i have no fckin clue

i got kicked out of my house

last night i came home drunk off my socks at around 1 AM and my parents were up and waiting for me. they've been on the edge for the past few months because for years i've been just fucking around with my life not taking anything seriously and it's been getting to them, especially after my college scholarship got cut off last semester. it's understandable because i graduated high school 3rd in my class and made near perfect scores on the SATs and had an excellent track record in high school (soccer team captain, president of the math organization, student government, all that jazz) but chose to not go out of state. i had applied to Harvard and that was the only school that i applied to. when i got waitlisted there, i had no choice but to apply late to the local state university and i got in with a full ride + yearly allowance of like ~5k.

anyways, i got seriously involved with this one girl and i absolutely did not put in ANY work in college. i coasted for a few semesters getting decent grades in all the elementary classes by just skipping all my classes except during exams, but after i broke up with that girl, went to korea and learned alcohol, shit just hit the fan and everything just came to an epic life downswing. i basically stopped going to all my classes and even stopped taking exams FFS. every finals week i drank a ton and took my exams drunk as shit.

so that was junior year. i failed multiple classes and failed to keep up with the 24 credit hour requirement, which resulted in my scholarships getting pulled. my parents pulled out for me though and they paid for tuition last semester, and my grades improved, since i played very little poker and actually did most of my assignments.

anyways, last night, i came home piss drunk and ended up having to talk to my parents drunk. the thing is, my dad is a minister at a local church and i've been raised up in a very religious background all my life (asian upbringing + christian background - you can imagine what it's like). he asked me whether or not i remembered the scripture that we read a few nights back during our family discussion: "Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit" (Ephesians 5:18).

i told him yes.

he then asked me whether i was rebelling or something.

i nodded.

and then he pointed out how i wasn't just rebelling against my parents, but how i was rebelling against God.

i thought for a little while, and then i nodded in agreement.

he didn't say much afterwards. he simply told me to pack my things and leave. he also told me to return the tuition for this upcoming semester and do whatever i'd like with my life.

a lot of this religious stuff is probably over your head because i know most of the people here are really cynical or skeptical about religion, but it's something that' i've grown up with most of my life and it's an issue i've been struggling with for a while. i've done my share of spiritual searching but i have yet to find some sort of conclusion about God. at one point, i even fasted for 7 days for this very reason.

basically, i'm fed up with keeping up with this half-assed religious facade. i've only been pretending to be a good pastor's kid while the rest of me lived in hypocrisy, equivocation, and doubt.

my mother and my brother, as well as i, agreed that this was something that was absolutely necessary in turning things around in my life. i'm staying at my friend's dormitory for a little while. my brother offered to help me with tuition so i can finish my last semester of college. in the meantime, i'll be filling my schedule with uninhibited grinding (which was never before possible due to the circumstances of living at home) and studying for the CFA.

my car was totalled last week, so my friend is taking me down to New Orleans where i can play some live poker and build up some funds with which i can live for the next few weeks. my girlfriend lives there and i haven't seen her in 15 days. i got her an iphone for christmas and i'll finally get to deliver that to her tomorrow.

oh, and in other news, i made six buyins at NL50 playing 32/28 over 1k hands last night. donking flops worked wonders. it opens up so many possibilities through which you can manipulate the hand. you set yourself up for multibarrel bluffs, cheap semibluffs, and it gives your opponents the opportunity to spazz out eventually when they realize you're donking a pretty big range... they all of a sudden want to play a lot of big pots with me lol.

and i just got back from an amazing trip in Canada. snowboarding is FUN AS SHIT and i hit up the black diamond slopes by the end of the first day and had the TIME OF MY FUCKING LIFE brusing bones and internally bleeding on my way down LOL. i hope to return as soon as i can.

anyways, this is an exciting new stage in my life and i hope to update you all with more interesting news in subsequent posts.

GL fellas!

