I am sitting in an empty house. I am uncomfortable. The akathisia lingers.
I think what I really want to do is masturbate but that's not true. I want a woman. I am in a strange place though. I am also going with out "male gaze" porn. I am exploring Feminist porn. It's a bit of a shock to my system. Which means the porn I usually watch is desensitizing and gradually damaging. But, the feminist porn is too non-gender binary and queer for me. I think it's a good shock to the system. I may not masturbate to the stuff but it is interesting. Not overly so. It makes sense. We are all people that want to play with ourselves and play with others besides the people that do not want to do that.
I am back on Tinder and boy what a bad decision that was. It's like fucking crack. My akathisia is heightened at least three fold when I run out of likes. I just did it as an experiment to see how many likes an intersectional feminist, anti-capitalist, vegan would get. It's actually a lot. Of course, I am in a certain part of the country. The experiment is not worth it though. I need to abort but I know I won't yet. I matched with Ariel, a fucking gorgeous anti-capitalist who makes me want to move here.... Well, one of many reasons to move here. All of my matches have been intriguing. These are women I would actually want to go on dates with. Not the bougie Sorority types that seem to permeate my hometown. OVERSIMPLIFICATION, RATIONALIZATION, NOT TRUE! Oh well, curating some perfect Tinder account is degrading and being a zombie to the swipe right is even more degrading. Ugh, it's addiction 101. But, it makes me so happy that Ariel exists, that Erika exists, that Amy exists, et al. I need to get out more.
One thing that jumped out to me is that list is 10 things I could be giving my time to. 10 areas I could be meeting people. Perhaps figuring out how to get to a protest is the most important thing for me right now.
The veganism is going pretty smoothly or is it? I hit some food deserts on the way up here which was educating in itself but at one gas station I was tired and hungry and grabbed some honey, Sriracha Combos with out thinking. We commodify bees too. It feels so benign. There is no Earthlings including bees it seems although I am sure it exists on YouTube. But, so far so good. I have come to this location just about every year my entire life. I had to pass up Magical Black Raspberry from the Magical Ice Cream Shop but it actually wasn't a big deal at all. I didn't go out to dinner tonight because I just didn't want to deal with no vegan options. The town my sister lives in was great for that. Just about every restaurant had multiple vegan options if not up to 4-5 vegan options. While in a food desert at an Outback Steakhouse I had to get more creative. House salad without cheese and 2 sweet potatoes with out butter. There. Not so bad. Pretty easy actually. I stayed home tonight and had leftover veggie burger and Hippeas. These things are fucking perfect for a crunchy snack, apertif, or go well with a veggie burger or whatever. It is also tradition to eat a lot of lobster and clam chowder but fuck that. I'm good with a hummus+veggie wrap or a vegan burrito. There is also the issue of my mom buying blueberry muffins especially for me thinking because we are in Maine and that is tradition that I would just change my mind. The only thing really viable in the house is bananas and almond butter which isn't ideal but it will work. Even though the bananas are probably conventional and inhumane. Chiquita from Honduras.... ugh. Do I eat the English muffins with trace amounts of whey?
Some of these Tinder girls got me aroused. It's a better game than r/girlsgonewild. I'm sick... I've got the flu. Nigga I'm ill. Is that an entendre or am I really just addicted to a cell phone app? Ladders obvs. Shoots and Ladders. It's the latter and I am playing a game of all shoots with some ladders. Hits of dopamine nigga. What are the consequences?
I was going to go to Biddeford, ME today. That's the home of the rapper Milo and his record store Soulfacts. I don't think I'm going to go though because I am not interested in records or cassettes. It was really just a fascination with Milo but actually meeting him I would feel like a poseur as I am not all that immersed in his work to be honest.
It's time ladies and gentlemen. It's time to scale up our activism. Our organization. Our solidarity. Even if that is just reading more and watching more YouTube videos and sharing.
Don't let the zionists fool you. There are human rights atrocities in existence. Child torture in existence. Don't let them fool you. And, it's funded by the USA.
Continue to wake up my people.
They try to hide it with "pink washing." They try to hide it with "vegan washing." I wonder if there is a reason I never learned about this in college.
I think I learned a lot today though. A lot of reading and YouTube videos. I wonder if Öcalan getting jailed was a good thing for the movement. Being confined leads to more reading and reflecting.
Writing in the morning means I am closest to my dreams. I don't remember any dreams from last night.
