I am so inconsistent and undisciplined when it comes to Poker.
The two huge faults I notice of mine are:
1. I don't put enough attention and focus while playing poker.
2. I don't put enough attention and focus while learning poker.
When watching coaching videos I'll be doing something else as well - watching a Starcraft 2 stream or talking to people on MSN. This is true also while actually playing poker. I realize that it isn't that bad when you're just grinding, but when you want to improve your game it is really detrimental. WiltonTilt said in the "Haj School" videos on Deucescracked that if you aren't able to give your full attention to learning and improving your poker game, then you just aren't that serious about poker. And I've wanted to be serious about poker, many many times. But often times I'd say to myself that I can't be until I prove my attitude.
So that leads me to my next point. I need micro PLO players to converse with on a daily basis. I've only ever had ONE person I've actually talked to about PLO, and we weren't really on the same level. Ever since starting poker, I've never had someone to talk to, and I think talking to people would really improve my game, as well as motivate me. So any PLO micro limit players who are interested in making an online friend (and sensual lover), PM me.
For some reason my blog seems to be rather interesting to a bunch of people. Or it might just be that a bunch of you have to much time on your hands. Here comes a personal post. I'm slightly intoxicated so don't mind my spelling, or lack there off.
I've never been in great trouble. My childhood was nice. I've never been really poor. When I was 15 and fat I couldn't get the nice blond girl with big boobs, and I felt sad, but other then that I've always been a lucky fuck with a big ass smile on my lips. I have no right to claim that I understand pain or any of that shit, but I've had my share of 70k downswings and I've bleed on the streets (due to a bicycle accident, but fuck it, it sounds cool). And I never asked for a free lunch.
I do know people who has been through some bad times though. I recently spent an evening and a bottle of rather nice red wine with a person I've come to greatly admire. She made me think of this piece of wonderful lyrics from the Black Album (which Nolan, our forum black person, introduced me too);
I never asked for nothin I don't demand of myself
Honesty, loyalty, friends and then wealth
Death before dishonor and I tell you what else
I tighten my belt 'fore I beg for help
Foolish pride is what held me together through the years
I just play the hand I'm dealt, I can't say I've never knelt
Before God and asked for better cards at times to no avail
But I never sat back feelin sorry for myself
If you don't give me heaven I'll raise hell
And I've also come to the conclusion that this nice little girl weighing in less then 50 kilos and 150 cm is more of a man then the bunch of you girly-men who posts EMO-cry-posts about poker. And no, I'm not guilt free, I used to do that too, but keep that in mind. You might be rich, you might be successful and you might even be a happy person, but in the balls department you're getting owned by a god damned hobbit. Doesn't mean that you're a bad person or that I don't respect you, but it's still something to think about. Fuck it, go be happy about the nice things you have in your life rather then complain about the money you for some reason did not win.
Or in the case of those of you I consider worthless pieces of diseased cow's stool, in the words of the late and great Bill Hicks; kill yourselves. The rests of us will go make something cool of our lives. Life is beautiful and don't ever forget it you ungrateful fucks.
MMA fighter bios avatars according to weight classby whamm!, January 07
where can i get hold of such facts? im trying to set up a program in my site similar to liquibet but it contains UEFA,NBA, and MMA leagues only, with mma i wont be putting teams obv but i dunno a rich updated resource for it.
lifetilt connected to poker..?by Dogan0s, January 07
Happy new year all best of luck to all grinders out there.
I figured out i tilt too much in real life recently , tilt for stuff like didnt manage to get through lights while it was still green, or when i fail to go out for a coffee / drink with friends cause im beeing stuck at poker home,
when losing a game in sc2 etc or anything that wasted my time.
pretty normal stuff that never used to tilt me in the past.
Main problem i face is beeing very aggressive with friends or family.
poker used to tilt me more than normal , but nowdays i dont tilt that much in poker , but i do in life-.-
Do you think its connected to poker ?
pokerwise im doing pretty good @ nl100-200 , too bad the site is a piece of crap so i cant even post hands..
and I suck at poker
fuck this I keep running so bad and paying them off whenever they cooler me
Hope I can run good again at some point in life
Edit: 5bi upswing and cashing fpp would put me back again
Been too long since I've posted, need to get more consistent with that.
