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Hey guys
I write this mainly for myself

Yesterday was a very strange day with a very surreal evening.
In my home city there was some big party going on where basically all pubs had open until 6am in the morning + special drinking offers

Needless to say me and my friends got really drunk.

basically what u do at these kinda events is u go from bar to bar and have 1-2 drinks at every bar till your totally drunk.
at around 1am we arrived at the last bar for the day and started drinking.
Then i notice this girl that i havent seen in years !

My first real love !
I wrote about her and our relationship a bit in an eariler blog few months ago. ( I think most of u havent read or dont remember)

We were together for about 1 year when we both were 16-17years old
It was a pretty sick intense extreme relationship with a lot of love and a lot of pain/hate
We had many downs and many highs during that time.
We did lots of stuff together that i havent down with anyone else ever again and basically our relationship split up for 2 reasons
1.) It got a little bit too extreme 2.) she moved away to another city for her job and we simply didnt see us enough anymore

She was also the first women i had sex with

the 1 year we were together was really sick.
We basically only met at weekends , got really hard on drugs everytime and did crazy shit together.
Wasnt healthy ... not for our bodies and not for our souls ^^
It was a constant rollercoaster of pleassure and depression and longterm it wasnt good for any of us. (f.e Both of us got really heavily into drugs because of that relationship)

after we split up i didnt really have much contact with her anymore. ( I guess both of us tried to start a normal life again, and the only way to really succeed was to leave the past behind)
This all has been almost 5 years ago !

So yesterday i saw her again.

I came over to her and smiled
She first didnt really know how to react and looked a bit confused
but after some time she smiled back and we started drinking.

1h later her friends and her Boyfriend said that they will go home.
my friends also went home then since 2 of them were so drunk that they constantly run to the toilette puking ^^

So my first great love told her friends that shed like to stay here with me and continue drinking with me
while i told my friends the same.

so at 2am i sat alone with her at a table both of us drinking drink after drink while talking about old times^^
This was teh first time for like almost 5 years we 2 were "together" again alone with ourself.
At first it was basically making jokes about how funny we have been as teenagers and the crazy shit we did.
The atmoshphere was like smalltakish.

But after a few drinks both of us got drunk and the talk got more serious.
Liek from: "Hey , do u remeber when we did ... that was funny" to " Hey , how du u feel nowadays " Are u happy inside?

Dont know if it becomes clear what i mean but i t really turned into some kind of deep conversation.
Thats where it become kinda really surreal.

I was really drunk till then and i only remember very small parts of the conversation and some thoughts.
AT some point i had to remind myself : Hey PplusAD u motherfucker plz dont fall in love with that girl again ! "
She also must have gotten really drunk since she started to say some strange stuff.

It all was more like a movie than real.

The atmosphare was really deep and emotional all the time.
maybe it felt a bit as if someone silently drops a tear of joy after seeing his missed wife is still alive or smth ^^

so we continued drinking and talking and we were both totally honest to each other and talked about what our lives looks nowadays and what we feel doing different things.

Then at like 4am we went home and i walked with her untill we arrived at the house of her Boyfriend where shed stay for the night.
We probably hugged 1000times during our walk home.
Then when we arrived i said : I guess we wont see in a long time , it was very nice to see u and it really made me happy to have that evening with u.
She replied : Well she also was happy to see me again and she would be happy to maybe see me again in the near future. We can see us at the weekend when she stays with her boyfriend ( Who lives in my town , too)
I replied in a calm soft and straight voice : I guess that wont happen

>-< lol i really dont know why i said this or whatever but i insta said this in a calm non emotional voice and i couldnt do anything about it.
It was like someone had control over me and forced me to insta say these words ...