Jino

EDIT: thanks for the support everyone, much <3

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i love her. i run so good at life because she's mine, even though everything else in my life makes me miserable. we've been dating for about 5 months now and it's just been amazing.

today, we made out and i touched her boobies. direct contact, too. no clothes or any other bullshit like that.

story of an epic night soon to come?

nah. i think i'll keep that one between me and her

looks or game? the answer is BOTH. eat your heart out floofy.

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The impetus that led me to post a new thread questioning my sense of purpose and direction was this:



these books came in the mail today. they are the material that i have to study from now until June in order to prep for the CFA exam. With the last bit of live cashout money I signed up for this exam (fucking $1000 for a test + books lol).

tonight i'm going to set up a strict schedule for the coming months, during which i will attempt to balance studying these books, my last semester of college, my job at the school's finance department office, and poker. Next semester, I have class all day during tuesdays and thursdays. i think i'll limit my schedule so that i work only on wednesdays or something (the pay is absolutely pathetic but it's useful for reference purposes). other than that, i will have a 4-day weekend, during which i can freely mix up my schedule between poker and the cfa exam. I have NEVER in my life been a follower of schedules but let's see how a shift in gears will improve my life.

lol... all i need to do now is figure out how to keep myself the fuck away from my degen buddies.

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so in my last blog i detailed how my friend donked away my 25nl roll.

well since then, i've built it back up but, again, just a couple weeks ago he joined a few $109 tourneys or sitngoes or sth for shits and giggles and found out that he couldn't unregister? wtf? and then he proceeded to try to make it back by shortstacking 50nl.. lol well that failed miserably.

anyways, this week i was left with around 40 dollars in my account. i took up the most aggressive BR management ever and played two tables of 10NL, gradually increasing tables, and then switched over to 25NL when i had ~15 buyins, four tabling. so after months of wasting SO much time, i guess i'm really going to give this online poker thing another shot. this graph doesn't have all of my hands, but i should be playing 50NL in a day or two with 20 buyings if i continue to run good.



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^im running at 24/19 cuz i sometimes limp in good spots and cheaply draw to the nuts. i also flat/3bet in position vs. regulars a little more than i should, but it seems to work.

I'm seriously considering looking for a coach once i hit 100nl. running good is one thing, controlling my game is another, and the more i play, the more i realize how direly i need to improve if i want to continue moving up. pm me if you are interested and we can start talking about this.

i've been at microstakes forever, not just because i don't know what's going on, but more because i have no discipline basically. plus, i pretty much never put in hands like this. usually, i only play like 2k hands a week if im up to it (and usually i'm not). BUT if anyone playing microstakes are unsure about some abc stuff, feel free to pm me whenever. i'm like always on lp and i'm tired of browsing through the same posts over and over again!

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i gave my bff the password to my account cuz he was bored at the library the other day. would've transferred but i've been transferring to him small sums of money so often for the past few months that pokerstars decided to freeze our accounts. he called me today and said he lost everything in the account (~$500). shipship?

i laughed it off, obviously. my lack of discipline/lazyness/nonchalance has reached the point of zen-like numbness to every stimuli both external and internal. it's ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY divine.

i will say this, though:

the only thing that tilts me is the fact that he still won't acknowledge the fact that he's the worst poker player alive. he refuses to HU =/

well,

GG FELLAS it's been SOOOO much fun!







BY THE WAY, i'm still playing live! i travel down to New Orleans every weekend with this donk fuck (in pink):

yeah, we're like this close so it's all just shits and giggles for me, really =)





small life update: i'm taking the CFA Exam LVL 1 in June since i no longer have online poker to fall back on (even though i never did, but that's besides the point).





...i'll probably pick up online poker again when this cancer of a friend is removed from my life lolol




edit: god i fail at life so hard.. hahahaha

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ever since i got over pokemon trading cards back in elementary school, i thought i was through with being pointlessly attracted to material things. but i gotta say, all that changed when i saw this car. i have never been so materially and vainly attached to something. i feel like a third-grader obsessing over japanese action figures all over again...

it's coming out in spring 2009, right on schedule with my graduation







"The Genesis Coupe will have two available engines. The base engine will be a 2.0L turbocharged 4-cylinder producing 223 hp (166 kW) and 217 ft·lbf (294 N·m) torque, with an optional 3.8L Lambda engine producing 312 hp (233 kW) and 266 ft·lbf (361 N·m) torque on premium gas. On regular grade fuel the power outputs will be reduced to 212 hp (158 kW) and 306 hp (228 kW), respectively."

