not from a hangover... but b/c when i set up the beerpong table, i was getting out from underneath it to unlatch the wings on the table and i slammed my fucking forehead into the leg of the table...theres a big knot.
Anyway last night everyone thought i was on lifetilt drunkiness b/c of poker...this had nothing to do w/ poker. Poker is a game, a hobby...i could care less. My FML post last night had to do with getting my priorities in line and turning my life around b/c i don't like the way i've been living. Theres a lot of things i could do. Baseball is my life, i am flirting with 90 MPH (i'm a pitcher, and 90 is the 4th highest teir in the baseball world...going like 99-102 being 1st, 95-98, 92-94, then 90-91...) Its a goal of mine, i want to play major league baseball. I've wanted to ever since i was 3 years old. I've been playing for 16 years. I'm lucky enough that God has given me talent. I throw 89-90 MPH and it's a good 89-90. However, this is only God-given talent. I haven't worked at it to get better since my freshman year. This could potentially be my last year to play. I have 2 more years of eligibility left, but there are only two 4-year schools talking to me and one of them doesn't have the major i would like to have. I don't know, there's other stuff that i'm not going to discuss on liquidpoker...but baseball is my life and i have done nothing to help myself move on to the next level. I feel like i've let down all my coaches i've ever had, the team i'm playing for right now, and most importantly, the person who should care the most, i've let down myself.
So you win some, you lose some, life goes on. It's time i start winning more personal battles.
And no, the booze last night didn't make all this come about, i've been thinking about this since monday...
***EDIT***
oh yeah forgot to tell yall something...
last night after i posted my drunk rage i went and did two things...
#1 i started my ethics paper... this is how far i got.
"Clay Thomas
Professor Morgan
9-19-08
Ethics
Meta-Ethics
Meta-Ethics is one of the something that we deal with every day of our lives. Many of our decisions are based on a subliminal knowledge of meta-ethics. There are many different groups of meta-ethics including ethical subjectivism, cultural relativism, ethical absolutism, ethical egoism, utilitarianism, the ethics of duty, virtue ethics, existentialist ethics, ethics of care and intuitionalism. The one I will be focusing on today is Utilitarianism.
Utilitarianism"
I remember using spell checker....
#2 i went and i ran the saltiest mile i've ever ran in my life.
Seriously, i ran it in about 6 minutes which is FUCKING FAST for me. I'm 5'9" and 235 lbs...thats fucking booking it.
I then had to run back to my apartment so at 4 in the morning, drunk off my ass, i ran 2 miles, one of them the fastest mile i've ever ran...
i can't help but fucking think that i've been throwing my fucking life away. i'm so fucking pissed off right now it's not even funny. i'm 20 years old and my life has basically amounted to nothing. i was giving such high standards as a kid when i was in school and look at where i am at, nothing. I have 2 jobs, very little friends, i go to school, i get no respect, and i lose in everything i do. I've been given the opprotunity to be somebody, but i am a fat fucking nothing. I can throw a baseball 89 miles an hour, and that is simply god given talent, if i worked i might be able to throw 95, but you know what? my laziness has amounted to fucking nothing. I am drunk which is the whole reason i am posting this bullshit but man i've realized that i am nothing. I've been given so much and just trashed it away. I've had the best weekend in a long long time, and it's much over due, but when i look back, i wish it never would have fucking happend because all i've realized is that life can be so great, and for the past 2 years mine has been absolute shit. This fucking pisses me off. I am extremely competitive and all i've done is lose. Not for any fucking longer. From now on i'm going to have a new fucking outlook. Fuck everything i've ever thought of doing. From now on i have one fucking goal and that is to make my life THE FUCKING SHIT. BECAUSE I AM THE ONE THAT CONTROLS MY LIFE AND ALL I'VE DONE IS FUCKING THROW IT AWAY.
