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Chewits United Kingdom. May 17 2009 07:53. Posts 2539

I am not working for a few weeks, and these few weeks I am going to be dedicating myself to improving my game.

Backstory:

Before moving house at end of March, I had been playing alot of Poker, and had dominated NL10 and was cruising at NL25 aswell. Then once I moved house I could not play any online poker for 6 weeks, due to complete failure of Sky (satellite tv/internet/phone package), I had no internet access. Meanwhile my job was really depressing me, as some of the things I had to do were just morally not right.
I worked as a Kitchen designer for a local kitchen business. They were not doing so well, and I think with recession the cashflow problems were effecting them bad. Normally I would design and sell the kitchen, then other people in the company would take over, order in right things, manufacture it and organise fitting etc. Before it is fitted, 95% of they payment would be required. I had to phone people tell them that their kitchen was going out the following week, and needed them to pay, knowing full well that there kitchen would not be going out, infact it wasn't even ordered, becaquse they money was going to be used to pay for someone elses kitchen that had been delayed heavily. Reality is it probably would be another 3 months at least. And then when the supposed fitting date came, they would be raging, and I was told to tell them all sorts of bullshit lies, continually. Basically they were committing fraud. I had to continually lie to customers, under direction of my bosses, who would never have the balls to face customers. One day the boss fled out the fire escape and I had to lie saying he wasn't there. You couldn't make this shit up. I handed in my resignation letter few weeks ago and applied for loads of jobs.

So I dont think my head has been all there this past while, and when I got my internet access I started to play some poker, and tilted pretty hard. I had been grinding Cash games consistently before, and was disciplined. But now I started playing some MTTs, reaching the money, but not making the FT, (78th/4500 was highest). I thought hey, I can FT this nps. Then I ran into some shitty beats and I started tilting, signing up to MTTs all the time, when my head wasnt fully focused. So as a result my bankroll was cut in half from $700 down to $350 in a matter of days. Even the cash games I was tiliting. I was doing some stupid things, like im on the BB with AK, and UTG shoves $20 and i snap call. he shows AJo and hits his jack and bleh. But reality is at these limits I should not be calling my whole stack with AK in a cash game. End of day pocket 2's is beating me here.

Thankfully I realised I was on tilt, and stopped, and took some time away from Poker before I lost even more.

Present:

I got a new job, but dont start untill June and I finished my other job on Saturday. So now I have alot of free time. Really going to dedicate myself to improve and get myself back to where I was before. This tilt has certainly taught me again that mental state is so so important. I mean I knew it was before, but now I respect it even more. I had not tilted liked this since when I had started year or 2 ago. I thought I was past this, and thought I could control my emotions. As I said, what goes on in your personal/working life certainly effects what happens at the Poker table.

So some goals and rules for these next few weeks;

- Focus on keeping a calm and mental state
- Crush NL10 and get back to NL25
- Remember the basics
- Only allowed to play a maximum of 2 MTTs per week
- Review sessions, discover where I have lost the edge
- Get up early in the morning and no lazy sleeping in!

- Going to do alot of physical workouts aswell, running, skipping, weights etc in the mornings.

So I hope to be back to where I was 8 weeks ago, and pull myself out of this rut.

As Mr.Motivator used to say, P.M.A - Positive Mental Attitude

Gotta keep that

See you on the tables

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I am a degen. Do not believe in any of my advice.

LemOn[5thF] Czech Republic. May 17 2009 09:58. Posts 15163

I see it very hard for a cash games player to lose BR because of MTT's.

Normal safe MTT BR is like 100 BI's, and Me personally as a cash games player who doesn't know ICM and M theory well I buy in for MTT's at least 300x my BR and I would by all means recommend the same for you ( so go for the $2 MTT donkaments imo).

You have fun, If you Win you still triple your BR and you don't lose anything -.-

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