Well....

No. I don't think there are any gangs of South Dakota in my future. That is really something I would try and avoid.

I am emboldened with Monster Energy Drink, walking the dog, and read good novel. Beyond that ... emptiness and I can only drink so many Monster Energy Drinks in a day. In fact, I ran out of them and I do not feel like getting more at this moment and the next and the next. Walking of dog and reading of novel can only get me so far. I am in trouble again. I don't want to go to the grocery store and end up Doritos and ham sandwhiches.

If you feel like killing yourself go watch some HBO shows or check out the letterboxd 250.

On January 06 2024 04:32 RiKD wrote: To make an adjustment I don't think I am actually any aristocracy. I turn down ballets and nice meals out because no. In reality, I am so low working class I am below working class. I am NEET class. It can wear me down. I don't wish to eat nutella, get angry over culture wars, or watch TED TALKS to think I am learning something. I just ate a bagel with cream cheese. I am probably Russian Jew more than anything. I am mostly doing the same things day in and out. I think it might be crushing my soul and leaving me to feel uber empty. I read some Houellebecq then I write about reading it and then read some more it can be exhausting. It's a good book but it's not going to save my life or anything like that. I keep saying that I would love it for LP to get more active. I just think there is not that much to say. I ate some toast and jelly this morning for breakfast to get on a Byung-Chul Han vibe. Unfortunately, his new book does not come out until April. At least I'm off that Bronze Age Mindset vibe. It was exciting while it lasted but that book is a pile of absurd far right rhetoric.Very clever guy that wrote that. I think the shit libs are fucked. That book makes me want to be in the "new-right" where we make fun of trads and conservatives and normies and talk about the bronze age and exploration and pirates and conqiustadors. Especially, when I am feeling so empty and lost. That has to be better than doing nothing. The left is not that exciting. Go read some Kropotkin. It's actually not bad but it's not BRONZE AGE MINDSET. You want to get rid of democracy and equality? ok.... You want a military ruling class with a eugenics experiment.... yeah..... uhhhhh..... no thanks. It can be danerous where I find my avenues for filling up the emptiness. I've really been empty for so long. I don't think I've actually found much that works. When I was visiting my family I think that sort of worked. I probably am a mark for far right ideaology. Any ideaology. I'm really getting to the stages now that I need a new job and I feel terrible. Nothing really ever happened that would give me some insight to a job I should get. It's not like I am going to feel great about my life just reading all day and taking walks. I am not as great of a man as Nietzsche. I don't even think about writing most of the time. Nietzsche already wrote it all. But, I can type this drivel out and listene to Pagan Poetry by Bjork and feel better. The beauty is the music playing not what is written. I wanted to watch Perfect Days by Wim Wenders but it is not being streamed anywhere. I can pursue the beauty. I can apreciate the beauty but there is a lack in producing the beauty.

I doubt your as white as Obama is.

Yeah, I know. Like I said I'm Russian Jew which is also white but also something different.

Even though genetically I think I'm 0% Jewish. 100% Northern Europe. Good god I'm Aryan.

I have a feeling people that self-describe with pride that they are Aryan never ends up looking great. If white culture is banal, aryan culture is cringe.

On January 07 2024 04:43 RiKD wrote: I have a feeling people that self-describe with pride that they are Aryan never ends up looking great. If white culture is banal, aryan culture is cringe.

Do American people still refer to themselves as being Aryan?

I remember it being a thing in the 1990s, but I haven't heard anything about the Aryan nation or Aryan brotherhood in a long time. That being said, I live in California, which is a very diverse state, so I guess I am in a sort of multicultural bubble when compared to the southern states.

Keep in mind I am no expert here but a white supremacy group / militia might refer to themselves as Aryan with pride. They might talk about blood and soil and these things as well as be into eugenics.

As a toddler I had magical white hair and magical blue eyes so many Japanese tourists would take pictures of me but I had no idea of what Aryan meant or eugenics.

Sweden had a eugenics project from 1935 - 1976 and sterilized 63,000 people in that time. Denmark also had a eugenics project around the same time and sterilized 11,000 people.

I'd rather brown America naturally then try to hold on to some Aryan "race" or try and kill millions of jews. Ashkenazi Jews are high IQ fun people! You reallly want to kill Lenny Kravitz or Lisa Bonet? They are beautiful.

Look at that scarf!

God, damn it, I can't sleep. I think the whole issue of what I am going to be doing with my time and how that will support me to live is weighing on me. It's not all fun and games in this life. I guess I'll try to read until boredom and fall a sleep that way.

There are a lot of ridiculously intelligent Ashkenazi Jews out there tbh, esp pre WW2. There are particular schools in Hungary that seemed to have emanated sheer brilliance during that period.
Apparently John Von Nuemann had a line of people outside of his office and they'd just walk in, tell them their year long research problem and he'd just solve all of them during his lunch break. I kinda believe it as well looking at his wiki page.
I can't respect that guy tho. Imo one of the most evil persons in human history.

Then there's Chompsky who came from Ashkenazi Jew parents. Never understood how that guy can even have a life and answer all those emails and interview with people all day and still have time for research and to read all that shit. I think that crazy work ethic is one of the reasons a lot of Jewish people did pretty well in America. Guy puts Asian med students to shame.

On January 08 2024 08:10 Stroggoz wrote: There are a lot of ridiculously intelligent Ashkenazi Jews out there tbh, esp pre WW2. There are particular schools in Hungary that seemed to have emanated sheer brilliance during that period. Apparently John Von Nuemann had a line of people outside of his office and they'd just walk in, tell them their year long research problem and he'd just solve all of them during his lunch break. I kinda believe it as well looking at his wiki page. I can't respect that guy tho. Imo one of the most evil persons in human history. Then there's Chompsky who came from Ashkenazi Jew parents. Never understood how that guy can even have a life and answer all those emails and interview with people all day and still have time for research and to read all that shit. I think that crazy work ethic is one of the reasons a lot of Jewish people did pretty well in America. Guy puts Asian med students to shame.

