As I am writing this I'm not sure what I will do in the following month.
But I do want to make some blog about goal-setting, how I approach decisions. I think that naturally my mind approaches decision making kind of like Conway's game of life. I'm not sure if I understand it 100% correctly but I think you have these binary squares of two different color with some initial state. Rules are set in which based on the squares interact with each other the successive state changes, etc etc and through this you can glean some kind of insight into dynamic/complex systems which I guess is a cool concept and can be often analagous to life? (I haven;t studied it indepth or anything, so correct me if I am wrong).
For me, I there's a reason goal setting is hard/elusive is because life is really really complex and ever changing. Rather, if you focusing on the rules that make up alot of your goal it becomes much more manageable and easier to implement into your day to day life. Iunno, perhaps as I am writing this I might focus a bit too much on the rules, but not so much on the goal or the "stable state?"
Anyway I think I have alot of rules. Rules within rules, etc. Weird starting points into the essence of my character. "I just know I LIKE this, I Like doing this,
I think this is good, I think this is bad, etc." love/hate. Some rules are good some are bad. I use these rules when I meditate at some subconscious level and just decide what I am going to do that very day and just try to do it the best I can possibly do it.
For example:
The Korean-Rule : Never go busto! Koreans frown upon gambling, especially if you lose. My dad gave me alot of shit a few years ago because poker to him was absolutely unacceptable. Anyway this is probably a huge influence for me not just like going crazy with shot taking, being a life nit, etc. For me I had to balance my Korean-Rule with my love of the game of poker. I mean if I am a losing player, or just not making xyz a year this rule just kind of hovers over you like a ghost. If I ever go busto this rule would be like a kettle of boiling water!
Some Rules I guess are just a consequence of variance, but nonetheless etched into you as a person. For example the past, people you have met, things that have happened. I think some rules you draw inspiration from philosophy, literature. You may browse, see what you like, etc. There's some moment for me...I LIKE exisentialism...Sartre says..So for me...I will do this, that, shape my life this way, that, etc. Some rules are useless.I have spent probably past 5 years thinking of what my GTO Pet strategy is, what type of pet how to name it, etc countless of countless times to no avail. I have no pets. I have no plants.
Furthermore, rules can be general like those I mentioned above or more specific. My game selecting algorithm has looked like the following of late.
1. Start the day trying to play my honey-pot player at 10/20. LOGIC - daytimes aren't the best times for game selection. However you can rely
on said player for consistent routine and action. Furthermore, athletes like Kobe Bryant, Reggie Miller, etc are the first ones in the gym before the game/after the game. Before they start playing a game, there is shoot-around, warm-up, etc. Why should poker be any different? Starting out at lower stakes as a warm-up might be a good idea, especially for players that seem to start sessions with losses. You need to put in alot of hours. Early bird gets the worm. Night times are best and you give yourself till the night time to play the bigger games and by starting early you can potentially play more.
CONDITION
--Either I am UP alot BEFORE the honey-pot player leaves around 1pm, or I am up decently, up alot, breakeven, down, down alot when honey-pot player leaves.
2. Alot of the times starting out I would hit and run essentially based on Condition. Avoided 20/40 completely for awhile until past month or so. Also, moreso than not,
my tendency has been to play 20/40 kind of to get unstuck? I mean that is kind of meh because of my logic for playing 10/20 in the first place. Furthermore when I have lost
a bit of money and I'm not on tilt it kind of gives me some competetive fire to play some bigger games.
But anyway yeah, the 20/40s have almost entirely when I am either Breakeven State of Down State at my 10/20 game. Furthermore, I play longer when stuck as opposed to unstuck.Today, I was stuck alot at 10/20, my fun-player left the game. I looked for a 20/40 at some point but there were no seats and the 40/80 lineup looked OK so I bumped it up, and was unstuck and it was pretty fun playing.
Not sure how good of a habit this is! It has been translating into a high % of sessions won, an upwards trending graph, but what happens when I take a huge loss at 20/40 40/80?!
(Graph is filtered out nolimit, which I lost a bit at, so all limit games mostly all Limit Holdem).
Anyway liferoll has been assisted lately by a nice check from the insurance company (property damage), some moderate winning at poker, and just putting in autopilot hours on uber when I had time, though I haven't done it the past week and am kinda feeling bearish about it overall. There's also a chance I win a nice check for personal injury so there's that. One time! On another note I have made small deposits on both lending club and prosper. If I am playing a really nitty bankroll game I shouldn't have so much of my funds in cash holdings which makes sense. I had the idea actually sometime last year and I had shopped around CD rates and Treasury EE Bonds, stuff like that but interest rates were obv so so low so I didn't think it made any sense. It seems LC and Prosper carry more risk, and I am still weighing what that risk would look like in an economic downturn.
I think I am a investing fish at the moment I put some money on tradeking but I don't think I have enough experience. For example the start of 2016 I was freaking out. Also the shit I had contributed to my IRA lifetime has not been dollar cost averaged and I don't think it's a GTO approach and I haven't really gotten in particularly good at all from an exploitative perspective or anything. As someone who entered the markets POST 2008 crash (I had no money back then) I have never experienced a true bear, etc I think there are many dangers with that. So for many reasons this is something I think about alot alot and I am starting at a big disadvantage somewhat kind of like poker starting out post boom/black friday crash. I plan on making a trip back to NJ sometime this year, not sure when. I'd like to meet-up with perhaps a few of my old buddies that work/worked in finance and perhaps gain an ear or two on a more seasoned approach to long-term value investing.
Anyway, that's it for now. Overall I think next month I'll try to grow the bankroll somehow, doesn't have to be specifically poker or it might be. TBH I wouldn't mind dealing the wsop or something I just don't care for now I just want to make monies.
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