Today I get a day off. My circadian rhythm held true. I was up with the sun more or less and I feel pretty good. I have thrown on Zola Jesus and I am going to see where it takes me. Many times I think it is best to write with complete silence but who really cares right?
I don't like when new acquaintances tell me to pray. It has been almost a shocking revelation in some circles that I don't pray and it has become an annoyance in my life. At the core I go to AA because I have a desire not to drink. I suppose it is problematic that one of the steps is to carry the message of AA and another step is to pray and meditate. This just was not a problem in Pittsburgh but there is a different culture here probably influenced by being in the bible belt. I really don't want to get into arguments with these people. I just won't pray and share my perspective if they ask but otherwise it is water under the bridge except it is not because I am writing about it. I want things to be different when I should accept that prayer and in god we trust and god bless america are a part of where I am. I just need to find others that are more on the same page but also not give up on certain people just because they have decided to pray.
The fact that I don't put thyme in the Italian or the balsamic vinaigrette is going to chase me until I start putting it in I think. I woke up thinking about that this morning and was like "fuck." It may seem like a little thing but it itches at me at times. It makes work that little more stressful. I am also a bit stressed because we have another guy getting some hours in but he is not very good and I don't know if it will be enough but all I can really do is do my best. I think it is why the thyme thing bothers me because that is not my best and I know it. I should not be stressing over work on my days off but I suppose it is a natural thing from time to time.
This Zola Jesus is pretty good. I am on Veka and really digging it.
Speaking of Jesus one of my friends at work and I were having a discussion on my break. He is a young guy like 21 I think but he is a voracious reader and very inquisitive. We always have good conversations. To think a dishwasher and a prep cook at a chain restaurant having lucid conversation on Socrates and other topics. He cracked me up though. We were talking about dominance hierarchies and potentially being free from them and he basically said he was addicted to materialism:
"Man, if Jesus comes back you think he wouldn't take a spin in a lambo?"
I don't think he would but america's Jesus certainly would. He would be toting guns, eating big macs, and fucking big breasted blondes.
It's a shame though that these youth have that programming. That materialism is god. God bless materialism. God bless Capitalism. Got bless America. America. Such a ridiculous usage. What about South America? United States of America. Such a crock. They are not in the least bit united. I rather live in France or Denmark but I am here. Might as well make the best of it. I am alive might as well make the best of it. I was born to suffer and die. Great. Let's get on with it eh? This song "Half Life" is making my existence a bit better. Strings should really be included in more songs. People don't give orchestras and symphonies enough credit. That is probably truly the most beautiful music. There is nothing like a live orchestra performance in a good venue. I remember seeing a performance of Shostakovich and just having tears streaming down my face it was so powerful. Just driving around in my car getting lost in Bach.
I'll have to get into this Chelsea Wolfe. Just comes out all dark and heavy. I was like man this might be a bit too much for my relaxed Sunday morning but I am digging it. Loco, have you ever listened to Massive Attack? I feel like you might like their Mezzanine album.
My family does a Secret Santa thing where the siblings get each other 1 gift so we don't have to get like 10 gifts for everyone. My Secret Santa asked what I want and I couldn't even think of anything. I supposed I could use a hoody but I didn't really want to shop for one. I suppose I'll do some shopping now. No Gods No Masters:
I have to get ready for a super secret meeting of people in the restaurant industry. We'll see how that goes. I got invited to go to a party today but I don't think I will go. The guy who is hosting it did not even know my name. I don't want to show up and no zero people in someone's home. I think I am just a bit burnt out on AA people. I will go tonight to speak to people in a detox. That is always worthwhile. I am thinking about just talking about how much I didn't want to be in AA and still don't in a way but it is the best thing I found and I don't want to drink and my life is a lot better than it was and things are pretty good today. No telling what tomorrow brings but today is ok.
I know what I fear. I don't want to be a leper in the only social sphere that I am associated with. When I was in Pittsburgh the fact that I did not pray did not even register. I fear that it is different here. There is a lot less atheism here. A lot less free thinking. At least I don't lie about it. I don't pray and I have no interest in starting.
