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So far, so good! I'm up to 10+ buyin in a week at NL10. Started at 200$, and now I have 310+. I'm not playing too much tho, 1,5-2 hours session per day. I just don't wanna get bored and feel myself forced to play. With that tendency I could hit 500$ in 1,5-2 weeks and could thinking about move up to NL25 if I'm confident with my play.

Some keyhands from my last session, which is just ended before I started to write my blog entry.

Hero call:+ Show Spoiler +

Bluffmode on: + Show Spoiler +

Monster hand: + Show Spoiler +

Overall I'm playing 19.5/11/1.8 I dont know if it's good for fullring or not. Sometimes I feel I'm too tight, but I just want to play ABC at NL10 as much as possible.

Have a nice weekend guys!


PS: I just hate UB hand history, because LP cannot translate properly the pots.


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OK so its 7:32AM and I have been up for 21 hours straight. I've been drunk since midnite so wtf why am i not tired?
Today I skipped class (obv) and posted up from like 2PM-12midnite, i played exactly 588 hands of poker and won like 12k. Now two tangents:
1) Winning alot of money online gets old so fast. I used to not appreciate the money I would make in one day of concerted efforts while grinding online, but I think the best remedy for that is to play live alot. This is because it is harder to grasp losing (and i suppose winning) whatever live when you are actually paid in cash. And you realize it is harder for people to put that money in on the stone-bluff when they can look you in the eye. I personally love playing live and would say I'm way better live than online but that is a beat point to make imo, as live players are never as fundamentally solid as online players, and havn't played enough hands to really judge anything. Also, I feel like people are at a disadvantage because I am already thinking of how people will react to almost everything that I do, so I know when to look for signs of weakness/strength etc etc. Basically the point I am trying to make is that, as a seasoned internet player, I know how the game flows, to a certain extent, and understand the variables well enough to know when specific instances in which they are in action, and how to counterstrategize vs this. Anyways, /rant. The value of that new money when you're stuck in Vegas is different, it becomes more rational to spend that new money on exorbitant things or a huge-ballin night in the club. But when I win online it's just a minor % change of a number. Not so balla imo.
2) Ugh I only recently realized that I have gotten dumber since high school. I used to be a spectacular writer but now I feel like I am pulling teeth trying to find the right words. I guess there is value in going to a real school so your skills can be honed. Case-in-point, this Thursday morning a drunken me learns that I have a midterm in my 400-level Environmental Econ class. Now, I've been to class twice since the first midterm, but w/e. So ofc I'm like wow I should go to bed and wake up early and study. So ofc I wake up 1hr before the exam and basically take it cold turkey, and def got in the top quartile, prob the top decile. I can't help but abuse these gifts, it seems. Now I suppose my decision to quit school is probably best for me at this point in my life because I potentially am an incredible student, but right now I just don't care for it. I'm not even close to reaching my potential in this arena, which in a sense pisses me off greatly. I think I should just come back when I can put more than 20% into it. One thing I am considering is applying to an actual good school at some point in the relative near-future, and using my poker career as the bulk of my resume. How do yall think that will go?

This blog post reminds me of the movie Babel, which I just watched. At the end, I couldn't help but think that the movie was just a bunch of randomly strewn together events with no real meaningful connection or intended purpose, except to make you sad maybe?


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I'm going to shoot for top 16 for when the ladder ends on the 22nd!

http://www.iccup.com/iccscprofile/293455/

I really hope I can play well. My first 3 losses were totally stupid and avoidable too. booOOOOO.

Here's the overall ranking:

http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=69287

YEAAHH!! Starcraft is so totally the best game ever made. OH, and I am officially attending the USC School of Cinematic Arts in the Fall ^_^_^_^_^

YEAH! SEAN FIGHTIIING~~!!!


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Ok so inspired by f4zi blog since im now fucked up pete doherty style aswell I decided to blog up last night happenings.

The night basically started at 6pm when me and a friend of mine cruised all over the city going from one pub to another and drinking a diffrent beer in each one(a shitload of time and serious lack of creativity results in this kinda stuff).

So when we got shitfaced at like 9pm we go to this bar where we're everyday chilling...Hooked up with this cute brunette chick that comes with her friends from another city every week or so to visit our bar cuz its actually the best place with best people to be going out in a wide area...