It's the final stages of the vacation. That point where I start gearing myself up a little bit to get back to work. I don't know if I learned as much as I would have liked or had as much fun as I would have liked or relaxed as much as I would have liked. That's life. To even have some sort of precise expectation seems silly.
Yesterday was a good practice in a confinement experience. Except I wasn't actually confined. I could leave the house at any time except from about 1-4pm. If I left the house though what would I do? Go shopping? Yuck. Öcalan was in solitary confinement for his known remaining lifetime. Nothing to do but read, write, and reflect. I like the idea of that but even in that space for 7 hours yesterday it was uncomfortable at times. I went for a walk. It was nicer to cook dinner for 7 people and then sit around a campfire all night.
But, now human beings are gathering around the table for breakfast so I'd rather be there.
Cheers.
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LemOn[5thF] Czech Republic. Jun 29 2019 20:34. Posts 15163
You tried journaling before? Why do you need the illusion that people care about what you write/eyeballs by posting publicly
You do you girl!
I came across a good example of speciesism yesterday. We were making lobsters. Live lobsters so we had to murder them. My mom doesn't eat meat but she will eat lobsters because they are "the cockroaches of the sea" and told a story about how lobster was so plentiful that they used to feed the New Hampshire prisoners lobster for every meal until they boycotted it. I do it in my own mind as well. I had the urge to rationalize about eating shrimp today because who cares right? It's not pig or cow or chicken or lamb. If someone will dominate an animal they will dominate a human and they will dominate nature. Beware.
On June 29 2019 19:34 LemOn[5thF] wrote:
You tried journaling before? Why do you need the illusion that people care about what you write/eyeballs by posting publicly
You do you girl!
I do journal. It's like there is more skin in the game or something if I come on here and sometimes it blossoms into discussion. It's definitely a habit at this point. I don't think to open up my pages file instead I just write on here.
My Akithesia is really bad at the moment. I am going from one thing to the next.
My vacation was pretty good. I love the city of Northampton, MA. There are vegan options at just about every restaurant. Many of them tell you the ingredients up front so you don't even need to ask. It was great seeing my sister and brother-in-law. A lot of hiking in the forest and just having a good time.
I'll tell you one thing. Baby boomer centrists are frustrating. I had to spend entirely too much time among conversations between these people.
Now I'm back at the tyranny of work. Free to starve baby! Free to starve!
I actually don't have a lot to say about July 4 at the moment. I hope everyone globally has a good day.
"As the entrepreneur of its own self, the neoliberal subject has no capacity for relationships with others that might be free of purpose. Nor do entrepreneurs know what purpose-free friendship would even look like. Originally, being free meant being among friends. ‘Freedom’ and ‘friendship’ have the same root in Indo-European languages.
Fundamentally, freedom signifies a relationship. A real feeling of freedom occurs only in a fruitful relationship – when being with others brings happiness. But today’s neoliberal regime leads to utter isolation; as such, it does not really free us at all. Accordingly, the question now is whether we need to redefine freedom – to reinvent it – in order to escape from the fatal dialectic that is changing freedom into coercion.
Neoliberalism represents a highly efficient, indeed an intelligent, system for exploiting freedom. Everything that belongs to practices and expressive forms of liberty – emotion, play and communication – comes to be exploited. It is inefficient to exploit people against their will. Allo-exploitation yields scant returns. Only when freedom is exploited are returns maximized.
It is interesting to note that Marx also defines freedom in terms of a successful relationship to others: ‘Only in community [with others does each] individual [have] the means of cultivating his gifts in all directions; only in the community, therefore, is personal freedom possible.’ From this perspective, being free means nothing other than self-realization with others. Freedom is synonymous with a working community (i.e., a successful one).
For Marx, individual freedom represents a ruse – a trick of capital. ‘Free competition’, which is based on the idea of individual freedom, simply amounts to the ‘relation of capital to itself as another capital, i.e., the real conduct of capital as capital’. Capital reproduces by entering into relations with itself as another form of Capital: through free competition. It copulates with the Other of itself by way of individual freedom. Capital grows inasmuch as people engage in free competition. Hereby, individual freedom amounts to servitude inasmuch as Capital lays hold of it and uses it for its own propagation. That is, Capital exploits individual freedom in order to breed: ‘It is not the individuals who are set free by free competition; it is, rather, capital which is set free."
