So about 2 weeks ago my BR dipped down to 2400 from a high of 3300 after some standard(unlucky) shots at 100NL and sub sequential run bad at 50NL when I moved back down. Since then, right around when I joined LP (coincidence??), I have grinded my BR back to 3400 as of yesterday playing mostly 50NL and PLO. I did win 4+ buyins playing 100NL, but since then have decided to stick to 50NL and PLO until I hit 5k. I know I can beat 100NL, but I want to play it safe and refine my game, while also getting used to 8 tabling. I am very comfortable at 50NL and I know I won’t tilt off any buyins. Yesterday I played a 1500 hand session where I ran 5 buyins under EV and it felt great! I really played the best poker I have in a long time and made one of my sickest calls to date, even thought I ended up losing the hand. Good thing is, I feel great going into 2010 and can’t wait to tear it up. Speaking of 2010, here are my goals.
Win 15k online
Be a 200NL/100PLO player
Play 250k Hands (Roughly 5k a week/20k a month)
Hit a 4 figure tourney score (I don’t play many tournies but will try to get some in)
Watch 2 Videos a Week
"The tragedy of life doesn’t lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goals to reach"
Not only do I want to accomplish these goals but I want to surpass them by as much as possible. I feel all of these goals are achievable I am excited to get started! I’m going to clear out my database in HEM for the new year and start fresh! Actually I will probably just set all the time filters to the current year since I don’t want to lose my player data, unless someone knows a way to get around this?? No big deal.
Shout Outs:
New Orleans Saints: Hahahaha perfect no more get spanked by the boys, I hope we see you again!
Nick Folk: Holy god you suck ballz, why do you suck so much balls?? WHYYY
OK, time to make like a banana and get the fuk outta here
I tried to be more assertive in the relationship. Things like ignoring the girl on purpose or saying mean things in order to generate push pull tension.
Fuck, why did I have to listen to dumbass online alpha male advice?
why did I try to fix something that wasn't broken?
Been thinking about this quite a bit, since I'm not that good of a player, and I'm playing microstakes, I must have hell of a lot of leaks. And I've been thinking of ways to identify and spot those leaks.
I do post a lot of hands, but I never really feel I find any leaks doing it anymore. I did at start when I played pocket pairs all wrong and stuff like that.
Ways I can think of to fix leaks atm is:
- Hire a coach to sweath you
- Get a friend to sweath you
- Ask people on here ways to find and plug leaks <3
- Looking through biggest losing hands in pokertracker, evaluate and rethink
I'm wondering if there's way to find leaks in the small pots, I never bother to look at them, and not sure where I'll start, so many. And even if I see I played something wrong, and I go "ahh, ok, should have done that, ok, mm" then move on to the next hand, it doesn't really feel like "YESS, ok, fixed that leak" it kinda just goes away in a haze and I don't notice it.
Any thoughts and feedback on this would be awesome
For the past four days I have become extremely depressed. I never knew what running bad was until this week in my poker career. Everything was going well in NL 50 when I began a few weeks ago... I made quite a bit and then went on a 14 BI downswing only to retrieve the losses later on that week and make even more. Then last Thursday happened. And the next day and the next. I swung down 26 BI at NL 50. Set under set.... I never flopped a set when my my QQ/JJ would run into overpairs preflop. However, 6 times in a row I got all in preflop with an overpair and they flopped a set every single time. It was the most brutal and disgusting thing I have ever seen in my life. But with the Lord on my side I began playing again today only to drop $300 more. I took a break came back at 1 am and it is now 7:30 am and not only did I dig myself out of the $300 hole I managed to make $600 on top of that. So Ship the 19 BI session and I am back!!
what a shitty weekend. lost like 5 buyins at 10NL due to much crazy shit. snowed over here in NY so i was confined to a laggy computer pretty much (was hesitant to play after a while). then i went to my brothers X girlfreinds 21st bday party (my twin brother was killed in a car accident when he was driving her home 2 months ago) and i get into a fight with my girlfreind becuase she went shopping for a job interview today and i wanted to buy her a pair of nice undies or something and she gets all mad and she wants to pay for it blah blah blah some self ritous girl shit. so i say fine np and i get home and i just wanna talk and bs a little and u know how girls give u the 1 word answers "ok" "kk" "yes" shit like that. now i have to get dressed to go to work outside cuz its 7AM. im an electrician and its like fucking 15 degrees out there. merry fucking christmas.
Definitely did not disappoint. I hadn't watched any previews cause I had a feeling it would be good based on what I'd heard and I'm glad I skipped em so that everything was totally new to me. I love sci-fi flicks and this one was top notch. Special effects were so good. It's sick what they can do now... it's pretty much limited to the imagination (and budget of course).
