Father's Day

*That should read something like "(Their goal is to) exploit new markets or better exploit current ones" in which "their" is equal to the masters, owners, bourgeois. It is the goal of capitalism. Mindless growth until we drive the locomotive off of a cliff. Repressed growth where we expand beyond reason. Poor wager after poor wager for instant gratification at the expense of the planet Earth (and ourselves).

Fuck. It is more difficult to write now. I have my sister-in-law reading a book to her child. The World Cup is on the tv. I just want a quiet, isolated place where I can write while my breakfast digests and then read a novel that I am in love with.

Oh well, I should embrace it. Strikes and gutters.

Honestly? I feel bad for you.

You act mightier than most when it comes to anything else.

Hate to say it - You seem like a fucking waste. And fuck you Loco.

Talking about birds and sunlight and life and feelings - Great and all. But get a fucking job.

I feel like Loco is coddling you, encouraging you...

get a fucking job man. your intelligence is not better than us

Wage slave resentment. When made aware of the predicament it seems like it is met with delusion, repression and anger. They do a good job of creating the illusion.

I'm cool with it. I think there can always be a collaborative effort. You are attempting to check me in a way which I appreciate. I am just sharing my truth. It's not really about selling or manipulating or else I would not have said "I am a border collie" (which was mostly tongue in cheek). If you are in the working class let's organize. If not go consume and anesthetize yourself with junk values. If that is working for you cool. If not let's organize. There could be a flow chart that pretty much leads to being in the 1% or organizing.

Don't feel bad for me bro. I'm at a beach house with my fam. I certainly don't enjoy every moment but a lot of moments are about as good as it gets.

I write my opinions on here because I keep them repressed much of the time in a lot of my IRL circles.

We're all a fucking waste. Become one with it bro.

I will get a job eventually (unfortunately). I don't even like missing 1 meal and I have a car insurance bill sitting at home. I will own up to renting myself out to an owner. I'll just make sure it isn't overly displeasing (it's always at least a little displeasing).

I am thankful for Loco's encouragement. He has helped me become a more awesome human being.

My intelligence is not great by any means. Above average. A skill of mine is seeking and extracting fire from exceptional sources. Loco just happens to be a curator of fire.

I don't think I am better than anyone. I am just lucky in that I can take some time off from employment.

My message to anyone is to really feel the wage slave situation. On an individual level, a local level and a global level. Things can change. ¡Viva la Revolucion!

On June 17 2018 15:01 devon06atX wrote: Honestly? I feel bad for you. You act mightier than most when it comes to anything else. Hate to say it - You seem like a fucking waste. And fuck you Loco. Talking about birds and sunlight and life and feelings - Great and all. But get a fucking job. I feel like Loco is coddling you, encouraging you... get a fucking job man. your intelligence is not better than us

I feel bad for him too. I also feel bad for me. And for you. But especially your kids if you have them or you're going to have them. To have inherited this world... this sinking ship. It's sad that you feel hatred for people who point out that it's sinking. Especially those who say that it is sinking for a reason, and that it's not too late to do something about it. It's like you don't want to feel a sense of collective responsibility so the knee jerk response is to hate or ignore those people. Instead of looking at someone's blog to pity them and feel like you're over them, you should take a long hard look in the mirror. Your reaction here is not healthy at all.

^if it were you Loco that we were talking about i think i can get behind that or at least say its a valid stance or whatever...But for me I really have trouble believing that Rikd is as pure in intention as you are.

At the end of the day no one knows what's going on through his/anybody's head. Do you think theres a chance you are seeing what you want to see in him / being naive to trust someone so completely?

What are my intentions?

This post is weird.

You pretty much can know what is going on in my head. I write what is going through my head.

The fact that I get blowback whenever I talk about any of this stuff on here or IRL leads me to believe people are delusional, illusioned, repressed and secretly deeply resentful about these realities. It's easier to just get drunk and watch the World Cup.

On June 17 2018 19:52 hiems wrote: ^if it were you Loco that we were talking about i think i can get behind that or at least say its a valid stance or whatever...But for me I really have trouble believing that Rikd is as pure in intention as you are. At the end of the day no one knows what's going on through his/anybody's head. Do you think theres a chance you are seeing what you want to see in him / being naive to trust someone so completely?

