So a few years back I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I started cooking some self-treatment solutions this year. Surprisingly, thing have turned around and I'm doing alright. I'd like to move to California, Colorado, or one of the States where weed is legal, but so far haven't had the chance.
Money is kind of tight at the moment because I was part of a major doctoral program that closed (Emory University), and was unable to get my master's despite having a 4.0 (because I was unable to complete the thesis for the degree).
Ultimately I got suspended from the university where I completed my undergraduate because of problems related to schizophrenia and evicted from my apartment in Auburn, Alabama. I could never really get schizophrenia under control. I got addicted to ayahuasca and Kung Fu--and that's how I got evicted. I was screaming at night in the parking lot and kicking all the trees.
You can see you can make around 30lbs. of Ayahuasca for about $2,000 if you buy in bulk online. One of the best sites is Mr. Botanical--I guess the ability to get DMT is pretty commonplace these days, but I only discovered it not too long ago. I think I went through about 1kg of Ayahuasca myself in the past year. Definitely this is the best legal solution if you're an enterprising martial artist.
Anyway, "drugs" and so on aside (stuff we usually associate with legality obstacles)--I ended up moving to Atlanta, Georgia where I'm working on some programming projects and writing Philosophy. It would be a lot more straight-forward if I were more accredited, and so the futures projections aren't great at the moment. I ended up selling a First-Edition Charizard a couple days ago for around $4,000. Unfortunately I was unable to get the card delivered because (surprisingly) UPS doesn't deliver to post office boxes. I'm having to get the card re-routed to me on Monday.
It was an aggravating experience from start-to-finish. UPS doesn't deliver to post office boxes, and won't deliver to a post office either: This because USPS and UPS are different companies. International customer service can't re-route transactions, either and so ultimately I have to make an extra trip to a local UPS store to get the original shipment sent back.
I bought some insurance on the shipment so I hope the card is returned in good condition. I'm headed to the local Zen center to see how it is while I wait on all this shipment-related questions to be resolved.
So it looks like you can get a pretty good supply of Jurema and Mimosa Hostilis online. A skilled chemist, or someone who was patient and had a steady hand would easily be able to distill pure DMT. The conventional solution is to use lye (of Fight Club acclaim) and Naptha (which is a soap).
Using just these two chemical ingredients it seems you can extract pure smoke-able DMT.
Personally as someone with a scientific mindset it seems like this might be a good idea...
On the other hand, this approach doesn't agree with me. Using just vitamin C pills and lemon juice (which are safe) you can extract a lot of DMT and create an extremely potent ayahuasca brew.
This preparation is actually as simple as treating water with crushed up vitamin C and lemon juice. Then you boil the ingredients 3 times (for saturation reasons) in the prepared water. This yields a very potent ayahuasca.
Roughly $10 of ayahuasca prepared this way lasts a long time. Since the ingredients are legal and can be purchased online, the accessibility is very convenient. I am committed to using them for physical training. So far I am quite happy with the ayahuasca solution against the DMT-only solution.
DMT seems to be very powerful. I have so far gotten much better experiences with the ayahuasca method than DMT-only. It may be better to care for your body.
I do not recommend mixing ayahuasca and mescaline, although the Peruvian torch is legal and is indigenous to same the geography.
I think the ayahuasca-diet is better than DMT-only and I am getting some good results this way. DMT seems to be a very powerful substance to be respected. I recommend the ayahuasca diet over DMT-only and not specifically for safety reasons.
I am actually surprised to be recommending this because I would suggest using Peruvian torch over San Pedro cactus. This seems to be a contradiction. The Peruvian torch is smoother and more drinkable with a more pleasant high.
Ayahuasca can be a bit unpleasant but I think this is good for the user. There seem to be more questions of moral irresponsibility regarding DMT than mescaline. Ayahuasca seems to be the recommended solution from mother nature, therefore if we are in doubt this is the best avenue.
I thought I would not say something like this, but I cannot see any reason to get "higher" than ayahuasca.
I started this SC2 map about half a year ago, and am getting ready to start working on it again. I'm quite proud of it, as I have only had one programming course and have learned almost everything from tutorials and practice.
This is a very different map and it would be really great to complete it. I am hoping that before the end of the year I will have published on b.net.
