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I replied in the other blog since you responded to me there.

I read somewhere that our generation is in a bad spot due to lack of purpose. There is no impending doom, no world war to fight. We are becoming more aware that perhaps there is no God, and therefore you cannot rely on divine guidance. You would have to find a purpose for your life in a purposeless world of ours.

Productivity is important. A friend of mine once advised that I should not spend all my time consuming content, but also contribute towards producing stuff. Whatever it may be. Not to discourage you from an channel of expression, but blogs are a cheap thrill. They're easy to create and it grants that nice feel of instant gratification. But I think it might be healthier channeling your creativity into something more real. For example, I don't think there's anything wrong with "being that guy that just enjoys food and films". Why not. If it's something you enjoy, and you are passionate about it, what's the shame in any of that. It's usually a great joy to read or hear someone being passionate about a topic, as long as it's coherent. Maybe you can turn that into something more. A blog, or video essay about films you enjoy on YouTube. Maybe you don't have the essential skillsets to create a great video essay on YouTube. But then you can learn, and that would be a start.

I think you should keep your job for now, unless you have a strong idea of what you want to pursue in life and just go for it. You might feel better about it once you find yourself in a better spot. I think you are just in a really dark place, and I am not really sure if quitting will solve that. People tend to look for reasons to blame when things suck. Maybe you think your job is the issue. But if you were to quit, maybe you'll be miserable without a job, as to miserable with a job.

@Arirang

our generation has plenty of purposeful things to do. You just need to stop having a slave mentality and do it.You say there is no impending doom, but the empirical evidence suggests otherwise. the bulletin for atomic scientists rates us the closest to impending doom in history, except for when the hydrogen bomb was invented. There are plenty of wars to fight as well, you just have to start one.

I agree pretty strongly with a lot of Arirang's post

Do you converse with people at your job at all? If not, find any outlet possible where you can interact with people at the end of the day in any fashion before you go back home. Preferably an environment in which you're interested in (maybe a film group?) but if not, just anything. Have to put yourself out there. Personally, I got into working out regularly after work (where I talk to almost no one nor do I want to there) and eventually mindfully became openly friendly and it's honestly often made a tangible difference in the mood I take home. Now, I'll take a Pilates class and have pleasant chit chats afterwards with a small group of 30-40 year old females (I'm 34 now). I'll go play basketball and talk to some kids in their early 20s who remind me of my younger self sometimes. Or I'll swim and go have random life conversations in the steam room afterwards with another swimmer guy I met who's 42 and in ways, is in a wildly different place in life than me with a daughter and all but in other ways, is very similar in that he just recently got out of a long relationship and is just content not thinking about the need for a relationship at this point in time and just wants to work on himself even at 42

There's only so few percentage of people in this world who are fortunate to truly enjoy/love what they do for a living. You're going to have to accept that and try to either incrementally increase the fulfillment you get out of the what you produce at work or mindfully try to connect with people in a real setting, not blogs, no matter what level or how temporary that connection may be. Not to be confused with having a large, mostly cold social network which I always found to be stupid/pointless. Thin but very distinct difference. I guess it does seem like you are aware of this but well...awareness and active pursuit are two very different things

I could probably right a lot but I will just say I agree with the sentiments. I am at least on day shift (8-4) this week and hopefully that will continue. Trying to work out what I should be doing with my evenings. What combination of exercise, maybe a team sport, tennis, meetup.com groups, AA meetings, etc. I have to do something. I have to stay off the 2nd shift and then do shit in the evenings. Anything. I am going to actually begrudgingly go to an AA meeting because that is all I have to do outside of the house right now. I can't just get frustrated with AA meetings and then not do ANYTHING. Like I was talking about in another blog. I still have my energy. As far as doing stuff that isn't athletics I feel just as good as I did when I was 28. It would be a shame to just write off my 20s as the miserable years where I didn't do anything. Ok. I already talked too much. Cya.

It just might not be AA this time around which is a topic that has been addressed before. I have to start taking lessons. Cooking lessons, french lessons, sword fighting lessons, start taking BJJ again but it has to be something I am going to seriously do. Biting the bullet and actually utilizing meetup.com. I still want some feedback from someone, anyone that they had a positive experience with it.

"I still want some feedback from someone, anyone that they had a positive experience with it."

Why? What's the worst that can happen? Just fake that you have a family emergency or something if you need to get out of there and you don't want it to be awkward, though that's probably not going to be necessary. At this point you stand to gain a lot and lose very little by opening up to something like a meetup group. Your doubts are unfounded.