first 1,3 K hands i was up 170$ on Nl50 when i tried to rebuild today
then suddenly i get crushed by sick setups and then finally start to tilt a bit
result - 270$ in the end.
But this video keeps me motivated to go on forever till i either suceed or die
I am down 1,6K this month ... -1,2K on Nl100 HU -600 on NL200HU + 200 on NL50 6max
So this leaves me in a very shitty situation.
basically 1 1/2 month ago i was sitting on a 5K online roll
right now my casher shows 147$ .....
I had 2 major cash outs ( 2,8K in total)
reasons for the cashout were being afraid of german online law and not wanting to have a big online roll in case poker gets totally banned in germany on January 2009
+ I bought some things from the money
spend like 300$ on partying
300$ on watch
1K on a 10day holiday trip to dublin ( which will happen next week)
200$ in MMA gear
which leads to a total of 1,8K spent this month.
So this + Poker i spend a whooping 3,400 $ this month so far >_<
I have 2 options now .
1.) cash in like 1K back into poker account and play Nl50 6max with 21,5 buy ins.
2.) get a 1K stake from somebody and play NL506max with 21,5 buy ins.
i probably will take option nr.1
I simply dont like the idea of playing with someones else money too much.
looking back at what happend this month the situation is really sad !
And i am 100% responsible for the misery
My main fault all this time and ever since i have been playing poker is the inability to move down when not having proper BR for a limit ....
just as an example ...
After the Cashouts i had ~ 2,1 K monez left.
I played Nl100 HU with 21Buy ins which is not good itself but maybe okay when u move down as soon as u only have 18buy ins left.
I hit a really freaking bad run and got down to just 1,3K $ -> i played NL506max and got it back up to 1,7K .... then moved up to Nl100HU again.
My thought at this time was , that i lost like 90% of the money due to bad luck and therefore i can take shots with 17 buy ins.
1st mistake ! not moving down enough early !
2nd mistake moving up again too early
Then i run good and played good and made it to 2,3K $ ( now my Ego was like : Hell yeha i crush it when i run normal)
Soon after that a downswing came and i just was totally unable to move down untill i was left with 1,1K $ .....
then i played NL506max with 21 buyins.
Hit a really bad run and was left with 650$ .... after that bad run ended and i build roll up to 1100$ again at Nl506max
And now the insanity starts ....
I switch to Nl100 Hu again with just 11 buy ins !!!!! ( wtf where i thinking )
At first i made it to 1,4K and then lost like almost all but 330$ at Nl100 HU ...
switched back to NL50 6max with a 330$ roll today and then the following happend .
well and after just 280 hands
i was down to 147$ and quit the session.
I kinda feel like being Schniblor or Ashman103 right now when they busted their first Million ^^
I know i am better than most NL100 players , i know i play good most of the time , i know i have very decent poker skills ( from the pure card game aspect) for a low stakes player.
But i simply massivly lack discipline a good amount.
There always must happen some serious shit before i realize what i do is totally wrong
Okay now the shit has happend !
And i will get more serious finally
1.) i have still problems dealing with TAG nits in HU
They play like 32/25/6
so most of the time they fold preflop and i win 1$
or whenever it comes to post flop action -> most of the time i am crushed in a big Pot.
basically i dont know what to do to play vs them profitable >_<
It seems like i can only win vs that style with massive amount of luck ;(
They fold every hand oop preflop and fold everything on flop except for when they really have a hand.
So most of the time it goes like the following
I win like 7$ in 100hands from them ...T_T and then it comes to a big pot where either me or villian has a setup
nutz vs second nutz ...
2.) I run so bad its ridiculous
and then it comes to a big pot where either me or villian has a setup
nutz vs second nutz ...
unfortunately in this situation i tend to always lose
FH < FH
2 pair < vs riverd board 2pair of overcards
flush < flush
set < streight
straight < straight ...
-> i am down 11 buy ins over the last 3K heads up hands.
i fail to see a way to destroy those players.
If anyone knows a way to win big vs them i d appreciate it.
currently i think those players wont win much longterm ... but its also clsoe to impossible that they get crushed
i broke someones foot with my shinbone in a sparring ....
interesting thing is we both had full protection gear on ( shin + foot protection)
And since we were sparring we didnt go 100% power with our kicks and punches...
he makes a low kick i block with my shinbone
His foot hits my shin -> foot breaks
He was new to MMA but had a decent KungFu background >-<
i think he wont do a low kick with the foot ever again
I run so bad that random NL50 Nitfish ( 16/7/1) advice me to : " GO home and save your money ! "
funniest thing ive heared in a while.
Opposed to their believes when seeing all the brutal suckouts and coolers i get i am still winning
not a lot ... but at least i am winning while running bad
here is todays graph
with rakeback this makes a net profit of 59$ in 2 1/2h ( 23$ hour
Compared to Real par time jobs 23$/h is probably still very good for a student.
