Suicide + Grand Opening + Desire Fulfillment

My current schedule:

12:30pm - Wake up
12:40pm - Take care of the pets, brush my teeth, shower
1:10pm - Get the mail, eat, water garden
1:50pm - Dick around on the internet
2:30 pm - Drive to work
3:00 pm - 12:00am - Work
12:30am - Take care of pets, eat
1am - I don't feel like doing shit typically. I just want to veg out on a mix between liquidpoker, facebook, and youtube
2am-3am - Go to sleep

What if?:

10am - Wake up + Stuff (break the fast)
11am - Dick around on the internet
12pm - Lift heavy stuff or take the dog on a walk or even go to an AA meeting
1:40pm - Some food before work
3pm-12am - Work (Some food at work)
1am-2am - Unwind (I wish I had a girlfriend or I could smoke weed)

That seems a lot better. Then it would just come down to discipline in waking up early plus not staying up too late. I am ok but not too happy typically on 6 hours of sleep, 7 is doable but not every night, 8-10 hours of good sleep and I am feeling as good as I can. My days off I can sleep in if I need to.

6am - Wake up + Stuff
7am - Dick around on the internet
8am-4pm - Work
4:30pm-10pm - Now I have a big block of time where I can do stuff when other people are typically doing stuff.

This might be optimal. I still may have that debilitated feeling although I am sure that lessens to some degree. I could fit in physical activity, AA meetings, stuff to meet people, all sorts of stuff I suppose.

Something to think about for sure.

If you're going to have a girlfriend then your schedule changes =D

why do people like Nietzsche so much? whenever i try, I can't get through his work; he doesn't even logic, seems pretty irrational-anti science to me and i'm not a big fan of his values either

As with all famous philosophers, his thought was important and valuable within its historical context. To better understand Nietzsche one must understand who his contemporaries were and what kind of thinking was prevalent at the time and which solutions were being proposed by other philosophers. Nietzsche's thought was, like Dostoevsky, in some ways prophetic and highly original. Above all, he was an incredible stylist, and was the first to do away with systematic philosophy. If your only exposition to philosophy comes from systematic thinkers, his antisystematic philosophy will definitely rub you the wrong way. It's up to you to try to open up to this world or stay comfortable with what you're used to. He was also the greatest opponent of philosophical pessimism, outgrowing his mentor Schopenhauer, who had been the most influential philosopher in Germany for many decades (from 1860 until the First World War). The unique thing about him is that, in some important way, he remained a philosophical pessimist, but opposed the anti-life pessimism that Schopenhauer was famous for defending.

Another thing with Nietzsche is that it is not a good idea to start with "Thus Spake Zarathustra." Nietszche really hams it up in that one. It takes some getting used to and I quite like it once I got over the this guy is fucking ridiculous hurdle. He is pretty fucking ridiculous but he is also brilliant. I would start with "Human All Too Human" and then go to "The Dawn" or "The Gay Science" after that if you like it. Like Loco said, Nietzsche is very important historically. He is like a bridge from some of the old Greek philosophers and Schopenhauer to modern day existentialism who brought original thought and original style to the mix. You have to understand Nietzsche to understand most modern day (1900 - now) philosophers. They are all influenced by his work.

What don't you like about his values?

Loco,

What is your method to your madness in the gym these days? What are you doing and why?

I think what I am looking for in a workout today is something that shocks the system into me feeling good. Maybe add some cuts in the muscle. Strong deltoids, delineation in the triceps and biceps with aesthetic symmetry. Chasing after the perfect calves is just not something I am interested in these days. A strong back built by deadlifts, pull ups, and various rows. Since I am one of the only men in the kitchen I find myself taking out the garbage a lot. It is in these scenarios in which I wish I was stronger. Taking out the garbage and helping someone move. I am slightly overweight though so I should really be looking to diet down to something more reasonable. It is not reasonable for me to lose weight by lifting weights. I am going to want to add muscle and even more weight. Going back to the start my biggest goal is to just feel good. I can't outrun all these calories I am consuming. Probably going back to BJJ and long hikes is what I should be doing. Tennis and bike rides. Maybe number 1 priority should be to eat less. Eat less and feel good. I never like entering a weight room when I am eating less and not making any gains. Eat less and go on hikes. Maybe just eat less and prepare food and see what happens. The hurdle is as long as my shorts, jeans, and pants fit I don't really care.