So we're chilling playing billiards and shit,I decided to stop making a fool out of myself cuz out of like 20ish shots I put in only 3 balls,then I realized how fucking drunk I am.

Normally during that time I drink more beer and since the rest of my friends came I knew no good is gonna happen,at 21:30-21:45 (bout there idk certainly) everyone started throwing rounds and at like 23pm the entire bar is fucking drunk,I managed to get into a small fight with one of my friends over a arguement who drank more,typical drunk redneck bullshit.

So finally I think this is over I'm gonna go home,then another one comes directly from work and decides we should go out,and since everyone is drunk as fuck we instaagree on it,honestly if he proposed we shit in each other mouths I think everyone would go along how fucked up we were.

So at the last stop of our night at this place called Twister,there was a band playing and it was pretty cool music,they were preforming bands like Azra,Bajaga,Urban & 4 overall really solid music,we proceed to get totally annihilated and we all fall asleep in the car(stnd).Hooked up with another girl but unfortunately that was at 3:40am when we were leaving so I got no action,but overall a pretty solid night.

So if you're coming to Croatia,and you want to find out how drunk can you get without passing out or slipping into a coma,give me a ring.


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This is since March 26th
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GOD FUCK ME


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Sorry to spam with many blog posts.

This one is probably the most important one I've ever written so if you could read it and give me feedback I would greatly appreciate it.

So I'm sitting here with my Budweiser and my Poore Brother's Jalapeno chips (which are so delicious), trying to internalize the fall from grace I've had over the last week. I really rode the roller coaster from playing my absolute A game and moving up to a limit I had been dreaming of reaching for a long time to degenerate tilting of all of that hard work. I lost two entire month's pay at my job (~5k) within a week, playing the game I love. I don't care to share PT graph / stats because what's the point?

Right now I've got to focus on what I've learned from this, and what I can take out of it. I need to analyze and amalgamate my lessons and experiences into further honing my game and preventing this in the future. I'd like to do some of that here in the open air of my LP blog.

On the way up the roller coaster, I learned some very important things, and applied them towards success. They included the following:

1) Playing on your schedule, on your time, and quitting whenever necessary, pays off.
2) Playing with a safe bankroll, at a limit you are comfortable with, greatly increases your confidence and your resistance to tilt.
3) Keeping yourself disciplined is something to be proud of, and it really does work.
4) I can beat 200NL. I definitely wasn't crushing it, but I felt like it was the perfect level for me and I feel while I was not someone to avoid, I was not a fish at the tables. I'm sure some LPers would say the contrary, but I believe this to be true 100%. And it is a good thing, because it gives me confidence that eventually I will be playing and beating the higher stakes games. I have no doubt in my intelligence or ability.

And on the way down I learned some very important things as well:

1) No matter how well you are doing, or how big your bankroll seems, things can come crashing down upon you much more quickly than you think.
2) I am 100% responsible for all my losses. This was not a result of running bad. This was not getting coolered multiple times over and over and over again. This was me, losing emotional control, losing mental control, and I am the only one to blame.
3) I am not nearly as disciplined as I thought I was.
4) I must crush the degenerate within me if I am ever going to succeed in this game.

I just spent the last hour or two having a very good discussion with a 200NL player I met who happens to live just a few miles away. I went through everything in my game and what I think all of my problems are that are keeping me from succeeding, and it definitely helped to be self-analytical to a total stranger. He was also able to give me some very helpful tips to improve my mental and emotional control. One major thing I took away from it is that having people to discuss hands with is invaluable, and to be able to talk with people that actually understand what's going on is invaluable as well.

I've identified some major leaks within my game that I am going to try to address. They are as follows:

1) Lack of Patience. I am very impatient. Sometimes I forget that poker is dealing with actual money, and feel almost as if it's a video game. I'm just trying to increase my score to get to the next level and get better at the game. I have spent way too much time pipe dreaming about moving up to new stakes.

What I need to do is shift my focus from increasing my BR and moving up stakes to beating my current level as efficiently and completely as possible. Even when I'm playing 50NL, I need to not be focusing on reaching a certain level so I can play 100NL, but on beating 50NL at the best rate possible, and playing perfect poker. I experienced a little bit of what this could be like at 200NL, and I feel that in the 20k hands or so that I played there, my 6max game vastly improved.