Just cashed out some money to fly to Vegas. We are taking a plane from Pittsburgh to Vegas direct flight one way ticket. Getting the ticket on the 10th of November. We are staying a couple days in Vegas and driving back to pa. Are there any good stops anyone can suggest on the way back. I'm hopefully taking about 2k with me on my trip should be plenty enough to win at 1/2 in the casinos. Also anyone suggest any good places with a lot of fish sitting at the 1/2? I plan on playing 1/2 and if I'm running well that day also move up and play 2/5. Hope to also play at least a $100 bi tourney with a nice prize pool. After a couple days in Vegas start the trip back through all the states. This should be great since this is my first time in Vegas and also the first time traveling through all those states. Also I want to see some of the greatness of Vegas what can some of my fellow Lper help me out here what shows and clubs are the best to go have a good time at. All replies are greatly appreciated, I just want to go enjoy a couple days see some shows and enjoy some clubs and have a fun road trip back
i am doing 4-6 page paper on "The Cardsharps" by Michelangelo Merisi da Caravaggio. If anyone knows anything about this, it would be awesome for like a paragraph or some info to help me w/ my paper. I'm not playing poker or CoD4 until this paper is done and i want it to be done tonight....
anyway, help is appreciated.
Also i had a good session yesterday where i played 317 hands and won 2 bi's...pretty salty. Then i had to do chores =(
no where near as many hands as i am used to now that i live on my own and have responsibilities.
K so my new job is pretty awesome and i make a decent deal of cash.
I wanna go on a vacation to the PCA from jan 5-10 with money I have saved up by then, for people who have went how much did you bring and what type of cash games run? How much money would I need to fully enjoy the experience as ballerly as possible?
I also will prob drop 1-2k in sattelites to try to play in the main event but even if that fails I still wanna come.
PokerStars Game #20719265752: Hold'em No Limit ($2/$4) - 2008/09/26 19:42:57 ET
Table 'Leo Minor IV' 6-max Seat #5 is the button
Seat 1: katzo94779 ($951.30 in chips)
Seat 2: Hero ($483.10 in chips)
Seat 3: Shanyu ($406 in chips)
Seat 4: Teiresias216 ($785.05 in chips)
Seat 5: oceanbillly ($394 in chips)
Seat 6: BHold ($398.10 in chips)
BHold: posts small blind $2
katzo94779: posts big blind $4
How do i view the stats of a single session, i would like to see my stats of sessions during the afternoon and night and compare them. All i can are the stats of my total hands in each limit, but i need individual sessions. Is it possible? I use the trail version, is that feature disabled?
After a few years of grinding up the limits, I have come to the realization that online poker is definitely not the right path in my life for now.
The urge to constantly be playing midstakes underrolled has taken its toll on my mind and soul, and the disapointment that I have constantly put myself through has made me a very unhappy person.
I've been putting alot of unfair pressure on myself to win alot of money, and have forgotten why I even liked this game in the first place, its become a tedious grind and battle with myself that I can't handle anymore.
I'm going to play the big tournaments on saturday and sunday and call it quits on monday the 29th, taking what little dignity I have left and pursuing a job I am more fit for.
I want to thank LP for everything, teaching me the right way to play and the support I recieved from many of the players, especially DooMeR, Raszi, Fazi, day[9], Robinson and cro)deadman.
I still have a few outstanding debts to a couple players in the community, and I want them to know that I will not forget about them and will pay them back as soon as I can.
My birthday is coming up next week (october 3rd), and I'm getting a new car (my fath,er is buying for me) as well as starting a new job at Atlantic Broadband (nov 1st). (local cable company)
I plan to work there until spring of next year, and then moving to a tropical climate and hopefully restarting online poker with a proper bankroll for atleast nl100 - nl200. (4-10k)
During this break I hope to find more stability and balance in my life.
I'll still be using LP from time to time and continuing to coach my students on my spare time, as well as having home games once a month and visiting the casino every 2-3 months for a weekend of poker.
my first student was deadman, now fenner and bmjr02 and dmcc2462 are my students **edit on ppl asking who my students were
In no means is this a goodbye, more like a cya soon and I wish you all the best of luck.
Saw someone post some rap battles in the ROFL thread and it got me looking around for some good ones. Can't beat these ATL high schoolers. The Next Jay Z fo sho!
what are some chord progressions in b minor...being self taught, i never knew how to do all this stuff, i only know how to read notes. i want to start improvising. i don't know why LP is the first place i asked, rofl. just figured there were some good musicians on here.
anyways i'm talking about piano but i'm pretty sure they're the same in any instrument
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