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PplusAD Germany. Jan 12 2011 23:29. Posts 7180 | | |
Hi guys
Kinda feel empty in my soul atm.
It all started when my ex gf ( The psycho one) did call me few days ago.
After we broke our relationship she moved to Austria and i did move back to my parents house till i would find a new room for myself.
So basicaly the last 2 month i have been living with my parents in a small city
First weeks werent too bad since my Sister did visit for holidays (she lives 300km away from my parents for studying in another city)
She is only 1 year younger than me (i am 25) and we havent seen each other more than like 2 times wihtin 2010. ( I was living with my GF in Nurnberg and she was living with her boyfriend few hours away)
So the first 2 weeks in my parents house living with my sister were kinda okayish since we did get drunk all day and "partied" like crazy
Also watching "how i met your mother" drunk at 3am in teh morning while eating pizza and stuff.
Well after my breakup with my GF i did drink a whole lot to be honest.
I basically got totally wasted 4 times a week 
I Also played a lot of poker and had some decent success in terms of improving my game and making some monez.
First 3 days in December i made +280$ on Nl25 grinding like a champ ^^
I did party pretty good almost every evening and also had some fun with girls
New MMA season was about to start and overall i felt pretty amazing.
Things changed with a phone call...
My EX GF called me from Austria saying she still loves me and wants another chance and i should move to austria since its so much better than germany and we could become happy and stuff.
Well i dont know whats wrong with me ... but the minute i heared her voice i felt such a strong desire to be with her that all my rational alarming systems that this girl is a total psycho fell apart.
We talked a lot and i temprarily fell in love again.
I was daydreaming of being happy with her again. Holding her in my arms and feeling her warmth.
We agreed that i visit her in Austria and that she could visit me in Germany when i move to my new place
Everyting felt so good
Me is a big time idiot !
few days later she totally freaked out since she apparently found a picture of me having fun with another girl at google ???WTF
Then she started to rant who all this new girls in my facebook friendlist are and that i should delete some of them....
She totally went on rampage and started berating me and all got very ugly.
ALl my hopes vanished and my soul broke ...
I felt so down. I just wanted to walk to the edge of the universe and then fall of the abyss and fall for 1h till i burst in 1000 peaces and be dead ... Thats what i felt like.
Nothing did make any sense anymore and i felt like i have to hurt myself or i cant bear the preassure on my soul.
I opend up a few poker tables and randomly shoved pf till my 280$ profits were down to breakeven again. ( dindt take longer than half an hour^^)
did feel even more depressed after that and havent played more than 500 hands since then ....
Whatever it is , but this girl and me having ugly arguments destroys my soul !
Another thing is that since my sister is back where she lives i am alone with my parents in a big house in a small city where absolutely nothing ever happens...
my parents wake up at 6am and go to bed at 9.30pm german time. My father is at work most hours of the day and my mother is away being involved in all kind of christian activities during the day.
So its me in a big house being alone with no other soul of around my age reachable within the next 30 minutes (30 minutes by car)
facebook and liquidpoker are my only social contacts.
It really starts depressing me  However i will move into my new room to nurnberg(where i lived before) on 20th of Janurary
I think things will become a lot better again when i am back to where my friends live.
Another thing is that my MMA training did start again which since i am still living with my parents now is 35-40 car minutes away
( single distance) instead of 10 minutes with bike when i lived in Nurnberg
Its kinda anoying when you are used to almost living next to the gymn.
Another thing is that since i started training again i completely stopped alcohol.
I think getting drunk every day and smoking shisha like a madman did make living "alone" in an isolated small city a lot easier
Besides that i am kinda unhappy with girl situation.
I still have such strong feelings for a girl that is very bad for me ...
I did make out a lot with girls from the small city the last weeks but tbh it kinda sucked....
There are only few girls and they are semi-ugly ..... Since there are only so few girls they however think they are beautiful....due to every guys in that city being used to this kinda ugly girls...
Its like i need to have some fun with girls (everyone needs some love) but i am not really enyoing it too much
All in all i feel bad atm.
GL ALL
better times to come
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whamm! Albania. Jan 12 2011 23:34. Posts 11625 | | |
she sounds really fun to be with. |
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PplusAD Germany. Jan 12 2011 23:41. Posts 7180 | | |
Well she is just like dynamite coverd in a mantled of pure awesomness 
At first u are like woooooow !
Then it is like Booooooooooooooom !
And after the boooooom -> your half dead |
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Carthac United States. Jan 13 2011 00:02. Posts 1343 | | |
Sex must be amazing. I see no other reason to ever return to her |
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Hey PplusAD, I know you a bit, you are one of the toughest guys I know, your shins made of steel always impressed me, but why do you let your ex-girl friend make you look like you were made of wax, god damn it? Drop that bitch and let her go, times will change and better times will arrive for you... peace |
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Sanai United States. Jan 13 2011 02:20. Posts 643 | | |
Dude,
You need to take a step back and OBJECTIVELY take a look at your situation. This girl is emotionally blackmailing you, using your feelings like a terrorist would use hostages. You guys are broken up. What does it matter if there are a million pictures of you having fun with girls on Google? Your ex is using your sense of honor and pity AGAINST you, to make you feel guilt and shame when you have no reason to be feeling any such thing.
Clearly, this ex adds nothing positive. She promises good times and paradise, but she is more like an emotional energy vampire, sucking the ambition and masculine pride out of your system. Forget her. Seriously, you should NOT be talking to her.
If I were you, I would dive headfirst into poker and MMA. Social contacts are important, but they're not everything. Your sense of self-worth and pride should come from yourself first and foremost. Take pride in developing the strength and fitness of your body through MMA. Feel satisfaction from outwitting your opponents on the felt and building up your wealth. There is nothing bad about taking this time to focus entirely on yourself and amassing wealth and physical strength without any expenses.
Also, you're not going to gain much by just making out with a ton of girls that you don't feel a genuine attraction or connection to. Better to not fuck around too much than invest time in girls that don't really electrify you. However, this is not an excuse to go back to your ex. It's better to jerk off 3x a day than talk to such a damaging girl like your ex-gf. |
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Achoo Canada. Jan 13 2011 04:32. Posts 1454 | | |
Crazy bitches will always be crazy bitches ... + she belongs to the manipulative crazy bitches category, drop her either with a punch or from your mind and move on ! There are so many girls, no need to contemplate your past, go forward mate, good luck ! |
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u don't have to have a girl or gf all the time
and that bitch is fuckign crazy u already knew that, you are retarded for talking to her ever ever again
stop that |
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Edjon Netherlands. Jan 13 2011 07:27. Posts 1579 | | | |
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Edjon Netherlands. Jan 13 2011 07:28. Posts 1579 | | |
well, Austria is better than Germany to live imo |
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Spitfiree Bulgaria. Jan 13 2011 09:44. Posts 9634 | | |
| | On January 13 2011 04:31 Night2o1 wrote:
and that bitch is fuckign crazy u already knew that, you are retarded for talking to her ever ever again
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absolutely agree
tell her to gtfo and never contact you again doesnt matter how you feel ... you r doing urself a favor
You r a poker player not acting on your feelings is what you do ! |
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LemOn[5thF] Czech Republic. Jan 13 2011 09:57. Posts 15163 | | |
My GF is also a lil' on the crazy side. I love it, we are never bored |
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PplusAD Germany. Jan 13 2011 12:10. Posts 7180 | | |
thanks guys.
@ Lemon
I thought so at first,too but i guess ure GF is not half as crazy as my ex gf is. |
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You get weird ass girls. I bet the sex is great but you really shouldn't be emotionally invested in chicks I think. It does not become you. |
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