Bought a new computer (had a shitty one before) and now i can actually have some nice graphics in games
Just a screenshot i took few minutes ago playing skyrim maxed out with a few mods
1680x1050 (still have old monitor) SSAA 16xAF everything max
Oficial HD texture pack
Tree texture pack mods
Water highres mods
Cinematic lighting ENB
Realistic Lightnig overhaul
Looks pretty nice
OFC i am aware u can make skyrim even prettier by using more mods.
Still it struck me that after a long stagnation in Computer games graphics from early 2007 on finally in last year computer games graphics have improved a lot.
Also still pretty mindblowing to how games graphics have improved since the time we started playing.
Some stuff about my current life (If you are not interested skip to the part that says Vemma...)
In the last months my life finally has gone pretty much the way parents always tell you how a life of an adult should look like when you are a kid
I currently work two enjoyable jobs part time
1.)I am selling office products (office chairs,computers, other electronics ,furniture etc. )for a big company to other companies who did ask for offers. I do that as a part time job 5-6h a day from monday to friday.
2.) I am working as a fitness and health coach 3times a week doing my own small business whenever I have free time.
Job 1 is more relaxed then your typical sales job since I get enough fixed money + some very small commission percentage. (opposed to small fixed money and big commission percentage in stressful sales jobs)
Also the fact that the company only sales quality products to other companies that did a request makes it a lot easier.
There is a giant difference between "annoying the shit out of potential customers -> persuading a 50year old women to buy shitty dog food for 40-60$ on the telephone" and trying to sell a product like a good office chair to a company that has called us 2 days ago and asked what we have to offer concerning office chairs since they need ~20 of them.
I haven’t been very active in MMA for almost 3 years now...
I still train occasionally
Have been living together with my Girlfriend for almost 2 1/2 years now
I am 28years of age.
So overall I am living a pretty enjoyable but non baller life right now.
go to bed 11pm
wake up 7am.
eat 3-4 healthy meals a day
Go to work ~ 42h a week
earn enough money to have a good time (nothing spectacular though)
Live together with the same girlfriend
Do Sports in my free time(but nothing excessive)
All my life I had that urge in me to be different.
To do stuff others don’t dare.
To play high risk and win big.
The urge to succeed big or die trying.
That’s why I did choose mostly extreme ways to spend my time in the past.
Doing drugs, making music , fighting MMA, playing Poker as main income for some time etc.
I felt like there is absolutely no way i can be happy living a normal life.
Either total failure or total success. No in between for me.
Ironic , that i now finally did find some inner peace by just being "normal" and "boring"
Which brings us to Vemma
Vemma currently seems to expand big towards Germany and my facebook is spammed big by all kind of different people who try to make money from their energy drink product Verve.
I must admit marketing wise Vemma has done a pretty good job.
They have tons of marketing videos that repeat key-sentences over and over again so that after watching them often enough it makes you want to buy their products.
It reminds me a lot of the pokerboom in 2007 where pokerstrategy ,cardrunners , Partypoker and pokerstars did tell you over and over again that everyone can make a shitload out of money from poker. 100$ as sustainable hourly income was reachable for everyone.
And after seeing enough people succeeding short-term (well you only saw the upswings and never saw the downswings ^^) everyone played poker trying to make thousands a month.
It’s kinda the same with Vemma.
They do sell an energy drink called Verve.
The idea is that you buy a Unit of X energy drinks from Vemma and then resell them to other people.
Since you won’t make a lot of money on that reselling part alone (if at all) Vemma does offer you additional bonus money in case you get other people to buying and reselling their energy drink, too
The more people you get into buying and reselling Verve energy drink the greater Bonus Vemma will give to you.
If u get enough guys into buying and reselling at one point they will offer you financial assistance in leasing a brand new BMW
Their main target audience are guys from 18-50 years of age who so far in life have failed in making a decent living.
To put it in a nutshell their main slogan is like:
You are broke as fuck , have failed in life and don’t know how to make any money ?
Now is your time to become filthy rich. We believe in you , you can do it ! Just go for it !
You don’t even have to succeed on your own. We will make you succeed !
And look at that nice car there ! It’s almost yours !
Well from a legal point of view their is not much you can argue.
