ok i fucking hate this game.

This is the worst poker day ive ever had. I've never been down 1.2k in a day before.

dude you play heads up on 2/4 and 1/2 and this never happened to you? heater

11 ptbb with rake on nl100
5.5 ptbb on nl200

I don't understand how anyone can complain, do you expect 15ptbb?

uh.. what? i read from your previous blog post that you were currently a 400NL HU regular. now you say you have never had a losing day of 1.2k ... something is not quite right here.

i lost 10 buy ins earlier at 2/4... pretty fucking standard stuff i'd say. didn't bother me one bit.

your rant about god was awesome. keep up the good humor at least!

edit: lol previous poster thought the same apparently!

I am not sure how your blasphemy was appropriate nor how it was even relevant. Quite disgusting actually. The only thing I can say is that you are fucking pathetic -- Right under this ridiculous rant is another blog saying you made 7.1k last month. Why the fuck are you complaining you piece of shit.

u play 1/2 and 2/4 HU and u have never lost 1.2k in a day...wtf...u run like god

I'm assuming he had KQ/AK in that 7 4 suited hand where you got a backdoor flush in a 3 bet pot. Would you complain about this if this happened to you?

holy shit, is this serious?

Loco : no, this has yet to happen to me. I've never lost more than $850 in a day. The reason my variance is so low is because at my highest stake i dont play any 100 BB stacks(only lower stakes). Im a 400 reg now, but since FTP allows you to only have 1 NL table open per stake at a time i play lower as well while i wait. 1.2k to me in the span of 1-2 hours is something i could never have been prepared for. Maybe i will be in the future. Also - I'm not sure how you are bothered so little by losing 10 BI's - i envy you for being able to handle it.

OpWestAcct : Thanks for your support whoever the fuck you are. Being up certain amounts doesnt mean much to me knowing i could have/should have been up even more. Might sound really arrogant/selfish/greedy but thats the reality. My winnings have never come close to my all in EV(i think one month it managed to touch it and say hi for the span of 200 hands, but that was about it). Also - I've made rants like these in the past, they are simply ways for me to vent my frustration. If you dont want to read it then dont. You could also try learning some manners btw.

palak - yeah again, really low variance style.. so this is why it was such a huge shock to me(considering i have 1 nl100 table and 2 200 tables open as well as 400). Lost around 300-400 nl400(so thats nothing - but i lost like 700-800 at nl200/100 which is like 4 BI's all in the span of like 45 minutes which has never happened to me before). I honestly couldnt give two shits what kind of variance other people have, you dont play the same style as i do. Nobody cares if you go on 20 BI swings daily(anything like that, which i might add i have seen in the past is purely idiotic).

Streethooker - Yeah he did, and thats what he gets for checking the flop.

Again - if you people dont want to read this. Dont.

My winnings are unbelievably low compared to my EV but I am not talking shit about God on a poker forum. I run bad all the fucking time -- the only difference is that I have never made anywhere near the money so I believe my case is quite worse. And you are ignorant as fuck if you truly believe this "Being up certain amounts doesnt mean much to me knowing i could have/should have been up even more." Who are you to decide what hands you should have gotten or not and how they "should" have played out.

On October 06 2009 22:58 OpWestAcct wrote: My winnings are unbelievably low compared to my EV but I am not talking shit about God on a poker forum. I run bad all the fucking time -- the only difference is that I have never made anywhere near the money so I believe my case is quite worse. And you are ignorant as fuck if you truly believe this "Being up certain amounts doesnt mean much to me knowing i could have/should have been up even more." Who are you to decide what hands you should have gotten or not and how they "should" have played out.

Thats all in terms of EV again, what the fuck else would it be? I dont just get dealt J4o and decide : Ok i must be up X amount since i have been dealt this hand and it will be played up in such and such a way. What kind of a ridiculous assumption is that?

By disagreeing with me you're basically saying : well its better to be up than down in a month. So if i was up $100 as opposed to $3000(lets say thats what my EV in HEM said) then i shouldnt get mad because thats just poker? What the fuck is wrong with someone feeling worse if he/she is up $1000 when they according to their HEM could have been up $5000? (assuming HEM is at least somewhat accurate). Sure it ultimately does someone no good to get frustrated/angry but thats something im working on(as many poker players do).

by the way - if you read what the fuck i wrote youd have read that I dont believe in god at the end of the blog post. It's just a fucking expression when i refer to "god" you dumbshit.

there is no god
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0815241/plotsummary

ha ha I love this blog post...It's the exact same post I've been meaning to make after every session every day for...I dont know how long...the last 2 weeks. K, I'm probably exaggerating there, but sorry things aren't going well. Today I was reading a book by Slanksy and right off the bat, regarding poker theory, he discussed how suck-outs happen almost solely to good players because they're the ones getting it in w/ better most often, if not, practically speaking, always. He went on to suggest that you should feel good simply for making the right decisions as opposed to the actual results of the hand - that you should be happy with your Slansky bucks after every suckout. I try to take this to heart myself (guess it's either that or throw my computer out window which would just cost a few additional buy-ins to replace).

