Merry Christmas!!!

On December 26 2022 06:59 NewbSaibot wrote: Ori was great but trust me when i tell you this; stop gaming. It is an absolute blight on adulthood. It's the classic "when I was a child I played with childish things". You're probably addicted whether you're willing to admit it or not, but the moment you put the PC or console away your life will improve.

On December 26 2022 06:59 NewbSaibot wrote: Ori was great but trust me when i tell you this; stop gaming. It is an absolute blight on adulthood. It's the classic "when I was a child I played with childish things". You're probably addicted whether you're willing to admit it or not, but the moment you put the PC or console away your life will improve.

Maybe it is a blight for some. My adulthood is waking up to an alarm, trapped in a routine, work, bills, etc. There is no rich life for me outside of gaming. I'm probably moderately addicted to it but the moment I started gaming my life improved.

On December 26 2022 06:59 NewbSaibot wrote: Ori was great but trust me when i tell you this; stop gaming. It is an absolute blight on adulthood. It's the classic "when I was a child I played with childish things". You're probably addicted whether you're willing to admit it or not, but the moment you put the PC or console away your life will improve.

They are a blight on childhood as well. Fucking warcrack babies playing WoW 16 hrs a day, what a waste of a life.

Anyone wanna take bets on how long SBF goes to prison for? Hehe

I am not advocating for children playing 16 hours of WoW a day. There is so much potential there. I am a washed up 40 year old at all things. It is true that if you put some whiz kid entrepreneur in my situation they would be out of it in no time but I am not a whiz kid entrepreneur. The Bipolar I is just tough. Drinking really did a lot of damage but 8 years later one would think I would figure something out. Well, I haven't. What I've figured out is I have a job that allows me to consume somewhat. I mean not really but I can afford tendies and vidya. I realize there is opportunity cost. It gets even more and more difficult as time goes on to meet people and be social but it's a choice I am making. Vidya gets me through the darkness of night. Keep in mind I live in a sleepy suburb. One of the grocery stores is open until 11am but that is about it. I don't drink anyways. Obviously, I want love and connection. It's just easier to blot out the consciousness with vidya. It beats the hell out of doom scrolling or simply staring at a tree outside my window for too long.

You should give yourself more credit Rik for getting a better grasp on your self control and the ability to manage your condition over the years. You've made a ton of progress and I'm not being sarcastic as someone who also went through drug induced psychosis and knows how difficult it can be.

That being said I think curbing video games(not completely) and joining a positive group oriented fitness setting would benefit you way more. Why not try getting back to BJJ, Muay Thai, Crossfit or something of that nature?

Rooting for you bro.

On December 27 2022 06:46 RiKD wrote: I am not advocating for children playing 16 hours of WoW a day. There is so much potential there. I am a washed up 40 year old at all things. It is true that if you put some whiz kid entrepreneur in my situation they would be out of it in no time but I am not a whiz kid entrepreneur. The Bipolar I is just tough. Drinking really did a lot of damage but 8 years later one would think I would figure something out. Well, I haven't. What I've figured out is I have a job that allows me to consume somewhat. I mean not really but I can afford tendies and vidya. I realize there is opportunity cost. It gets even more and more difficult as time goes on to meet people and be social but it's a choice I am making. Vidya gets me through the darkness of night. Keep in mind I live in a sleepy suburb. One of the grocery stores is open until 11am but that is about it. I don't drink anyways. Obviously, I want love and connection. It's just easier to blot out the consciousness with vidya. It beats the hell out of doom scrolling or simply staring at a tree outside my window for too long.

I understand all that, I didn't think you were advocating children doing that. It was just a random personal comment about how I think games can be pretty pointless and addictive to people of all age groups. Personally, I've been obsessed with various hobbies since I was about 6 years old and some of them have been pretty self destructive (like video games when I was a teenager). I don't think there's anything I can do about it except to try and channel it into constructive hobbies so I can be obsessed with something that benefits me in some way.

On December 27 2022 06:46 RiKD wrote:Vidya gets me through the darkness of night

Vidya is responsible for you living in the darkness of night. If you quit cold turkey yes you will be bored out of your mind because it's the only thing you've been using to pass the time. But after a few months you'll find other ways to occupy yourself. Get on a dating app like Hinge and meet somebody, watch how much more you enjoy spending your evenings talking to them instead of playing games.

merry xmas

On December 27 2022 02:57 Stroggoz wrote: Anyone wanna take bets on how long SBF goes to prison for? Hehe

Not particularly because I am the opposite of sharp on this bet. I am interested to see what the outcome is. 2nd biggest donor to the Democratic Party behind George Soros amounts to what in this situation?