2) Lack of Discipline. This is tied into patience but is important in it's own right. As is obvious to anyone following my fall from grace, lack of discipline has completely and utterly destroyed me. I broke all of the rules that put me where I was and as it was, they were the floor that supported me and when disregarded, naturally I fell. The problem is that this is not the first time I have broken the rules. There have been countless small fudges, gambling when drunk, etc, that have not turned out poorly. In fact, some of my great BR boosts were when I broke the rules. But the thing is, the rules exist for a reason.

I created the rules and principles for myself because they are what I believe will make me a successful winning player. They have proven themselves with the self-explaining fact that when followed, I made money, and when disregarded, I lost large amounts of it.

3) Lack of Regularity. Between working 40 hours a week and having a serious relationship with my girlfriend, I really don't have much time for poker. Often I found myself trying to squeeze in a session when I had time, or putting things off so that I could play one. What I need is to develop a routine, a soft schedule, guidelines for when it is the most +EV in my life to be playing online poker. I work 10 hour shifts, Wednesday-Saturday, and when I'm off I am generally pretty tired. It is not a good idea for me to be playing unless I feel like my mind is sharp. On Sunday I usually spend all day with my Girlfriend as it's the only day we have off together. This is not a good day to play any sort of session.

Monday and Tuesday are my bread and butter. My Girlfriend works and I have the whole day to myself. This is when I can really put in some hands, and do so in the right frame of mind and do so profitably. I need to develop some kind of routine as to when I wake up, when I play, making sure to take breaks, etc. Doing so will increase my profits by limiting variance in my own mental/physical/emotional state while playing.

One thing the 200NL reg told me that I am really going to try to apply is to not expect anything when starting a session. I have noticed in my own personal experience that when I play the first session of the day, usually around 9-10am on my days off, I play very well, but I am not playing to try to make money, I am playing to play poker, and to play well. If I go into a session expecting to make 500$ or $1k today, or to chase my losses and come back to even, my focus will not be in the right place. It must be on the hand(s) in play and only the hand(s) in play.

I am also going to work on developing a pre-session routine. I have been trying to get in shape and my earlier idea of getting a good run and shower in before starting my session for the day would be very +EV as it wakes the body and mind up and gets the juices flowing. I also am going to re-iterate certain points before even opening the tables. I will get myself set, ready, and prepared for what is going to happen. The last part of the pre-session routine will be table selection, something that has been stressed by the best of the best for a very long time.

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I'll go ahead and end this now, but I'm very glad I took the time to sit here and type it all out. I feel good. I feel purified. Yes, I've just lost a lot of money and hard work, but I feel good. If I can take this and turn it around into a positive experience I will be all the stronger. That which doesn't kill me...

Please let me know what you think of all this (if you actually read it) by posting a comment or two. I would really appreciate it. Even if it's just to tell me I'm an idiot.


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I think this is one of the top 3 longest sessions I've ever played. I started out running like shit and was pretty tilted. I spewed quite a bit at one point but calmed down later on and played better. Right after I got into the green I lose 2 buyins and decided to stay.

http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/9967d87d2cda675761afe03a8501cc00.jpg

hand that made me feel better
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Tilted. Played Tired. Played Above my Limits.

Lost 70% of my roll. Time for responsible gambling..

I'm so bad.


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Hey all I've been posting/lurking here for the last year and a half, and now Im really ready take poker serious for once, as before i ahve followed no bankroll management whatsoever. Got $150 im looking at depositing somewhere, and Mainly thinking about playing cash games. So i ask you where should i deposit.

Some intel:

-I have a non rakeback FTP account, with 120 in bonus still coming from there, but in no hurry to clear it as I have a few months left to clear it.

-I like both Star's and FTP's software but I am open to new sites, as long as they have NL5 (which is a con for FTP)

-Enjoy playing SnG's but this time looking to take my shot and try moving up the cash game ladder.

-Feel I am a farely competent No limit holdem, Limit Holdem, and Stud and Razz player. In fact my biggest score has come from a $30 Horse MTT on Stars which i won for ~$550, so any site with these games are a plus.

