RiKD   United States. Apr 15 2020 07:40. Posts 6110
Hello, hello, hello is there anybody out there?
Who is this blog for?
Is there anyone reading? Listening?
Well, no. There is no one listening. There is no gaze. There is no voice.
What is digital communication anyway?
Who am I writing to?
I miss the Other. Their gaze. Their voice.
I smell bad. I haven't showered in I don't know how many days.
I want to read Theodor Adorno but his paperbacks are like $30 and I ain't readin' no pdf bullshit... Fuck that shit. And he doesn't like jazz music. I wanted to pick up a book on his essays on the culture industry and aesthetics. Oh well.
My therapist told me to write a journal everyday. This probably isn't the format.
I will say I want quarantine to be over but I don't want to go back to work so what do I do?
So, I sit and listen to Pink Floyd's "Shine On You Crazy Diamond" and fill up the white space.
I think if I should have another white tea.
I speak to no one and everyone.
My headphones are really good. I don't buy many things but am really happy with that purchase.
"Walden & Other Writings of Henry David Thoreau" is staring at me on the table...
Roland Barthes lived with his mother until she died. He was 61 I believe. I would like to read more of his philosophy as well. I don't think I want to live with my mother until I am 61 the guy is just intriguing is all.
But at some point maybe you just gotta like say fuck off to these "elitist" philosophers and watch some live punk shows. I feel like a million bucks. I've got too much energy and I don't know what to do with it. I need to find new creative outlets. Or old creative outlets.
I feel like punching nazis and hugging homeless people.
Santafairy   Korea (South). Apr 15 2020 19:12. Posts 1762
No you're still in the closet, haven't told us yet
It seems to be not very profitable in the long run to play those kind of hands. - Gus Hansen
RiKD   United States. Apr 15 2020 20:49. Posts 6110
"No one can construct for you the bridge upon which precisely you must cross the stream of life, no one but you yourself alone."
- Friedrich Nietzsche
RiKD   United States. Apr 16 2020 04:13. Posts 6110
RiKD   United States. Apr 16 2020 05:57. Posts 6110
The best way to scare a tory is to read and get rich.
I'm just sitting here looking at pretty colors.
What's up fuckers?
I am not even going to try and sleep at this point. Just fill up the white space. Mother. Fucker.
I painted a weird painting today. I don't know if I like it. It's about plants and their communication and Friedrich Nietzsche and blood red skies and pretty colors.
I started a new book today. Its a breath of fresh air. Taking a break from the "elitist" Western philosophers.
My mom and I are growing some tomatoes in the backyard. I am pretty excited about it. I used to help my grandmother grow tomatoes in her backyard. There is nothing better than a still warm ripe tomato from the vine with a little bit of sea salt.
I am in a revolutionary mood. Way too much energy for in the middle of the night. What do I do with it all?
I guess I'll start reading some Marcuse too. Get back into the revolutionary mood.
RiKD   United States. Apr 16 2020 17:24. Posts 6110
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I hate myself and I want to die - Kurt Cobain
I love myself and I want to try - Me
I am no longer a misanthropic drunken loner
RiKD   United States. Apr 16 2020 18:29. Posts 6110
Listening to punk music all morning doesn't really make me feel like sitting down and reading some Marcuse.
I suppose I'll paint!
(what else is new?)
I need some suggestions. All I can ever come up with is Global Revolution or paint.
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