Kc Ah by drone666

missed the chat before, but he offered me 3bb/100 to play him at 5k LOL

i read that as "you would consider religion" haha

ego wars
I wonder if/how much strategy is affected from all the hostility and trash talking, eg FUCK THIS GUY, NO RNG 4BET

"ego wars" gtfo pussy
this is the fun part of poker

return to the stonecutters :<

On June 23 2020 10:12 drone666 wrote: missed the chat before, but he offered me 3bb/100 to play him at 5k LOL

3bb/100? lol did you take it?

On June 24 2020 01:23 Baalim wrote: return to the stonecutters :<

too many lurkers not many active people discussing
I didn't say yes or no, I'm not rolled for 5k and he's prob bluffing

He blocks AK and KQ.

You playing any pair less than K like that is unlikely.

Was his play okay? Help me understand that high variance play.

I think his play is alright considering that is very intuitive that 4bettor is likely to overrep AK in this runnout and if he thinks im not aware of this
its a strange spot because I expect him to xr quite a lot the flop and the turn considering my turn size, ranges are quite small and I haven't thought much about it

On June 23 2020 22:39 drone666 wrote: "ego wars" gtfo pussy this is the fun part of poker

fun or not, isn't this just ego wars?
I guess, um ...dick?

lol lovely

On June 24 2020 11:48 lebowski wrote: Show nested quote + On June 23 2020 22:39 drone666 wrote: "ego wars" gtfo pussy this is the fun part of poker fun or not, isn't this just ego wars? I guess, um ...dick?

the way you said you are implying as it's a bad thing, ego is a very subjective topic and our definition for it could be very different, and depending on the definition I disagree

fact: if you are not competitive in poker and only think about grinding for money, very likely you will not go far as it will become a burden just like any other peasant regular office job selling your time for money

personally I would like to have more beefs because that's what usually motivates me to study and improve

sure it can be a big motivator, like what Michael Jordan did (I saw the "last dance" documentary recently) with opponents and teammates. Having other examples in mind I don't think it's absolutely necessary but it does work, especially since it's pretty tough to find huge interest in poker when you are already comfortable with money. I think there are drawbacks to this, but I wasn't implying it's bad and doing it is wrong overall. In specific cases it can be, like if someone is blinded by an unrefined ego and ends up doing retarded shit

The ego is a great topic. In AA they like to talk about the reduction or even the elimination of the ego. I think that is misguided. "God is everything or nothing." But I don't want to get involved with that supernatural mumbo jumbo.

I have this hole inside of me and it wants more. It hopes. It dreams. I remember I was burning the oil on both ends and I won like 30 grand. It was my biggest winning day ever and it should have felt like all my hard work was paying off. But I got no sleep. I was compelled to play more. I 4 tabled 4 death tables shorthanded at 10/20. I wanted more. These were the situations that allowed me to be a better player but I think I got smacked around a bit and lost 7 grand. My friend who got a normal amount of sleep was like pumping me up about the big day yesterday and asked me how I felt and I felt terrible. I could always do a mega gravity bong and get lost in nature. The point is after a big day the hole maybe gets bigger. I hoped that it would be a remedy that I would feel better. That my bankroll would make me feel powerful. And I think the bankroll did make me feel powerful. But when the goal is to take the sexy Argentine chica out for some sushi at the sexy, chic spot and it's 90 Argentine Peso ($30 USD) it doesn't really fucking matter if I'm playing 3/6 or 25/50. It mattered to me though. I got greedy. I wanted to make $2million USD/yr. 25/50 was stimulating. It was VALIDATING. I was playing with Dwan, Galfond, and Guy.

That's what it's really all about anyway. Validation. I am still figuring this out. Wanting validation through women on Tinder is probably a losing proposition. But I need validation to a certain degree to achieve a healthy ego. If one plays poker and doesn't get any validation from it that would suck. HU battles would be fun and a way to improve one's game. I need as many outlets for quality validation that I can get.

I really don't know that much about the ego though even after all this time. AA could be poisoning a lot of my world view. Although they do have this idea of being right sized. Not too small and wanting or too grandiose and oversized. Right-sized might be me as a psychological counselor rather than some high stakes big bet star.

It seems that hunl gladiator drone666 fits him quite well. Time will tell. Time will tell. I don't think anyone wants to be playing online hunl when they are 50 or even 40 or even 30?

What do others think about the ego?

