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Hey beauties.
I have a tendency to be long winded. I'll try to do the opposite. Before I go on, props to spets for his beautiful contributions to the community.
So. I'm trying to get into the military. I'm applying for a highly demanded job (logistics officer), and I may have had a few minor brush ins with the law in the past. No convictions or anything, but the CSIS agents (ummm, CIA I guess for Canada?) track all that shit down. So that's gonna hurt my chances a bit. Or more than a bit. I'm living in a tiny city in Canada, told my bro I'd live with him for a year, so I can't bail and move out west - where all the money/jobs are. Time out, Break.
In December/January, I applied like a crazy bastard to allllll kinds of jobs in the greater city area. All I got were offers to sell credit cards and likewise shit things at grocery stores/walmarts. Fucking degrading. Spent 60k+ on a degree, graduated on the deans list, can't even get a fucking secretary job due to my work experience.
I'm sick and fucking tired of this poker life. All I'm doing is getting by. I want to pull ahead. I've been told by numerous people I should bullshit my way into my first job - aka, fake my resume/work experience.. I'm hesitant to do it, it just doesn't feel right. I have an uncle who owns a decent sized medi-vac business, and a couple friends who said they'd vouch, but I just feel funny doing it.
Anyways. I'll figure that shit out.
Started working out again. Used to be an elite athlete, I'm now a soft piece of fucking shit. Luckily the gym I joined (close by, cheap as balls) has a tiny ass weight room, was empty. Holy fuck it was self defeating trying to find what I can do for shoulder raise, simple bench, stand up curls.... fuck.... hahaha. For those of you that know, I settled at 30lb dumbbells for free bench. didn't even attempt incline or decline. ffffuuu. I look forward to the challenge, I know it comes back fast.
What else. Girlfriend and I of 4+ years broke up. Big hit, not gonna lie. I was a bad boyfriend. Luckily all of life is a learning experience.
Keeping in theme, I finally recognized the fact I have a drinking problem. It's my escape. It also makes me sweat ridiculously throughout the night, get hot/cold flashes (hello menopause), shit liquid permanently, have semi-fuzzy brain functionality, and all around fuck with my way of life. This is a tough one to overcome, but I'm slowly battling it.
Diet. I've lived off of sandwiches for basically the last ~4 years. With some other dietary nutrition thrown in here and there. I'm actively working on this. I'm in the midst of making some sort of 'plan' that I intend on posting in the diet thread on LP. I hope the gurus will bash my plan into smithereens, that's why it'll be posted.
As for poker? I've found, when I don't drink, I fucking rule. I know it's micros, but really. There's literally one dude who I dislike playing against. Sadly, I drink and get a foggy mind more often than I should. Fuck I want a real career, I lack the self discipline to ever become a real contender in this game we call vice.
Here I am.
long winded as fuck. I didn't really go into detail. I think I may have OCD hahaha.
Cheers LP
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mnj United States. May 21 2014 05:21. Posts 3848 | | |
really surprising how many of these stories i hear and how often it reflects my own experiences in college and post college/job seeking .
i dont really have any advice. it's fucking hard to break in and get started. i have to go to work soon, and have some thoughts that i don't want to organize. but you'll get through it. i know that sounds like complete blanket bullshit encouragement but it took me 4 additional years to figure out what the fuck i was doing in life/with my life. at the risk of sounding pathetic for taking so long, you want to be a car with its own motor. not with different people like ur mom and dad pushing you up a hill. once u develop your own motor you can at least lead life with conviction. |
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mnj United States. May 21 2014 05:22. Posts 3848 | | | |
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A shave and a suit and you'd be one good looking dude at an interview. Keep your head up and keep at it. I've heard of people submitting hundreds upon hundreds of resumes to get that one job. Volume may be your key here. Good luck!
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