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
Today, I was sitting in the parking lot waiting for my mom to finish shopping and just people watching. All the people just trying to "make it." Whatever that means. I was at the beach earlier. It was bedlam. A lot of instances of overt patriotism (and likely nationalism). The Byung-Bhul Han passage above is very relevant. Capital's subterfuge of "Freedom" with a capital "F." Many would say I am lucky to be born as a white male into a privileged family in the USA. That is winning the lottery (!) they say. It doesn't feel that way. It's certainly a better outcome than getting kidnapped to harvest chocolate in West Africa. My upbringing was mostly roses although I did struggle a bit in high school. I was Captain of the lacrosse team why should I struggle? I was good at school. I had all the makings to be an engineer, scientist, lawyer, finance fuck, etc. I got to college and I couldn't do it. I needed the truth. I needed a real education. History brought me that truth. The classes were actually stimulating. Round table Socratic method discussion. You had to really bring it in your papers and essays or the Prof was going to fuck you up. At least most Profs. Then I found poker and that was it. I am lucky I graduated. I was just that more skilled at writing papers and essays than my peers. Or, I found the easiest classes to take once poker became the focus. I miss University. So much potential. So much knowledge to be acquired and not in an isolated fashion that I mostly take part in today. I don't know though. My extended family millennials the majority are $100,000+ in student debt. That is fucking crazy. How do millennials get ahead in this world? It seems like the deck is stacked against us and a lot of it is baby boomer centrists' fault that had us against our will in the first place.
Neoliberalism needs growth in population to sustain growth in capitalism. Places like Germany and Japan are actually decreasing population and people are worried about their economies suffering. I actually need to look more into this as I don't understand why decreasing population is a bad thing all things considered. The economy will not increase but why is that a bad thing? I mean it's bad for the baby boomer stock portfolios I suppose. What if the USA spent less money on the military and decreased it's footprint through out the world? What really would happen if we cared more about the people (globally) over corporate interests?
I agree with Byung-Chul Han. It's tough to be free by ones' self. We are free through self-actualization among Others. We can achieve this self-actualization through art. That is the one exception I can think of. An entrepreneur of the self is in hell. No relationships with out networking, "what can he/she do for me?" And, rightfully found out that the entrepreneur is only setting capital free. Even the CEO is a slave. Was it Byung-Chul Han who talked about masters as slaves? We are all slaves. The master just gets a bigger house, bigger boat, MORE to try and rationalize this madness.
Did anyone know that it is Franz Kafka's birthday today? I am generally more stoked about that than USA independence because it's not true independence. It was the wake off the worst imperialist offenders in the history of the Planet Earth. Classic nationalism. I sometimes wonder if these people decked out in their patriotic gear are happy. I wonder if anyone is happy. People falling in love are probably happy. People working on their best works are probably happy. People in the middle of battling on the poker tables stacking about 10+ buy-ins are probably happy. People catching a wave are probably happy. That was me earlier today but the happiness didn't last very long. I came home and am writing this blog which I typically am generally dissatisfied if I am writing a blog although this one came out of curiosity. The Byung-Chul Han quote only strengthened it. I need more fruitful connections. I need to get active. I am still not sure how I am going to do that. It may be as easy as doing some work on Google.
So, Happy July 4th everyone. I hope you haven't been too negatively effected by the USA's imperialism or neoliberal capitalism. It's a mother fucker. I strongly suggest to read some Kafka on this beautiful day. I would say Metamorphosis is where to start. Classic Kafka.
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Stroggoz New Zealand. Jul 04 2019 20:30. Posts 5296
You can sit in on university classes and not pay for the course, so i mean you can go there and pretend to be in the class, give the prof a hard time like some mature students do, and not pay a dime.
My fav historian is vijay prashad, seems like almost no one writes about the stuff he does even tho it accounts for something like 80% of the worlds population.
One of 3 non decent human beings on a site of 5 people with between 2-3 decent human beings
I didn't know I could sit in on university classes. I might not be bothered. Finding parking and all that shit is annoying. Plus, the college here I don't think is all that great. I'd rather find more stuff online like the Justice course at Harvard or the Philosophy of Death course at Yale. I wanted to be a philosophy major in university but didn't have the balls to do it at the time. History is what I fell into. That was my fuck you to everyone that said I should be an engineer or a chemist or whatever. Like I said, I needed Truth. I'll have to check out Vijay Prashad at some point. I really don't know when.