So that's it, I was just glad to actually read that section today and realize that apparently, as everyone is saying, that's just how it is. It still doesn't entirely make much sense to me, how it can happen so frequently and so predictably, and also with this being the case, how much someone has to play to profit from the game. gl

calm down newblish, we arn't hating, we are merely saying you should look at this in the light of holy shit I lost a lot but not really more then variance will cause, instead of looking at this like omg i run horrible. This is just a bad day, suck it up and move on.

newblish idiot

On October 06 2009 23:15 hoylemj wrote: ha ha I love this blog post...It's the exact same post I've been meaning to make after every session every day for...I dont know how long...the last 2 weeks. K, I'm probably exaggerating there, but sorry things aren't going well. Today I was reading a book by Slanksy and right off the bat, regarding poker theory, he discussed how suck-outs happen almost solely to good players because they're the ones getting it in w/ better most often, if not, practically speaking, always. He went on to suggest that you should feel good simply for making the right decisions as opposed to the actual results of the hand - that you should be happy with your Slansky bucks after every suckout. I try to take this to heart myself (guess it's either that or throw my computer out window which would just cost a few additional buy-ins to replace). So that's it, I was just glad to actually read that section today and realize that apparently, as everyone is saying, that's just how it is. It still doesn't entirely make much sense to me, how it can happen so frequently and so predictably, and also with this being the case, how much someone has to play to profit from the game. gl

you're right. This is something i have to incorporate into my game, but im finding it difficult. Eventually i should be able to do it, but it may take time. Thanks for the support.

palak - I'll be fine. Just gotta take a break i think.

Im off to bed. Pretty sure i wont play for at least a week. I feel fine now and was just on a little bit of a "i hate poker momentarily" rant. Good night.

lol @ the butthurt christian

but really man everyone runs shitty and for someone at your stakes 1200 shouldnt be a huge deal

Maybe this will help :

"Used to be very results oriented in the past and always bitched about how bad i used to run. Some days i still try to fight the urge to bitch because i have some pretty shitty days, but its really nothing more than part of the game and i have no right to complain."

You said it yourself

Everyone has their share of suckouts/badbeat/coolers. Try to bear with it, because that's what make us better poker players than the rest.

Raiz

On October 06 2009 23:17 street_hooker wrote:

i love you too.

thanks for your support(those who have posted useful insight)

Im seriously off to bed now though!

gl hf.

you sound like a lil bitch imo

On October 07 2009 01:32 requiem wrote: you sound like a lil bitch imo

+1

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On October 07 2009 01:32 requiem wrote: you sound like a lil bitch imo

yeah? well "imo" you need to stop wasting time reading shit if you dont have anything useful to say. Do you just read blogs and post little 4-5 word sentences like this all the time?

I love it how there are so many idiots in here who at one point or another probably went through a similar experience yet are posting in here like its unnatural to have a bad session. I mean at any time i can look left at the blogs and always see someone complain about running bad/poker not going well.

Fucking idiots.. :[

This saddens me. I wanted to see the bitch rant, but it has been deleted.

On October 07 2009 12:35 Chewits wrote: This saddens me. I wanted to see the bitch rant, but it has been deleted.

You know what would sadden you even more? If i was standing right in front of you and asked you to say that shit to my face.
You'd have left our little altercation with a few teeth left and possibly a broken skull. I love how you stupid internet pussies say shit like this behind your computer screens but wouldnt dare try in person. I challenge any of you spamming idiots with nothing better to do with your time to come say that directly to my face if you ever visit my town - I promise it would never happen.

On October 07 2009 12:35 Chewits wrote: This saddens me. I wanted to see the bitch rant, but it has been deleted.

On October 07 2009 13:59 Newblish wrote: Show nested quote + On October 07 2009 12:35 Chewits wrote: This saddens me. I wanted to see the bitch rant, but it has been deleted. You know what would sadden you even more? If i was standing right in front of you and asked you to say that shit to my face. You'd have left our little altercation with a few teeth left and possibly a broken skull. I love how you stupid internet pussies say shit like this behind your computer screens but wouldnt dare try in person. I challenge any of you spamming idiots with nothing better to do with your time to come say that directly to my face if you ever visit my town - I promise it would never happen.

You have no idea man. No idea. LOL. You berate me for spending all of 15 seconds typing a response to YOUR blog, where YOU spent a whole heap of time writing a load of shit, which you then deleted because YOU couldn't handle the responses. YOU are the one "with nothing better to do with your time". Why even post on here.

Seriously wind your neck in.

