July Happenings

First, put things into context. Think of immigrant families who come to America to live worse than peasants for their entire lives so they can send their kids to college. Think prisoners serving a life sentence. You have it GREAT.

Then, Confront reality. Slay your demons once and for all. Build your ideal world, 1 day at a time. Continue to build towards tomorrow and one day you'll realize you're surrounded by all the wealth you've created. Don't turn back because one relapse can cause the collapse of all the years of effort.

This is your highest EV play because what's the alternative? We are all struggling or have struggled at some point in our lives. Good luck my friend!

bro just the fact that you got a wal-mart to access makes your life 100x better than people hundreds of years ago.

“Every miserable fool who has nothing at all of which he can be proud, adopts as a last resource pride in the nation to which he belongs; he is ready and happy to defend all its faults and follies tooth and nail, thus reimbursing himself for his own inferiority.”


“The best consolation in misfortune or affliction of any kind will be the thought of other people who are in a still worse plight than yourself; and this is a form of consolation open to every one. But what an awful fate this means for mankind as a whole! We are like lambs in a field, disporting themselves under the eye of the butcher, who chooses out first one and then another for his prey.”

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On July 05 2017 09:34 Loco wrote: “Every miserable fool who has nothing at all of which he can be proud, adopts as a last resource pride in the nation to which he belongs; he is ready and happy to defend all its faults and follies tooth and nail, thus reimbursing himself for his own inferiority.” + Show Spoiler +

motherfucking shopy, I gotta read the rest of his books <3

Phew, I am a little glad my nephew is gone. He is a fucking toddler man. They are unruly beasts. He can be quite hysterical but overall that is just too much for me. THAT is occupation. There are so many other things I would rather be doing than looking after someone entering their terrible twos. My sister and husband got into that mess. I wish them the best.

I have been having cravings to discuss Nietzsche but that is just a hard nut to crack.

On things I have loved up until this point:

I literally spent a good portion of today re-looking up how to live in Buenos Aires, Argentina. It brought back a lot of nostalgia and good memories. It will be 10 years since I first went there in September. That is part of my life I would love to re-live for eternity. My goal is to live in Paris for half of the year and Buenos Aires for half of the year. I can ski in the Alps and Barrioloche. Play tennis on pristine clay courts year round. There are obvious issues in this plan like the fact my Spanish is probably shit at this point and my French almost non-existent. I don't know if I will ever have a job like poker again that offers the money and the freedom to do such a thing as split times and hemispheres. It is a great way to live. Obviously, I would take either one or the other. I would pick Paris over Buenos Aires but I don't know if I will ever have the money. I would consider learning French an excellent project. I have the entrepreneur blood in me. It would just have to be something unforeseen in the future. I grow tired of the meekness and weakness that AA preaches. Nietzsche is like the anti-AA but also promotes not drinking. I will completely be against everything that AA preaches so I can overcome this sheepness that I have been afflicted with. It is not by the grace of God that anything happens unless that God is nature. Fuck Christianity. That's what I wanted to say. There are many kind and helpful people within the fellowship of AA. They may even be right on some things. Perhaps it is a bit grandiose to have dreams of living in Paris. Fuck it. To be fair I have the beach where I am currently living. The food is fantastic but I find that gets a bit old. It's all fried food and butter and I am going to have to buy a new wardrobe soon if I am not careful. Nietzsche really got me thinking though. How long do I really want to be barely covering meager expenses? I do not think a meek existence is a virtue. It is all the matter of do I have transferrable skills to do anything? I really don't see myself in any offices of multinational corporations. That was the death of me man. I never got as suicidal in my life than when I was dealing with desks and chairs of multinational corporations. Sales is really my only transferrable skill but there is so few things that I am willing to sell. I remember I applied to sell Tesla cars. I may not even be that great of a fit for sales anyway. Which leaves me with seemingly nothing. So, I just move along. Hopefully, I can at least meet some people at this new job. I am sitting here laughing. I really have nothing here up to this point. I have my computer and the books I brought with me and some clothes and my bed that I love. I have my parents, the beach, the dog, and cats. Maybe what is most important to me right now is my ongoing humanities education. It allows me to be who I truly am and navigate the tragedies and fragilities of life. I wish to say no to the herd in most areas... My writing is becoming too much Nietzsche but that is all I have been reading lately and it has been resonating. I have to get it out somewhere. I do not want to be that guy that always wears black shirts and is shoe horning Nietzsche into every conversation. That is horrible. I have met very few people in life that I could honestly have a cup of coffee with and appropriately touch on some Nietzsche but oh, what a joy when it occurs.

I don't know if I will ever play poker seriously again. I could see myself joining a bridge or euchre club. It seems like a shame with how much I put into the game and how deep I was into it for many years.

10 more things that I have loved up until this point:

Magic: The Gathering
Comic Books
7th and 8th grade art class
Extreme Championship Wrestling (ECW)
Drugs (and alcohol)
Bife de lomo
Ice cream
Tennis
Music
Pastry and coffee

Live life as if the life we are living will be reoccurring eternally. Should past loves and joys be rekindled? Certainly not drugs and alcohol. Ice cream and pastry in moderation. Remember about the clothes not fitting. Tennis perhaps makes the most sense. I can meet people and hit the sweet spot and hit beautiful shots and run around into my old age. Art class and painting has been a reoccurring theme for sure. I think I prefer to read novels now instead of comic books. Magic just falls into the games and card playing that I should have in my life in some form. ECW was great for that epoch but I don't need or want wrestling in my life. Perhaps the theatre or ballet will do. Music. I never fall out of love with music that is a part of my life everyday.

Motherfucking life man... Eureka! I just realized there are no more pastries for breakfast. I must go! I must go procure them!

The problem here lies in the fact that you are living with a trump supporter.

Life is Hard.