Hello all, I am a new poster here and thought I would post up a blog, as I am currently getting started (again) online. I have played poker four years, started playing on lunch breaks in school with a few friends who seemed to know the game. Basicly the four years I have played have been very up and down, until last year though I was an awful fish until last year, I have got heavily involved in the poker society at Leicester University this year and last and this has defiantly helped my poker, Last year I had a 2/3k roll but found myself dipping in and out of it too often, as i am a broke student with no job! So my roll was always pretty fluid and although i played nl50, i think i just rode variance up and down about break even.
Anyway this year I got a Job in March at a local casino, and now I have enough money back to really think about having an untouchable bankroll again. I have started up a small $200 roll at nl10 and I am going to do kickbacks and stuff to get my roll up to $1,000, which will mean i can play nl25. I took a shot over the summer when i had a 2k roll at nl100 and made like 1k in a week, then blew it all back at nl200, being a moron, my girlfriend found out and took my roll off of me, put it in an account and said i cannot touch it until i can actually learn to play only with what i can afford to lose ( shes brilliant at keeping me level headed)
I know realise i can’t justify having no car, no house and no holiday booked whilst playing nl50. So I’m proving to her i can build my own roll outside of it affecting us, since i moved in with her in july she has every right to boss me about money tbf.
Anyway i have played some live MTT’S in Birmingham and won a little bit of cash (like $400) so i said i would use half of it for a online roll roll. A friend of mine introduced me to kickbacks and i just finished my first one on Stars. Going well so far, i have managed to really push hard over the first 11k hands. Heres the graph for you guys keeping it up is my main goal for sure, but 15 bb/100 might be a little much to maintain .
I cleared a $50 bonus, so after 5k hands, im fucking breakeven. Fucking great. Sometimes i just hate weekend donks, but i know they are the most profitable...
I really cant handle the cruelty of poker anymore.
Or I really suck, or I'm a whino or FTP is rigged. I decided to quit online poker. It drives me crazy day after day. Some things are really really unbelievable.
I can keep on posting stuff like these. I know many of you guys play thousands of hands more than me probably, and laugh stuff like this away. But I guess I'm mentally not stable enough to take beats like this. I cashed out my bankroll, and I will keep on posting here and looking around, but i'll quit playing.
Tilted but stopped in time - reviewby Chewits, December 20
isclaimer - actually looking for constructive criticism on plays, so its not just a whine *
Seriously got tilted over a fish in NL50 HU earlier. It just seemed no matter what I did, or what hand I had, he always had something better. I was getting owned. He started with just over 50bb stack ($30 at nl50), and finished around on $150, which was mega tilting. But I managed to quit and took some hours off. Went out for dinner with family and shit, and now feel totally relaxed, and now having a look over some of the hands.
At the time, I felt like there was no way to beat this type of player. So our villain, after 281 hands, 49/6/50. 35% fold to cbet.So this guy would rarely call oop when I am on button. I open x3 pretty much standard, mixing it up with some times x4 and the odd x2. Then when he was on the button he always limped.
Story of the session was this, I open x3, he calls, I completely miss flop, try to cbet, he calls, I still have nothing and give up, checking, he checks, then he bets the river. This guy rarely folded to cbets, so I really couldnt do it with air, so I started checking flops alot more. Any time I hit any sort of hand, he would peel flop and fold the turn. Meaning I always ended up getting tiny pots of him, but on my monster hands he always had something slightly better. I just felt like I was getting crushed by the sickest callstation ever. All his limped pots too, if I x4 it pre, he was calling that, and then I was missing so much and ending up donating more money. So I would just check his limped pots,. and alot of the times it was checked to river, with him winning with high card most of the time (not that it matters anyway, as I was folding pre if he raised).
Definitely was tilting now. Looking at my betsizing. In my defense, this guy peeled flops like 70% of the time, sometimes with just two over cards. Which is why I am betting super strong on all streets. Have I overplayed this hand??
Looking through my hand history, the biggest pot I acutally won from him was 22bbs. Everything else was tiny pots, I just never could get payed off when I hit big hands. This was the only hand that I can find that went to showdown and he payed me off;
So anyway, I am looking to learn how to play vs these type of oppenents. So my opinions of this villian, is he plays super passive, but rarely gets his money in with marginal hands. Does not stack off light. Always bets smallish on streets with made hands. Rarely raises. There was one hand he min c/r with trips on a flop, that he checked turn and bet small on river, which i called with TPTK.
Since the rest of the year I will be largely off/clearing bonus on FTP at NL25 lets do some recap.
2010 goals will follow at the end of December.
2009
I started playing poker late February, and I was doing damn good.
I played $0.10 and $0.50 sng's on ipoker for one week after facebook pokering, and then I decided to switch to cash games.
$50 from Poker strategy and LP behind my back I went on 9 tabling NL2 fullring
Here is my first graph after getting PT3, You can see that I was born a monkey: + Show Spoiler +
http://img5.imageshack.us/img5/764/lemonee9.png
At that time I had The Poker Pro Mentality
This concept pinned out by Tommy Angelo says that you would play your best if you'd have to win at poker, OR DIE.
