I think I might need some psychiatric help

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gogo

relax man
u just need a beer

hang in there man!!!

<333 !!! hope you feel better soon!!

I think it's mostly because I'm only remembering the bad times but it seems like shit never goes right for me

beer would be amazing right now.

Don't let poker determine your peace of mind!

imo in your stage of live poker won't be a solution to pay your bills. Don't think a good poker rush can change that! I bet there are plenty of jobs out there. You can clean toilets at public places. Work at the Macdonalds etc... I am not kidding here. Just do some (shitty) job and you will recieve every month some guarantee money! I bet if you don't have problems to pay your bills and shit you will find more peace in live and in poker. Then if you have some spare money deposit it on stars and rebuild a roll. Live the dream not be lead by it.

Otherwise you can also sell your body to gay people! (this is a joke)

Just squeeze one out, always works for me

Seriously though, you're 19. Got your whole life ahead of you. Just keep trying to get some regular job, like at Walmart or Applebee's or some place. The fast food restaurants are always hiring. You'll get guaranteed money, could even meet a nice pretty little sweet thang, and allow you to work on improving your poker game without worrying about having to make money to pay for the bills. You're like killing 3 birds with one stone here and it's a lot less stressful than relying on poker to pay the bills.

GL and try to stay positive.

I'm really more tilted by this one girl than anything in my life, i hate grinding poker and only play it so that I can live.

I've probably only spent $100 total on her in real life in the year that I've known her (Don't ask me how i've done this, I've spent waaaay more money on other girls that never even put out or I felt much about) but she has cost me a sick amount of tilt money and heartache. What type of cruel bitch can break up with their boyfriend because they "Love you", fuck you so good that it's insane, have the greatest conversation about our new found relationship with one another and then stick a Boeing 727 up my asshole the next day by telling me I'm a mistake and shit.

HOW CAN SHE TELL ME SO MANY TIMES THAT SHE LOVES ME AND DO THIS SHIT REPEATEDLY. You guys are gonna reply to this "she is joking" etc whatever. SHE IS BEING 100% REAL AND HONEST THOUGH AND THEN THIS SHIT WTF.

So I fucking delete her number and shit from my phone so I have no way of talking with her and she texts me telling me that she has to have me in her life and we have to talk, so she somehow wormholes her way back into my life again, breaks up with her boyfriend again that night (same fucking idiot) and we talk about being in love again, AND NOW SHE WONT EVEN TALK TO ME AND WANTS HIM BACK AGAIN.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO BADLY PLAYED IN MY LIFE, HOW CAN ONE WOMEN DO THIS, FUCK.

you DID get something from it. a lesson in women my son

FUCKJING TILT MONKEY

You got outplayed by a girl? Damn.

--- Nuked ---

get laid

you are a slave to your emotions, get over yourself, money power bitches

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you might find something useful here

lol

1st
do you know how many girls said that they love me and cant think about a life without me ? Then didnt care about it a few months later.
when a girl says :" i love u and need u in my life " -> means absolutely shit
If she was ever serious with u then she simply wouldnt do that shit.

HOW CAN SHE TELL ME SO MANY TIMES THAT SHE LOVES ME AND DO THIS SHIT REPEATEDLY. You guys are gonna reply to this "she is joking" etc whatever. SHE IS BEING 100% REAL AND HONEST

lol yeha dream on ....
In german id say "Du Opfer" Opfer in this slang context means : " a person who is so weak that he even gets bullied by other weak persons ( who get normally bullied)"

If you dont know that girls behave like this all the time then u arent grown up yet >_<

2nd
you play SNGS
thats pure variance >_<
No wonder sometimes u run incredible good and sometimes u run incredible bad.

SO get your shit together and become a man

GL

I just kind of exploded in this blog. Every man has his breaking point and I guess I've found mine. Nothing is going right for me at this time in my life and I just want to scream.

I'd never talk to any of my friends about shit like this, so you guys have to be my emo friend, k?

Most of you really dont know enough about any of this besides my fucked up mindset's point of view right now anyway, there is so much more to all of this.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck it who cares, just continue berating me I deserve it gogogo

wtf love?? man,you got to grow some balls
you're acting like a 40 year old virgin princess
be more selfconfident and screw what women think,they don't even know what they want most of the times anyways
Oh, don't hope about things either,it's the worst thing you can do.
Just try stuff and expect nothing.

Seek help. Some advice posted here already is decent but you sound like you have a lot of issues to work out and an internet forum just isn't going to fix that for you.

go do things you feel good about and don't give you any stress.

i would stay away from poker for a bit, it's too much of a rollercoaster emotionally

You're fucking dumb, girls might be a headace but you can't rely on a fucking pair of boobies for your happiness. Go get a life or something.

Also, get a job cause you're obv not good enough to live by poker.

On February 01 2008 07:26 DustySwedeDude wrote: You're fucking dumb, girls might be a headace but you can't rely on a fucking pair of boobies for your happiness. Go get a life or something. Also, get a job cause you're obv not good enough to live by poker.

i am on dustys side in this story

tbh i think u might be bipolar is histrionic or something

shrink couldn't really hurt. +drugz r fun.

ya i think ur clinically depressed at the very least cuz mention of harming self is a big warning sign

go 2 shrink. get drugs. eat the drugs. i command it.

On February 01 2008 00:57 CrownRoyal wrote: I'm really more tilted by this one girl than anything in my life, i hate grinding poker and only play it so that I can live. I've probably only spent $100 total on her in real life in the year that I've known her (Don't ask me how i've done this, I've spent waaaay more money on other girls that never even put out or I felt much about) but she has cost me a sick amount of tilt money and heartache. What type of cruel bitch can break up with their boyfriend because they "Love you", fuck you so good that it's insane, have the greatest conversation about our new found relationship with one another and then stick a Boeing 727 up my asshole the next day by telling me I'm a mistake and shit. HOW CAN SHE TELL ME SO MANY TIMES THAT SHE LOVES ME AND DO THIS SHIT REPEATEDLY. You guys are gonna reply to this "she is joking" etc whatever. SHE IS BEING 100% REAL AND HONEST THOUGH AND THEN THIS SHIT WTF. So I fucking delete her number and shit from my phone so I have no way of talking with her and she texts me telling me that she has to have me in her life and we have to talk, so she somehow wormholes her way back into my life again, breaks up with her boyfriend again that night (same fucking idiot) and we talk about being in love again, AND NOW SHE WONT EVEN TALK TO ME AND WANTS HIM BACK AGAIN. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO BADLY PLAYED IN MY LIFE, HOW CAN ONE WOMEN DO THIS, FUCK.

this is super standard for women.

as far as blog posts go, this is quite epic tilt.

yo the bitch obviously doesnt really love you