so i ended up going to a 5/5 on friday with my friend, i was going to get some rest for a wedding saturday but my gf was just generally being a cunt so i decided to have my friend pick me up and go play.
a little background of the game, its a game i have never been to before but it was ALL asian (mostly philipean/koreans) who are semi recreational players composed of either fancy play asians that make fancy plays for no reason or degen gamblers.
raises were generally $20-25 preflop and there are players with like 10-15% 3bet preflops that would pop to like $70+ and half the time show their J10s or pocket 7's ect.
i started well up around $500 within the first 2 hours, then eventually got into a few drawy hands that missed, had to lay down a set on the river to an obv flush and got AA cracked by K10 pre. its ok tho i still walked out with almost $200.
il be going to a 1/3 at a different spot tonight who my freind swares its 1000x softer. i could really use the money at this point in my life.
in a game like this, im only playing my hand for value.
then choose liquor over your family, then almost get kidnapped by a black dude, THEN blame it on your family, not yourself. This is how to be a great mother.
And to think, I was disappointed that she didn't get kidnapped.
Finishing up my last semester of school. Only 2 classes, so i had a lot of free time. Decided to put 100 into bovada and started playing .5/.10 just to get a feel of the platform.
kept randomly shoving all in since if you try and type in your bets, a lot of times you'll type to the left of the decimal, so you'll randomly jam more than your stack.
anyway immediately moved to .1/.25 and so far it's been super soft. played maybe 2-3 hours for the past 3 days. i've been spewing a buy in every session, so i guess the outlook looks great.
Help me find an article.by SpasticInk, November 16
For some reason I just can't get ahold of this document through my university despite being logged in and everything. I just need to check a few things before using it as a source.
The article is called
Effects of Different Brain Lesions on Card Sorting
The Role of the Frontal Lobes (1963)
Weight Loss Blog #1 - Moob/gross warning?by Svenman87, November 15
Ha well shit I figured I'd like to document my personal weight loss to keep me motivated by the trolls as well as the progress
I'll be the first one to say that prior to joining a gym in July, I had NEVER lifted.
Anyways a intro would probably be nice.
I had always been a bigger kid growing up, not huge but never slim or muscular. I played sports as a kid but got super depressed and reclusive when my parents divorced at age 15, instead I trapped myself away in my room playing StarCraft and Counter-Strike. This was pretty much my life for years; along with depression I over time had developed terrible anxiety. When I was a senior in high school it was so bad that I couldn't eat lunch in the cafeteria due to a horrible stomach ache I would get immediately seeing all these people around me (probably had paranoia issues as well) anyways as a result I rarely ate lunch, and I never at breakfast and my dinners were always small and on the go since I had almost a full time job on top of school. I dropped to 160, and not a lean 160... https://scontent-a-ord.xx.fbcdn.net/h...481369_3369367434299_1282637899_n.jpg
like a skeletor 160 haha that was me at my grad party with my (now deceased grandparents)
Anyways at the time I wasn't into drinking and didn't really have any friends, I kept to myself and I didn't get bothered which was fine. I did have girlfriends all through high school so I kept pretty busy between 30-40hr work weeks plus school and a girlfriend.
Upon entering college I found this fun thing called Alcohol - which turns your shitty life, to a not so shitty life for a bit, then generally makes it even shittier at the end. Drank a lot alone in college or with my roommate (Skot) when he would go out to a party I would rather stay inside and play poker and get wasted. I ended up dropping out during the 2nd semester and moved back home. This is where the initial weight gain began, since prior to being home all I could afford was cheap vodka and no food vs now that I was home I had all the food I could eat plus alcohol. Was basically drunk 5-6x a week most days when I wasn't working - really didn't give a fuck about my life.
Anyways we can fast forward a bit because nothing about this so far is 'brief,' weight slowly came on, and I didn't give a fuck. I got to the point where I was eating fast food for my weekly diet.
I got up to 265 over this past Summer and caught this image of me at a wedding was really fucking tired of feeling bad about myself and tired of being the nice funny fat friend. http://i.imgur.com/joKm0l5.jpg
I remember thinking how could I let myself get to that point.
I joined a gym and proceeded to do what every fat ass does after joining a gym, never go - ha. I would make up every excuse to myself not to go to the gym for a few months. Until October I committed to going every fucking day (M-F) from now on and I have. Luckily my roommate now and other good friend both go to the same gym, so it's nice to have gym buddies and people to help you out. I also vowed to get my diet on point in October, was okay at that time but I was still eating shit foods and binged a lot after drunken nights.
I started taking supplments (just creatine and beta-alanine) and hit the gym hard. I remember for the first two weeks thinking why the fuck am I doing this!? I was fucking sore all day, if we did arms that day, I knew I would barely be able to move them for the next few days. But after that first few hellish weeks things got better I checked the scale again to see 236 - Damn! Almost 30 lbs since July just from working out and also by starting to keep my diet in check.
This is me October 15th - 236 http://i.imgur.com/z2CWPey.jpg
Still no where I want to be, but def going in the right direction for once in my life!