Vemma is selling you energy drinks and you can resell them. Totally legal
They offer you bonus in case u get them new customers who also want to resell energy drinks. totally legal , too
The really filthy thing in this is that they play with losers dreams about finally not being a loser anymore.
I have watched a lot of their videos (since its spammed on my facebook) and what they repeat over and over again is
1.) You can do this and become rich ! Look at how rich these guys are who signed with us
2.) We will always help you so it can’t go wrong ! look at these guys who made it with our help.
3.) Our Products are so insanely good and healthy ! and look at that sick car they guy who sells them drives
4.) Sign with us and become a winner in life. And look at that brand new BMW that can be yours
Also it’s very important to spam your messages everywhere.
Get a Message out enough times and some idiot will believe it like religion
>-<
Well at least I get some good Ideas from their Videos how to do marketing right
Gonna need it in case I ever decide to expand on my fitness and health business ^^
Okay
I am telling you a story that is 100% true despite being hard to believe.
Its a really crazy story.
Long read but really lolz if you are into MMA
It all began in 2006 when a little guy (me) joined a Kyokushin Karate club because he wanted to learn how to kick butt.
At the Karate Dojo was a big Guy who had fought many successful local tournaments.
This guy was 117kg and 195cm and allthough he was a really good kickboxer had had grown interest in MMA.
He had pirated some Bas Rutten Instructional DVDs on the net and asked some of the other Karate Guys if they had any interest in practicing some MMA with him and learning ground fighting.
besides me some other guys applied and besides kyokushin which was our main practice we started to learn some Groundfighting moves from Dvds of Bas rutten.
1-2 times a weak after Training whe stayed and practiced basic stuff like RnC , Kimura etc.
IN 2007 after 1 year of practice our group was eager to test in competition if what we did learn so far was any good.
We were Full contact karate fighters but since we knew about the power of BJJ and Wrestling in MMA we did not dare to fight in MMA competition yet.
So in 2007 we as a group applied to many mixed fight events.
These were Events with MMA like rules but without MMA fighters.
The big Guy who started the Group was called Panda.
Then whe had a pole in our group that we named Braindamage
Then there was a greek to which we simply referred as the greek
and then there was me. Everybody used to call me apefist
So we were 4 karate guys with skills from selftough bas rutten Dvds that competed in many mixed fight events.
And boy did we beat on this Wing Chun/karate/Allstyle and Taekwondo guys
haha
The Panda went 5-0 in his first year
The Greek went 4-0
I went 3-0
and the pole went 2-0
The Events where this took place were called "FAC"
It was not MMA ! It were MMA rules with a helmet against Karate,Wing chun,Taekwondo and Japanese Jiu Jitsu guys
Since we went 14-0 in our first year the Big Panda asked the other guys if we may take stuff a little more serious and do less Kyokushin but more MMA training so that one day we might compete in real MMA.
And so we did.
The Panda from there one did concentrate on coordinating our training sessions while the other guys allready realized that bas rutten alone ist not enough.
I joined a BJJ school
The greek downloaded 80GB of MMA instructionals
and the Pole stopped training after some injuries
However we got a new addition in a young tunese guy who had seen us fighting at FAC and wanted to join. (This guy since 2012 is a professional fighter now
So we trained and everyone did try to get new input and bring our grind fighting skills from bullshit level to more serious level.
In 2008 the greek had his first MMA fight.
He lost by submission in the first round and after that left our group.
2 guys from our group however
Me and the tunese guy did very well though.
We had some MMA fights and destroyed our opposition left and right.
Mainly because we were very athletic for our weight classes + fast learners
The Big Panda had not much influence in that but since he started the group at events he would be there as our choach and quickly he gained some local reputation as being a good coach since his boys won MMA fights. (LOL)
Due to our success some other guys joined our group and we soon made our departure from the karate dojo official and declared our own MMA gym.
In 2010 we had a new height in success.
I won the FFA New talents show and my tunese friend won some major fights at Outsider cups and Respect FC.
Additional to that some of the new fighters who had joined us made their MMA debuts and won their fights.
We also got a new Coach who was one of Germans best MMA fighters in the past and did fight some international events.
