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I don't think I love my literal neighbors. They are kind of lame. I probably love a stranger from Gaza more. I remember I used to come home drunk and sing Pavarotti at 2am at this one apartment and no one complained. That is love for the wretched not love our neighbor. It is easier to love if you know nothing or everything.

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Whatever will be, will be.

I'm still writing my novel. Up to 80 some pages. I still feel a bit blocked. It's like what I've added some of it is decent and some of it moves the story but a lot of it could probably be cut and it wouldn't matter too much. I'm still stuck on where the story is going and how to finish it. I keep going just figuring I'll figure it out but the writing is ok but I'm not figuring it out yet. People tell me to keep writing which I do but I have to reel it in at some point and tell a good story and end it well. Maybe I should just say fuck the reader and write whatever I want. End the book abruptly with nuclear acopalypse. Que sera, sera. Whatever will be, will be.

I went back to my MacBook Pro today from 2009. 15 years old and it still works. Although it's operating system is too old to run barely anything. It does have a working Notes (word processor). I prefer Notes to anything Windows has to offer. I am thinking of transferring my desktop to Linux. Be that kind of nerd. I was a Firefox / DuckDuckGo nerd on my MacBook Pro.

I'm flourishing in a flourish of Byung-Chul Han. The Compulsion Of Authenticity from The Disapearrance of Rituals has to be one of the better chapters he has written.

It really is que sera, sera though. Whatever will be, will be. Makes me want to read Seneca vs. Jesus. Marcus Aurelius Meditations vs any other religious crap. Sometimes things feel overwhelming. It would be nice to believe in faith. Life is not that simple.

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If you build it they will come they say. If I could just figure out The Entertainment I could get people to come to my blog and have high replies and viewership. Although the true Entertainment is so entertaining that people die of dehdration consuming The Entertainment.

Who is there to reply and view? This site certainly is not growing and never will again.

Why don't I stop this and write a novel? Well, novels are bloody difficult to write. I'm not sure I have it in me. I should probably just plan to be white trash at this point. Shoot guns, jerk off to porn, be ignorant. That's way less difficult than writing a novel. I already practice the guitar. I need a studio to paint, blah blah blah. I'm frustrated over here ya know?

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