Honesty

can you stop blogging every day please? thanks

dam, i thought this blog was gona be about your bluefire pro status.

honestly neilly if u want people to start to appreciate you maybe you should try to disapear a little
pretty sur alot of people are like me and have nothing agasint you, just finds you annoying

im not working for bluefirepoker.com because a botched stake on parttimepoker.com , after thats paid back then they want me to start making videos;

sry if im blogging too much, just wanted to explain some things to ppl who don't know me etc, (the ones that flame my blogs)

i'll stop blogging daily np, once a week for now on :-)

On August 01 2011 14:52 HeRoS)eNGagE wrote: honestly neilly if u want people to start to appreciate you maybe you should try to disapear a little pretty sur alot of people are like me and have nothing agasint you, just finds you annoying

yea, i hardly care what you do but blogging about your emotional state everytime it changes is annoying.

No need to read his blog if you don't care, for all i care neilly you can post 20 blogs a day

thanks , great advice duud_

any other constructive critisim is 100% welcome sirs;

think im happy wobbly is banned right now so i can avoid him making a 5 page list :-)

On August 01 2011 15:00 jeffv8x_-_16 wrote: No need to read his blog if you don't care, for all i care neilly you can post 20 blogs a day

how can you not click on his blog knowning its gona turn bad 90% of the time?

so you dumped all your MTT winnings and starting over in micros
how admirable

On August 01 2011 15:04 HeRoS)eNGagE wrote: Show nested quote + On August 01 2011 15:00 jeffv8x_-_16 wrote: No need to read his blog if you don't care, for all i care neilly you can post 20 blogs a day how can you not click on his blog knowning its gona turn bad 90% of the time?

Thats why clicked it tbh

But some1 needs to take his side once in awhile just so it isn't the same thing everytime

why would u want to waste time in micro stakes cash games when u r killing mtts

On August 01 2011 15:11 maryn wrote: why would u want to waste time in micro stakes cash games when u r killing mtts

its implied in OP that he doesnt have his winnings anymore loooool

hey guys, after 4/15 i only had $2300. I lost that in Live Pokerz. =[

I have cashed out twice on Hero for rent money ($600 / $500), but have been extremely poor since 4/15.

I have 175 on Hero and just grinding it up with mostly cashgames and a few mtts.

Having to cashout 500 every 3-4 weeks when building up from a very small br has caused to be problematic, but shouldn't be a problem much longer, as I'm most likely moving so I can play on stars in the next 2 weeks - 2 months (grindhouse!)

GL everyone and thx for your criticism,
Ryan

sucks i dont have the $ anymore, you guys are so spot on. its def something you guys can laugh at, its something im working hard to fix, but hte mtt selection on hero is just terrible compared to stars.....

soon i can grind stars mtts again fulltime !!!

hopefully during this time between moving I can get very solid in 6max and have both games to make $ in, more boccia style, that'd make me really happy ;-)

On August 01 2011 15:32 NeillyJQ wrote: sucks i dont have the $ anymore, you guys are so spot on. its def something you guys can laugh at

no it is not
people laughing at taht are morons and obviously isnt aware of waht poker is
alot of people go broke, goods and bads

On August 01 2011 15:38 HeRoS)eNGagE wrote: Show nested quote + On August 01 2011 15:32 NeillyJQ wrote: sucks i dont have the $ anymore, you guys are so spot on. its def something you guys can laugh at no it is not people laughing at taht are morons and obviously isnt aware of waht poker is alot of people go broke, goods and bads

yeah redrain, you moron

IS NEILY A WOMAN?

Real Life RollerCoaster :-)

On August 01 2011 14:13 NeillyJQ wrote: I'm going to work on getting some mental overhauls to make sure i'm always happy

seems like an impossible goal to achieve, nobody is always happy nor should they be.

I hope you arent practicing real BRM with your Hero money. With such a retarded bankroll you really should be taking shots. I mean honestly how hard can it be to replenish $200 or whatever.

On August 01 2011 16:30 NewbSaibot wrote: I hope you arent practicing real BRM with your Hero money. With such a retarded bankroll you really should be taking shots. I mean honestly how hard can it be to replenish $200 or whatever.

dude don't you know neilly's history?? Thats like suggesting an alcoholic should drink a bottle of wine..

There's a difference between taking shots with a 2k bankroll and with a 200 bankroll. Neilly was being greedy playing 2/4 HU or whatever in the past. But playing 1/2c is a serious waste of life EV with his experience.

lol everyone needs to sit back and recall that despite any random MTT success neilly has been in debt his entire LP-lifespan.

i mean really, consider it.

in before neilly calls me a hater or something.

