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PanoRaMa United States. Apr 01 2008 20:12. Posts 1655 | | |
I decided to start my blog a while ago because I was going through some rough times poker-wise. I felt I was a winning player, just that I was running pretty terribly, yadda yadda. Well, you know that saying "you'll always run worse than you've ever imagined?" Well, either that's true or I'm no longer as good as I once thought I was.
I've tried to keep this blog interesting and regularly updated, since as far as I know we don't have that many MSNL players here (it's usually skewed to a lot of micro stakes players and a handful of high stakes players who have all the attention). I've tried to establish an image here of an aspiring MSNL winner, and I think over the past couple months some of you have enjoyed my "essays", fun hands, etc.
Well now I'm going to swallow my pride and take full humility in the fact that March 2008 was the worst month of my life, as not only had I lost 6k flipping (running absolutely terrible), but I also managed to somehow break even at 400nl for 30,000 hands. You'd have to believe me when I say this is unprecedented in my career. Here's my March graph:
Now that that's over with, I want to look forward to better things. I'm currently getting coaching from one of the most prolific and talented players in the world, the one and only ae mother fucking jones. I used to believe my preflop play was amongst the strongest at my limits at FTP, and that was pretty much the only reason why I was winning since I kinda suck balls postflop, but wow, the amount of information I've learned just about preflop so far from aejones has been extraordinary. I'm very very excited about getting coaching from him and it's going to do a lot for me, guaranteed.
I've stuck with my PT database since January of 07, when I first started grinding. I don't know why I never bothered to make a new one, but it's finally time to end it. I'm making a new database now, to commemorate the end of my year and a half of learning, struggling, and retarded degenerate flipping. This new database will begin logging hands in what I hope to be the middle of my 400nl career, and be with me as I hope to journey into higher stakes. All I'm really doing is making a new PT DB, but I feel very excited about this for some reason. This is my new start. And with that start, I promise no overexcessive degenerate flipping  .
So, farewell to March 08, the absolute worst month of my life, both in poker and real life (although I did get my new car that month). Here's to a curbstomp of April .
P.S. I also want to shoot a link over to TL, thedeadhaji's "Top 100 Game Music" thread: http://teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=68847
For those of you that played the old Japanese RPGs and stuff and enjoyed them, you'll want to check this out, it makes for good background music while you're grinding if anything  .
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PanoRaMa United States. Apr 01 2008 20:18. Posts 1655 | | |
haha thanks, glad to hear it . |
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Ket  United Kingdom. Apr 01 2008 23:25. Posts 8665 | | |
yeah respect for making posts like this. usually ppl just make poker related blog posts right after a stretch where theyve done really well, to show off. not to say you shouldnt in times like this make an effort to question and reassess your game thoroughly (because you def should and its a healthy pitstop on the road to improvement instead of refusing to admit any chance it could be anything other than running bad), but these sort of stretches definitely happen to everyone and it can definitely even be a lot worse. ive had 3 100k hand breakeven stretches in my career, i cant claim to have been playing my best through them but i dont think anyone can realistically claim to play as well when theyre losing as they will when theyre winning. running bad and playing bad often go hand in hand and can start to form vicious cycles. but yeah what youre going through now is tough and always toughest the first time it happens to you, but if youre still grinding this time next year youll finally realise its a part of playing this game and how you deal with it is a big part of being a poker player, and if you pass the test of dealing with it well (which is a huge test many if not most poker players fail) then youll find every time you go on stretches like this they become a little less severe and drastic and you tiltspew a little less during them each time they come. also youll feel less and less invincible during the periods when youre winning (which is definitely a very good thing)
as this is unlike anything youve gone through so far in your poker 'career', consider this a rite of passage. and if you can successfully get through it and bounce back to reach new heights you can consider yourself part of the very small group that know what it means to rise up and be successful over the long haul (at games and stakes worth being successful in). |
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PanoRaMa United States. Apr 02 2008 01:42. Posts 1655 | | |
that was a very nice, reassuring read, Ket, thanks for writing that. I know i can't really express it well in writing but I really, really do appreciate you writing that for me .
gl guys |
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