My attitudes and beliefs may be why I have no friends. Akathisia is maddening at times but social anxiety may be even worse. I'm really fucked up guys. I am in a position where I basically have to join protests to meet people or at least it feels that way. Yet, I can't even be bothered to do any Google sleuthing. I'm back on Tinder because I'm bored and lonely....
I'm bored and lonely.
I am rarely free.
Woe is me.
It has sounded like a fucking warzone outside all night. These people are nuts. How can I fit into this world?
It's not your fault. I ask myself the same question, but do I really want to try to fit in? Rarely. I don't think I will ever be able to. The only thing I can hope for is to find people who feel the same. I know they're out there, it's just a matter of having the opportunity to meet them, and I haven't had it while I was ill. I know it's not going to be on Tinder, nor on Facebook. That shit's not real life and it's designed to make us miserable.
I actually reached out to some girl on Facebook recently, something I never do, because I'm lonely and I was hoping to spark a new friendship because she's going to a bunch of shows in common with me and she's into Gaspar Noé and climbing and other shit I like. To my surprise, she accepted my invite and we got to talk a bit and it was all fine, but now she's not responding to a very basic question, "what are your favorite albums so far this year?" and I've just been feeling stupid and vulnerable and doubting myself even though I know I didn't screw this up in any way. I'm not used to these feelings anymore, obsessing over getting a message or a like; I hadn't used Facebook in over a year for anything else other than keeping track of events. But it's really a drug, especially when you are socially isolated.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
Yeah, I don't remember the last time I was on Facebook. Tinder was a bad experiment. But, on the other hand I matched with all these women I could be talking to. I went to an AA meeting this morning with a friend. People are friendly enough. We have our alcoholism in common. I wouldn't say I don't fit in there but all these God tropes and things happening for a reason I have a hard time with. I get along well with most of the people I work with. I think that is important as I spend so much time there. That is not really freedom through a relationship however. Even if it is nice talking to one of the women in the seafood dept. today about tattoos while getting some vegan food at the hot bar on break. There are quite a lot of vegans who work there. One of the women there that I like ordered some vegan slices today which makes her even more attractive than she already was. I don't really know how to take things further (with anyone including her) as it is mostly just brief interactions. I am mostly just making pizzas all day. I guess I just hang around long enough and have enough positive interactions maybe something goes somewhere maybe it doesn't.
I had a good friend that was an anarchist that switched stores and I stopped going to the Buddhist recovery meetings and we just haven't spoken since. That's really a bummer. I don't know. I don't think I went to an AA meeting for like 3 months??? It wasn't bad driving up there with my friend and having some breakfast afterward. It reminded me that is really what I want. That freedom with the Other. As much as I want to fit in I'm obviously not going to fit square pegs into round holes. Which may land me back at this damn CPU writing blog posts which I guess is ok if that's what I have to do. Or, more accurately that's what ends up happening. I guess that is part of the problem. I am ok with my plight. I'm really not but I am.
My therapist keeps talking about what am I going to dip my toes in? I dipped my toes in Tinder but it's not Real. There is always that shimmer of hope in that it is real and I can chat with these women and perhaps date them and find some freedom. I am actually surprised I have been as successful at matching all these women as my profile is the most polarizing thing ever.
I think I would rather have some good friends and a good group over dating at this point. I'd rather something develop more organically through friends and mutual friends than the Tinder shit show. Although, the more I write about Tinder the more I have the urge to check my matches and messages. Ugly business. Maybe I'll read some more Byung-Chul Han. It's between Byung-Chul Han, a Mark Fisher blog, or "The Trial" by Franz Kafka.
what is it that you don't "fit in", and what kind of group are you looking for? i mean most of the time people from the group are people that "fit in" right? or not necessarily? question is, would said group be beneficial to you *if they are composed of people who "fit in" when you said yourself that you're most likely never going to,
I've never used Tinder but I heard it's not hard to get matches even if you're polarizing, it's just that it doesn't go anywhere and people ghost a lot. I guess it's good in the short term for you to get matches to gratify your ego, but the downside is that you got more to lose as a result.
I think it goes back to what I said to you before you got heavily invested in Buddhism. The fact that you're not suffering enough to push yourself to change things. Most people struggle with this to differing degrees. Being "okay with your plight but not really". It's like that dog and nail story. Learned helplessness of sorts, which is due to the oppressive nature of our Business Culture society and the poverty and lack of accessibility of meaningful relationships, especially romantic relationships.
