feed from venrae blog 2008-10-01T17:50:43+01:00 text/html 1970-01-01T00:00:00+01:00 venrae http://venrae.liquidpoker.net I really want to play and I really want to get good at this game, but it is taking forever. I beat nl2, had a roll of 250 and was ready to move onto nl10. That was 4 months ago, now I'm back grinding nl2 and running like garbage. Yeah I'm playing like shit and I know my leaks, but they don't consist of stacking off deep with marginal hands. My leaks cost me ~$2 a session, yet somehow I always manage to break even or down and quit after less than 1k hands. I'm sick of watching my premiums be destroyed. I know it will end and I'll get through it, I also know that I'm bad at this game and if I was better how I'm running wouldn't matter at these stakes. However, I suck at poker. I know how to beat nl2, I can play ABC poker decently, and I know I should be making ~$20 a day if I played as long as I'd like to after work. The only problem is I come home only to run into setup after setup after suckout. Yeah, some of my hands hold, unfortunately I have not had a hand hold for over half a buyin in the last two weeks. FML, I want to play this game and I want to be good at it, but right now I just don't have the drive to do it. text/html 1970-01-01T00:00:00+01:00 venrae http://venrae.liquidpoker.net [s]Marginal winnings[/s]Break Even feel like shit when you can't fucking win a showdown. text/html 1970-01-01T00:00:00+01:00 venrae http://venrae.liquidpoker.net I'm currently making $15/hr working inside with my dad. I do autoCAD. I sit in front of a desk for 7 hours a day. It's easy work and it's just the two of us so it's generally a pretty laid back atmosphere and it is enjoyable enough. However, this being my first year living on my own, I'm not exactly in the best shape of my life. The past three summers I've been working labor. Everyone there likes me and I'm almost positive if I were to go back I would be hired without any hesitation. The only problem is the last two years there I was making $10/hr. I would be working 6 days a week with probably around 45-50 hours a week and would be having to leave here at 6:30 instead of the 35 and leaving at 9:30 working with my dad. Yeah, it sounds like an obvious choice, omfg stay at your job now. The only problem is I feel like shit. Since leaving to be a waiter in September of last year (I made like 300 a day easy there) I have lost over 20lbs and am basically a skinny white kid. The last three summers I have been in fantastic shape. Not to mention I have a problem with acne on my shoulders, but sunlight has cured that for the last three summers. So now I'm really really considering going back to harder work and less pay to get myself back into the condition I have been for the last three summers. I think it would do wonders for my ego. Also, I'm going to college in the fall so I would be leaving both jobs around the end of August. UGH. IDK what to do. $5/hr doesn't seem like much, but when you go from $15 to $10 it seems like the world. |:(