He fought Jonas Billstein (Bellator) and also participated in a Tournament with Eduardo Rocha (UFC)
IN all that fights the Panda who started the Group was there as a coach.
And since we had lots of success he gained some reputation that he must be a good trainer.
Truth is that he is a good organizer and his main work was getting us fights and organizing our training/ camps.
From a technical aspect he was in many aspects much worse than we guys.
nevertheless props to him.
he did a fantastic job at getting us good training camps and great fights.
And he was/is our friend.
he put a lot of effort into our careers without getting any money for that.
Only thing to remember is that during that time he was always an organizer and not a fighter
He had fought lots of kyokusin fights but never any MMA fight.
Concerning my MMA career the story ends hier since i got sick and injured too much and only had 1 fight after that... and havent fought in quite some time. I concentrated on coaching the other guys.
We meanwhile had grown as a gym and probably had about 70-members with ~ 15 MMA fighters.
Our Tunese guy got a training camp organized with Peter Sobotta (former UFC) and his skill exploded.
After that Panda organized a camp in San Diego for him and Tunese guy got insanely good.
he got so good that after only 1 month Dean Lister himself gave him a blue belt in BJJ since he had tapped many brownbelts in the gym in San Diego.
Success of the other guys however got a little stuck.
We basically had no real trainer and were mostly selftought from DVDs and experimenting.
So we had a lot of fights ...
we won some we lost some...
overall progress was marginal.
But when our tunese guy came back from 1 month San Diego with Dean Lister and Jake Shields he was a monster.
He won many big fights in Germany and also became the superior FC Campion.
Panda who originally started the group meanwhile had made many contacts in the german MMA sceene.
I dont know how he does it but he basically got to make friends with everyone who was important in the German MMA sceene.
Our Tuneese guy got a pro contract !
meanwhile another Pro MMA guy had joined our Gym.
In 2012 we got voted 5th best MMA gym in Germany by the biggest German MMA magazine since we had 2 sucessful pros and lots of amateur fighters + some fighters who had won many amateur fights in the past.
The thing was that in my honest opinion allthough we had made some big progress compared to were we started we were far away from being as good as others thought we were :
basically we had 1 really really good pro fighter (the tunese)
A medicore heavy weight pro fighter (heavy weight competition in germany is a joke)
Than we had an ex pro fighter who was the guy who joined us as a coach midway through this journey. Guy is retired as a fighter
Then we had me who had won many fights but was basically retired, too
besides that we had like 10 guys who were 1-0 or 2-1 or 1-2 against local soft competition.
So we were okayish but nothing special.
And most important we were basically 99% self tought from DVds and try and error sparring.
Panda managed to give us a reputation far beyond what we really were.
But in early 2013 it become really crazy.
He listed his FAC fights as MMA fights on sherdog (lol wtf)
he told everyone that he was the main sparrig partner of Semmy Shielt in the past years (Me and him visited Semmy shielt for 1 weak on a seminar and he sparred a bit with him....1 year later he (without me) visited semmy again and did some 1 weak sparring thats about it. We took many pictures though which probably came in handy)
He told everyone that he had many mma fights before sherdog ranking.
Also when asked why he didnt fight from 2008-2013 he said that he had health problems and was busy managing the carrers of his fightes.
The later one is kinda true to some extent. And he had some health problems for ~4 months ... but besides that he was simply to lazy too train his ass off ^^
There was a reason we called him Panda.
Some week ago we got a call that
Jeff Monson and Magomed Malikov are both out of M-1 Global Grand Prix and they need someone to fight against Nikita Krylov.
The management of our tunese guy is also best friends with the Panda and i am not sure if they believe all the stuff he made up or if the simply dont care
But fact ist.
Our Panda who never had an MMA fight
Who mainly was a "coach" and organizier
Who had not fought since 2008 (mixfight and kyokushin)
Who doesnt really train MMA and therefore has stamina for ~100seconds.
whos grappling skills are mainly from Bas rutten DVds of late 2002 or something
Was to fight Nikita Krylov at M-1 Global Heavy weight Grand prix in front of 15.000 people (and Fedor himself) today.
Lol
I have really mixed feelings bout this.
