http://rikd.liquidpoker.net en-us Fri, 17 Apr 2026 03:06:51 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177575 RiKD I found this game Poker Arena on GTO Wizard and I've been playing this damn game. It's a HU SNG where you start with 25 bbs and blinds go up every 4 hands. The UI and UX is pretty good. The structure obviously is not. It has still been kind of fun. I would rather at least 2 table 200bbs deep but I don't know where I can do that anywhere besides playing the AI on GTO Wizard and I don't really wa... Fri, 17 Apr 2026 03:06:51 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177575 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177571 RiKD It's been awhile. I'm slowly sipping on some Gatorade because I have been getting over a gnarly stomach bug. I have no energy. I slept all day. I didn't go to work. Kind of a shitty day. It's been same ole same ole here for the most part. I've got the job that doesn't pay enough money. I try to get up to some stuff when I'm not working but it's mostly the tried and true walking the dog, read... Sat, 21 Mar 2026 00:42:43 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177571 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177551 RiKD https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R2_Mn-qRKjA We have drifted into a new season: Fall. I have employment. I feel like Bojack running up the hill. I ate a bunch of food when I got home tonight. The only thing I want to do these days is read Roberto Boloña. I have to let that food settle for a bit. I have to let my thoughts settle for a bit. I didn't eat so much food that it was straight up... Thu, 02 Oct 2025 04:14:19 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177551 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177544 RiKD I am just going to share where I am at. The most gangster thing I could have done would have been to never post again. My parents went on a cruise for 3 weeks and I am alone. The only time I have left the house was to get groceries and medications. I thought this would be a time of great creativity. There is this idea that solitude breeds creative output. Unfortunately, that is not the case... Thu, 28 Aug 2025 19:59:23 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177544 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177538 RiKD We are a simulated blur. We are tomorrow's dust. I am waiting for a friend to call me back and rifled through a whole bunch of stuff but then I found myself here again. I can only imagine how much time I have spent on this blog. It feels kind of right, right now. I am staying at my brother's house again. My mom has vertigo and my dad is operating on a bad back and two bad knees. They are gettin... Tue, 01 Jul 2025 03:26:04 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177538 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177513 RiKD I'm deep in theory. What a magical time. I am about half way through [i]Mythologies[/i] by Roland Barthes. Then, I have [i]The Medium is the Massage[/i] by McLuhan, [i]Elements of Semiology[/i] by Barthes, and [i]Society of the Spectacle[/i] by Debord up next but no one gives a shit. That is really what this blog post is about. How no one gives a shit. Being an autodidact is a very solitary ... Mon, 21 Apr 2025 04:52:44 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177513 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177508 RiKD It is normal for people to have anxiety about death. Libido and fear of death are two massive motivations. Sometimes they are unconcsious motivations. Marketers mess with our ability to know what we need and what will be satisfying. They tamper with our imagination as the result of the void. It shows up in weird ways. We fill the void with imagination and consumption. Imagination in the creatio... Sun, 30 Mar 2025 18:57:03 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177508 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177505 RiKD Balam Acab, xxyyxx, KAYTRANADA, Portishead "He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man." - Samuel Johnson A beast with f body dysmorophia. I've been watching IFBB pros train on YouTube. They all have body dysmorphia. They all wear "pump covers" to hide their muscles until they feel they are pumped up enough. How much is enough? I don't fee... Thu, 13 Mar 2025 01:12:00 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177505 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177503 RiKD How could I kill myself today? Spring is blooming. Mon, 03 Mar 2025 19:59:20 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177503 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177500 RiKD Something that I might have missed on the PC or Switch? Sat, 22 Feb 2025 01:53:13 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177500 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177497 RiKD I come on here because I am desperate: Desperate for attention, desperate for connection, desperate for a change in mood. I get anxious, I feel empty, I am frantic for more experience. The list of things that work is really not that long and they may or may not end up working. I've got Aphex Twin going in really expensive headphones. It's really the best way to listen to him and I have the Stei... Thu, 23 Jan 2025 02:46:44 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177497 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177495 RiKD The New Year and no one is here. Probably a good thing right? The New Year is ripe for a fresh start eh? New year, new day, new moment! And I am here typing up a blog on a dead ass website but I want to chill out a little bit and listen to music. I'm finally home. I can get cleaned up a bit and GET AFTER IT in the gym! Do some deadlifts, some Bulgarian Split Squats, and go heavy on... Tue, 07 Jan 2025 04:18:01 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177495 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177494 RiKD I read a stat the other day that among Gen Z males, suicide is up 40%. Among Gen Z females it is up 56%. I can feel it. I try not to feel it so much for my own mental health but the truth shall set you free. Why are so many people committing suicide these days, how can I avoid it myself and how can I potentially help others? I guess that is a potentially dark start. It's so crazy how all of ... Wed, 01 Jan 2025 03:59:47 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177494 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177479 RiKD Happy Holidays (Merry Christmas)! I'm not really sure what I am going to get into tonight. That means in general about what I am going to do tonight before I go to sleep and in the more specific as in what this blog is going to be about. I went to a Christmas concert tonight that was pretty good. It was a string quintet playing all sorts of songs like Vivaldi - Winter and Bach to old scho... Sun, 15 Dec 2024 05:25:44 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177479 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177441 RiKD I had the thought my blog always ends up being about me. Not always. Those are probably my best blog posts. The biggest reason it always ends up being about me is I don't think I'm skilled enough to put out serious essays especially with sources and notes and such. I used to do this in academia but I got a degree and never went back. I'm more of a consumer (reading) than a producer (meaningful ... Thu, 22 Aug 2024 01:17:43 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177441 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177416 RiKD Well, lostaccount wanted an update and I can't sleep at the moment so here WE GOOOOOO!: My bank account is dwindling and dwindling. I'm starting to drive further and further. My haircut looks like I have been out of work for 9 months (I have). I want to get a haircut that looks like I am running for office. I am thinking short on the sides and back and then going with a sidepart or a slickba... Tue, 23 Jul 2024 05:11:41 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177416 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177413 RiKD Any idea the best way to get money off of ACR? They are asking for all sorts of identification, proof of this, proof of that. I just want my headache to be as small as possible. Fri, 05 Jul 2024 21:39:26 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177413 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177408 RiKD I forgot how to meditate and I can't go back to Y Bikkhu. Hello, hello, hello, is there anybody out there? Mon, 01 Jul 2024 00:13:22 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177408 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177407 RiKD I just hold on to stuff ya know? I got to get some of it out ya know? If I'm going to have any shot at recovery. I have to start with poker because this road to mastery makes me feel alive. Of course there is the gambling too. That plays a part in ALIVE! But, many of the times I play recently my hands shake uncontrollably. Imagine you get QQ and you go to raise and your hand is not cooperati... Mon, 17 Jun 2024 04:31:17 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177407 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177399 RiKD I have been going through some bizarre mental illness or neurology problem. I get the shakes sometimes. Sometimes the shakes get out of control. It happens when I play poker too which is the last of my worries because it happened to me while driving and now I don't have any confidence in driving. I feel like I am pretty fucked. And in relation to poker it was like I finally got the AC fixed, I ... Sat, 08 Jun 2024 02:31:57 +0000 https://www.liquidpoker.net/blog/viewblog.php?id=1177399