BUSTO @ LIFE

Hope that it helps, feel better

Pretty intense. Good luck man.

well for what its worth, out of anyone i sweated/coached playing micro limits I though you had the most potential. Keep your chin up !

Dude, I've walked the same road a few years ago, in fact I was just around your age.I won't comment it in public, but I can give you an advice - speak to 1 or 2 more doctors, cause Zoloft and Cipralex are way better than yours(personal opinion).And there's some other stuff you could probably get in the beggining just to get in shape for life, work, etc. etc...

sorry to hear that : < gl

brazil is a really cool place.

I say quit the job, and live making less with poker if it's making you depressed. don't take medicines that fuck with your brain dude. chill and have fun

I mean your life doesn't sound as great as you describe it if you feel depressed! you can travel really cheap for next to nothing and enjoy the good life

your story is pathetic. thank god u wernt born in africa, your parents arnt dead and you have all working body parts.

On January 22 2010 14:54 JSquids wrote: your story is pathetic. thank god u wernt born in africa, your parents arnt dead and you have all working body parts.

OMG, OMG, OMG.You don't live in africa -> you can't get depressed....So narrow minded, I can't believe there are still ppl like you.

On January 22 2010 14:54 JSquids wrote: your story is pathetic. thank god u wernt born in africa, your parents arnt dead and you have all working body parts.

yea, like you have a choice
[ ]"i want to be depressed"
[x]"i dont want to be depressed"

...

figure ou tthe root causes for your problems rather than depending on meds...

Sometimes it's not a psyhological condition, but lack of serotonin in the brain cells.So it's hard to define what exactly causes the problem.And IT IS MEDICAL CONDITION, so it's not pathetic, you must take some medicines at the begining, and yes- travelling and everything that makes you happy should be a must.

if this was a girl induced depression, why not just say fuck the girls?
pretty simple fix imo

Hey I learned something new here - Rio is not the capital of Brazil. I feel like I'm born anew. Thanks man!

I run bad with girls too. They always fuck me over...

dude you can make awesome oragami. those paper roses are bad ass

smoking pot helps me with depression

too bad i cannot smoke anymore

Oh, attachment leads to suffering, which you can easily do if you wreck an expensive car, lose a gf/lover, which will cause a lot of pain!!

tutz, check your pm, I sent one xD

tutz,

Yur still a young puppy, I believe mind over matter and if you have in your mind that you will be depressed or easily let down no matter what it is then you will definitely become " DEPRESSED ". I agree with the attachment comment and at 20 and making a good living you should be fucking and leaving these chicks not wanting a GF just to have someone. Do what makes you happy fuck the money and fuck what anyone says that you don't agree with, you have the right to disagree and do as you please.

One last thing, I don't think many Lpers ware of the reality of your post. For anyone to write this post and express what is truly holding them back from enjoying life "it must be serious ".

I wish you best and good luck with the recovery.

Aurelius

i run with good with relationships. all in'd my first one and stacked off.
^^

sometimes you do have a choice, it depends on the type of depression

i would never trust doctors though, and i'd do my own research.

i went to lenscrafters when I was 16. The doctor gave me an eye test and 10 mins later gave me a prescription. I told my mom that I'd simply never wear the glasses because I don't have any problems with my vision (i know I never wear watches so it would make sense that i simply would never wear glasses either)

I'm 25 now and I still have never had problems with my eyes even though I often spend 60 hours a week looking at a computer screen.

Doctors are notorious for the same behaviour. They might not consciously do it to make profit but after a few years they might adapt into it through stronger and stronger rationalization favouring over medication instead of under medication and enter a groove. Often if i feel like i am suffering from something, I will read up on it a lot before going to see someone. Doctors are surprised of my knowledge and self diagnosis abilities. I'm not bragging, I'm just showing how rare it is for people to do their own research... usually no one questions the doctors. Sometimes doctors are happy, sometimes they feel as though ur challenging their authority by talking about the intricacies and wanting to be sure of the diagnosis/treatment. One thing I have found out, is doctors really don't know as much as we think. There are countless diseases out there and if you think you have something that's not ridiculously common, a few hours reading up on it will educate you possibly more on that specific condition than the doctor.... oh and nurses know absolutely shit.

I haven't read much on clinical depression but you should read how people describe it. What thoughts do u have while in depression? How constant is the depression? What times of day or during what activities do you not feel depressed or forget about the depression. A lot of questions like this will help you determine if you have clinical depression which is indeed not a choice or if your depression stems out of a lack of satisfaction with your life. I'm not sure but isn't it unlikely to not have experienced clinical depression at a younger age? Not sure about that?... but you do seem to equate your recent depression with life changes which suggests that it's not the type of depression which should be medicated. I'm not going to do your homework for you but if you don't put in 20 hours of reading on wikipedia and webMD and depression forum sites and such then ... well idk what to say... you'd be really foolish and masochistic or lazy/afraid not too

^ very true
i've yet too see a doctor that was insulted/irritated by me attempting to self diagnosis myself though, maybe it's the manner you present your knowledge?

On January 22 2010 18:38 EzPzLmnSqz wrote: ^ very true i've yet too see a doctor that was insulted/irritated by me attempting to self diagnosis myself though, maybe it's the manner you present your knowledge?

well obv i respect the doctors opinion more than my own... but things need to add up fully, the story needs to make sense.

So like 1 time, i was saying well what about x y and z... but if that's true what about this? Why couldn't it also be this .... and so on

he wasn't pissed off but he was impatient and annoyed that i simply didn't take his word straight up, doctors are overworked and have busy schedules generally

thanks everyone for the support
I mean it, ty a lot

steal city
I've read all there's to know about all kinds of depression there is out there
and this is not the first time I see a doctor because of this
but it is the first time I'm gonna do terapy cause this time I've been hit hard and I don't think I can do it by my own
I had to admit that I needed extern help, so thats what I'm doing
ty for the support

hopefully 3 months from now I'm gonna come back with good news

GL with everything man.
I had my bouts with issues as recently as last year, and while I will never truly know 'your' pains, what I do know is that when you're able to finally resolve the problem, life is going to look completely different.

On January 22 2010 23:14 Uptown wrote: GL with everything man. I had my bouts with issues as recently as last year, and while I will never truly know 'your' pains, what I do know is that when you're able to finally resolve the problem, life is going to look completely different.

how so? different then before the problem?
greater sense of appreciation and or understanding but more of a mournful existentialist disposition?>

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