On August 01 2011 16:42 NewbSaibot wrote: There's a difference between taking shots with a 2k bankroll and with a 200 bankroll. Neilly was being greedy playing 2/4 HU or whatever in the past. But playing 1/2c is a serious waste of life EV with his experience.

you should now, you can't even beat 2nl, also it was 25/50 HU with like a 12k BR while he was in huge debt iirc.

On August 01 2011 16:47 nolan wrote: lol everyone needs to sit back and recall that despite any random MTT success neilly has been in debt his entire LP-lifespan. i mean really, consider it.

And he still is and this blog happened like 15 times already too.

On August 01 2011 16:47 nolan wrote: in before neilly calls me a hater or something.

If he did that then this blog becomes useless

There were a lot of blogs made by neily where he desserved to be flammed , but not this one imo Oo
For once he come with a humble attitude and he's ready to listen and learn.
Give him a break.

sean i respect you way more than anyone on this site probably, all the help you gave me a couple years ago helped me a ton and was a huge boost of confidence.

anything you say i usually take as serious, where as trolls i usually have to take with a grain of salt

i know i made so many mistakes, was a drug addict galavanting around las vegas blowing thousands without thinking cause/effect

now all im working for is to get out of debt and get my life setup where i can grind stars again.

I had no common sense, luckily all my debts are to very good friends, and without being able to grind much since 4/15, everyones understanding.

When I'm grinding stars i make 10k a month and its ez game to pay off my debts, patience;

Did take me so long to grow up though

On August 01 2011 17:22 waga wrote: There were a lot of blogs made by neily where he desserved to be flammed , but not this one imo Oo For once he come with a humble attitude and he's ready to listen and learn. Give him a break.

I am sure that over the last few years you could look through neilly's blog and find many many entries like this with comments like yours underneath. I mean I wish him all the best but a pattern is a pattern.

On August 01 2011 16:50 jeffv8x_-_16 wrote: Show nested quote + On August 01 2011 16:42 NewbSaibot wrote: There's a difference between taking shots with a 2k bankroll and with a 200 bankroll. Neilly was being greedy playing 2/4 HU or whatever in the past. But playing 1/2c is a serious waste of life EV with his experience. you should now, you can't even beat 2nl, also it was 25/50 HU with like a 12k BR while he was in huge debt iirc.

I think im like $20 profit over 10k hands at NL2. I'm sure youre an NL2 pro however.

On August 01 2011 17:37 Oly wrote: Show nested quote + On August 01 2011 17:22 waga wrote: There were a lot of blogs made by neily where he desserved to be flammed , but not this one imo Oo For once he come with a humble attitude and he's ready to listen and learn. Give him a break. I am sure that over the last few years you could look through neilly's blog and find many many entries like this with comments like yours underneath. I mean I wish him all the best but a pattern is a pattern.

I know ...
But it's the first time I believe him

On August 01 2011 17:34 NeillyJQ wrote: sean i respect you way more than anyone on this site probably, all the help you gave me a couple years ago helped me a ton and was a huge boost of confidence. anything you say i usually take as serious, where as trolls i usually have to take with a grain of salt i know i made so many mistakes, was a drug addict galavanting around las vegas blowing thousands without thinking cause/effect now all im working for is to get out of debt and get my life setup where i can grind stars again. I had no common sense, luckily all my debts are to very good friends, and without being able to grind much since 4/15, everyones understanding. When I'm grinding stars i make 10k a month and its ez game to pay off my debts, patience; Did take me so long to grow up though

you talk about honesty, but you just keep responding with the same stuff

If you can make $120k/year easilly playing tournaments on stars - you can probably roll around vegas spending thousands without thinking too much.
If you can make $120k/year easilly playing tournaments on stars - you probably wouldnt be in debt that has existed for years
If you can make $120k/year easilly playing tournaments on stars - you wont be living off $500/month living day to day with a micro roll
If you can make $120k/year easilly playing tournaments on stars - you would probably have moved out of the country to continue playing or be grinding the live scene in Vegas.

Its just...

when you bank a mtt you go and announce that you are going to "rock" the city's nightlife (LA)....
and when you're flat broke you posting here saying you sorry and you're going to work on your game.

This has been going on for years now. Best thing you can do is quit poker and pick up a decent life. In the US you can make 100k a year easily with some lame job.

And who the hell is lending you money all the time? I don't get it..