On October 06 2009 22:34 Loco wrote: uh.. what? i read from your previous blog post that you were currently a 400NL HU regular. now you say you have never had a losing day of 1.2k ... something is not quite right here. i lost 10 buy ins earlier at 2/4... pretty fucking standard stuff i'd say. didn't bother me one bit. your rant about god was awesome. keep up the good humor at least! edit: lol previous poster thought the same apparently!

He has just established himself at 2/4. That would make him a regular there with a short history - hence no other big losing days to this point.

I find LP is kind of hilarious. The entire community is basically a bunch of people who wait for the opportunity to shit on someone when they have a bad day. Not only that but 95% of the people posting in response to this blog are just making bold assumptions or stupid statements because apparently that's the cool thing to do around here. Did I mention most of those players don't even play 2/4 or higher? Did any of you consider that maybe Newblish is new to 2/4 and thus new to these kind of large swings? It can be a bit of an emotional adjustment to get used to losing 1k in a single day and not being bothered by it. Just because most of us LP trolls don't post whine blogs when we are in a bad mood doesn't mean we aren't feeling the same way at times. I completely sympathize with Newblish considering I've witnessed first hand how frequently he runs like utter garbage. In fact I can remember a few similar outbursts by very very good players such as the ones starring in 2M2MM hell they have a freaking tilt room specially designed for when they get in a mood like this. It happens to the best of us.

At least Newblish has the courage to post blogs when he's running terrible and reacting emotionally in a way that he is well aware isn't a positive for his game or his mindset. Most of the players commenting on here are afraid to post things when they have negative results because they fear the exact same judgment they are currently throwing at him. Oh by the way I bitch and moan very frequently in my hand history posts because I enjoy the cathartic release. I'm not ashamed of it. When I run like shit it frustrates me and I need a release somewhere so that it doesn't come into my actual game-play. It's also just funny how improbably bad you can run sometimes. That's my way of letting off steam. Maybe this is his. Just because you don't like it doesn't mean you have to stick your nose in and make a bunch of bullshit assumptions about Newblish or what games he plays. Like you know a fucking thing about it unless you are a close personal friend of his?

On October 07 2009 15:52 Chewits wrote: Show nested quote + On October 07 2009 13:59 Newblish wrote:   On October 07 2009 12:35 Chewits wrote: This saddens me. I wanted to see the bitch rant, but it has been deleted. You know what would sadden you even more? If i was standing right in front of you and asked you to say that shit to my face. You'd have left our little altercation with a few teeth left and possibly a broken skull. I love how you stupid internet pussies say shit like this behind your computer screens but wouldnt dare try in person. I challenge any of you spamming idiots with nothing better to do with your time to come say that directly to my face if you ever visit my town - I promise it would never happen. You have no idea man. No idea. LOL. You berate me for spending all of 15 seconds typing a response to YOUR blog, where YOU spent a whole heap of time writing a load of shit, which you then deleted because YOU couldn't handle the responses. YOU are the one "with nothing better to do with your time". Why even post on here. Seriously wind your neck in.

lol cant handle the responses? I dont give a flying fuck what you or any other dumbfuck(you know who you are) says. That's why i would love to give anyone the opportunity to try doing that in person if they had the chance. I guarantee you that nobody would do it. I removed the content because none of you idiots seem to have anything half important to say. This is my blog, i can write whatever the fuck i want in it. Blogs are like diaries, you can see where you were at in certain points of time and how you adapted/played/thought at each particular time/how you did monthly/ etc. The difference between what i type and what you type is that i actually can look back and relate to it while the shit you write is purely a waste of time and ultimately just shows a lack of character. It in no way is constructive and just leads both you and i nowhere.

There will be things i can take out of this, how i can learn from my experience, how i can learn from my frustration and most importantly how i can improve my game based on this. It was completely novel to me to lose 1.2k in one hour and it was a shock. But ill be able to learn from it, thats whats most important.

I'm wondering whether this message will be clear to some random idiot like you, so maybe i shouldnt have even replied. Either way, I was able to move on from the emotional swing it caused and i dont care anymore.

If you care to write more useless shit in someone elses blog, go right ahead, i get a good laugh from it.

You are being ignorant, self-centered, and really childish. If this is how you deal with your problems, I can't see how you can last long in Poker.

If you do not want people to write useless shit, as you call it, then don't make your blog viewable to the public, if you see it as a diary. You got some issues and you need to deal with it. Moaning like a little girl is not going to help you or move you in the right direction.

Sooner you realize that, probably the better.

On October 08 2009 04:12 Chewits wrote: You are being ignorant, self-centered, and really childish. If this is how you deal with your problems, I can't see how you can last long in Poker. If you do not want people to write useless shit, as you call it, then don't make your blog viewable to the public, if you see it as a diary. You got some issues and you need to deal with it. Moaning like a little girl is not going to help you or move you in the right direction. Sooner you realize that, probably the better.

Im not going to rebuttle and make you try to understand anything anymore. Stop coming back here and responding, jesus christ. Move the fuck on.