The year is Stardate 9157, and the entire universe has been discovered geometrically. As the explosion generated by Nashian equilibrium reverberates through the geometric universe, a new robot is created
The Luck Robot whose powerrs of introreverted Nashian equilibrium are self-sustaining. The Luck Robot is capable of transforming any material object into Good Fortune.
hot showers may cost us billions, is the scientific result. questions remain.
so this is a pretty funny set of rifts i ran today after meditation with my new colleague "Tiki" who is a very traditional yogi in India. I also was involving a friend of mine from Thailand, who works as a barber and does poker-related stuff.
The results were really funny to me. This Monk has previously completed a level 70 Greater Rift with more than 5 minutes remaining.
Today we struggled through some lower tier rifts despite having vastly improved the build and gear.
We got good items at the end, but the runs were just super glitchy and rough.
It seems it is scientifically possible to run below expectation on "RNG" for any length of time, probably this makes perfect sense when we think about "denumerable infinities" (basically bigger infinities).
Any sample size is relatively infinitesimal...
For instance if we say that 1/infinity is "the first infinitesimal", and 8000/infinity is the "8000th infinitesimal" we could just use a denumerable infinity of a factor 8000 times larger than the (unit) infinity in the first case. then the second case would be identical to the first case.
thus we see there is a logarithmic principle with sizes of infinity as with for instance "base ten" numbers.
it seems to be the conclusion that "LOVE" is a reciporical of bad luck. so if you "LOVE" someone you are doomswitched until event X.
So I've been practicing Zen meditation now for 7 years and have gotten to the point where nothing can die without negatively affecting me. My average day is running something like -30BB/100 as science. I've gotten so far into it with Thai masters that literally nothing can wrong in the universe without it making my life more challenging. It's impossible to turn a blind eye to anything. I've been in such bad straits for so long now that the Chinese have literally sent Shaolin to my town to instruct me in "not being so bad".
But what I've learned from this is that even if you can have a 10:1 KDA average in DotA2 and not be able to get above 800 MMR (without overdosing on drugs), real life is surprisingly easy. The last time I overdosed on drugs I did die or something and ascend into heaven and was above 800 MMR but was reset when I was res'd by the Shaolin, and am below 700 MMR again.
But living a healthy IRL is really easy. Sure to be GM in anything takes work and practice, talent and motivation, and so on. But even high Diamond league SC2 equivalent is well than more than enough to live a super healthy life.
Probably 50-100 hours of knowledge and 1000-2000 hours of practice can make us super healthy individuals with just aerobic and anaerobic training. It's ultimately cheaper and possibly easier to eat healthy, get plenty of rest, and then train for an hour or two five days a week.
Interesting almost every Starcraft player, DotA player, etc. ever has put in 50-100 hours of knowledge and 1000-2000 of practice, which would be like the equivalent of high GM in most health concerns.
So it seems like high diamond Starcraft II or DotA 2000~3000 MMR is more than enough to be a hometown high GM or national mid GM in fitness. Of course I've also done karate, and I think most people would be satisfied with a black belt, which probably does not take more than 500 hours maximum (unless you are really hardcore). I don't know how much time I really put into my black belt in TKD but I think it was probably not as much as 2k hours.
But I've got 2k hours on my dota account, and am still < 700 MMR, which shows that dota is really hard compared to IRL.
But yeah, my IRL human is doing pretty well. I've written a book at around ~70k words somewhat unedited, created a video game at probably an hour or so playable time, but quite sophisticated.
My IRL human has recovered from schizophrenia, psychosis, anxiety, phobias, different health concerns and is almost completely grade A again except for a pinched nerve in the neck.
But what I've noticed is Diablo has failed us. Whether you're blind or not, high level Starcraft is accessible to you. Whether you're psychologically inept or not, mathematical poker still beats microstakes, whether you have bad luck or not, you can succeed in most games of luck, possibly even become infinite in hearthstone with practice.
But it seems Diablo is truly the most difficult game of all time. I cannot find any other way to power up in Diablo other than patience and grinding and running rifts. Since I am running -30BB/100 or so in all things thanks to the years of zazen, I cannot seem to find items, power up my character with sets, or anything like that. I always roll the wrong sets, wrong characters for seasonal items, wrong uniques, wrong ancients, legendaries, sets, and so on.
Despite it being my ultimate and final goal of all time, it seems I just cannot get on the top of the Diablo III ladder, and it proves to me this is the most difficult thing ever.