Hopefully I Hear some good suggestions as to sites and shit, and wish me luck, Hopefully if everything goes well, i will be posting here in my blog at least everyother day or so. Looking forward to posting here more often, and meeting some of the LP Regs.




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This has been a very trying time for me since February - Everything looked good as I had a 6K BR, shots @ NL200, and was moving into a new apartment with my GF. But then a downswing started, I lost my poker edge during the chaos of moving, and the next thing I knew I was 30 BI's down in NL100. I cashed out 1K and tried to rebuild my BR with 20 BI's @ NL100... and the downswing continued and tilt ensued. I hit a low point of $950 about a week ago and was yet again ready to give up on poker (I can't say how many times I just wanted to give up on it all).

I've been boosted by a $650 bonus that I cleared yesterday and some kicking a bunch of ass @ NL25. I restarted NL50 yesterday and had a good start till this morning, then hit an afternoon shitty session of about 450 hands, but was able to recover for a winning day anyways. My BR now sits @ $1,950 and I'm on the verge of being back where I was, but now I'm at that level with my head on straight and playing better poker than I ever have before. I think I'll continue in NL50 till at least $2,500 before I start taking NL100 shots again, cause 20 BI's just isn't enough of a cushion to allow me to play my best.

So here's a graph of NL50 since I restarted it and also the PT stats (though it's all in HoldemManager which I switched to recently).

http://premium1.uploadit.org/IAElitesquad//General-4-11-08-2daysNew.jpg

http://premium1.uploadit.org/IAElitesquad//Graph-4-11-08-NL50-2days.jpg

The biggest thing I've learned throughout this experience is that my personal mental state has more affect on my poker results than anything else. It's much more important than knowing fancy tricks or even being a great player in terms of having lots of poker skill and knowledge. Once you hit a certain level and know how to play basic winning poker then you will win if you do it - but it's the mental state that causes me to stray into losing. A few times I caught myself thinking "I know so much more about poker now than I did a few months ago and am a much better player, but I'm losing now and was winning then, wtf?" Looking at it now the difference is that back then I knew how to play basic winning poker and I had my head on straight. I was able to control my emotions and make the proper decisions, avoid tilt and stay disciplined. Recently I've been tilted from the downswing and then freaking out about every losing hand cause it was effecting my BR so strongly.

I also realized that I wasn't as good as I thought I was... hehe. I've learned a lot of new tricks and improved my hand reading ability. The bad thing is that when I first learned all these new things I kept applying them in the wrong places. Now that I got my emotional control back I am able to restrain myself from being spewy by being fancy. It's pretty sweet.

So I better go knock on wood now cause I'll probably downswing and tilt my entire BR away at my next session cause of this big brag. Damn.


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weeeee, I tilted quite a bit at the beginning, prob donked off 3 buy ins, It's all on 5/10 except 65 hands on 10/20 where I won 1.2k....

I'm very close to my goal before i buy a new car, only 2.5k left to win! :D

BMW or Lexus soon! weeeeeeeee


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anyone interested in doing this?


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yeha , after yesterdays dream day ...

today was horrible

- 230 in the fiorst 600 hands
then back to - 47 $
only to end the day - 224 $

4 1/2 buy ins down in 1,8 K hands.


Reviewing the session :

1.) i spew some hands unnessecarily
I was pretty card dead and then after like 200 hands or so where nothing happend i started to do some fancy stuff.
Not to extreem , but still unnessecary trying to get people of hands when it obviously was better option to check behind ...
think that costed me around 1 1/2 buy ins that i could have saved.

2.) I tried to tune up my agression a bit in spots that seemd good after watching some leggo poker vids.
Unfortunately that is not good at the weekends... since people are willing to call a lot more and see a showdown with shitty hands.
on fridays , saturdays and sundays straight value betting is the best way to play.
Unfortunately there was not too much value betting possible with either being card dead or having the second best hand when i actually hit the board pretty good.