Well, I was a completely broke student back then, I had to borrow money from my girlfriend so I could buy food and paying each month's electricity bill was a huge hustle.
I abandoned Starcraft completely, and played poker furiously.
I was a fucking maniac back then, my university finished and I was just playing poker.
The 11h session is not even the longest I played, the longest was 12.42 hours break even session
See here: http://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=732015
I made 7,500 VPP IN 20 DAYS AT NL25
BOOOM.... soon after this... Supernova.
I finally started cutting on tables and moved to NL50.
As I had all the time in the world I was CRUSHING http://i31.tinypic.com/iyk2df.jpg
Note that this was the last session before I STARTED MY FULL TIME JOB
My first really fulltime job in the office (I was a part time baker for two years prior to this to pay my way through college)
It was all over the internet that... http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/82aea.pro is dead.JPG
Yup, the poker pro is dead.
I cashed some $1,5 out of poker and it saved my life back then (I would not have survived without that money), but ever since then I was working 40hrs/week and had energy for what was my love and income.
The grinder mentality and the necessity to be good at poker was gone. I had no spare energy and no real need for money.
The skill is still there, don't get me wrong and its so easy to rebuild for me (which I was forced to do twice), I had too many sessions where I simply bled out 10BI in 4Hours because I had a mental breakdown.
Turning the corner
Playing poker while working when you are not used to work, and your regime/fitness/eating are very bad and on the top of the all you have a very bad, results oriented poker mindset where any suck out can set you off is damn hard.
And when I went went to $420 borderline busto at the end of October, I knew I had to change something or otherwise I am wasting my time.
I went on rebuilding from NL10 again, got a DC subscription, read some psychology articles and watched a life changing series from Tommy Angelo. As a result of this I proudly am the follower of no whine train, which many of you find annoying
I have also LUCKBOXED $1400 in a 100 FPP Freerol and things were looking better for once.
Summary
I started with $50 from Pokerstrategy on February 2nd and right now I am here:
Although I have lost my grind and I doubt I will find it until my Work Placement finishes, I declare 2009 Poker year as a success.
Thanks for reading
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Submitted by : LemOn[5thF]
PokerStars Game #26720211289: Holdem No Limit ($0.02/$0.05) - 2009/04/04 14:51:24 ET
Table Tilia IV 6-max Seat #5 is the button
Seat 1: rubbol ($11.03 in chips)
Seat 2: ZionLee ($0.88 in chips)
Seat 3: nxtn8br ($7.43 in chips)
Seat 4: kiddy007 ($4.22 in chips)
Seat 5: flockmeister ($9.63 in chips)
Seat 6: DoC.LemOn ($9.95 in chips)
DoC.LemOn: posts small blind $0.02
rubbol: posts big blind $0.05
DoC.LemOn: bets $0.46
nxtn8br: raises $0.46 to $0.92
DoC.LemOn: raises $8.73 to $9.65 and is all-in
nxtn8br: calls $6.21 and is all-in
Uncalled bet ($2.52) returned to DoC.LemOn
Looking for $550 PS/FTP for $550 UB. Will send first to reputable members. Have done many transfers and have references for trade. PM me if you can help
I've spent 10 days in Macau for the season finale or whatever of the Macau Poker Cup, with the Main Event being a two day $2.6k MTT. To almost no one's surprise, I cashed a total of zero times and actually pretty much bubbled my final 3 events, including the Main Event. That adds up to a total of 17-18 hours of play in just 3 tournaments alone for absolutely no cash at all (the ME was 10 hours of play and I busted 26th, 19 get paid). Baccarat also started out decent but eventually tumbled, which puts me at roughly -6k on the trip.
Of course this may have been averted by mincashing the ME (5k for mincash), or playing live, but instead I have no idea where the days went and now I'm sitting here 20 days into December and down money, with only 7k hands logged online. Coming into the month I was pretty much only 5k away from $100k on the year and stoked about it but now I'm a bit behind with not much time left, and it feels awful.
I absolutely hate this feeling of defeat. Of knowing I gave it my utmost, excruciating effort and not getting there. Of seeing other people who don't "deserve" it continuously run good and get there (for a micro-level example of this, see any big live tournament, but this appears on the macro-level as well). It sucks and is a big part of my emotional instability with regards to this game and I really, really want to change it but it's been something I've struggled with all my life. I don't have much to complain about because things could honestly be a LOT worse but I hate knowing how good things can be too had things been a little different.
2010 is going to be a lot different. With the help of the new environment I'll be in (Taipei) and my friends I'm going to treat poker as a business, because supposedly I'm a professional and therefore I should be treating my work like a professional and not be a stupid whiny kid. I know what my issues are, and I'm going to work hard to fix them this coming year. 2010 is going to be a LOT different.
That's pretty much what I want to say for now, in a week or so I'll be giving a year-end report and hopefully I'll be over the 100k mark .
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