: P : P
okay just made this blogpost cause i found it so very much ridiculous
that random fish advice me to save my money instead of gambling it off at Pokerz
he probably hasnt seen my AUgust graph
GL ALL
I will prepare for my daily MMA training now
todays session is BJJ
time to relax after almost killing my shinbone in Wednesdays Muay Thai session ^^
1. ) Friend of mine won 100.000€ ( 145.000 $) last week
LOl hes a fucking luckbox .....
He was choosen to participate in the 100K € shootout of the LAst game of Oliver Khan.
People from germany may have seen it on TV
10 people from germany got the chance to win 100€K each when they score a "16mpenalty" vs Olli Kahn ( former Goalkeeper of FC Bayern)
1 of the lucky guys who got choosen was Rob Urban a college of mine whith whom i study sport science together.
LOl 60K people in the stadium watching him doing his penalty shot vs Olli Kahn and he only has 1 chance ...
if he scores he wins 100K if he misses he wins nothing.
He was the one of the 10 guys to first shoot his penalty.
He scored and now is 145.000$ (100K euros) richer
Sick life
2.)I become kinda very pretty with all the MMA train lately
Did a lot of hard training recently including hard sparring.
I now have a nice cut on the upper part of my nose ( u know the typical cut u get when punched on the nose ^^)
+ my forehead has 2 semi-big nice red and blue signs of being hit with an MMA glove ^^
left shinbone is also massivly blue due to low kick blocking action
ship life
3.) Poker
I am still doomswitched but i am finally winning some money again.
didnt play too much but i made 75$ on NL50 last 600 hands which is very nice considering i still get sucked out and coolerd pretty brutal.
STill a long way to go till i have the 1,3K back i lost during my DS
4.) Watched : "Never back down" today
Well not a good movie but still okayish if u like fighting
last 2 days - 1,3K in 4 K hands 50% NL100 50% NL50
I cant win a hand
all-ins pre
AA vs KK preflop -> flop K
QQ vs JJ preflop -> flop J
QQ vs AK preflop -> board A + K
KK vs AA ofc AA villian holds
AA vs 44 -> flop 4
draws ->
mine never hit ... villians hit close to 80%
sets -> i dont flop -> if i flop like 1 set in 800 hands i dont get paid
bluffs ->
whenever i bluff villian has the absolute nutz >-<
I must admit i missplayed some hands and could have extracted a bit more value somtimes + find a few more folds
However even if i played absolutley perfect id still be down like 5 buy ins in 4 K hands >-<
so now i am down a bit over 13BI in just 4 K hands which sucks ass...
I succesfully finished my 4 week praktikum today and i am finally free again.
no more getting out of bed at 6.20am ( which i hated so much the last 4 weeks)
SO the next weeks probably will feel like heaven.
Every day will consist of about 2-4 hours BJJ technique training
+ 3-4h learning university stuff for upcomming exams ( i dont have to go to the courses though which is nice
every second day will add either 2-3h of " stand up fight" training or 4-5h of Poker
2-3 times a week i will either go running or swimming ( endurce for feets and arms)
2 times a week i might add specific wight lifting and body weight excercising
1 time a week on saturday i will have 3 hours of specific MMA training.
( ON the weekdays i will train Groundfighting and stand up seperated)
Sunday i have completely free so i do whatever i feel like.
okay so BJJ + MMA + University is only thing i have to do next weeks
additionally i add some pokerz
ship life !
btw i went on mega tilt some days ago ...
didnt want to go to work next days so i opend 2 HU poker tables NL200 at late night and pulled of emo moves .
randomly spew away liek 1 K >-<
lol
I really fucking get too much tilt affected when i am unhappy with life conditions.
Its like when i am forced to do things all day that i find very boring
i get so emo depressive >-<
Okay i will probably semi quit Poker for the next 2 months
But i have a very nice reason !
I have an upcomming amateur MMA match in Poland on 24.10
So next 2 month i will spend hell amount of time to train my ass off.
If u go into an MMA bout without being prepaired very good u basically land in hospital for sure
I am not to keen on that ( allthough i am well aware this might still happen .... but if i am well prepaired chances of winning teh fight and not getting injured too much are good)
I ll do my best to prepaire myself as good as i can.
I will train a shitload of different things the next weeks which requires like all of my free time.
-brazilian Jiu Jitsu technique , Muay thai technique each 3 times a weak several hours ( this training will mainly just contain relaxed tequniue to get the right flow and a good arsenal of weapons to use in my fight)
-weight lifting and cardio ( running + shaddow boxing)
- special explosive and fighting related strenghth train with bodyweight.
- some wrestling + sepcific MMA training.
- lots of sparring
Allthough this means i dont have much time for poker , if any at all
i am really happy and pumped !
gogogogo me ^^
here is a nice video that i allready posted in my blog a few times
However this is my favourite fighter and i feel so happy and pumped when looking at it now
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