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RiKD  United States. Jul 07 2026 16:57. Posts 9995 | | |
My vacation is coming to an end.
My uncle is a boss. Probably makes $200,000/yr managing industry plant equipment and he wears second hand clothing. Two Toyotas in the two car garage. Beautiful house in the Appalachian Mountains. 3 minutes away from endless hiking trails.
I was listening to Bluegrass music through the Appalachian Mountains. I was almost high for like an hour.
Now, I'm back home. It feels like I'm already back on the grind. Preparing to lift some weights and preparing for work again.
I didn't really have any deep conversations with my siblings. They were busy working or there was just not really time for it. My brother was constantly working or getting ready for a trip to Alaska. The only conversation we had was about the S&P 500. I was saying you can get better gains with a little bit of work and he was just saying you can get 10-20% over the last 5 years then he went back to work. I didn't get to bring up I was talking about post-inflation and post-taxes gains. Not that I even know that much about the subject because I don't know what inflation has been over the past 5 years.
I went out to dinner with my sister but she spent most of the time talking to my mom and dad. She is also incredibly kid-centric at this point. My brother too. The kids are the center of the universe as they should be I guess. It's the same with my other sister. She has a 5 yr old and a 2 yr old that are a major handful. The vacation was generally relaxing though and decompressing. Not much action. No spa visits. Maybe I should have done a float tank or something. Lots of walks and reading. Jamming with my nephew was a highlight.
One thing that I found a little weird is that both my sister's supposedly got divorced but my one sister is thinking of getting back together if he can "change" whatever the fuck that means. My other sister is still living with her husband until they officially adopt the foster child which is also super weird. I guess divorce is rarely ever clean.
I don't have any revelations to share unfortunately. It's just life. Oh, one thing about nature and food. Food is important. It's more important not to eat shit or overeat. I think it's difficult to be fat and happy especially if it affects one's health. But food is sacred. It is needed to survive. Saying a prayer before eating some pad thai followed by some fruit and sticky rice felt sacred. It is a worthwhile ritual. My uncle and aunt said they hit the mountain trails for at least an hour or two every night. It's magical. The giant lake and mountains are so still and calm.
Backrooms was a fun movie. I love the aesthetic. I just went alone. It would be a good date movie. It reminded me of when I was back in college going on dates and the women would basically jump into my arms. I was still a virgin so didn't capitalize on such an easy situation or I would get too drunk. Not even too drunk that my penis wouldn't work but so drunk that I'd be passed out vomiting on myself. Neither is very attractive.
I'm reading Surface Detail by Iain M. Banks currently. I'm about half way through. I think all these tech overlords just assume AI will lead to that scenario. No one wants to be left in the dust. I like Ed Zitron's analogy that we have Spotify that is like $12/month for pretty much any music you could ever want and OpenAI will have to charge like $100/month for something that does some things pretty well like coding and academic maths but still hallucinates and at this point isn't that much better than a search engine.
I have some other curiosities with Veppers and Elon Musk but I will have to finish the book before I really comment too much on that. I have seen Elon Musk have some pretty warped interpretations of the books that he "loves."
Anyways, I have to get to the gym.
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i say kids are 25% of what life is about, 75% others. rikd me n u are missing at least 25% of life but i did the other 75% life so i still had a good life in all things consider.
I can understand why kids are the center of the universe once u have them though.
I have never been fat but im starting to get a small tummy lol getting old is a byproduct of this i guess but i eat clean for the most part.
glad u had a nice vacations n some time away from the grind. me im just watching some chinese cantonese dramas to pass the time. its about business/family/gambling lol 
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RiKD United States. Jul 08 2026 00:41. Posts 9995 | | |
Kids are 0% of what life is about for me. How much freedom we have to think about the other 100%. |
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yep we would lose a lot of freedom hence why i dont want kids this life nor want the responsibility at this age. im just gonna sail off into the sunset with my freedom
next life if there is a next life n not yolo i def want kids |
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RiKD United States. Jul 08 2026 20:53. Posts 9995 | | |
Who is more free?
Diogenes or Pavel Durov? |
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what is free? God's love is free and sublime but the opposers influence comes at a cost but is also free per se
I am free but influence yet feel sublime.
i say they choose their path so both is free.
Pavel might be cage a bit but is a free man in my books
diogenes is half my life and the other half is trying to be rich as f lol so u figure out what that means. |
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wanting two total opposites at different times give u a perspective few get to understand. they say to be a king for a day you be a monk for another fwiw |
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RiKD United States. Jul 09 2026 18:43. Posts 9995 | | |
I don't really know how free I am. It probably isn't 100% determinism so I am free in some ways.
It's probably not 0% kids either. It's probably .1% kids, 99.9% no kids. It's never 100% kid-centric either. It probably varies between 12.5% kid-centric like if you are out on dates with a partner all the way up to 100% kid-centric if you are changing diapers or trying to get it to stop crying. Changing diapers and getting a kid to stop crying are pretty awful experiences. Also, bringing a kid into this world against their consent is a pretty questionable thing to do. Specifically, into this world. I don't want to do that but I would like to raw dog it into attractive women with no STDs.
Being trapped in a grocery store for so many hours each week in order to pay bills doesn't feel very free. There is only rest for work when working. Sometimes I get inklings of being free but it doesn't last very long. These inklings would include jamming with my nephew, hiking the Appalachian Mountains, listening to bluegrass music while driving through the Appalachian mountains, and I have to say I felt transcendence today in the gym hitting a new PR on the shoulder press surrounded by viking women most who are probably too young for me. The 20 somethings seem to always attract my gaze. Occasionally, a 40 something will get the fire going a little bit but it's mostly 20 somethings. Beautiful, big-titted, butt naked women don't just fall out the sky ya know but they seem to fall into my gym. I'm tall with a great haircut that is like half the battle. The problem is I'm not winning the other half of the battle that involves money and status. It's same ole same ole in that regard. I could afford a date at the scary movie in theaters and Taco Bell but who is going to go with me?