Are you saying that he's basically just mimicking my own views without being really committed to them and understanding them? I don't think I have that kind of influence over him. His life experiences mirror a lot of other people's experiences that are often driven to these conclusions. Maybe I'm naive, but I think he's genuinely interested in these things. Of course he has a habit of just saying whatever is going on his mind at a given time and everyone has junk thoughts so not all of it should be taken seriously...

I usually agree with rikd's sentiments/values and when it comes to capitalism i believe the people who don't see it for it's obvious injustices are typically the ones who have coddled their own mind. it's just his writing style-the stream of consciousness style- that tilts me a lot of the time.

jobs are for losers imo! Pretty funny telling someone on a poker site to get a job! I thought we all started playing this game to escape one.

I think some people started playing poker because they like playing poker.

When are we going to see Stroggoz share some of his poker winnings with his down and out socialist brother?

Damn sons its ok to thank your dad

i've always liked rikd's presence on the site, because he was so obvious about being dissatisfied with life. despite chasing extremely materialistic desires and even then seeing them to be hollow he still can't help but desire it.

i guess it was reaffirming/made me feel less alone knowing other people had the same hurt/disatisfaction

i grew up in a family, friend group, environment, industry where ppl are very "why cant you quit asking questions and just do your damn job" attitude.

it was hard not to internalize it and it took forever to reject it. and even now, i'm still pretty bad at rejecting it.

i keep switching back and forth between optimism (there's so much room for real improvement and technology like the internet makes it easier for the proliferation of ideas/change) and straight up hopelessness (my own inadequacies, engaging other people and accepting that they are not bad people perse but that they have woefully backward ideals)

right now i'm kind of taking a break from the world and "pushing my head into the ground" and focusing most of my efforts (80%+ on music/piano) and like 10% on trying to get back into poker.

RiKD, am I wrong to assume that Black Friday is the cause of your loser mentality? Did the poker games get too difficult and you weren't able to adjust? Did you have a loser mentality before getting into poker? Or is it a combination of all three?

At first, I read some of your blogs and hoped you were trolling. Now, I rarely read any of your blogs and don't care much anymore because they're all rants about you going nowhere in life.

I guess your blogs are valuable to some people, as certain people enjoy reading how other people are in a shittier place in life than they are. Either way, they're a waste of time, thought, and energy when you really think about it, as you aren't gaining anything from them aside from a couple sympathy posts here and there.

Again, hopefully you're trolling. If not, feel free to continue writing blogs on LP.net (this will be the last blog of yours that I'll read) if that's what makes you feel better.

On June 18 2018 00:47 bigredhoss wrote: I think some people started playing poker because they like playing poker. When are we going to see Stroggoz share some of his poker winnings with his down and out socialist brother?

I'd rather Stroggoz get back to meaningful work in politics, economics, sociology, anthropology, biology, physics, history, et al. I do like Solver Stroggoz but I like writing emails to Chomsky Stroggoz better.

On June 18 2018 01:53 K40Cheddar wrote: Damn sons its ok to thank your dad

I can thank my dad any day of the year. Why do I need a bullshit holiday to do it?

On June 18 2018 04:19 qwe5408 wrote: i've always liked rikd's presence on the site, because he was so obvious about being dissatisfied with life. despite chasing extremely materialistic desires and even then seeing them to be hollow he still can't help but desire it. i guess it was reaffirming/made me feel less alone knowing other people had the same hurt/disatisfaction i grew up in a family, friend group, environment, industry where ppl are very "why cant you quit asking questions and just do your damn job" attitude. it was hard not to internalize it and it took forever to reject it. and even now, i'm still pretty bad at rejecting it. i keep switching back and forth between optimism (there's so much room for real improvement and technology like the internet makes it easier for the proliferation of ideas/change) and straight up hopelessness (my own inadequacies, engaging other people and accepting that they are not bad people perse but that they have woefully backward ideals) right now i'm kind of taking a break from the world and "pushing my head into the ground" and focusing most of my efforts (80%+ on music/piano) and like 10% on trying to get back into poker.

I've been over chasing the materialistic mirage. It is much easier to be content with life for what it is given this shift in consciousness. This vacation I am on currently really drives it home what I value in life. A bar crawl with my sisters and brother-in-law, my sisters smoking a bowl on the patio and us talking until the sun comes up, watching my nephews play with bubbles (they are already here might as well make the best of it), (we are already here might as well make the best of it), going for a walk on the beach with my dad, cooking with my mom, finding a quiet, isolated space to read my novel, going to the grocery store with my brother-in-law and getting to know him better. My brother and I are planning to go down to the boardwalk and play arcade games like we used to, a hike in the forest.