"Few specific details on pricing have been revealed by Hyundai, although rumors suggest the base model turbo-I4 will be released at $19,900 and the V6 model at $25,900."

i love everything about it. the design, the power, and above-all, the bang-for-buck factor, since it will be the cheapest +300 hp rwd coupe available. I gotta say, the tiburon was an epic fail compared to what hyundai has achieved with this new model.

http://www.thegenesiscoupe.com/

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This month, instead of playing online poker lately i've been driving about an hour or so down to New Orleans to play at the incredibly soft 1/2 tables there during the weekends.

net: +$2700 or 108 buyins at 25NL ^__^

i really like the game structure at Harrah's New Orleans. 1/2 blinds, and buyins are $60 min and $200 or 1/2 chipleader's stack max, and a $6 time-rake every dealer change, at 30 min intervals. so overall, the structure is pretty solid, imo.

now the juicy part is that most of the players who play there are incredibly bad. ok, you might see someone sitting there with a huge 500bb stack and i usually give them some credit, but if i see someone with just < 100bbs, i can confidently assume that the player is absolutely clueless fish playing 40/7 or something.

the more or less standard preflop raise around here is at least 5bb and up to 15bb if there are a ton of limpers. i think about 90% of the players here play an extremely limpy, loose-passive style cuz they just love to limp a ton with a bunch of suited or connected shit and low pairs while raising just pocket pairs and AJ+ maybe KQ+. and they have no clue how to make use of position.

preflop

i used to isolate over a couple or more limpers a bunch when i first started playing, but it didn't work out too well as too many people behind me would call the pfr and then the limpers would also come along for the ride quoting "pot odds" like it's the motherfucking mantra of preflop poker, and all too often i'm holding something speculative like QTs looking at a 5-way flop that misses me the majority of the time. so, adjusting to that i'd limp in position with a lot of the hands i would be raising preflop like QTs or suited connectors, weak pairs, completing the sb or btn with Axs or Kxs. in position and folded to me though, or with 1 limper or something, i'd raise a decent amount of times with a pretty wide range which is pretty standard. playing in that style though, required a lot more patience than i thought. since it was of critical importance that i show down pretty strong hands for image's sake, i thought i should begin with strong hands to begin with. with an image like that, i confidently made some tricky plays preflop where i'd squeeze from the sb over a straddle and several limpers with 57s, etc. 3bet pots were extremely rare at these tables because if someone usually raises only like 6% of their hands, the range of hands that go to preflop are obviously a lot tighter than that. so i refrained from 3betting and squeezing preflop raise + calls as much as possible... i mean of course unless the situation was just like, lol duh obviously squeeze because the guy is raising a third of his hands on the button and the small blind is very loose in raised pots but tighter in 3bet pots.

postflop

when cbetting, i looked for flops like 992 or K72, where it was extremely likely that the villain missed the flop, and if he calls, i can just give up subsequently without a read (or maybe if i knew that villain would always raise a top pair on the flop but he elects to just call, i'd fire a second barrel a lot of the times when the turn bricks). whenever the board was extremely ugly, though, like 897hh and i'm holding AKo, i'd check/muck without a second thought. i used to cbet hands that marginally held some equity vs. villain's calling range, like AQo on a KJ7 flop, but i decided that the best way to play at these tables was to just check it behind in position and hope for the best.