Anyways, I got involved in a staking site, and got staked to play micro SnG's. Playing around the 6 dollar level with decent success right now. I basically play 6 dollar 90 mans and 5 dollar 45's and splash 3's for volume/variance control. The 3's are insane soft.
I've also messed around with the 4 dollar rush on demands, but I'm not a big fan. Everyone nits around and I feel like I have to cooler everyone to get anywhere in them.
As far as life goes, pretty meh. Enjoying the house and finally getting caught up on bills. Also, playing random 1/2 live with AWFUL drunk people is fun, just saying. I also just got a new puppy, which is awesome. Brindle great dane/boxer mix if you are curious.
Hmmm... Have been working out a bit and watching the diet a little. Trying to lose some weight since my job is sitting around answering phone calls (when i work which is rare).
Need to find something else to supplement the wifes income, hopefully I can keep running OK on poker and grind out more than a part time job (which I feel shouldn't be hard).
Things I've been doing in poker:
-working on multi-tabling: I feel MUCH more comfortable with 8ish tables than I did before.
-Getting more volume: this comes with the first thing, but also i've just been putting in more time...less CoD more making money
-Doing Hand Histories: I have some very close friends who are really good players at the higher levels (109's and such) and they are some of the backers for my SnG action. One has been doing some HH's with me and it's really helped find some leaks in my game. It is definitely helping me with pot control, and knowing when to try to get value when to just check behind. I'm going to try to do something like this at least every other week. I may start paying him small sums to make up for it, even though we would be talking on skype anyways more often than not...
Mostly just trying to make my game more solid. I tend to spew some, and I'm really working on pot control and not getting into awkward spots. Also getting much better at shove/fold, and working on ICM. I have a grasp of it which is more than most players at my lvl, I just need to spend some more time in the math of things.
overall I feel like my poker game is greatly improving, and it feels good to be getting better at something. The plan is to keep plugging away, keep getting better, and hopefully make some money outta this deal.
I believe thats about it for now... I might try to do like...weekly updates, maybe some charts from HEM or something....who knows...
Feels bad to be like -10 bi on a short period of time. Of course there's always worse. But you feel it good when it happens to you and it sucks. I really hope it won't happen to you cauz it hurts. It just hurts.
But on the other hand it feels great when you finally managed to recover most of it back. Right ? Well that's exactly what happened to me on the same specific day.
But the human nature is never satisfied to what he's getting. And that's exactly what i'm feeling right now. I'm still playing the nl5 and i'm overall breakeven. I'm feeling like a super newb when i see that most of LP members are already on the upper limits.
Everyone is saying nl50 and below is super easy, which may not necessarily be wrong, but there are some period where you simply can't win against a fish because he's always getting the good cards and always folding when you have a good hand.
It's threads like exalted that make me glad that i'm not alone and i try to get better and especially better than the others regs in order to not be afraid of them everytime i've to play a pot against them.
But hey, i must say it feels good overall, i'm not trying to bitch, i just wanted to post a little whine and then pass it out
Here's graphs from the last 2 days. Played 16 hours total.
Biggest winning day since late 2007-08 I think. Feel great to be in crush mode. Funny that I rammed KK into AA about 10 times in about 20k hands and got oversetted about half that much. But then again I won just about every other pot so whatever. FUCK YOU LEE
what kind of job would you take on for 66k/year. (Before tax!)
A) 9-5 regular office cube job, thats somewhat interesting to you but very similar everyday
B) Retail big shot
C) Scientist in a stuck lab loving research
D) Field Demanding job away in bush hiking 5 months, in office 5 months working with computers an off 2 months of the year
E) Your option (realistic)
F) Suicide
Not necessarily in order of importance, but they all are pretty tilting:
1. People with breakeven EVs complaining about variance. If you have a breakeven EV, you are effectively flipping coins, and it should be obvious that you can easily get into a bad swing. There is a DIRECT CORRELATION between your winrate and variance. The higher your winrate, the lower variance you will have. Sound about right? Well it goes the other way too, fuckface. Stop posting 10 buyin "downswings" when your EV is neutral-negative. IMO this is probably my hugest complaint because sooo many people do it and even moreee people don't care to read it.