I'm doing the Greyskull LP with arms plug-in and the frequency method plug-in. Some cardio thrown in there for good measure. I haven't modified anything except I no longer alternate between chinups and rows, I just do rows. Been doing this program for 4 months with really good results. I did a lot of research before choosing this program. It suits me best at 3 days/week. I'll keep doing it until I plateau for a while, then I'll switch to 5/3/1 by Jim Wendler. Both of the programs can be downloaded on Myanonymouse, but Greyskull LP can be started very quickly with just a little bit of reading online. Reddit is a good place to learn and get advice. Greyskull is one of the most popular recommendations for novices.

Most people start with this: http://i.imgur.com/0uiw7qW.png
More variants here: https://www.reddit.com/r/Fitness/comments/5w483n/greyskull_lp_variants/

You don't have to eat a caloric excess in order to gain muscle. There's no reason why you can't eat at maintenance and hit the gym 3 days a week. You'll be doing body recomp; you'll see a huge difference in a few months time. Eating at a surplus only matters for intermediate and advanced lifters.

right i read some of dostoevskys works which i remember enjoying.

I read the following:

notes from underground 10/10
humiliated and insulted 5/10
crime and punishment 6/10
white nights 9/10
the chapter on grand inquisitor 10/10
the gambler 8/10

dostoevsky seemed like a psychologist to me, but hiding within a literay man's clothing. also found his writings quite funny

On August 07 2017 16:19 Loco wrote: As with all famous philosophers, his thought was important and valuable within its historical context. To better understand Nietzsche one must understand who his contemporaries were and what kind of thinking was prevalent at the time and which solutions were being proposed by other philosophers. Nietzsche's thought was, like Dostoevsky, in some ways prophetic and highly original. Above all, he was an incredible stylist, and was the first to do away with systematic philosophy. If your only exposition to philosophy comes from systematic thinkers, his antisystematic philosophy will definitely rub you the wrong way. It's up to you to try to open up to this world or stay comfortable with what you're used to. He was also the greatest opponent of philosophical pessimism, outgrowing his mentor Schopenhauer, who had been the most influential philosopher in Germany for many decades (from 1860 until the First World War). The unique thing about him is that, in some important way, he remained a philosophical pessimist, but opposed the anti-life pessimism that Schopenhauer was famous for defending.

well i looked at the wiki page. its too brief to make an assessment, why does he think socratic philosophy is a form of taking refuge form the harshness of reality. In my view it is the opposite. It is just a way of going around asking questions and not caring what the answers will be, and the founder of that philosophy stuck to those answers even if it meant drinking hemlock. Not only that but it is a good methodology that is still used in the humanities today.

I agree that we should question old moral values and reassess them constantly, that's basically what normative ethics is doing, so i agree with neitszche on that point.

On August 07 2017 21:58 Loco wrote: I'm doing the Greyskull LP with arms plug-in and the frequency method plug-in. Some cardio thrown in there for good measure. I haven't modified anything except I no longer alternate between chinups and rows, I just do rows. Been doing this program for 4 months with really good results. I did a lot of research before choosing this program. It suits me best at 3 days/week. I'll keep doing it until I plateau for a while, then I'll switch to 5/3/1 by Jim Wendler. Both of the programs can be downloaded on Myanonymouse, but Greyskull LP can be started very quickly with just a little bit of reading online. Reddit is a good place to learn and get advice. Greyskull is one of the most popular recommendations for novices. Most people start with this: http://i.imgur.com/0uiw7qW.png More variants here: https://www.reddit.com/r/Fitness/comments/5w483n/greyskull_lp_variants/

That is a really good starting program and will certainly get the feel good going. Jim Wendler is the man. I used to be a T-Nation and Westside Barbells guy and have learned a lot from Wendler.