By this time for the first time since I can honestly remember I've been consistently happy, despite other external factors that are pretty fucking shitty in my life at the moment, it's like all that shit is washed away with this new self worth.
Right around then I decided to cut my intake of alcohol - not become sober, but to get that shit under wraps, since I was still going out getting wasted and eating everything I could find. Basically all that hard work during the week was negated by my drunk ass.
So kept up the diet, excersize, lifting, and not getting drunk anymore has really pushed me down a positive path.
Anyways again this is more for me to keep tabs so I can look back and easily see my progress as well as my thoughts at the time. If you wish to join in on my weight loss trip that'd be great as well, it's always nice to have some added commitment and motivation.
Current 1 Rep Max
Bench - 185 x 1 (started out barely doing 95 x 3 in August)
Squat - 275 x 1
Deadlift - 335 x 1
i have been getting tired of driving 2+ hours to play poker in another state. its frustrating to be in new york city and be surrounded by neighboring states where table gambling is legal.
i have linked up again with one of my old d-gen friends from childhood (we both got our poker starts in high school online) to get into some 'card clubs' around the city. there are 3 running games he explained to me, a saturday and sunday 5/5 and then a 1/3 on tuesdays. i think they have hourly charge to play but no rake.
i would play in the saturday one but im going to a fuckin wedding (second time my cousin is getting married in 5 years) out in long island an hour away. im taking my gf and my mother along aswell. should be ok. il certainly be drunk considering we have a room out there to stay.
hope to pick up a few hundo. gambowll
I have an Oculus Rift with Razer Hydra game controllers. Anyone in to this sorta thing needs no description. I've had it for a couple of months now, had my fun with it and am ready to pass it on to the next soul. Everything in mint condition, no problems whatsoever. I'll even include a thumb drive with what I feel are the best demos (about 20) to save you some time hunting it all down. Figured I'd go ahead and let you guys get first stab at it before I throw it up on ebay.
$500 SHIPPED OBO
Pretty sure this is a good deal. Current and completed ebay listings seem to go for about 375-500 without the controllers or shipping.
Wsop event #1 circuit Ottawa, won 1st pot 10k - 15k. 2nd pot get AA vs AJhh. he opens 250, i go 600 on button. he calls. K62 no draws. i bet 700 he call. turn Q heart. i bet 1200 - he goes all-in. I make the right call. he has AJhh (turned a flush draw) - River 7heart. The pain =[. Just another tournament, the venue is awesome and well, if I win that 70/30, good chance at the 20k. maybe next time. It is what it is.
a $580 tomorrow...kinda degected tho. I can play it cheap if I want.....prolly just grind online. I hate that feeling so bad.
guy that beat me reads LP and knew who I was too.. hes From Ottawa, whoever it is Asian guy, wouldn't tell me who he was.
I graduated in 2010...I think there are a couple of other people on this board that graduated around that time and many have took varying paths. I worked a corporate accounting job for roughly a year but for whatever reason i was pretty depressed doing that and i ended up moving on from that in the summer of 2012.
Anyway I had lived in Jersey and went to State school and it was pretty toxic to think about being a joe in New Jeresy. I moved to San Diego for life experience stuff and pretty much paid the bills for awhile working at yet another crap accounting position at a small firm. I wasn't doing very well and I was exploring life options but I was still lost and didn't know what to do with my life at this point...I got to backgrounds with SDPD, considered the CPA/CFA, etc. In a pretty random series of events involving my parked car getting hit as a third party to an accident, I drove to vegas to play poker as a vacation. I arrived around Sep 30th and have stayed since then.
Right now I am playing live poker with a bankroll of ~22k (though close to 7k is locked up in long-term stocks so effectively ~15k). I am doing ok and paying my bills while saving a bit for my bankroll. I had bought roughly 800 dollars in BTC which is probably around $2500 now but I think I forgot my tormail password so I'm trying to get that unlocked fml, lol..
It was pretty random but I played a top-5 german live tourney crusher at low-stakes cash recently. He was killing time with his non-professional friends while getting free drinks. It was pretty fun poker and a bit of motivation, but depressing that others are so robusto and I'm sooo busto at the moment, lol.
I've been through a lot of shit since graduating in 2010. I think as a person I have progressed quite a bit but still have to figure out how to make it in the ultra-competitive world. It is depressing to think about the probabilities of that. It is also a bit frustrating playing live poker. My online experience was pretty derailed once I decided to (do the smart thing) of getting a job after graduating and the subsequent onset of black friday and I think my game has been ok at times but I have to work to have it not break down. Improvements are difficult for various reasons and I have inexperience in certain spots that translate to leaks and not great logic.
So pretty much right now I'm a pos paying my bills saving a bit and waiting on a modest trust fund, lol fml.
During my over a yearlong sales “career” there was one thing that was by far the most important – positive attitude. In sales you face a lot of setbacks in the form of rejection. Sometimes even 96% sales attempts don’t go well because people don’t need what you sell, can’t afford it, don’t trust you or you plain used the wrong approach or you asked one wrong question. But even with 4% conversion rate you make a good living.
Now why is positive attitude important in a profession where you deal with a lot of setbacks?