when i hit, it's fistpump valuetown because action is always good when there's a draw on the board. and it's the easiest thing to do because people NEVER raise unless they have a hand that squashes mine. these 35/6's NEVER raise as a bluff at the right moments. but they will call down with the shittiest draws imaginable. once i made solid valuebets against the most obvious chaser ever on the flop and turn with JJ on an AQ4ss board and won vs K3ss (i run good!). and it's SO funny how i can expect a TON of free cards and cheap showdowns because these people will NEVER bet as much as they will call. I've seen some ridiculous hands where the nut flush checked behind the river playing against some random idiot station because the board was paired. my friend was playing against this fat guy who i thought was pretty good, until the hand where the board came down to like A24, goes check-check, turn 8, he checks, my friend bets, guy calls, river comes the last A and the guy checks. my friend makes a horrible horrible bluff for like 1/3 pot and the guy insta CALLS and turns over A2... @_@

fun hands from last week:

huge bluff 300bb deep - maniac-ish UTG raises to 10, UTG+2 deepstack calls, folds to CO who calls, and i'm sitting on the SB with AKo and most of the times i'd just call here, but it felt like one of those rare spots to squeeze so i 3bet to 40 and they all folded except the UTG+2.

Flop comes QQ9 and the pot is ~$100. i insta think to myself 3 barrel AI because i'm already planning to bluff out mid-pairs to JJ, planning to fold to a raise at any point. so i start off with a donkish 1/2 pot cbet which he calls pretty quickly.

turn comes an 8 and im like uhh.. he prob doesn't have 88 then (lol) and i timebank a little before making a 1/2 pot double barrel again, $110 into ~$200. he thinks a long time, and then asks me how much i have. i'm like "lol wtf fuck my life" but i coolly told him that i had like 300 left, after which he just elected to call.

river comes a 7 and i naturally decide that it's a brick card since 77 would have folded the flop or the turn. after timebanking for about 2-3 mins i figured i would have been raised earlier by any hand that wouldn't fold to a shove here so i shipped in 150bbs as planned and the guy swore out loud as he insta folded AK face up. apparently the dude was going to try and ship it in if i check to him on the river and he didn't have the balls to bluffshove the turn for 200bbs anyways.

i still don't know for sure if it was a mistake or not to show my hand, but in the moment i just insta happily flipped over my AK when the dealer mucked villains AK while making the biggest, happiest grin on my face, a la JonnyCosMo.

one more:

I have AJo in lp and raise to 14 over a couple of limpers. BTN calls and limper in MP calls. Flop comes K5T and I cbet ~$30. BTN calls and limper folds. Turn card is a 4, but i strongly felt that this guy would likely flat in position with any K, so i checked, hoping for a free river. But he chose to bet out 50 and i was almost certain he held a K, and possibly a strong kicker too since most players i've seen, who are incredibly passive, checked behind weak kings and draws here. i probably would have folded but i thought i'd put my image to use and attempt a check-raise here, something i'd never pull on-line playing as robotically as i do there, but 1-tabling live is just a whole new game. long story short, i tanked for like 3 mins and proceeded to check-raise to 150 and the guy asked how much i had, thought for some more, and then folded KQ face up and said i had two pair. later on, the guy left for a smoke and i cashed out 1.2k (sick 600bb stack). on my way out, i told the fat guy that i bluffed out with AK that i had AJo in this hand, but when I met the other guy smoking in the lobby, i told him "good fold, i had KK." and he slaps me on my shoulder as he says, "I KNEW IT! Man you think wayy too long with your nuts-type hands. if you work on that, then i think you'll be a pretty good player. Nice playing with you dawg!" LOL

ehhh one last hand

i shipped in 22 with a 40bb stack and tripled up against two players when the flop came something like 38557 lol. from there i built up to that 600bb stack. damn i run so good live.





...and lastly, fuck rakeback or fpps. NOTHING beats free drinks. NOTHINGGGGG...

GL at the tables, fellas

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hey guys.. i turned 21 a few minutes ago.. im at harrahs NO playing legally for the first time

im a little drunk but i run good when im drunk so wish me good luck

gg life

gl lp

fuckin represent!!

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hey guys.. i turned 21 a few minutes ago.. im at harrahs NO playing legally for the first time

im a little drunk but i run good when im drunk so wish me good luck

gg lp

fuckin represent!!

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