Oh well, I don't need to get into that loop again. I would like my own place and independence but do I really? It's hard to overcome the path of least resistance and comfort. Oh well, I think sometimes it's better not to reflect. It's better to just do stuff. When I get to contemplating contemplation maybe that's a great place to be or not a great place to be. |
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| | On July 09 2026 17:43 RiKD wrote:
I don't really know how free I am. It probably isn't 100% determinism so I am free in some ways.
It's probably not 0% kids either. It's probably .1% kids, 99.9% no kids. It's never 100% kid-centric either. It probably varies between 12.5% kid-centric like if you are out on dates with a partner all the way up to 100% kid-centric if you are changing diapers or trying to get it to stop crying. Changing diapers and getting a kid to stop crying are pretty awful experiences. Also, bringing a kid into this world against their consent is a pretty questionable thing to do. Specifically, into this world. I don't want to do that but I would like to raw dog it into attractive women with no STDs.
Being trapped in a grocery store for so many hours each week in order to pay bills doesn't feel very free. There is only rest for work when working. Sometimes I get inklings of being free but it doesn't last very long. These inklings would include jamming with my nephew, hiking the Appalachian Mountains, listening to bluegrass music while driving through the Appalachian mountains, and I have to say I felt transcendence today in the gym hitting a new PR on the shoulder press surrounded by viking women most who are probably too young for me. The 20 somethings seem to always attract my gaze. Occasionally, a 40 something will get the fire going a little bit but it's mostly 20 somethings. Beautiful, big-titted, butt naked women don't just fall out the sky ya know but they seem to fall into my gym. I'm tall with a great haircut that is like half the battle. The problem is I'm not winning the other half of the battle that involves money and status. It's same ole same ole in that regard. I could afford a date at the scary movie in theaters and Taco Bell but who is going to go with me?
Oh well, I don't need to get into that loop again. I would like my own place and independence but do I really? It's hard to overcome the path of least resistance and comfort. Oh well, I think sometimes it's better not to reflect. It's better to just do stuff. When I get to contemplating contemplation maybe that's a great place to be or not a great place to be. |
" Beautiful, big-titted, butt naked women don't just fall out the sky ya know but they seem to fall into my gym"
time to level up and get at least 2 preferably 2+
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RiKD United States. Jul 10 2026 00:41. Posts 9995 | | |
I am sexually frustrated. That is a fact. I am also horny. The two kind of go together. There was probably 10 very attractive women at the gym today wearing next to nothing. 10 attractive women zero sex equals a 10 on the sexually frustrated scale. It is not simple subtraction though. I go to Vegas and come across 100 attractive women and I have sex with 1 or 2 or 3 of them I don't think I'm really that sexually frustrated at all or maybe I am sexually charged. This isn't really a coherent theory at this point. It's also maybe not a problem that Mia Malkova and a nap can fix. I don't want a wank. I want to raw dog the hot viking with the backless singlet at the gym but I also don't want to get an STD or a child out of wedlock. So, what I really want is a girlfriend or I could just wear a condom which isn't really that big of a deal. That is probably what I'm looking for at the moment: Hoes. I don't mind wearing a condom but I can't bring them back to my parents' home and I am afraid to drive to many places around here. It seems hopeless. I would need to find a woman so desperate that she would be willing to drive me to dates and go back to her place. |
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there will be AI dolls soon or shit there are AI dolls now rikd lol but... |
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getting girls not even hard, just level up my man |
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RiKD United States. Jul 11 2026 02:35. Posts 9995 | | |
Travel Notes more like Back Home Blues but I am too lazy to start another thread.
Getting girls is hard if you live with your parents and work in a grocery store.
I started coding again. Just a curiosity. Something to do. I always seem to lose motivation at some point. *shrug* |
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thats why you gotta level up my man |
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RiKD United States. Jul 11 2026 19:15. Posts 9995 | | | |
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RiKD United States. Jul 12 2026 20:59. Posts 9995 | | |
I think I think too much. I am reflecting that I reflect too much. I would like to take action but I don't know where to take action. That or I am just too pooped from work which isn't particularly challenging at all yet here I am pooped.
Body
Pretty easy to talk about how to level up there. More difficult to go out and do it. Anyways, there is definitely some room to improve here but I'm already at a steady pace. The downside would be eating too much food.
Mind
I feel like my peak was like age 19. Doing maths and logic at a high level. High level is relative. I didn't even ace the math SAT or get a 5 on the AP Calculus exam. Although I was a "bad ass" and didn't study at all... go me. I would be a lot better off majoring in Math or Material Sciences or even Philosophy. It doesn't really matter though. I came across poker at 20. I gave most of my mind to that endeavor. That and drinking and drugs. My 20s was cooler than most peoples' 20s... My 40s maybe more pathetic than most peoples' 40s. Certainly people can improve at certain things in their 40s but it's not like my mind at 19. Moreover, besides reading I don't think people can really "improve" their mind. It is there. It is cultivated from early age to 19 and then that is a peak and then it degrades (at least in math and logic). Philosophy and history can be cultivated at later ages along with other stuff I suppose. |
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RiKD United States. Jul 13 2026 02:03. Posts 9995 | | |
Finances
I should have a real hard look at my finances or rather have a real hard look at what I would like my burn rate to be and what I could realistically do to cover that burn rate with appropriate safety net and savings. I am too pooped or too lazy to really look into this. My body is getting old. Too old to start working in oil fields or masonry or something similar most likely. I don't really have a clue what I should be pivoting to. Just get me out of Food & Bev and Retail my God. |
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