There is no "the way." There is a "my way" and a "your way." These can be found through the inquiry of truth.

competition is great you should be competitive but proudly displaying that doubly embarrassing chat after this hand is like gift wrapping your feces and sending it out with Christmas cards

On June 25 2020 15:41 RiKD wrote: Argentine chica out for some sushi at the sexy, chic spot and it's 90 Argentine Peso ($30 USD)

30 USD is now 2,104 argentinian pesos thanks to left wing policies but hey, I'm sure what they need is even more socialism right? lol

On June 25 2020 15:41 RiKD wrote: The ego is a great topic. In AA they like to talk about the reduction or even the elimination of the ego. I think that is misguided. "God is everything or nothing." But I don't want to get involved with that supernatural mumbo jumbo. I have this hole inside of me and it wants more. It hopes. It dreams. I remember I was burning the oil on both ends and I won like 30 grand. It was my biggest winning day ever and it should have felt like all my hard work was paying off. But I got no sleep. I was compelled to play more. I 4 tabled 4 death tables shorthanded at 10/20. I wanted more. These were the situations that allowed me to be a better player but I think I got smacked around a bit and lost 7 grand. My friend who got a normal amount of sleep was like pumping me up about the big day yesterday and asked me how I felt and I felt terrible. I could always do a mega gravity bong and get lost in nature. The point is after a big day the hole maybe gets bigger. I hoped that it would be a remedy that I would feel better. That my bankroll would make me feel powerful. And I think the bankroll did make me feel powerful. But when the goal is to take the sexy Argentine chica out for some sushi at the sexy, chic spot and it's 90 Argentine Peso ($30 USD) it doesn't really fucking matter if I'm playing 3/6 or 25/50. It mattered to me though. I got greedy. I wanted to make $2million USD/yr. 25/50 was stimulating. It was VALIDATING. I was playing with Dwan, Galfond, and Guy. That's what it's really all about anyway. Validation. I am still figuring this out. Wanting validation through women on Tinder is probably a losing proposition. But I need validation to a certain degree to achieve a healthy ego. If one plays poker and doesn't get any validation from it that would suck. HU battles would be fun and a way to improve one's game. I need as many outlets for quality validation that I can get. I really don't know that much about the ego though even after all this time. AA could be poisoning a lot of my world view. Although they do have this idea of being right sized. Not too small and wanting or too grandiose and oversized. Right-sized might be me as a psychological counselor rather than some high stakes big bet star. It seems that hunl gladiator drone666 fits him quite well. Time will tell. Time will tell. I don't think anyone wants to be playing online hunl when they are 50 or even 40 or even 30? What do others think about the ego?

if someone asks me what were my happiest days in life, I would say back in 2013-2015 when I found out they had some sort of KOTH on stars normal HU tables, it was very competitive and I really wanted to climb the stakes and beat the best guys holding the best tables, after they removed normal tables and had only zoom I migrated to other sites and bumhunted for a while, then 2017 came and pokermaster boom happened

I made a lot of money but I was just grinding and printing money against random numbers with no identity, there were no ranks, no pride, no competition, it was just clicking the buttons and collecting money, after I had enough money to retire ( for brazilian standards at least ) I remember feeling empty, less alive, purposeless, "ok, so what do I do now ?", I bought some expensive watches, a nice car but still felt dead

I suspect that I have auto sabotaged myself into dumping most of my money into crypto just to feel some pressure again, maybe I was just being a dumbass or maybe got bored and needed to feel some adrenaline again, but that's one of the big downsides of feeling motivated by " negative" emotions, it's kinda of a lose/lose situation, you need to be unhappy and angry to be motivated, once you achieve your goals, you have no reason anymore to feel unhappy and angry thus you lose motivation and sabotage yourself into going back to a difficult situation to feel that high again

right now I feel more mature and I dont think any of whatever these "goals" are, matters really, we all going to vanish into oblivion and we will not remember anything after we die. I trick myself into giving my life a false truth purpose because I think this is what will bring me more happiness during the process. Deep down I know im only a manifestation of the nature following my biological instincts and that being successful or busto are not really important, I just try to enjoy the process of living and embrace my nature

sometimes I get caught too much by the ups and downs of life and things get into my head and I have remember myself that I'm basically acting, none of this matters and life is meaningless

/random rant

On June 25 2020 18:47 Santafairy wrote: competition is great you should be competitive but proudly displaying that doubly embarrassing chat after this hand is like gift wrapping your feces and sending it out with Christmas cards

you've been reading too much reddit/rareinsults

I don't think I've clicked a link to reddit in over a decade because I have a nonzero amount of sense so I'm too out of the internet loop to get your sperglord reference that you probably confused for a burn