I hung out today with a friend which was nice. We got to talking on all sorts of topics. He is a keeper. That's good to know. I am finding more and more keepers. I may find out later that they are full of parasites or something like that but it is nice to connect with fellow humans.
I just started writing. I don't know if I have much more. I am killing some time before walking the dog with my parents on the beach. I don't know if I have enough time to really get into the human condition chapter by Morin. Nope, garage door is opening as I type. Well, hope everyone is hanging in there to thriving. Time keeps on slipping slipping slipping into the future. That makes me kind of afraid of illness and death. I want everything to be like when we were sitting on a 2nd story patio transcended by the climate and conversation.
We are infantile, neurotic, frenzied beings and yet we are rational. That is truly the stuff that human beings are made of.
A human being is a reasonable unreasonable being who can be subdued and excessive. Subject to intense unstable affectivity, he smiles, laughs, and cries but is also able to understand objectively. He is serious and calculating but also nervous, anguished, playful, excited, ecstatic; he is a being of violence and tenderness, love and hate; a being invaded by the imaginary who can recognize the real, knows death and cannot believe it, spawns myth and magic but also science and philosophy. He is possessed by Gods and Ideas, but doubts the Gods and criticizes the Ideas; he is nurtured by verified knowledge and feeds on illusions and phantasms. And when the rupture of rational, cultural, material controls leads to confusion between objective and subjective, between real and imaginary, when there is hegemony of illusions, unleashed excess, then home demens enslaves homo sapiens and subjugates rational intelligence to the will of his monsters.
Edgar Morin, "Seven Complex Lessons In Education For The Future"
I have some that are getting holes and some really old Calvin Klein underwear I want to throw away. So, presents I know about:
- Plane ticket to see family
- Repairs on car
- Underwear
I don't know where I am going with this post. I am just happy I am mostly over the consumerist bullshit that is Christmas. Christmas is like hyper-consumerist bullshit. Call me a grinch I don't care.
Anyways, it will be nice getting away for a bit and spending time with the family. I could discuss Christmas more. I think I would rather discuss the Morin quote. I don't even remember what I was talking about in my first post.
Funny you would mention Mezzanine, I'm watching some House M.D. lately (I'm a sucker for this show) and the intro song is Teardrop by them. I do know of the album (who doesn't?), it's a solid 7/10 for me.
Chelsea's latest two albums are really heavy, which is a treat for me being a fan of extreme music and doom metal. If you want less heavy stuff, listen to her album Pain is Beauty.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
On December 18 2017 03:26 RiKD wrote:
I am definitely for earth citizenship. We need to make that happen.
Now, compare that message with this one.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
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PoorUser United States. Dec 18 2017 10:45. Posts 7471
On December 18 2017 00:40 Loco wrote:
Funny you would mention Mezzanine, I'm watching some House M.D. lately (I'm a sucker for this show) and the intro song is Teardrop by them. I do know of the album (who doesn't?), it's a solid 7/10 for me.
Chelsea's latest two albums are really heavy, which is a treat for me being a fan of extreme music and doom metal. If you want less heavy stuff, listen to her album Pain is Beauty.
ugh i thought that song was "intro" by the xx. i've been wrong about that for years :@
Eesh. So much for unity and diversity within our homeland of earth.
Yeah, I have been for earth citizenship for a long time it is nice to see others advocating it. His focus on unity and diversity is another concept I have been heavily for. Really everything he writes is conglomerating a lot of thoughts I have had into very well summarized writing. He packs a lot in but it does not feel that way. He is hitting all the points.
Yeah, although the English version of the book is about half as short as the French version for some reason. It's a great quick intro to his ideas though.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
On December 18 2017 00:40 Loco wrote:
Funny you would mention Mezzanine, I'm watching some House M.D. lately (I'm a sucker for this show) and the intro song is Teardrop by them. I do know of the album (who doesn't?), it's a solid 7/10 for me.
Chelsea's latest two albums are really heavy, which is a treat for me being a fan of extreme music and doom metal. If you want less heavy stuff, listen to her album Pain is Beauty.
ugh i thought that song was "intro" by the xx. i've been wrong about that for years :@
It's a good track too, but it didn't exist yet when House was already using Teardrop
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
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