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why not get a scuba diving cat.

hah well i just google searched "scuba diving cat."

this led me to think wow anything is possible...which led me to google search "sex while scuba diving" which leads to a bunch of really funny pornhub videos.

you have to compromise. if you want someone hot then you need to either 1) be hot yourself, or compensate in other areas 2) date older, poorer, or crazier

Fuck women man just be you

On November 13 2018 21:49 k4ir0s wrote: you have to compromise. if you want someone hot then you need to either 1) be hot yourself, or compensate in other areas 2) date older, poorer, or crazier

I just can't do it man. I dont really see the point otherwise.

On November 15 2018 00:28 K40Cheddar wrote: Fuck women man just be you

Well yeah your right. But I am pretty much a mess in most of the aspects of my life right now. Its hard to imagine for some people how much my social life has deteriorated and if "be me" = continuing to do this I feel I have to reexamine. Your right though I mean I need to work on my relationships in general not just women/sex.

I guess another thing to note is that these feelings have been magnified lately by alot due to no longer pursuing poker or gambling at all. This has left a giant void in my life and I am currently trying to pick up the pieces.

The answer is to be a better you. And to build relationships with people. Find social outlets outside work. If you play live poker you can build friendships there.

I was in a similar position and I'm sort of falling back into it. But within a year I got in shape going to the gym regularly, joined yoga, got a therapist, played live poker, joined improv, went out to meet women on weekends. The will to change has to be strong enough. A year ago I was lying on the beach from 3am to 6am contemplating the worth of my life while talking to a girl on a crisis line. Sometimes we have to hit our bottom to change.

I am a fairly goofy looking Jewish dude with a big nose. I never got girls, and was bullied a little bit in high school. Not a ton, but enough to leave my sense of self-worth and attractiveness battered for life. As a result, I pretty much gave up hope that I would ever be able to "pull" an attractive girl. I dove balls deep into drugs and have spent the last decade of my life on and off injecting coke and heroin.

I have a year sober now and I'm not 'happy' because I still live with the voice inside my head telling me that I'm ugly and not worthy of certain social status's, even though I can rationally recognize that it's really just my old experiences re-living and coloring my current perception.

Moral of the story, I relate, I wish I had answers on how to overcome, but I'm certainly working my ass off to better myself and somehow become content with life and be able to 'be me' in society. Maybe I'll just get a nose job, been thinking about it a lot lately. I think we all relate to the insecurities and self-doubts you are facing, but I think our own personal solutions and paths to self-actualization are different. There is no secret sauce.

^ damn. I dont know all that much about it but congrats on 1yr. I also dont know much about plastic surgery so I dont think i can comment intelligently about it.

good point about all of our paths being different. Honestly when i read k4iros's blogs lately my first reaction was "your 6'3" what the hell has been the problem for so long?" Im not sure how fair that critque is but that was the reaction I got from my experience. I certainly wish i were taller (im either 5'7" or 5'8" ). It also a big disadvantage being an asian male and I have to deal with the prejudice that comes with it. Alot of times I just dont feel like I am a part of the world.

Lol sure^

We all have deficiencies that hold us back. I may be 6'3 and decent looking. But I'm prone to social anxiety and depression-- that's what held me back. Plenty of ugly people were fucking while I was withdrawn from all of that for 10 years. In many ways, my deficiencies are worse than the physical ones.

I do recognize that fact that you can't change your height or physical attributes. But that doesn't change the fact that plenty of ugly people get laid and have fulsome social lives. Let's work on the things we can change.

On November 16 2018 01:56 k4ir0s wrote: Lol sure^ We all have deficiencies that hold us back. I may be 6'3 and decent looking. But I'm prone to social anxiety and depression-- that's what held me back. Plenty of ugly people were fucking while I was withdrawn from all of that for 10 years. In many ways, my deficiencies are worse than the physical ones. I do recognize that fact that you can't change your height or physical attributes. But that doesn't change the fact that plenty of ugly people get laid and have fulsome social lives. Let's work on the things we can change.

I dont have any deficiencies. Im a perfectly normal height. Also there is nothing wrong with being asian. People are just racist/retarded for the most part. I also never said I was ugly.

To be honest you sound like a bad pua coach.

Why did you stop playing poker?

On November 16 2018 12:14 hiems wrote: Show nested quote + On November 16 2018 01:56 k4ir0s wrote: Lol sure^ We all have deficiencies that hold us back. I may be 6'3 and decent looking. But I'm prone to social anxiety and depression-- that's what held me back. Plenty of ugly people were fucking while I was withdrawn from all of that for 10 years. In many ways, my deficiencies are worse than the physical ones. I do recognize that fact that you can't change your height or physical attributes. But that doesn't change the fact that plenty of ugly people get laid and have fulsome social lives. Let's work on the things we can change. I dont have any deficiencies. Im a perfectly normal height. Also there is nothing wrong with being asian. People are just racist/retarded for the most part. I also never said I was ugly. To be honest you sound like a bad pua coach.

"Lets work on the things we can change" -> Bad pua coach


I'm just suggesting you make changes, since it worked out for me to some degree. What do you want people to say? That it's tough being asian?


What about asian women? Do they not go for asian men?

On November 16 2018 22:24 casinocasino wrote: Why did you stop playing poker?

¯\_( "/)_/¯

idk, its not all that interesting or important. probably same reason as a bunch of other people.

On November 17 2018 16:46 k4ir0s wrote: Show nested quote + On November 16 2018 12:14 hiems wrote:   On November 16 2018 01:56 k4ir0s wrote: Lol sure^ We all have deficiencies that hold us back. I may be 6'3 and decent looking. But I'm prone to social anxiety and depression-- that's what held me back. Plenty of ugly people were fucking while I was withdrawn from all of that for 10 years. In many ways, my deficiencies are worse than the physical ones. I do recognize that fact that you can't change your height or physical attributes. But that doesn't change the fact that plenty of ugly people get laid and have fulsome social lives. Let's work on the things we can change. I dont have any deficiencies. Im a perfectly normal height. Also there is nothing wrong with being asian. People are just racist/retarded for the most part. I also never said I was ugly. To be honest you sound like a bad pua coach. "Lets work on the things we can change" -> Bad pua coach I'm just suggesting you make changes, since it worked out for me to some degree. What do you want people to say? That it's tough being asian? What about asian women? Do they not go for asian men?

Idk read your whole post. Don't know where to start.

k4ir0s sounds like he wants to discourage puaism
you seem like you want a good pua coach

me, I think you should get into scuba diving. I think it's pretty essential for most people to have something that they are passionate about. For the 'bullied nerds' out there who struggle with insecurity from bullying high school years, they generally seem to struggle the most with admitting that they love doing something, because they are afraid of being judged for that, not 'their appearance'.

On November 22 2018 16:54 Liquid`Drone wrote: k4ir0s sounds like he wants to discourage puaism you seem like you want a good pua coach me, I think you should get into scuba diving. I think it's pretty essential for most people to have something that they are passionate about. For the 'bullied nerds' out there who struggle with insecurity from bullying high school years, they generally seem to struggle the most with admitting that they love doing something, because they are afraid of being judged for that, not 'their appearance'.

idk does it seem like that? i think pua coaches are somewhat dangerous because they are financially motivated to push their agendas at all costs.

yea pretty much all i do is go to work and after that in my free time i am pretty much catatonic. for the most part i feel like all i can do is continue to work and accumulate money. im in a very fragile state mentally right now so i come up with stuff like scuba diving or whatever else pretty much every week these days. im proceeding cautiously but i feel like ill be fine.