First of all i have to pull my heat of to him for being such a crazy motherfucker and fooling so many people
he made his dream come true.
second of all i still cant believe this really happend.
but it did
He stepped into the Octagonring thingy today
he had his first MMA fight
And he did good considering it was his first fight.
Ofc he lost
ofc he dindt have stamina for even 1 round.
I am not sure how he will react in case he ever finds out i did write this here.
But i only tell the fucking truth.
Weather he will laugh at it and we will drink some beers with me or weather he releases me as a trainer from his gym.
I dont fucking care.
I had to share.
Its the crazy guys that make their dreams come true when others say you cant
I have watched porn for ~ 13 years now and recently i have noticed a sigificant increase in acted "rape" porn.
I think in the first 10 years of watching porn i have never seen a "rape" porn
I havent really watched one to the end till today since i am completely and utterly turned off and find it absolutely disgusting.
But fact is recently the chance you come across one of those is pretty high.
The last 6 months alone i came across 4 of those movies without even searching for them.
Even big companies like Brazzers and Asstraffic and stuff seem to make them nowadays.
WTF is wrong with people ?
WTF are those pornstars both male and females thinking when they agree to act in such a porn film ?
Wtf is wrong with people to wank of seeing 2 males break into a house and brutally raping a girl there.
These movies suggest to wired and sick minds that it is a fun and pleassure experience to break in someones house and rape him.
Most of the movies suggest its fun for the girl , too since first she resists and punches and stuff and then after a while of getting fucked in the ass hard enough she starts to enjoy ...
Once more i am completely disgusted by humans and their willingness to do everything for money.
I bet 5 out of 10 people would agree to rape a 4year old child in the ass for 150.000$ if they are save of not getting caught.
This makes me sick.
Well there is nothing i can change about it
And thats just the way humans are.
Still i had to write this since i have a shitload of anger towards
a) pornstars who agree to play in this movies
b) Guys who wank of to rape movies.
c) Guys who actually do this stuff in real life
As most of you guys , too i have been a computer nerd all my life.
When i was a kid i played Doom,Wolfenstein,GrandPrix2, Indy Car racing, Fifa95, MOrtal KOmbat 1, Need for speed1-2, Command and Conquer
When i was a teenager i played Half Life, Warcraft2 , Quake , UT99, Need for speed 3-5, Baldurs Gate, Fifa 97-2000
Later when i was a young adult (19-21) i mainly played Starcraft1 and Diablo2LOD
Laters i played ~3 years of Poker ... some WC3 ... some SC2 .. Some Counterstrike some Elder Scrolls
recently i have played 300h of Diablo3 (since release in may) and some CS:Go (70h)
I also tried the new Hitman a bit ... but it simply doesnt work for me...
I loved Silent Assasin (Hitman 2) and neither Blood Money nor Hitman Absolution do come even close in my eyes
Playing an average of 2-3h of Computer games every day has been a part of my life since i was 8-9years old.
So i have around 18years of gaming history
I am almost 28years of age nowadays and somehow these new computer games just dont do it for me. Cant help but somehow they all suck ....
SC2 Sucks , Diablo3 sucks ... Skyrim was okayish but far from really good .. CS:GO is average/sucks,too
At the same time i am have had enough of this old computer games that i am not motivated to go into them again.
SO while
SC1> Sc2
D2LOD>D3
Oblivion>SKyrim
CS1.6 > CS:Go
Hitman SA > all other Hitman
I have played these oldies so much over the years that i simply feel done with them.
Maybe at the age of 27years i finally manage to quit computergames ?
I played some CS:Go 1h ago and quit after the aiming made me feel puke again.
However i dont want to play 1.6 anymore since it just looks so fucking ugly and i feel so done with it.
Kinda same with many other new games like Diablo3 and Sc2
Thats when i had this brief thought of my nerd era finally comming to an end.
Lol just because i read NeillyFT 1050 thread
and the talk about God, i wanna share one of the sickes things that happend in my life.
True Story !
As some of you who did read my blog in the past may know i have this hyper christian parents.
I myself have hated religion from the depths of my heart since i experienced how much harm it did to my childhood and my parents.
For example there was this one christian healer who declared my mother healed from high blood preassure by the power of jesus christ.