Personally, I've been really sick for over 6 months, so it's still fresh in my mind that I could be severely incapacitated, which makes me want to do things and take risks now that I'm doing better. It's like I'm on a clock until the next time. Like Schopenhauer said, health is something we take for granted. It's only when something bothersome impresses itself upon our senses that we take notice that we had something we enjoyed and remember that it is worth preserving. That's why philosophies like Stoicism and Buddhism are so helpful for psychological health, because they introduce such reminders in our daily routine in the form of rituals.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
On July 07 2019 07:19 Raidern wrote:
what is it that you don't "fit in", and what kind of group are you looking for? i mean most of the time people from the group are people that "fit in" right? or not necessarily? question is, would said group be beneficial to you *if they are composed of people who "fit in" when you said yourself that you're most likely never going to,
I have fit into groups in the past.
- Children I lived near in elementary school
- People that drank and smoked weeds in various venues in high school
- The people in my dorm in college
- poker players
- alcoholics
- sober alcoholics
That's kind of an oversimplification but mostly true.
I don't fit in on Main Street and misfits are not easy to find.
On July 07 2019 07:59 Loco wrote:
I've never used Tinder but I heard it's not hard to get matches even if you're polarizing, it's just that it doesn't go anywhere and people ghost a lot. I guess it's good in the short term for you to get matches to gratify your ego, but the downside is that you got more to lose as a result.
I think it goes back to what I said to you before you got heavily invested in Buddhism. The fact that you're not suffering enough to push yourself to change things. Most people struggle with this to differing degrees. Being "okay with your plight but not really". It's like that dog and nail story. Learned helplessness of sorts, which is due to the oppressive nature of our Business Culture society and the poverty and lack of accessibility of meaningful relationships, especially romantic relationships.
Personally, I've been really sick for over 6 months, so it's still fresh in my mind that I could be severely incapacitated, which makes me want to do things and take risks now that I'm doing better. It's like I'm on a clock until the next time. Like Schopenhauer said, health is something we take for granted. It's only when something bothersome impresses itself upon our senses that we take notice that we had something we enjoyed and remember that it is worth preserving. That's why philosophies like Stoicism and Buddhism are so helpful for psychological health, because they introduce such reminders in our daily routine in the form of rituals.
Yeah, I was talking to a woman last night and she called it "window shopping." A lot of "window shoppers" on here and asked me directly if I was serious. I thought it was a good way to put it and I am not innocent of window shopping. I just thought I would dip my toes into the water and see what happens but I don't think I'm ready to date in this fashion. My akathisia and anxiety makes me very fearful of a date.
Yeah, shit is fucked up.
Glad you are doing better. Grab life by the horns and all that.
I never read that dog and nail story. I like simple stories like that. I am a dog sitting on a nail and my whimpering and moaning can certainly be seen on here.
I heavily considered going to the Refuge Recovery meeting tonight although I don't identify as a Buddhist. Just someone who likes a lot of the tenets and dislikes a lot of stuff about it too. I was thinking back that my life was better when I was heavily invested in Buddhism in a way. I remembered some of my shares at the time and albeit being a bit over zealous I think I actually was in a pretty good place. I wasn't filled with the anxiety I am now. I have to find some medium with all of this. I am likely in a phase where I start going to AA again. The God stuff there is just so silly though. I'll take the silly'ness of Yuttadhammo Bikkhu over the silly'ness of some of the stuff you get in AA. No, I wouldn't go back to Y. That whole situation he's got going is kind of fucked. Writing this out makes me realize just how lost I feel all over again. I think I need to meet someone who asks me to go to a protest. I don't know if I have the gumption to do it on my own. But, what are the chances of meeting that person. Protests are full of these people yet I am seemingly impotent to figuring out how to get to one. I don't know how many times on here I have said activism maybe my last shot. I still have art. Which reminds me I have to buy more canvases but I am a mediocre artist. Activism could supply salvation. Even if it doesn't it's still a worthwhile project. Maybe the only worthwhile project I have left.