Hehe she was really confused about these words. ( And tbh i was confused about that , too ^^)
Then she gave me another hug and said bye bye

I walked home.

woke up today and found that yesterdays happenings seem very strange to me

End of story

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- 4 buy ins

well back to the grind

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6 winning days in a row


In daily results

Nov 3 + 43,80 $
Nov 4 + 26.50 $
nov 5 + 32 $
Nov 6 + 148 $
Nov 7 + 70 $
Nov 8 + 35 $

+ 355 $


Allthough i spew a ton of money and could have made much more today
somewhere at the end of my session i got bored with the eaze of Nl25 and spew away a ton trying to create difficult situations to induce more fun >-<

I will go out with friends now and drink some beers instead of doing an evening session.

I also guess i will try some 1 table Nl50 Hu shots vs fish tomorrow
I should be siginificantly better than the average Nl50 HU player and especially at weekends its full of fish.


So far results.

started with 199$ from Nl10 6days ago
BR now 554.60$

GL all

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cashgame today + 80.90$
tourneys - 11$
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+70$


Last 5 days at micros

Nl25 + 205$
Nl10 + 116$
FPP + 10.67$
Toruney - 11$
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+ 320$

In daily results

Nov 3 + 43,80 $
Nov 4 + 26.50 $
nov 5 + 32 $
Nov 6 + 148 $
Nov 7 + 70 $


I hope i reach Nl50 within next 3 days and grind it out a good amount
Nl100 again hopefully before end of November


Good thing i finally left Ipoker ....
My downswing there was insane rigged.

still a long long way to go till i make back my losses of last 2 month ( > 4.000$ )

GL all

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So today i took my second shot at Nl25 6max after yesterday where i played very poorly.

went well
Competition was an unreal joke ...
Seems like Nl25 hasnt evolved one little bit since the last time i played there as a regular ^^ which was pretty long ago

today




hopefully i can pull of some graph like when i was a Nl25 reg 11month ago and be back at Midstakes soon ^^
here is the retro graph





GL all


last 4 days at micros
+ 250.70$


gogo me

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Nothing important happend i just make an entry for statistical reasons.

Today

Nl10 + 42$
Nl25 shot -20$ ( lol i could have easily won a good amount and was in the green untill my last few hands but i really played bad cause i was bored in the end ...)
FPP tourney + 10.67
.......................

+ 32 $

Last 3 days
+ 102 $ at micros in ~ 3,6K hands.

If it wasnt for Neilly today id allready cashed back in some $ and played Nl50 again after this 3 successfull sessions in a row

cause NL10 really is too easy.

But he reminds me that i must train my ability to play at lower limits !
My main fault in the past was that i couldnt move down below Nl100 for a long time when i wasnt really rolled for it anymore

So i will stay there a bit longer in the micros and build my roll back up to Nl50 and Nl100 by grinding micros.

Gl
ALl

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Days played 2
Hours played 5h 30min
Hands played 2,7K
Won @ SD 46%
net profit: + 70.30$ ( +7buy ins)
$/h + 12.80$


feels strange to play Nl10 after having played Nl200 and being a Nl100 reg for over 2 month ...

but at least its totally relaxing ^^
I will stay there untill my soulcrush of last 2 months is completely recovered

Last 2 days i actually enjoyed playing poker again which i havent done in a long time

GL
all

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Playing NL10 Stars atm to recover my soul from Ipoker shit ....

first 1,1K hands + 31,60$

edit : after 1,7K hands + 43,80 $



(pic from a Kyokushin Budokai ( Sei-Budokai gala)
go me

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449.830 German University students have been asked in a poll of StudivZ

+ Show Spoiler +

lolz

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Wow lol

I just realized i won 2 80-20 preflop all ins in a row !
on Pokerstars.


This has not happend on Ipoker for more than 1 month ...
lol
And this sadly as unreal as it sounds is no joke at all !

btw i busted my last Ipoker roll which was 34$ rakeback
by goin all in with A9 on 759 rainbow flop getting called by 88.
ofc i cant win this on ipoker turn 8

hopefully stars will threat me a bit better now.

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