3.) For the first time on NL50 i actually met a player who was somehow decent !
LongGong was his name.
he was 16/11/3 over 950 hands and i was really surprised to see smeone at this limit playing that good.
he did all the stuff i do myself >-<
ALmost every hand he was involved he had Position .... he also never let people limp when he was LP,CO ... he defended his blinds and he was stealing a good amount himself.
He always had a good hand when the pots got big and at the same time he often took the pots down when the boards become difficult.
I think i am kinda +- 0 EV vs him

He also did run good,too + 4 buy ins in 900 hands in my sample

The reason i mention this is simple.
For the first time ever i actually met someone in micro stakes who obviously had a clue what he was doing while also knowing the majority of advanced basic stuff.

ALl other people i met in NL50 Nitring so far are horribly bad and easily beatable imo.
they are either scared nits or lose calling stations.
But i am wondering how i can exploit a guy who does all the stuff i do myself

I wonder if he is from LP lol ^^


4.) countless setups and beats for today
so i am not really worried that i lost 4 1/2 buy ins.
most of the stuff was just ridiculous
f.e

http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/423188

http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/423199

this 2 hands alone are like + 54$ in EV (43 preflop fold and TT i shoudl win) while unfortunately they bring me - 100 $


and so what can i do other than ignore it and concentrate on the 3-4 hands i missplayed.

GL all



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for reasons of 3/6 full ring putting me on insane tilt and me running ridiculously bad there (or running like god everywhere else?) let it be known that from 5pm EST today and on (14:00 LP Time) anyone who sees me playing on a 3/6 full ring table may take a SS and PM it to me and will receive $50.

Sitting at a table but not playing hands in order to trash talk or coax a fish into playing me heads up does not count as "playing." Your SS must show me being dealt in.


Thanks.

Sean.


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Well I planned to grind NL25 for about 25 BI's to $1,500 and then restart NL50 cause I had been tilting nonstop due to being on a somewhat short BR. I kept going up and down between 1,000 and 1,300. I just play so much better when I'm very deeply rolled for the limit I'm at.

So I took the opportunity to mass multi-table @ NL25 for a few days. I played 11-15 tables of 6max and it was weird to go back to the mass tabling, cause you go through swings that normally take a few days while 4 tabling in just 1 session of multi-tabling. I also got a lot of practice at figuring out the betting patterns that shitty players take when they're weak or strong. That is something that will be helpful as I move back up... I used to have trouble figuring out wtf the fish were doing and now it makes a LOT more sense, hah. I used to just play the board/my hand but never their hand or actions. If it was a fish I'd just autopilot, but now I feel like I have some reads that will help me get more value and dodge some bullets.

Anyway, my NL25 time went ok - I was playing so nitty that my profit/loss basically came from how I was running, cause I rarely put on any moves or light call downs, so if I didn't hit a hand I usually didn't make money, and if people didn't hit something with me there was never very much going on. And so the main focus was on making good folds with good but defeated hands, and being sure to bet nice and strong with all the nut hands. But sometimes I'd donk off a stack here or there with a hand like AK on a ARR board and run into 2p or some shit, where I coulda folded if I'd been paying attention. I had some 8 buyin winning days, and some 8 buyin losing days, heh. I still came out ahead but would have had much better results with like 4 tables or so. Next time I drop down I'm sticking to 4 tabling, especially after seeing caleb's results @ NL25 4tabling and thinking back to how many buyins people just threw at me.

I moved back to NL50 last night after my bonus cleared, putting my BR up around $1,700. Things have gone well so far and I'm up a few buyins and playing really good poker. It's so nice to do 4 tables instead of 11 - a lot more fun cause the depth of the game increases. I have been able to make more good folds recently than ever before, plus now that I'm not mass tabling I can make small moves like 4bet bluffs vs the right guys and so on, things I wouldn't even consider before. Things like that bring up the winrate a LOT. I also made did a pretty good job inducing a bluff vs a donk - check it in the spoiler. So here's my NL50 results so far since last night.

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http://premium1.uploadit.org/IAElitesquad//General-4-11-08-2days.jpg

I left my first session of the day after that hand cause I was so happy about it and wanted to end on a good note =) Keep the positivity going!

I'm planning to start NL100 around $2,500 but maybe I'll wait till 3K... not sure yet. But I am gonna get back to NL100 and cruise into NL200 again! I know it, just need time to let the luck even out. I haven't had a heater in ages so hopefully when I take my NL100 shot I sit into a serious heater. Now THAT would be awesome, hehe.


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