Sleeepy

I had to cash out my Bitcoin today. Well, I didn't cash out all of it. It's a shame. I really think it gets to $500-600k a fair amount of the time. Bitcoin and acres in Montana is my savings plan. If I ever get any money. I'll figure it out. AA made me a pussy but to be fair my alcoholism brought me to my knees. Bleh, I am not even attached to a savings plan. That is something corporations sell as the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. 401k plus matching up to $5,000 is pretty fucking good though. I hate the fact that it has to go into the stock market blindly but it is a free $5k after all. There is a new Drake remix out where he talks about his dad telling him to make money, not die, or go to prison. I have these ideas of getting into 3d printing assault rifles. Keeping it low key but I think you're always going to get nailed by the feds plus the amount of harm it is probably causing.

I have all this time now and I am squandering it on LP. Parts of me feel I just have to get it out of my system but the other parts feel it really is an addiction that will only get better with some connection and mixing it up a bit. I don't want to change right now.

I wonder if I can hold out until June 13. I go on a family vacation then and then come back for a friend's wedding. I feel like I am ok with taking say a week vacation and seeing how that goes. I wouldn't mind catching up on some reading and some movies. There is a storm brewing. There is anguish in my future. Such is life.

Why isn't compatibilism taught in high schools?

I fucking hate high school and college. I hate so many facets of this world.

I am sleeepy again. Trying to wake up with this Kaytranada. Man, I don't really feel like going on some anti- high school, college, neoliberal economy rant...

I HAVE A BIKE! I didn't realize there is a really old bike from like almost 20 years ago but I HAVE A BIKE! Now, I just need some sort of bag to carry my valuables...............

I didn't sell my bike pump either! I think I am in business. The tires are flat the seat needs adjusting but I could be in business. I want to start riding the bike to the gym on nice days.

A women just took me off guard and asked me out. She is going to the beach tomorrow and asked if I wanted to crash. Now in my mind crash means spend the night or I could be crashing her party uninvited but she invited me. It took me off guard and I didn't want to mess it up and I kind of like my secure little life at the moment. My first thought is I was planning on relaxing in the morning and training. I would rather do this than drive 40 min. to her beach when she might flake. I wrote "what time?" which feels meh. I wouldn't be asking "what time?" if it was Marion Cotillard. This woman isn't Marion Cotillard though so whatever. I am overthinking this of course. I think I think too much. What do I feel? What do I want? I want to spend some time with this woman but maybe not tomorrow but when?

"You're welcome to come crash"

She is inviting me to crash her own solo party at the beach which since she invited me I wouldn't be crashing the party or inviting me to spend the night?

I don't think it's the second but it may be a bit of a Freudian slip.

She could be a bit drunk. Who knows?

I was just on the phone with a friend saying it is nice to get through some roadblocks in dating sober but I still have a long way to go. I have had women straight up ask me to come over after meeting them once but that was boozy city.

I feel like I am just going to use this like a twitter with no character restrictions. I think so far the posts in this particular blog have been weak but that's just what I was feeling at the time.

This post is more like a real life choose your own adventure so maybe a bit more interesting. Plus I didn't write a million words.

LP what would you do?

Go. Nothing to lose. You've got time, you are interested. Otherwise you wouldn't even be considering it.

I didn't go but she was drunk messaging. We can go sometime next week.

"Seeking single white male"

Should this be a disqualifier? How is disqualifier not a word?

hey rikd, i see that you have a green star. although you seem to have difficulty with mental/psychological issues (not in a judgemental way, i am pretty prone to depression myself) have u considered moving somewhere that has a poker room and working part time in a different capacity? it seems like you could carve out a decent living for yourself. i don't think traditional routes suits your personality very well.

one of my friends just became a poker dealer and he makes 70k and has 0 responsibilities. he seems pretty content.

I'm not really in a position to move anywhere unless I have a job offer.

I don't think there are any collectives in Charleston unfortunately. There are a number of places that use the name collective but that just seems to be a hip, chic thing to do. They all look like pretty decent places to work at though so *shrug*. Better than working at the Nike store downtown or joining the military.

It's weird getting superliked on Tinder. It's like... Did you mean to do this? but I never ask the question and we never talk about it. I've gotten ghosted from a superlike right from the get go it's like... Embarrassed about the superlike? Why not just unmatch me? Still nothing? That is kind of weird. I have superliked people on accident and it was misfortunate but never matched with someone I superliked so I guess I don't really know what it's like. I will never superlike someone on purpose. Or at least I don't think I will. Someone could surely change my mind on this topic.

I just ate about 6oz of salmon. My girl Mexie wouldn't approve. My dude Loco wouldn't approve. Man, you mean to tell me I could have just had like 6 more squares of dark chocolate and not eaten the fish? Damn.

On May 15 2018 00:00 RiKD wrote: It's weird getting superliked on Tinder. It's like... Did you mean to do this? but I never ask the question and we never talk about it. I've gotten ghosted from a superlike right from the get go it's like... Embarrassed about the superlike? Why not just unmatch me? Still nothing? That is kind of weird. I have superliked people on accident and it was misfortunate but never matched with someone I superliked so I guess I don't really know what it's like. I will never superlike someone on purpose. Or at least I don't think I will. Someone could surely change my mind on this topic.

Don't ever start questionning ghosting. girls do it ALL THE TIME. Not sure if they make accounts and quit, or are just there for fun (but doesn't want to talk to anyone), but it happens a lot. its a numbers game. you need tons of like for one of them to turn into a date.

i have gotten very few super likes, and those who did, it didn,t work out lol

Yeah, I know man. But, if a girl superlikes you and then ghosts on "Hi, how are you?" It is especially weird. Sometimes I write some crazy stuff so I can understand a ghost. Sometimes "Hi, how are you?" is probably boring and they ghost. So, I just do whatever I feel like. No regrets.

A "general manager" just asked me what I do and I told her I train a lot, walk the dog a lot, and discuss anarchy and Edgar Morin on forums. That is either going to be a big win or a big loss. She looks like Marion Cotillard (I mean resembles, I mean she really does look like her in some of her pics) anyways we'll see how it goes. If she's an anarchy fan or an Edgar Morin fan that probably clinches the date. If she isn't then fuck her. Oh yeah, I said I honestly don't know what I am going to do next. That is the truth. I don't think it really makes sense to be an activist from my parents' home either. Fuck. I have to figure out something to do eventually. It's so freeing not having to be under the manipulation and coercion of a corporate hierarchical structure. Maybe I will be a barista for Collective Coffee or apprentice at Holy City Tattoo Collective or help out at Charleston Art Collective. Those all seem reasonable to me.