On August 07 2017 23:17 Loco wrote: You don't have to eat a caloric excess in order to gain muscle. There's no reason why you can't eat at maintenance and hit the gym 3 days a week. You'll be doing body recomp; you'll see a huge difference in a few months time. Eating at a surplus only matters for intermediate and advanced lifters.

Yeah, I know. I just loved to eat at surplus and go crazy in the gym. I am hardwired that that is what is done. Especially when I was powerlifting. I think if I go in there for a mix of feel good and reasonable improvements in functional strength/well-being with some aesthetics I could be ok. I just have Ray Cronise in my head saying starve myself on a WFPB diet before I get involved in anything at the gym. It is like I have Jim Wendler and Dave Tate in one ear and Ray Cronise in another.

On August 07 2017 23:32 Stroggoz wrote: right i read some of dostoevskys works which i remember enjoying. I read the following: notes from underground 10/10 humiliated and insulted 5/10 crime and punishment 6/10 white nights 9/10 the chapter on grand inquisitor 10/10 the gambler 8/10 dostoevsky seemed like a psychologist to me, but hiding within a literay man's clothing. also found his writings quite funny

Notes is great. That is what I recommend to people if they want to try a Dostoevsky.

Dostoevsky is a supreme psychologist. Great playwright and very funny. He is at his best when he is writing these psychological and philosophical thrillers.

On August 08 2017 00:26 Stroggoz wrote: Show nested quote + On August 07 2017 16:19 Loco wrote: As with all famous philosophers, his thought was important and valuable within its historical context. To better understand Nietzsche one must understand who his contemporaries were and what kind of thinking was prevalent at the time and which solutions were being proposed by other philosophers. Nietzsche's thought was, like Dostoevsky, in some ways prophetic and highly original. Above all, he was an incredible stylist, and was the first to do away with systematic philosophy. If your only exposition to philosophy comes from systematic thinkers, his antisystematic philosophy will definitely rub you the wrong way. It's up to you to try to open up to this world or stay comfortable with what you're used to. He was also the greatest opponent of philosophical pessimism, outgrowing his mentor Schopenhauer, who had been the most influential philosopher in Germany for many decades (from 1860 until the First World War). The unique thing about him is that, in some important way, he remained a philosophical pessimist, but opposed the anti-life pessimism that Schopenhauer was famous for defending. well i looked at the wiki page. its too brief to make an assessment, why does he think socratic philosophy is a form of taking refuge form the harshness of reality. In my view it is the opposite. It is just a way of going around asking questions and not caring what the answers will be, and the founder of that philosophy stuck to those answers even if it meant drinking hemlock. Not only that but it is a good methodology that is still used in the humanities today. I agree that we should question old moral values and reassess them constantly, that's basically what normative ethics is doing, so i agree with neitszche on that point.

Nietzsche thought everything that wasn't isolating oneself in the mountains was taking refuge from the harshness of reality. In all seriousness I am a bit surprised that socratic philosophy would fall into that category though. His biggest problems were with Christianity and drinking alcohol.

I have a new crush too. Asia Argento. I want to go to Rome and eat great pasta and have a late night walk through the city with her. I don't think she has surpassed Marion it is just another fancy. No wonder they put these women in movies to sell tickets. That is quite a gift no?

On August 08 2017 00:57 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On August 07 2017 23:17 Loco wrote: You don't have to eat a caloric excess in order to gain muscle. There's no reason why you can't eat at maintenance and hit the gym 3 days a week. You'll be doing body recomp; you'll see a huge difference in a few months time. Eating at a surplus only matters for intermediate and advanced lifters. Yeah, I know. I just loved to eat at surplus and go crazy in the gym. I am hardwired that that is what is done. Especially when I was powerlifting. I think if I go in there for a mix of feel good and reasonable improvements in functional strength/well-being with some aesthetics I could be ok. I just have Ray Cronise in my head saying starve myself on a WFPB diet before I get involved in anything at the gym. It is like I have Jim Wendler and Dave Tate in one ear and Ray Cronise in another.