Well in sales, you’d simply make more sales as nobody want to talk to a depressed dude with a frown on his face. But what was the real importance of attitude and what made the difference between the short comers and the people that stayed on and were successful was the effect of the true inner positive attitude – perseverance.
Because when you stay positive and you believe in what you are doing and you know it will lead you to the goals that you set for yourself you just don’t give up, no matter how many setbacks face you keep working hard, keep working on getting better and what’s more – you are enjoying the process itself.
Now I always imagined my attitude as an inner canister that gets depleted with every setback, every negative thing that happens, and gets replenished when positive things happen. Using immense computational power of the most modern computers I have analysed this thought and can bring you the results of my scientific approach in the form of the following diagrams: http://i.imgur.com/wB9QDok.jpg Stage one: your cup is full
Remember last night? It was your first threesome. One of them was Asian. You just found out that you win the 25k AI shootout on stars. Your parents called, they overnight studied mathematics of poker and only now realize you have the most noble, not at all gambling like profession in the world and they are proud of you choosing dropping out of college.
Now your attitude is way there, you are confident, positive yet strangely in control. You went to a club and tried the most awesomest chat up line “feel my shirt –can you feel that? Yeah baby. Boyfriend material” while flashing your manly hair fluffy 150kg body. 10 girls told you to fuckoff yet you didn’t flinch. http://i.imgur.com/ln4ahao.jpg Stage two half emptyfull
Well you woke up alone, had an okay breakfast, missed the bus but no big deal.
You go through your day as usual, nothing creative comes out of you your work just to do what you got to do and it feels fine. But then...
http://i.imgur.com/ZGc2RBv.jpg Stage 3
You skipped breakfast and decide to eat entire KFC bucket to “catch up”. Open your cashier – 2k is missing. Your mum called – did you get a normal job yet so we didn’t waste our money on your education? But wait it gets worse. You open the ROFL thread as every morning – all reposts. What’s more, you just found out that your revolver doesn’t fit her holster
Our attitude is really down now, any setback just sends you into frenzy or depression, everything seems forced you feel beat and don’t want to do anything. http://i.imgur.com/th7JNlm.jpg Stage 4
Well it was too much, so many negatives that you depleted your reserves and you became this : http://gossip.rateometer.com/wp-conte.../images/amy-winehouse-sad-morning.jpg
And we all know how that ends.
The fuck is your point man
Well why do I tell you this? I tell you that because poker, very much like sales, is one of the professions that actively drain your attitude. Human brain is dumb not logical, and no matter what you do the pain from losses will always be higher than the gain from wins: + Show Spoiler +
In other words, you are facing setbacks hundreds of time every day in your profession that deplete your attitude, your cup is being drained and as you all know if something external adds to that your results directly suffer. There are many processes that have influence on your performance but one thing setbacks have an effect on are the levels of neurotransmitters in your brain and you can fall into the vicious circle of setbacks causing lowering positive attitude and the processes in the body behind it and worse attitude causing setbacks as you lose control more often, give up faster and stop believing in what you are doing. You can just look at poker forums and you shall find all the negativity you need.
What to do
Well I’m not your doctor? This is my random midnight ramble of an idea that just popped into my mind from a career I failed in because I lost my attitude. But I was always a super depressed person and now I can act normally, and even be one of the best people to be around when I manage to get my attitude levels full. Things that work for me are generally those that are believed to raise the levels of neurotransmitters like serotonin in the brain – cardio vascular exercise, healthy carbs throughout the day, a social contact, but also accepting who I am and where I am, not being friends with negative people and instead of watching news reading a good book, or constructive audio. The most difficult part is not knowing what to do – but doing it regularly, as with depleted attitude comes depleted self-control and people that always have their attitudes levels high that do things right keep moving forward keep refilling their attitude cup and those that come near depletion often struggle to summon enough energy to keep it at present levels and not allowing it drop and balance every new bad beat, every new setback in life with something positive that will help keep the balance.
So the question I have for you is – how do you regain positive attitude?
How do you keep going when things are rough?
What tips do you have that people that are down from the latest downswing/regulation lockdown/too tight vagina discovery could use?
my Computer will be streaming all day today with myself running a 4 table mtt session today - will keep 4 up til around 11pm if u wanna watch n learn stuff, practice for tomorrows wsops (karma points!) 131 928 306 ID 8832 PW its on Teamviewer 8
I'm not doing the highest stakes MTT's since I'm on my own, the Big 109 (Fpps) 8r x2 30k Hot 16.50 Turbo (fpps) and lateregged $22 12k (its at +20k)
(Doing good gntd mtt's though)
Teamviewer ID : 131 928 306
Password : 8832
Its on screen 2 I believe
If anyone messes with the stream I will take it down and only let ppl I trust through skype watch.
Skype = NeillyAA74
I will 4 table MTT all day today, audio is in teamviewer 8 as well.
This is practice for the WSOP circuit events starting tomorrow.
A win today would be sweet, would really help 4 the series.
FT'd the $25 10k hyper after I closed stream (just 2 mtts left and was zooming) - got in AJss vs T8ss for chiplead. T8xx flop. GG 4th $1600.
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Asian guy, wouldn't tell me who he was.
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