k, i have my rakeback coming on the 15th or whatever day that ftp pays out rakeback, I don't have money at the moment and i was wondering if i could get a temporary loan for like $50 on stars and i'll ship you at least 50 back no later than the day i receive my rakeback, dunno how much interest i would throw on top but nothing too much.
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What I'm about to write is going to seal the deal. If I didn't already think I was fucked up and apeshit insane, this ensures it.
First of all - either there is such a thing as predetermined destiny and a "god" or my life is completely fabricated by a figure that might as well be a god. Whatever this force is it feels as if they are completely in control of my life. If you've ever seen "The Truman Show" I think it's something like this, except not.
Everything that always happens to me is way too predictable and unbelievable. My most recent example: In my life right now I am unemployed and no one is hiring me, I have no way to pay my bills and stuff. I recently made some unbelievable poker comeback and have money again. As soon as I get my bills paid I run bad and go on life tilt and lose everything again. Every single time that I have thought there was no way I could pay my bills I would hit an unbelievable rush in poker and everything would work out. Everytime shortly after - when things seem to be really successful I would fuck it all up and be back at ground zero. EVERY SINGLE TIME I GET TO A POINT WHERE POKER IS ON THE VERGE OF BEING LIFE CHANGING IT GETS SHOT DOWN.
And not just that, GIRLS. I can't even really begin to explain why this situation is fucked up and rigged but for some reason by the rules that are set up in my life I'm not allowed to be in love. Every fucking single time I feel that I might love someone and I know they are feeling the same way the shit hit's the fan. FUCK IT, I WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL AND I WANT TO BE LOVED.
I'm not saying that I'm even remotely special but this shit is just fucking ridiculous. My life couldn't be any better scripted for entertainment and it all just falls into an insanely predictable path and there is little to no content about what is really going on in my mind and what the fuck I think is wrong with everything but I'm not going to get into it
I'm so sickly life tilted right now that I could care less if I even died. I'm not some emo fag who is going to do it because I still have hope in the back of my heart that I can be successful, loved, and happy. The jealousy that lives in my mind for those simple things is so deep and such a burning passion that it drives me every day to strive for it.
fuck the world, fuck all of this shit let me be happy for once even just a little.
WHY CAN I NOT EVER BE HAPPY? COME ON LEE ONE TIME.
Hey Joe, where you going with that gun in yo hand?
CrownRoyal, Jan 31 2008
So for no real reason I've been playing sng again after an 8month break or so from them being my main game.
They have been pretty sick profitable (+300 in about 100 sng or something) and i've been running hot + they are fun for me at the moment so i'll probably stick with them at least for a while.
In other news, I passed my initial craps dealer interview and stuff. I'm going back today at 2pm for my second interview (wtf why are there two interviews on two different days, crazy indians.) If I do get the job though, it's going to suck huge cock as far as my partying/social life goes. I'll be working thurs-sunday from 5pm-2am which pretty much destroys any hope of ever doing anything on a weekend again. Eventually though I wont be a craps dealer maybe and just do blackjack/poker and they'll give me a day or two off from th-sun.
Anyways, if any of you guys have cute sisters who are in need of a baller elite boyfriend I've noticed recently that im running low on girls and need to acquire a new batch of them.
feel free to drop some cell phone #s in my comments.
I have no idea how to play craps, but how sweet would it be to be a craps dealer?
I'm sure they'll rotate me in for blackjack and other shit too. I'm pretty excited about this because I think it's gonna pay pretty decent (maybe $10/h) plus tips. I'm pretty sure the job is basically perfect for my personality and stuff, and I'm almost positive I'll get the job and i'm stoked. The only really bad part is that this casino is ~37 miles away or something.
I just typed an elaboriteae blog but it got deleeted in my groomed state and im pretty upst about it cause it was pretty much elite and the greatest fo blog posts. My birthday night was yesterday and I got pretty groomed but tonight is WAY more groomed than before imagineabele ITS FUCKING 4AM. christ, things are ugly right now. Anyway, I just cooked some chicken and made a sick awesome dip out of ketchup/barbecue sauce/steak sauce and some other shit i found, and it was amazing.
Anyway, this s a useuless blog and my backspace key is probaly non esixstent.
I love LP and i dont care what you guys say abotu me because this site is the greatest ever
<3 beyond words, thx for always being there even if you pretty much never were.
Hello, you seem to have several fascinating qualities that seem to mesmerize me to the furthest locations of space. While I've never even seen a picture of you I'm sure it isn't muchly important because my love flows and falls for you like a waterfall in a beautiful secluded valley full of happiness and eternal bond. You have so many qualities that other desirable females lack. My heart is set and I must have you.
I could rave for hours, but I just wanted it to be known publicly of my love for you and was wondering if we could potentially go on our first date this fine evening.
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