Yeah, I did the weight loss thing before training too. I also started off by doing the surplus thing and I ended up not liking my physique at all. I wouldn't recommend it. I ballooned from 150 to 170 very very quickly. You can come to a compromise by doing Leangains/intermittent fasting stuff while training.

For inspiration, this guy has a pretty solid channel and does intermittent fasting/mostly bodyweight training: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpyhJZhJQWKDdJCR07jPY-Q

This guy is also very inspirational but focuses on Olympic lifting/power lifting: https://www.youtube.com/user/clarence0

Both really cool vegan dudes.

On August 08 2017 00:26 Stroggoz wrote: Show nested quote + On August 07 2017 16:19 Loco wrote: As with all famous philosophers, his thought was important and valuable within its historical context. To better understand Nietzsche one must understand who his contemporaries were and what kind of thinking was prevalent at the time and which solutions were being proposed by other philosophers. Nietzsche's thought was, like Dostoevsky, in some ways prophetic and highly original. Above all, he was an incredible stylist, and was the first to do away with systematic philosophy. If your only exposition to philosophy comes from systematic thinkers, his antisystematic philosophy will definitely rub you the wrong way. It's up to you to try to open up to this world or stay comfortable with what you're used to. He was also the greatest opponent of philosophical pessimism, outgrowing his mentor Schopenhauer, who had been the most influential philosopher in Germany for many decades (from 1860 until the First World War). The unique thing about him is that, in some important way, he remained a philosophical pessimist, but opposed the anti-life pessimism that Schopenhauer was famous for defending. well i looked at the wiki page. its too brief to make an assessment, why does he think socratic philosophy is a form of taking refuge form the harshness of reality. In my view it is the opposite. It is just a way of going around asking questions and not caring what the answers will be, and the founder of that philosophy stuck to those answers even if it meant drinking hemlock. Not only that but it is a good methodology that is still used in the humanities today. I agree that we should question old moral values and reassess them constantly, that's basically what normative ethics is doing, so i agree with neitszche on that point.

Nietzsche was just very critical of everyone who didn't fully embrace life (as will to power). The Socratic tradition valued reason, prudence and purity and elevated them above emotions and instincts. Nietzsche thought this was a form of life negation and sickness. This is what the Apollonian and Dionysian concept/dialetic is about. N sought to revive the spirit and appealed to/praised the Greek God Dionysus, while opposing Apollo:

To further the split, Nietzsche diagnoses the Socratic Dialectic as being diseased in the manner that it deals with looking at life. The scholarly dialectic is directly opposed to the concept of the Dionysian because it only seeks to negate life; it uses reason to always deflect, but never to create. Socrates rejects the intrinsic value of the senses and life for "higher" ideals. Nietzsche claims in The Gay Science that when Socrates drinks the hemlock, he sees the hemlock as the cure for life, proclaiming that he has been sick a long time. (Section 340.) In contrast, the Dionysian existence constantly seeks to affirm life. Whether in pain or pleasure, suffering or joy, the intoxicating revelry that Dionysus has for life itself overcomes the Socratic sickness and perpetuates the growth and flourishing of visceral life force—a great Dionysian 'Yes', to a Socratic 'No'.

they definately can be used succesfully, however it is so easy to go over the edge with this.
And also 2 or 3 MDMA before a party? What kinda pills do you have? if i take 2 or 3 before a party then i wouldnt even get in i think. ranges here mostly from 150 / 200 mg / i like the 200 mg ones.

Also if having a too strict diet does not motivate you, try If you fit your macro´s. Download the app myfitnesspal and just fill in everything you eat.
Just make sure you notice your carbs, proteine and fat.

Did not read every part though, no offence ment if this is completely off topic.

IIFYM is what uneducated and vain people tend to do because they don't give a crap about their health and just want to look a certain way. Sure, it works, but it's the epitome of having your priorities wrong. It's also not the best way to go about avoiding a strict diet because you're still restricting yourself due to the high calorie density of the crap foods you eat. Less volume of food means less satiation. It's far better to eat a lot volume wise because you're mostly eating low calorie density foods.