I really enjoyed history. Back when I knew how to annotate like a boss. You had to get the rhetoric right, the evidence had to be on point, and again if you didn't get the footnotes right some Profs would lose their shit. I actually enjoyed looking through sources trying to piece a case together. I wish I still had that badass Alienware CPU. I never backed it up and it had so much good shit on there. I don't have any papers I wrote in college which is a bummer. Not that I would go back to school... I don't want to be $200,000 in debt with a MA or PHD in History. That just seems crazy to me. Similarly, for philosophy or social, political, cultural theory. I'm like $3,000 in debt right now due to medical bills and it is stressing me out enough. It sucks even more because my meds are fucking me up so it's not easy to just switch Doctors at the moment. It took them probably like 4 months to decline my financial assistance request so the bills just piled up. I'm not happy about it. Oh well, I have to follow through and see what can be done about it tomorrow.
Doesn't seem like too bad of a tour of duty. I've given up on being smuggled into Rojava though. Not worth it to me and unfortunately I need my medications. Hopefully, I can visit one day flying into Aleppo and renting a car but that day may never come.
Yeah I thought you'd partly enjoy listening to this because it makes you feel like you're not missing all that much, although this is only the military wing. From what I've seen the internationalist commune is better and you don't suffer these types of disappointments that the 'man of action' feels because the YPG has to protect foreigners, but you have to be useful to the revolution if you want to feel good living in a commune.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
I don't know if I was ever a "man of action" but sitting around in a base in the middle of nowhere with nothing to do doesn't sound fun. I actually would enjoy that daily schedule though of PT, breakfast, military training, free time, lunch, military training, free time, dinner, free time. I guess there is always some form of guard or patrol which would likely be boring but even worse you have to be focused because something could happen. When I was a security guard at a corporate building on night shift I could pretty much just not care pretty much as long as I made sure there were no water breaks throughout the building. I would go on a languid patrol and then dick around with the security cameras for a while and then watch podcasts until it was time to go on patrol again. On guard for potential ISIS mo' fuckers doing things it's going to be boring but I am on watch. I haven't heard about the commune. Again, I don't think I could go because I need my meds but that might be more my speed even though military training is something I would be interested in. The main issue is getting my lithium and an anti-psychotic as going manic with out doctors and potentially a psych ward is not good for anyone. The other issue is I don't like the idea of ending up in an Iraqi prison. I don't have the balls to take that chance, or I don't care about the revolution enough, or I'm not crazy enough, or all 3. There are likely plenty of opportunities locally to get involved in but yeah, I guess maybe none of those are quite as exciting as Rojava. I just want to do Food Not Bombs and I never have that day off. I could always call that day off....
funny imo that the word akathesia literally means "not sitting down" in Greek and it's used as a medical term globally
I imagine it sounds pretty exotic for non greek speakers
new shit has come to light... a-and... shit! man...
From what I've heard from other internationalists before, the Rojava military isn't hierarchical/disciplinary, so I think this is particular to some internationalist groups only. It isn't surprising that Westerners are fleeing their own shitty society looking for a better one and bringing their egos/addictions with them. I think most people would find it a lot easier to overcome their addictions there if they were isolated/directionless back home, but some people are going to be problematic no matter what. Curious to see what will happen from this, he changed the title to "YPG International exposed" which ought to bring even more attention to the problem.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
It makes no sense to me that a military unit has no hierarchy or discipline, really. It's no place for debate. Someone gives the order, someone executes it as commanded, simple as that. This would be a huge liability in a combat imo. Their discussion about the youtube video (2nd video) is very cringy. A 2nd in command asks you to shut the video off, take it down, don't discuss whether it makes sense or not.
I'm using those terms in an anarchist context. These libertarian socialist guerillas are hardcore anti-authoritarians. Officers are appointed through internal elections and they are supposed to be recallable if their egos or incompetence is getting in the way of the unit's functioning. Another way to put it is to say it's supposed to be a competence/functional hierarchy rather than a value/dominance hierarchy. You have to first understand that the YPG internationalists are not paid to be there, they are doing this voluntarily for free because they believe in the revolution. There is of course 'discipline' but the structure of the unit isn't disciplinary: there are no drill sergeants, no punishments, no getting yelled at, no climbing up the ranks for better pay and prestige. Leaders are supposed to put themselves on the same level as others, they are just chosen to make certain decisions for time constraint/efficiency purposes. Of course if you're incompetent or dangerous to others they'll warn you or send you home.
Well, he did take down the video, he just thought it was strange that those specific criticisms were made when there are other official videos that are still up and don't obey those rules. Also the suicide thing is pretty interesting because it directly seems to link to incompetence, if what he says is true, the guy had to do bureaucratic work for a drug addicted commander for 5-6 months and was terribly depressed, he had only signed up to fight and kill ISIS members.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
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