Sidenote: Of course, EV doesn't "show" everything, but is generally accepted as the vehicle with which one can complain about their luck. Replying and saying, "well, I got fucking coolered man and they got there on the river etc." just shows a complete ignorance of variance.
2. Posting bad beats. An example would be K40Cheddar. We've all gotten one outed before, and we don't particularly care about yours, because it wasn't ours. We only care about our own beats. Therefore, a nice adjustment to make is to keep it to yourself, because only you truly understand and care about how savage it was. Would be nice to have less litter in the "Hands" section although this may just be a pipedream.
3. Posting that "microstakes" is super duper easy. It's actually not for so many reasons, which I'll try to cover here:
a. There are so many breakeven nits that are trying to grind out bonuses. It is impossible to get a significant edge over them (especially as a beginning player), so your only comfort is that they are in the long term, also breakeven.
b. Highest % of rake, especially for people who are trying to do it at Pokerstars. This should be obvious, but I found Maynard's "low-midstakes black hole" blog extremely enlightening. I therefore immediately started staking my GF in higher games.
c. Not having resources that cost money. This can mean access to coaching, HEM or training videos. When people are so polarized between "nit-bonus hunter" and "casual gambler", new grinders have a choice. Concentrate on finding out who is who (low # of tables, higher winrate but still grinding out White Castle burgers), or, have a high # of tables, generally don't give a shit, and have a breakeven EV and high variance.
Obviously, I would be a dumbass if I said microstakes were "hard", being a NL400 reg. But I'm pretty sure at any given time there are plenty of harder micro tables than tables 10 times the stakes. So basically, through writing this blog, I've found out that I actually pity the microstake player, as they are the ones with the breakeven EV and thus complain about their "downswing".
The way to our hearts is not through bitching and posting bad beats in blogs and hands. The one exception would be Nighto11, who is so fucking annoying and helpless with his bitching that you can't help but try to help him. Same goes for NewbSaibot - there's a reason why they're where they are. Same goes for Wobbly, who didn't bitch, worked his ass off, and now laughs at my "brag posts" of 5k months.
Ask real questions and stay honest about your abilities. Be willing to invest in yourself to become better. Ok that's it.
I think poker is making me superstitious.../SC2!!by Carthac, January 06
I truly did not want to write this blog at all. It seems every time I have some success and I make a blog, I drop a good number of BI's. Well I'm not running the greatest atm anyways, so FU poker gods.
I am growing to truly love a LAG style of poker. While run bad can definitely affect me, I feel that a more LAG style of play is much more consistent and less affected by variance than the more TAG style I used to play. I definitely don't feel I am playing a true LAG style, as I still have a pretty narrow hand range early position, but my aggression tendencies are definitely increasing. Feels good to show results when I try so hard at something
In other news, for those of you that enjoy watching starcraft and are not watching the GSL, start. I know there are a ton of SC1 purists that feel SC2 is not going to come close to how good SC1 was, but you have to get off your high horse and come aboard the SC2 ship. The community has grown to heights SC1 could have only dreamed of, and the tournaments SC2 is hosting already is astounding when you think of what is coming in the future. Meta game is developing at an alarming rate, and the game has become very competitive, with top players actually having to CHOOSE which tournaments to compete in because there time is so spread thin already with practicing, media events, and other tournaments. I feel big things coming in the future, and am excited about it.
Good luck to everyone! Lets wipe that last month from existence, with all the run bad and all everyone was having as far as poker goes, and focus on the new year
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Self banned myself from here for 2 reasons:
1. Very distracting. A black hole of my time. Not much gain.
2. Didn't expect negative reaction on my posts below so blanked them and left out of spite.
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