She then threw her medicamentation away and had a heart attack few days after .... /thank god she is fine again)
You can probably realize that its quite a heavy burden when you love your parents
they live only like 1h aways from me but u can never be sure what stupid shit they gonna do next du to religion.
So since i couldnt stand the fear of losing them i one day decided to go to a healing jesus worship event with them in germany.
I took my GF with me and told her that i would end this shit if these guys would ever harm any people again with their lies.
Plan was I would littery walk up to the guy telling all this bullshit and punch him in the stomach then say that if he really does christs will Jesus would protect him and then i would KO him.
Since i am an MMA fighter chances of anyone stopping me from doing this in a church lol would be close to non existent
So i sat there with my gf and the event began. It was pretty boring and not really spectacular
nothing amazing happend , noone got healed and to me it was just a bunch of whine sissies who needed a God to justify their own weakness.
So we were about to go and then i heard a voice laughing out of my stomach (I could watch it like 3rd person)and felt i lose control over my body. Feeling i am not really in my body anymore and hearing that laughing voices out of my stomach ??? i realized i should jump away from my GF as far as i can since i love her and had the feeling something terrible will happen. I jumped and then passed out.
I woke up
My dad was crying , my mother was crying my girfriend was crying there was a big circle around me and people were praying.
I was like wtf is this shit ?
But my Girfriend and my parents could hardly speak. They were shocked and crying.
My GF couldnt sleep for weeks after that happening.
I dont remeber anything since obviously i passed out.
But later people told me that they have never in their life seen someone screaming in such a way that u could feel the unbearable amount of pain this person suffers.
My GF later told me that it looked like i was sliced by knifes from the inside and got tourterd for minutes while lying on the ground and screaming.
Well people came to me from all Ends cause they were all shocked and they asked me if they could help me and what horrors i must have seen and bla.
Well i was pretty annoyed since i didnt even have any clue what happend at all.
But i was worried that something might be wrong with my brain(tumor maybe ?) and so i made a complete medical check.
Since i am an MMA fighter i had access to a variety of testing methods for Heart and brain.
2 Weeks after the check was done and i was in perfect shape and doctors would give me an okay for an upcomming fight. ( Obviously i didnt tell them what happend....)
Yeha i was pretty confused from the whole situation.
Dont know wtf that was. And worsed thing is that everybody saw it but i didnt
wished someone had taped it on phone....
Well few weeks later my GF still shocked (Since she saw the picture every night in her dreams) she was down emotionally.
She was not how to deal with what happend. She kinda got depressed a bit and started crying a lot and i got annoyed with that.
I mean what can u do when your GF is shocked by an event u did when u werent even "awake" while it happend.
And more as a joke i said:
God wtf can i do to make this right again ?
How can i help her what should i do
And than God/Jesus answered .... (lol yeha i know it sounds stupid but well it happend)
He said: Dont worry i have enough love for the both of you. Everything will be fine
Make yourself free from fear.
Thats all i want from you people.
Be free from your fears
So i think i am gonna quit the Dog food selling the next days.
Been working there for 2 month and made close to 2,5K € (3100 USD) net winnings within that time span.
It was easy money allthough i hardly can stand the boredom anymore.
I am not sure how you guys see it.
How long can you do a job were u basically do nothing but sit in front of your computer and talk the same commercial text 50-80 times a day for 7,5h a day in case u get 10$ to your bank account every hour that passes.
Its also important that u have no emotional connection to the product u are selling. (I dont care about dog food at all)
I somehow find this idea kinda interesting.
Basically its free money.
All u have to do is invest 7,5h time a day where you dont have any intellectual or physical challenge.
How long can u sit on a chair and do nothing when every hour that passes u are given 10$ ?
Moved to a new room this month so i didnt have any Internetz.
Also was kinda broke so i applied for a rl job
Got a job where i sell Dog Food on the telephone ...
Lol well its boring and kinda monotone.
But i am wondering that its pretty easy money compared to poker.
People are so fucking stupid.
Day runs like this
Hello this is Pplusad from XY
How would u like to have the best dog food availible on the market.
Customer: Well that sounds nice but i dont think u have what i am looking for
Me: Well Mister XY just give me 5 minutes to explain why our products have millions of satisfied customers
Customer: Well okay i ll give u five minutes but i dont think i will buy something on the telephone
Me: Do u agree that ...