I read some on Von Nuemann and he wasn't a complete autist. He was pleasant at parties, etc. That's all I really know about his personal life. Why is he one of the most evil persons in human history?

What's crazy about Chomsky to me is that he still seems to be putting in that workload at 95.

Von Nuemann was pro first strike nuclear vs Russia. He believed that ww3 was inevitable (not an uncommon view back then), and to prevent it, Russia had to be destroyed. "why not bomb them today?" is how he put it.

A lot of these people like to say "well he wouldn't have done it if he was in charge". Nah, pretty sure he would've. Just like how some people impose neoliberalism on the rest of the world when given any power. Besides, Von Neumann also put quite a lot of work into calculating the exact height these bombs need to be exploded at to maximize human casualties.

Imo he was a demented psychopath that was fun at parties. Most psychos are polite people because most people are polite people.

Chomsky is one of these people that will work until his brain is decomposing. Work is different to him than alot of other people. By the way, he has actually slowed down a lot this year. Havn't seen anything come from him in a while. I think this means he's gona die soon.

Russia should be nuked and Chomsky is a Russian-propaganda-spreading anti-Nato piece of shit.

On January 06 2024 23:58 RiKD wrote: If you feel like killing yourself go watch some HBO shows or check out the letterboxd 250.

I got a Netflix subscription after taking a break for a year or two. 98% of the Netflix shows suck, but I think the American series suck way more than the European/Asian/whatever ones. Do you feel differently as an American? I'm now watching Fauda which is based in Israel/Palestine and it's pretty entertaining.

On January 09 2024 08:51 Stroggoz wrote: Von Nuemann was pro first strike nuclear vs Russia. He believed that ww3 was inevitable (not an uncommon view back then), and to prevent it, Russia had to be destroyed. "why not bomb them today?" is how he put it. A lot of these people like to say "well he wouldn't have done it if he was in charge". Nah, pretty sure he would've. Just like how some people impose neoliberalism on the rest of the world when given any power. Besides, Von Neumann also put quite a lot of work into calculating the exact height these bombs need to be exploded at to maximize human casualties. Imo he was a demented psychopath that was fun at parties. Most psychos are polite people because most people are polite people. Chomsky is one of these people that will work until his brain is decomposing. Work is different to him than alot of other people. By the way, he has actually slowed down a lot this year. Havn't seen anything come from him in a while. I think this means he's gona die soon.

Figured it had to do with the bombing or I thought maybe his contributions to economics played a role with how much you hate neo-classical econ.

On January 09 2024 16:59 CurbStomp2 wrote: Show nested quote + On January 06 2024 23:58 RiKD wrote: If you feel like killing yourself go watch some HBO shows or check out the letterboxd 250. I got a Netflix subscription after taking a break for a year or two. 98% of the Netflix shows suck, but I think the American series suck way more than the European/Asian/whatever ones. Do you feel differently as an American? I'm now watching Fauda which is based in Israel/Palestine and it's pretty entertaining.

I didn't say get a Netflix subscription. Netflix is mostly awful. Better Caul Saul would be the only thing to watch on there as far as I know and The OA.

On January 09 2024 08:51 Stroggoz wrote: Chomsky is one of these people that will work until his brain is decomposing. Work is different to him than alot of other people. By the way, he has actually slowed down a lot this year. Havn't seen anything come from him in a while. I think this means he's gona die soon.

Chomsky has to survive another year so he can go through another season of who to vote for and argue with Brie Joy Gray for about an 1 hr over why you vote for Biden lol. Poor Chomsky.

On January 09 2024 17:47 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On January 09 2024 16:59 CurbStomp2 wrote:   On January 06 2024 23:58 RiKD wrote: If you feel like killing yourself go watch some HBO shows or check out the letterboxd 250. I got a Netflix subscription after taking a break for a year or two. 98% of the Netflix shows suck, but I think the American series suck way more than the European/Asian/whatever ones. Do you feel differently as an American? I'm now watching Fauda which is based in Israel/Palestine and it's pretty entertaining. I didn't say get a Netflix subscription. Netflix is mostly awful. Better Caul Saul would be the only thing to watch on there as far as I know and The OA.

I didn't get it because of you, you imbecile. I wanted to know what's new there.

On January 09 2024 18:34 CurbStomp2 wrote: Show nested quote + On January 09 2024 17:47 RiKD wrote:   On January 09 2024 16:59 CurbStomp2 wrote:   On January 06 2024 23:58 RiKD wrote: If you feel like killing yourself go watch some HBO shows or check out the letterboxd 250. I got a Netflix subscription after taking a break for a year or two. 98% of the Netflix shows suck, but I think the American series suck way more than the European/Asian/whatever ones. Do you feel differently as an American? I'm now watching Fauda which is based in Israel/Palestine and it's pretty entertaining. I didn't say get a Netflix subscription. Netflix is mostly awful. Better Caul Saul would be the only thing to watch on there as far as I know and The OA. I didn't get it because of you, you imbecile. I wanted to know what's new there.

Not much is new at Netflix. At least nothing worth paying a subscription for. Disney+ is boring right now, too.

Disney+ is the worst.

It really is down to HBO shows and good cinema as the kings of good drugs. HBO the ultimate dealer has at least 20 series that will take you higher. You could go to IMDB if you are an angsty teen but I prefer letterboxd top 250 films.