for recpirocal gold. Because what we are really doing when we remember to put more attention to what is happening now, than we did in the previous hour, day, week, is that we are generating profit, in ourself, in our lives. By making ourself happier people.
What this mean?
If we want to try and take the concept of reciprocality, and apply it at it's very highest level, toward the objective of reducing our suffering, the suffering around us, then all reciprocality should be thought of as being internal.
Hey guys so I took a 6 month break from poker and am currently grinding up through the ranks again. My friend Chris suggested to me that I should force myself to make 100 buyins at NL2 (Six Max) before I move up and so I know i have discipline (i am pretty tilt prone and need to see if i can grind a lot). I'll be going back to school in a few days and have already made great progress on that 100 buy ins. I have won approximately 45 buy ins in about 12k hands. PTR says my BB/100 is at 19/100 and I was wondering if my extreme success is just a heater? I know I only have 12k hands logged but I feel that nl2 is like taking candy from a baby. Also, I have played up to nl50 6max. Anyways, I guess i'll keep this blog updated so I can hopefully enter that bloggers tourney on stars. Once i get up to like nl25 with like 1500 i will buy poker tracker but I have been keeping a graph in excel to see how i'm doing and it is quite beautiful.
things are picking up again!by moonk379, January 09
i realize im not gettin enough hands but seems like i can't play more than 3 hour per session so im going to try to get 3 hours in the morning and 3 hours at night instead of playing during the day for couple hours then quitting and playing another hour and stopping. anyways other than the big drop from the heads up matches hoping to score big on higher stakes (hands 7000-7600) i think im doing fairly well.
plz my roll got destroyed ill send first to trusted
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