I get the hopelessness. Sometimes it is hard not to be a ball of fear and resentments.

See, I put my head into the ground and read. Mostly what Loco suggests because he steers me in the right direction. I read what Stroggoz suggests and I would read more. I read what Spitfire suggests but I didn't like the novel that he suggested me and don't always like his posts as much so would be hesitant to read a suggestion in the future.

80%+ on music/piano sounds awesome. 10% on trying to get back into poker sounds shitty. Replace that with forest bathing, friends, family. Hell, all the resources are on this site (and the internet/library) to get a pretty good education in life (and yourself).

On June 18 2018 05:55 PuertoRican wrote: RiKD, am I wrong to assume that Black Friday is the cause of your loser mentality? Did the poker games get too difficult and you weren't able to adjust? Did you have a loser mentality before getting into poker? Or is it a combination of all three? At first, I read some of your blogs and hoped you were trolling. Now, I rarely read any of your blogs and don't care much anymore because they're all rants about you going nowhere in life. I guess your blogs are valuable to some people, as certain people enjoy reading how other people are in a shittier place in life than they are. Either way, they're a waste of time, thought, and energy when you really think about it, as you aren't gaining anything from them aside from a couple sympathy posts here and there. Again, hopefully you're trolling. If not, feel free to continue writing blogs on LP.net (this will be the last blog of yours that I'll read) if that's what makes you feel better.

I pondered a bit on if I wanted to even engage someone who is using the term "loser mentality."

An obsession with winning only brought me psychological problems.

I am not trolling. From my perspective I AM going somewhere in life although I don't really like that terminology either. I am currently not climbing any dominance hierarchies so that is what you probably look at as success.

I mean I can look at where I am at in life and say it's a shitty place. It's a predicament. If people want to be voyeurs and extract gratitude from my perceived predicament that is fine but there is more to life than status and material comparison. Everyone is in the same predicament.

I hesitate to write on this but I think it is an example of what I am going for. My mom last week had a conversation with me about why I am so endearing to people. Like she was trying to understand it. I was just like whatever Ma. I am just me. Then this week my sisters wouldn't shut up about how I am so endearing to people, that they look up to me and are so proud of me. It's like they are trying to figure it out. Of course it's healthy and maybe unhealthy for my ego. I don't think about it too much. In a way I didn't even like it because I never considered myself endearing to people and now I have to be self-aware about it and have thoughts about it. Although, of course, I liked being described as inquisitive, genuine, honest, real, empathetic, different in a good way, different in the best of ways... I won't go on but those types of conversations have me thinking I'm doing something right.

lol @ leads me to believe people are delusional, illusioned, repressed and secretly deeply resentful about these realities.

fucking white people man. rikd if you were some black dude doing the same shit you'd be cast off as just another loser angry black man. if you were some scrawny asian dude I really doubt people on here or anywhere would "find you endearing" or whatever else and they'd think your just another crazy.

There's a whole bunch of issues that I go through on a daily basis that your fucking entitled ass does not have to go through. When's the last time Chomsky talked on some fucking youtube video about how hard it is for asian dudes to get dates on tinder? I can't make some gay speech at some wedding with my rich white daddy friends to have landed some cushy job i dont deserve. I have more shit than the capitalist system to worry about. i'm just about the last person delusional, illusioned, and repressed about any sort of reality so please go shove it.

On June 18 2018 00:47 bigredhoss wrote: I think some people started playing poker because they like playing poker. When are we going to see Stroggoz share some of his poker winnings with his down and out socialist brother?

sorry but i need a lot of money for political protection. I don't care about making bundles of money but it has to be done so i can do more worthwhile things. The alternatives i have don't allow me to be useful to anyone. When you turn towards radical views...if you want to say what you want then it will be hard able to get any sort of real job. So i need the money to support myself.

and yes rikd I will be turning towards that path quite soon. Fact of the matter is i need a lot of money, since i don't have popular views, the cost of potentially not having a job from this is millions of dollars over a lifetime. I much enjoy reading/writing far more than playing poker so i will inevitable turn towards that goal.

It seems to me the only rational thing for people to do is to become political agitators, given the state of the capitalist system, it has become a threat to human civilisation.

No one has bigger issues to worry about than capitalism, the poorest people in the world have been able to mobilise against this system so there really isn't any excuse for me or anyone else living a life of privilege