milkman United States. Aug 15 2009 04:46. Posts 5719
First off let me say thanks to all of you for your comments and help out, it feels good to know ppl care and that this site is capable of being serious at serious times..
When i started with my blog on here a few years ago it was all just for me, i wrote to help my self keep track of poker and results.
Not to long after that i got caught up in writing for the community, i loved writing and sharing my poker/life experiences with everyone and kinda show that you dont have to be a 5/10+ baller to have some fun with poker.. But that lead to me just writing for everyone else and not my self, not that that is a problem, i just feel like at times now that if i dont have any crazy content i just shouldnt write, and thats not the idea.. So for a while my blog is gonna be about my life now, and just writing for my self, and i hope any readers still enjoy it.
My Dad just started a blog about his illness and was telling me how much just writing things down really helped him process things and have a better understanding on the situation. Right now thats not a terrible idea for me, and thats what started this change in blogging momentum.
Right now i feel like Raszi alot with the sleeping problems, anyone thats on facebook knows that guy has some serious insomnia problems.. Last night i went to sleep for about 4 hours then had to drive my dad and mom to OHSU hospital for a meeting with a pituitary specialist and then go to a pre-op meeting. After being in vegas for so long and having 7 other room mates, ive gotten used to the gogogo life style, i cant sit still anymore, im always fucking figgiting around thinking about how i could entertain my self, checking out shit on my phone, wondering if i shoulda brought my laptop so i could session.. i just couldnt fucking handle shit.. i didnt have much sleep and we showed up 1 hour for the first appointment and then it was pushed back another hour, so i ended up in a fucking waiting room for 2 hours with abs nothing to do.. i didnt realize how bad i am at just chilling out.
My Dad through all of this has been pretty solid, my moms a wreck, she isnt good with stress already, she tends to over react when anything endangers anything.. shes the kinda mom that will try and talk you outa driving somewhere cuz there is a little frost on the ground and she thinks the roads are icey and your gonna slide into a firey death.. Anyway, she is physically sick from all of this shit going on, any time my dad isnt looking she falls apart and start crying.. something else that also doesnt help is the city that this hospital is in (Portland, OR) for some reason stresses the shit outa her.. it is a very stressfull city, its built horribly and the streets are all set up in the dumbest way ever... Anyway i keep getting side tracked..
She hasnt been doing well, and im afraid that something serious could happen to her if my dad doesnt get well soon.. Stress is just such a fucking killer, i cant stand seeing both my parents fucking broken in one way or another with nothing i can really do except keep calm and not get mad lol.
I feel pretty raged up some times, ive been really good at personal life and in poker with not tilting, but like random people i dont know r srsly in danger, i think i feel very protective right now of my parents and its making me want to just kill anything that gets near or is rude or anything of that nature.
So as far as my dads updates, im not sure what all i included in the blog post before, but its been confirmed that his Pituitary Gland is very damaged because of a very large tumor that has grown in the space between the gland and the optic nerve. All his hormones will need to be managed with pills. There is only one thing that the pituitary gland produces that you cant live without, its called cortisol, so without his pill daily for that, it could be fatal and thats kinda freaked him out a bit.. The doctor today basically got us ready for the worst case scenario and said that we really shouldnt hope for anything to work any better then it does now because of the extensive damage.
That really hit home for my dad, for the firs time he actually started getting scared, and scared to go into surgery.. i mean it is brain surgery, but at the same time its not really as complicated.. We have one of the best surgeons in the country doing his operation so we ran good there and that really helps the percentages on all things like healing times and success rates of total tumor removal..
Right now nothing is for sure, we will find out on monday after his surgery how everything went and how much of the tumor was able to be removed.
The hospital is about an hour drive from our house, my mom doesnt drive on freeways so they really need my help now.. We booked a hotel very close to the hospital to stay in while my dad is in post-op at the hospital, which is supposed to be anywhere from 2 to 5 days, 2 if the surgery goes will and 5 max if its a fail. So tomorrow morning (well today actually but w/e) im gonna go pick up my aunt from the airport (another hour drive each way) and bring her back here, shes just hanging out to help chill out my mom and do w/e she can i guess.. shes gonna b pretty worthless in this situation but she wanted to help out so no one was gonna say no.
After that, monday at 5am we check my dad into the hospital and he will start his surgery shortly after that and ill stay the 2+ days up in portland until we can all go home one happy family again.
I realize this was a really long post, but if anyone made it through the whole thing, thanks for reading, it helps to be able to share with some people and get everything out.
Pokers been going great, my social life in this town is shit, i really need to find a place where rush lives, all the people around here use me cuz i have money and am always down to party and i have my own house.. I really like staying at rush's place, he lives with a LP'r that doesnt really ever post on the forms but is a constant reader, anyway his name is sam, they have both been really cool with letting me crash at their pad cuz my house is 2 fuckin boring.
Thats pretty much gonna wrap it up, ive been listening to this really crazy but pretty cool song, so take a listen lemme know what u think. Thanks for reading!
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Its hard to make a easy buck legally, its impossible to make a easy buck morally.
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thumbz555 United States. Aug 15 2009 04:52. Posts 3281
Corvallis has OSU and that's about all. Eugene is by far the best but I'd take Salem over Corvallis for sure. And yeah Chris sucks man but it'll be alright.
On August 15 2009 04:04 keuner wrote:
i hope your dad wins the fuckin mind game against the tumor! tell him to think fuckin positive its like the best medicine you can get!
When my dad had cancer I hated hearing this, but later on I've realized it's quite a very good advice. The body can do wonders if the mindset is right.
i hope everything will go well in the next few days ! Try to stay positive the more you can.
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morph1 Sierra Leone. Aug 15 2009 11:33. Posts 2352
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Always Look On The Bright Side of Life
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Cro)Deadman Croatia. Aug 15 2009 21:23. Posts 3943
I really hope everything goes well with your dad man try to keep your act together as much as you can because of your mom and dad , epecially your mom doesn't need u freaking out if shes the type u described her to be.
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