On December 27 2022 07:11 Sleepy311 wrote: You should give yourself more credit Rik for getting a better grasp on your self control and the ability to manage your condition over the years. You've made a ton of progress and I'm not being sarcastic as someone who also went through drug induced psychosis and knows how difficult it can be. That being said I think curbing video games(not completely) and joining a positive group oriented fitness setting would benefit you way more. Why not try getting back to BJJ, Muay Thai, Crossfit or something of that nature? Rooting for you bro.

It would be wise to get some form of physical exercise in. I still have to lose some weight to not be overweight. It's tough. My first inclination is to powerlift under some form of Greyskull or whatever that program Loco got results from. I wouldn't be against training MMA but straight BJJ or Muay Thai I'm not that interested in. Definitely not interested in Crossfit.

On December 27 2022 10:12 NewbSaibot wrote: Show nested quote + On December 27 2022 06:46 RiKD wrote:Vidya gets me through the darkness of night Vidya is responsible for you living in the darkness of night. If you quit cold turkey yes you will be bored out of your mind because it's the only thing you've been using to pass the time. But after a few months you'll find other ways to occupy yourself. Get on a dating app like Hinge and meet somebody, watch how much more you enjoy spending your evenings talking to them instead of playing games.

No. My work schedule has me living in the darkness of night and facing the Void in the downtimes. In this sleepy town I just found out there is a Waffle House I didn't know about. 11pm - 3am is time for gaming and watching Better Call Saul. I realize I am giving up on life but it is better than the alternatives. I am just trying to make the best of a dilemma. Hinge is actually a good suggestion. That looks like the dating app I should be on. However, if I put my all into that dating app and fail I will be crushed further than I currently am. Let me figure out my physical exertion problem first. After that I don't think there is any philosophy I HAVE to read at this point. It's more about physical fitness and sorting out my anxiety more than anything.

All I really want to do is learn the blues on my guitar. My teacher is more into classical rock than anything else. I know a lot of white people just watched video to see what the the OG blacks were doing and figured it out which is pretty impressive imo. That music always deeply resonated with me as I am mostly a melancholy person. An emotional person. A person that is struggling with things. I relate. It lifts me up.

On December 28 2022 05:07 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On December 27 2022 02:57 Stroggoz wrote: Anyone wanna take bets on how long SBF goes to prison for? Hehe Not particularly because I am the opposite of sharp on this bet. I am interested to see what the outcome is. 2nd biggest donor to the Democratic Party behind George Soros amounts to what in this situation?

Imo, it amounts to nothing. First of all, the democrats would look really bad if he got off lightly, and they arn't ever going to get another donation from him again. Second of all, Enron CEO's were in tight with the Bush family and they got 20 something years. Though I think they got paroled early. Jeffrey Skilling got out of prison recently.

I mean there are cases, like both the democrats and republicans got all the criminals in the 2008 crisis off the hook. Obama reinstated people like Larry Summers and Timothy Geithner. And Bush got Henry Paulson and his friends off the hook. But that was exceptional. These are just singular cases of massive fraud that don't involve the whole economy.

So idk, my guess is around 20 years in minimum security, and he gets out in like 10. But i really got no idea xd.

SBF also donated to republicans, they just kept it on the down low.

If you increase waffle and benchpress intake by 70% you'll have the Hinge game on lock.

Bench press was never my strong suit. I worked up to a nonchalant 255 lbs. for 8 reps at my peak but that was it. I really feel like I am getting old now and that I could not accomplish that again. I see jacked guys into their 50s and 60s though so it has to be possible. Waffle eating is no sweat especially the pecan waffles down here but I am looking for body recomposition not fat powerlifter.

What I am really desperate for is playing the damn blues. I mean I am playing the blues at the moment but I mean really playing it. I typed into google "how to play the blues" and that's a tough map to navigate. Even with some beginnings in the guitar it's hard to know the signal from the noise.

That's a pretty good number for 8 reps. At what bodyweight was that?

You ain't old dude...Come on. You're right though people are definitely lifting well into their 50s and 60s these days. One of the most competitive lifters at my gym is 54 and regularly lifts at the "Advanced" level according to the Global lift standards. He doesn't juice but diet is a much bigger deal as you get older.

Speaking of diet, I highly recommend grinding up pecan waffles and putting it into an IV bag overnight, just to get a quick pump and also for the anabolic effects.

I was 225-230 lbs.

I think SBF will be going in for life. Madoff did. Donations to political parties don't matter, this isn't a Netflix show lol.