100k a year with some lame job in the U.S with the.economy now? You must not have been reading the news for the past 3 years

On August 01 2011 18:18 gororokgororok wrote: In the US you can make 100k a year easily with some lame job.

hook me up man

On August 01 2011 17:41 NewbSaibot wrote: Show nested quote + On August 01 2011 16:50 jeffv8x_-_16 wrote:   On August 01 2011 16:42 NewbSaibot wrote: There's a difference between taking shots with a 2k bankroll and with a 200 bankroll. Neilly was being greedy playing 2/4 HU or whatever in the past. But playing 1/2c is a serious waste of life EV with his experience. you should now, you can't even beat 2nl, also it was 25/50 HU with like a 12k BR while he was in huge debt iirc. I think im like $20 profit over 10k hands at NL2. I'm sure youre an NL2 pro however.

Yes i am, you got me there . Maybe you can teach neilly how to make his ego even bigger, thinking you are the best player ever and telling how much you made every 5 min as an egobooster

On August 01 2011 17:44 waga wrote: Show nested quote + On August 01 2011 17:37 Oly wrote:   On August 01 2011 17:22 waga wrote: There were a lot of blogs made by neily where he desserved to be flammed , but not this one imo Oo For once he come with a humble attitude and he's ready to listen and learn. Give him a break. I am sure that over the last few years you could look through neilly's blog and find many many entries like this with comments like yours underneath. I mean I wish him all the best but a pattern is a pattern. I know ... But it's the first time I believe him

We all made that mistake before

You've been posting here for nearly 4.5 years and continue to act as predicatively as a cosine function - poker is fun and I personally play now to supplement my income by playing live limit.

I think you should do the same.

I feel like you go through the stages of grief/death like once a month.

Five Stages Of Grief

Denial and Isolation.
At first, we tend to deny the loss has taken place, and may withdraw from our usual social contacts. This stage may last a few moments, or longer.
Anger.
The grieving person may then be furious at the person who inflicted the hurt (even if she's dead), or at the world, for letting it happen. He may be angry with himself for letting the event take place, even if, realistically, nothing could have stopped it.
Bargaining.
Now the grieving person may make bargains with God, asking, "If I do this, will you take away the loss?"
Depression.
The person feels numb, although anger and sadness may remain underneath.
Acceptance.
This is when the anger, sadness and mourning have tapered off. The person simply accepts the reality of the loss.

hi neilly. can't wait for your next blog. i hope you blog again soon. i love how LP reacts to it.

good job.

On August 01 2011 18:47 jeffv8x_-_16 wrote: Yes i am, you got me there . Maybe you can teach neilly how to make his ego even bigger, thinking you are the best player ever and telling how much you made every 5 min as an egobooster

It's not that, it's just people have to be honest with themselves. Personally for someone like neilly, who has had a taste of real money, and seen thousands of dollars in his poker account, I think grinding up from penny stakes would actually be worse for him. He'll just continue to yearn for more and talk himself into taking crazy shots he know he shouldnt be taking for the logic I outlined above, "because it's replenishable". I think if he played a limit he valued, with a meaningful bankroll that he didnt actually want to lose, it would help keep him focused. Seriously, ask yourself how hard you could try to beat NL2. I could probably prop bet you to play NL2 and you'd just buyout after a month because fuck it, thats why.

Neilly is on some euphoric high right now because he's been grinding well, or on a heater or something, and even at micro limits it makes you feel like you are determined and destined for greatness. But it will wear off eventually. I think any goal worth having is worth being a challenge. I just dont want to see him start grinding 4 tables of NL50 with his entire roll on the line, when he could legitimately play NL25 right now and stick with it for awhile and grind up to $600 or something and then play some NL50 and realize he can be happy making $1k/month before finally moving up even higher.

I dunno, I'm probably just projecting my own feelings, but regardless I wish him the best. I dont think he should worry about what people say in his blog. He's already bowing to pressure & apologizing for what he writes, like a bitch. You shouldnt really give a shit Neilly. Keep blogging, even if it's daily updates.

just doin the best i can, just had a nice lil 2.5 hour session, longest session in a really long time.

made some mistakes n took a couple coolers, hopefully you guys can help on my cash hands so i can move up sooner with more confidence.

i want to beat nl25-nl50 for sick winrates and get to nl100 this year and stay there w/ mtting on the side

perfect time to with Hero only accessible

Haters gonna hate, i accept that

Neilly, seriously, why bother with cash games when you make money with MTT? It's honestly stupid. It's probably more worth it to go out and smell the roses than play cash games.