Customer : yes
Me do u agree that (Ask obvious questions everybody agrees)
Customer : 3-4 times yes
Me: Okay , there u have it ! Our product is exactly what u are looking for.
Customer: well kinda but i am not keen on buying
Me : Why dont u give it a try ! Just this month our product is at an all time low (well lol all our products are at all time low T_T)
for just 75$, Give it a try and see what it will do good for you and your dog !
Do you agree that in case u never give something new a chance u will never get the best product available ?
Customer: all right okay i agree i will give it a try just this one time ...
bing ...
Lol its ridiculous
I sold dog food for 9000$ this month ... lol
Got paid 2300$ by the company for that, which after taxes will leave me with 1644$ net winnings
Rudi Assauer (67 years old) probably one of the most famous football club managers in germany has made it public that he suffers from heavy Alzheimers.
Its allready that bad that he is not allowed to drive a car anymore
He currently is taken care of by his family
He states that its so bad that he sometimes looks at players from Schalke04 whom he had close working contacts for years and now often needs several minutes to recognize their names again.
I find this pretty tragic
He had such a hard working and successfull life as Manager of Schalke 04
During his time they won UEFA CUP, DFB Pokal came close to winning the national title several times (never managed to win though)
he pretty much was the face of that football club
And now everything he achieved slowly fades away from his memory till in a few years he wont even know what Schalke04 means.
I formyself have always had a very modest goal in Life ....
When i am old I want to be able to look back at my life and say " hey u did pretty well on the fun part and lived a pretty happy life overall"
I find it cruel beyond imagination to be 67 years old having lived a pretty amazing and successfull life and when looking back all u realize is : "I dont know what i ve done and i will die without realizing that i ever lived."
To me this would be like fucking soulrape for eternity
++ got a new Girlfriend in May and we get along very well so far. <3 <3 <3
++ got rid of insane ex GF which almost ruined my life completely
++ stopped smoking cigarettes (Well after being a casual smoker (~ 4 cigarettes a day) for 11 years i finally managed to stopp that shit in 2011. From March to December 2011 i only smoked a total of ~ 15 cigarettes spread over 3 days ... besides that i was completely smoke free since March 2011.
o didnt play much poker in 2011
I improved my knowledge of the game a lot by reading all kinda theory stuff but besides march 2011 where i made ~ 1K USD grinding 30K hands i didnt feel like playing poker for most of the year.
strangley after the best month i had in quite some time i didnt feel any drive to continue playing.
played a bit every here and there .. lost like ~200$ after march till i decided to give myself another shot at poker in September
this time i tried HU SNgs but it didnt go too well ... after a whole month of grind i ended ~ + 200€ which was a joke compared to how much effort i did put in
only good thing was i binked 440$ at a Sunday Storm
after that dissapointing month i did another break till Late December.
deposited 60€ on Pokerstars ~ 10 days ago and started to play 6max
did go well untill today where i went on monkey tilt.
cashed out 146€ after spewing away 100$ in pf all in on NL100 HU T_T (that i enterd because i was breakeven on Nl10€ the last 2 days despite putting in solid hours and playing good)
I guess in whole 2011 i played around 60K hands and made 1,5K profits.
besides the fact that i never really was any good at poker i think i finally accepted that i am just not meant to be a poker player.
I will play every now and then whenever i feel like playing.
But i doubt 2012 would be so much different than 2011 in terms of poker
- - MMA
My MMA 2011 was a complete desaster
I was planning to do 3-4 fights 2011 and getting some sponsorship comming off from winning some smaller shows in Germany the
FAC SHow where i went 3-0 (Descison , 1stround KO, 1st round TKO)and FFA new Talents show 2011 by knocking out a Judo blackbelt in the first round i had pretty high expectations for 2011.
Year could not have been worse !
I only made 1 fight since i got sick or injured in every one of the 3 other prefight training camps ... (WTF)
The one fight i made was a desaster , too ..
it only lasted a few seconds and then i got cut over the inside of my eye and the ref stopped it ...
for anyone who is interested ... allthough its not worth watching it
So well good thing is its not possible to get any worse in 2012
